so I have no patch on today ... I totally forgot it this morning ... I guess for a little while there I forgot I was ever a smoker ...


but now I am feeling woozy ... cloudy ... I am having trouble focusing my eyes ... and to be quite honest I am thinking of walking up to the corner to buy a pack of cigs ... 3 weeks ago I may have been ready to quit ... but today I am not ...


I don't feel myself right now

it is almost like being on drugs

but not fun at all


my head is all congested


I am so fucking confused