wow april 1st ... and i have no pranks to pull on anyone ... hummmmm ... well i did finally get in a better mood ... david and i helped my dad plant flowers all around the house ... they are going to look so beautiful ...

ahhhhhh i finally took the comments off my site ... there was no point to having them ... and seeing them there was bugging me ...


oh and ya know i have a new computer ... that came with a new keyboard ... and this damn thing doesn't have the 'home' or 'end' key ... i used these ALL the time ... it is making me nuts not having them ... how do they make a keyboard without these keys ... shit it is so stupid ... why do people change stuff that wasn't broken to begin with?????

i believe it to be a bad sign when everyone in your house is getting on your nerves ... well maybe my dad isn't yet ... but just give him time ... for some reason my mom is REALLY bugging me ... and david is bugging me too ...


and ya know david puts up a fight about going to starbucks all the time ... it is always a drag ... unless i am mad ... then he goes ... ya know what i don't like getting mad ... in fact i hate it and getting mad makes me mad ... but that is the only way he goes to starbucks without a fight ... for a year he didn't have a license ... and i always drove ... in fact i drove with him where ever he needed to go ... without any whining or fighting ... now he finally has a license ... i would think that at least for 6 months he would volunteer to do stuff ... seeing as i always had to ... but ya know that is guys for you ...


and i am just bored today ... there are no good movies on tv ... and i should be working on putting up some ebay auctions but i am not in the mood ... i still have like 5 duffel bags and 4 more crates of clothes to go through ... and i don't feel like doing that either ... i need to do laundry but my mom is using the washer ... so i keep walking up to the 3rd floor to put in laundry and she has another load in ... this time is it like 6 pairs of black socks ... she couldn't let me put in my darks with my dad's socks ... so i have to wait for another cycle ... i mean what is the deal with that ... it isn't like our clothes have cooties ... why wouldn't i be able to put my darks in the same load??????? that is just crazy!!!!


all i want is a clean pair of pj pants ... that is it ... then i will be comfortable ... and can get some work done ... but now it will be another hour from now before i can even put my first load in ... so we are looking at at least 2 hours before i have clothes ...

i know i live in maryland ... but i wanted KU to win tonight ... that is my alma mater ... and they are good enough to win ... but tonight they just didn't give it all they needed ... such a bummer ... i wanted Roy Williams to have at least one win under his belt ... i mean it has been 13 years ... he deserves it ... !!

oh my god ... tonight while taking a break from going through all my clothes and getting rid of most of them ... i found some game site and i have gone crazy playing games ... it is like i can't stop ... my hands are cramping up ... my eyes are all blurry ... and i still keep playing ... i am even having trouble typing this cause my hand is hardly working ... i don't even know if i will be able to go to sleep i am so wound up from playing ... shit i didn't know i was such a geek ... wait a minute i knew that ... hahahaaa


we have been selling everything we are putting on ebay ... it is amazing ... they know me now at the post office ... when i come in they ask what else i have sold ... it is pretty funny ... and we are making some serious cash ... ebay is just too cool ... it is like having a job but with work i like to do ... there is a big change from the fucked up company i used to work for ... and ya know i tried to post stuff about them on fuckedcompany.com ... but unfortunately fuckedcompany.com is hosted by my old company ... for free ... so they take anything down that is slanderous about their ISP ... hardly seems fair ... i mean it is supposed to be a forum for dotcoms that are going out of business ... or that are fucking over their employees ... yet they censor what goes up there ... just doesn't seem right ... cause i have posted some doozies and they are gone in like an hour ... it is like they are running a program that looks for the name of their ISP and alerts them to it ... so they can see if it is positive or negative ... bastards ...


ok it is time for bed ... david and i are making dinner tomorrow for my mom and dad ... my parents are going to see Mama Mia [which i would love to go see] tomorrow night and to make life a little less stressful i offered our services for dinner ... so we are making steak and corn and mashed potatos ... yummmmmm ... gonna be some good stuff ... and then david and i will have the house to ourselves for the night ...


and on wednesday ... they leave for almost 6 weeks ... woohoo ... i feel like i am in fucking high school and can't wait for my parents to go out of town ... instead of being 32 years old ...


wow we are talking major geek ... MAJOR ...

i've been playing Reversi online a lot lately ... and some people are such pussies ... i mean come on ... just cause they start to loose they leave the game ... ya know just now i played ... and the guy was kicking my ass ... i had only 2 stones on the board and he had like 16 ... but i kicked his ass in the end ... i had 50 stones and he had 14 ... cause i hung in there and played the rest of the game ...


i am getting so tired of putting up ebay auctions ... i get obsessive/compulsive with them and check to see if anything has sold like every 5 minutes ... but every time i look around i see more stuff i could be selling ... i mean we have made over 400 bucks ... it seems worth it to spend my time doing this ... i think i am going to go through these huge 30Gal. rubbermaid tubs i have of clothes and start selling the stuff ... i mean i have so many clothes i don't wear ... i know i have been loosing weight since we moved here but by the time most of it fits again ... it will be so out of style ... that i will want new clothes anyway ... so i think that is my next plan ... start selling off my old clothes ... i mean i have some really cute shit ... it just doesn't fit ... :(


well smoke time ... then off to more ebay auctions ... maybe i can get david to go see Panic Room with me today ... he does love Jodi Foster ... :)

i want to go to sleep so badly ... and david is in there playing the XBOX ... and i can't fall asleep when he is playing ... he moves all around on the bed and knocks into me ... damn i am so tired ... and if i stay up too long after i am tired i can't fall asleep ... i get a new wind ... and i can't think of any of the search stuff i wanted to look for on ebay ... i guess i will lay down on the couch ... but then i will wind up sleeping there ... and it isn't all that great ...

today David and I went to Price Club ... ack I mean CostCo [how after so long can I not learn to call it CostCo ... that in my head it is still Price Club?] ... anyway ... it was kind of a bust trip ... we had a list of things to get and I think we only found like one of them ... I was looking for the bulbs my dad needs to plant this weekend and they didn't have any ... oh I did find the gum my mom wanted ... but I think that was about it ...


we did get a carton of smokes which was so cheap in comparison to NY ...


right now while I am typing this all I can think about is having something sweet to eat ... and there isn't a thing in this house that is sweet ... and it is making me nuts ... I need to get some more jelly beans tomorrow ... something ...


right now we have 29 ebay auctions going on right now ... and a ton more stuff sitting here ready to go up but it just takes so long to set everything up ... that I just need a break for a while ... I hope some more of our stuff sells ... a computer David built sold for a lot today ... which made him so happy ... I am so glad it sold ... so glad ...


well I think I am going to cruise ebay and see if there is anything I want to buy ... hahahahaaaa

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so i am already on the quest to find something for david's birthday that he will really love ... which i have learned in the last year and a half that that isn't an easy task ... i always get him stuff that i think is a good idea ... and it turns out the present sucks ... tonight his brother said he would find the right kind of smooth wheels for davie's bike and let me know what they are ... so that i could get those for him ... i know he would like those so he can ride around here more ... but it still doesn't seem like what i want to get for him ... ya know i would rather just go out and buy them for him just for being such a great guy ...

I have been procrastinating all morning ... I have a TON of stuff to list on ebay and I am just feeling a bit burnt out ... even though I love going to see if anything has sold ... so I guess while the Brady Bunch and I Love Lucy are on ... I should be listing more stuff on ebay ... we have made a lot of money selling shit we were ready to throw out ...


I guess the saying is true ... 'one man's trash is another man's treasure' ... :)

oh I have this customer ... Larry ... with a New York drawl ... that doesn't use email ... i design his website yet he doesn't use the email ... so any time he needs me to change or update anything i have to print it all up and then go up two flights and fax him the changes ... i don't know why it is so annoying to me but it is ... it makes me nuts ... if he has a website that generates business he should learn how to check his email ... ack!!


and the worst thing ... he calls here at 8:15 in the morning ... i have told him at least 5 times that i work late into the night and i am not up that early ... but he continues to call soooooooooo early ... so now i am awake but tired ... buggers!!

today david and i went and saw the movie Showtime ... it was so funny ... i think we both needed a funny movie and it was perfect ... i probably would have laughed even more if there had been more than 6 people in the theater ... but my laugh was so loud i think i held back some ...

ya know when i need to go to bed but i am not quite ready to go to sleep i read people's blogs ... its fun to see what others write about ... but every blog i have gone to that has a *comments* section ... actually has comments ... so doesn't it just make it really pathetic on mine that there are no comments? ... do i not write anything worthy to comment on? ... is there no one reading my blog? ... i am thinking it is time to take that off the site ... i mean i do have my email address up ... if anyone ever really wanted to say anything they would write all the wanted to me in an email ... :)

I have been cranking out the ebay auctions like there is no tomorrow ... and we are making some good money from them ...


oh I started to write earlier but my mom came down and I just closed the window ... she didn't like the fact that I had a journal online years ago so I would rather her not know I still have one ... besides she liked to read what I was writing and that creeped me out ... she would refer to stuff in my journal when I was talking to her and that is just something I don't need ...


anyway I started writing earlier that I worked for the LAMEST company in the world ... oh my god they were/are horrible ... so since I was laid off I have been paying for Cobra insurance ... and when I fell and thought my leg was broken again I went to the hospital ... today I got my hospital bill in the mail saying I had no insurance at all so I needed to pay for it ... when I called my insurance company they said I didn't have any at all ... that it was never paid for ... when I explained that I have sent my check in every month since September they said the money actually went to _________________ (fill in the blank of my idiotic company) ... so I had to call the idiotic company and she said I was only paid through march 18th (which doesn't explain the hospital bill since that was at the beginning of march) ... I told the employee at the idiotic company that I show my cancelled check through April 19th and that I called the insurance company and they said they had no record of me ever getting insurance that you guys got the money and never sent it in ... she said she would look into it and call me back ... after 2 hours I still hadn't heard back (this is not a surprise) and called again ... and had to go through the whole story once again (which means she totally hadn't looked into it or written anything down) ... and she said she would look into it (deja vous) and get back to me ... so I guess again tomorrow morning I will have to call her back cause I didn't get a phone call back from her today (not a surprise) ...


I can't believe I actually worked hard for this company ... and that I didn't see they were a bunch of morons until I was gone ... I can't believe I ever got customers to host their websites with us ... how could they not see the incompetence? well I guess they did have me as their sales person and usually their tech as well ... 24 hours a day ... 7 days a week ...


ya know what I will never work that hard for someone else again ... for myself yes ... but not for someone else ... companies just use you till you are totally burnt out ... then they hire someone new at lesser pay and use them ... while they phase you out ...


at least I got unemployment ... and today I found out that I got the 13 week extension ... good thing since I don't have another job yet ... it is amazing how saturated the job market is with people looking for a job ... President Clinton sure left us in a mess didn't he?


I am so glad David and I moved home with my parents ... we would be in a hell of a mess if we were still living in NY ... in that shitty apartment ...


well I really should be getting in bed ... we have a plumber coming in the morning to check out shower ... it doesn't drain at all ... it is horrible and it has been like that since we moved into this house ... so it is about time we paid someone to come and look at it ... I mean you can only use so many bottles of Draino until you realize that isn't going to work ... besides I am sick of taking a shower in ankle deep water ... ick!!!

Tonight David, my parents and i went to The Olive Garden for dinner ... it was really good at the time ... but i think now that i am home the cream sauce was just a bit too thick for me ... cause i am feeling 'ick' right now ... big time ...


i didn't turn on the Oscars till the best supporting actor award and i am glad i didn't cause boy this thing is running late ... i do have it on tape so i can fast forward through all the shit stuff ...


so our ebay auctions are going pretty well ... i think we have made a good dent in the money needed for davie's new computer ...


i think i am going to go up to the kitchen and see if i can find something to eat that will settle my stomach ... :)

wow i haven't written in a while ... i have been so busy setting up ebay auctions ... so far we have made about $75 towards david's new computer ... only $675 to go ... wow that shouldn't take us more than a couple of weeks ... and by that time i bet he will want something else ... hahahahaaa ....


david has just informed me that he will never clean kramer's box ever again ... this is the first time in a year and a half he ever scooped it ... a couple of times he has dumped the whole thing but that is it ... he has also just informed me we will never have another cat ...


what happenes when we have a kid and he changes a diaper and hates it ... will we have to get rid of the kid?

David had the most beautiful roses sent to me for my birthday ...


it really turned out to be a great day ... we hung out ... got some more ebay auctions set up ... went out for coffee ... picked up California Pizza Kitchen for dinner ... it was a great 32nd birthday ... :)

Well it is officially my birthday ... now i was born at 10:06 AM EST ... but since it is midnight of the 21st of march ... I am 32 years old now ... yowza!!

so i am wondering why i even put the comment thing on the site ... there has only been one left and that was left by me when i was testing them ... hummmmmm

well i am TOTALLY loving the new computer ... not only is it sooooooooooo much faster ... and doesn't crash every 15 minutes ... but there are a handfull of games that you can play against other people online ... it totally rocks ... i think i am going to go play othello now ... :)

well I bought a new computer today ... a Sony Vaio ... David has diligently spent the evening working on transferring files ... and setting up the new system ... and I have been working for about an hour customizing everything ... but there is so much to do to get it back to where I need it ... but it is much too late to keep working ... so I think after this post I am off to bed ...


so far the new computer is sweet ... it is running XP which will take some getting used to ... but so far so good ... I have a full day ahead of me tomorrow ... and I am going out for tea with my mom ... some place here has tea every other Wednesday and she has wanted to go since she moved here ... so since my birthday is on Thursday she asked if we could go tomorrow ... so it is off to noon tea ... it will be fun ...


ya know it was so great having the money to buy a new computer when I needed one ... I don't know if I have ever been in that position before ... and having the money meant I could buy the one I wanted ... not what my parents wanted cause they were buying it ... another very nice thing ... cause I really liked this one and my dad wanted me to order one from gateway ... which I didn't have an interest in ... so for me it was awesome having the money ...


and David is such a sweetie ... he spent the day going to stores with me to look at different 'puters ... and then spent hours setting everything up ... boy I sure do love him ... he is just awesome ...


well I am totally tired now ... so I am for sure going to sleep ... I can work on setting up stuff tomorrow after tea while davie is studying ... :)

ya know i truly do love the quote generator in the top corner of this site ... it is so bitchen ... i just sat here right now for 20 minutes clicking on quotes and reading them ... and i am the one that put it together so i know all the quotes ... in fact almost any time i open my journal page it is to read quotes up there in the corner ... and just keep scrolling through them ... :) it is just so bitchen ... maybe today i'll add some new ones ... :)

i feel kind of bad ... i didn't talk to anyone who called tonight ... tracy didn't see me online at 9 so she didn't call like planned ... heather called and david answered the phone ... i was outside smoking and waved my arms *no* ... so i don't know what he told her but hung up ... and kris called but neither i nor david felt like picking up the phone ... i haven't even listened to the message she left ... i just wasn't in a social mood tonight ...


one weird thing though ... david was in a bad mood when he came home this afternoon ... and i tried to cheer him up to no avail ... but once i was in a bad mood ... he took over the roll of good mood and tried cheering me up ... weird ...

i found a site that had a bunch of fun tests on it ... like a Scooby-Doo one that i took and posted ... but the site was so jammed with pop up windows that you weren't allowed to closed that it crashed my computer [although i have been lamenting all night at what a piece of shit my computer is] that i removed the test because i don't want to subject anyone else to the hell ... bummer ...

i think david believes i am mostly in a bad mood cause of the scanner not working with my crappy computer ...


but i am mostly worried about he and i ... i have been in relationships before where the sex just seemed to stop ... that it was only done like out of courtesy ... i worry it just means that he would rather not be with me ... but circumstances make it too hard to break up ... i don't want anyone to be with me out of necessity ... i want it to be out of love and joy ...


it just has me so worried ... that i am leading down the same path i traveled with my ex ... he just didn't have the balls to break up with me ... and i wasn't going to make it easy for him ...


but i love david ... like i have never loved someone before ... it would rip me apart if he were with me out of convenience instead of love ... oh who the fuck knows ... shit

i am in such a foul fucking mood it is crazy ... first of all my computer sucks ... i bought it in 1999 ... it is a fucking Compaq ... and i just want to smash it to pieces ... everything has to be tweaked ... nothing works like it should ...


today i brought my parents scanner down here ... i am embarking on a huge project ... to scan the 3000+ slides they have and then burn them onto disk ... so we can actually enjoy them ... since all they have done for the past 20 years is sit in a fire proof file cabinet ... well all day David tweaked with this fucking thing ... and it still won't work ... my computer just can't recognize anything new ...


secondly ... i can't even remember the last time we had sex ... it was before we moved to DC I'll tell ya that ... and i am beyond frustrated ... how can someone go this long ... it is fucking crazy ... i mean we moved here February 24th ... actually i do know how long it has been cause it has gotten so infrequent lately that i have started marking it in the calendar ... but it is too damn depressing to even look at the calendar and see so i am avoiding it ... in fact typing about it right now is making me want to cry ...


so the shitty computer and sexual frustration is putting me in a mood that is way beyond pissy ... and to top it all off i am PMSing ... which means it will be at least another week before i see any action ... fuck i can't take this anymore ... and my birthday is in 3 days and i am not looking forward to it ... i think this is the first birthday of my life i am not looking forward to ... i always love my birthday ... but i have no friends out here ... the only people i know are David and my parents ...


i think i am going to start crying ... maybe i need a cig ... i am feeling the burden of a sucky life right now ...

ok i think i am digging how it looks now ... unobtrusive ... most people won't even notice ... that is good ... sure did take a long time to get like that ...

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i added comments to my blogger ... we'll see how much i like them ...

Three weeks and it will finally be daylight savings time ... woohoo!!

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I am so bored ... David has to study for his A+ exam ... so the TV can't be on ... and I just did 9 ebay listings ... I have some more stuff to photograph but I am just not in the mood right now ... it is raining ... again ... so I think the only thing left to do is take a nap ... woohoo fun for me ... that will guarantee me staying up half the night ... I can hardly wait ...


maybe i'll make a mixed CD when i get up ... at least i can listen to that on my Hello Kitty disk man ... :)

i can't believe it ... i just went outside to have a smoke and it is hailing ... little tiny pieces but it is still hail ... i mean it was almost 80 degrees the other day and now today their is hail ... i haven't even gotten to try my new skates yet ... although i must say i am a bit nervous ... i was a little wobbly in the store when i was trying them out ... but i am sure with practice i will get good again ...


i set up the html for half my auctions last night ... and i have a few more this morning and then i can start listing them ... then i will photograph the rest of the stuff today and set up those auctions ... so i guess i should go up and get some apply juice and get to work ... :)

Now that we live in DC ... I love Saturday night ... there is 2 hours of I Love Lucy on TVLand ... in NY we didn't have TVLand ... :)

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the company I used to work for is a bunch of loosers ... it is crazy ... I set up a site on one of the servers in April last year ... a friend who was broke and needed a place to host ... they just found it ... almost one year later ... how can one be so lackadaisical about what is on their servers ... I mean come on ...

today it seems that my previous post doesn't show up till i post again ... so i am writing this to see if the whole liz/david conversation shows up ... but if this is happening than this post won't show up till i have something else to write ... i don't know if it is my server or if it is something funky with blogger ...

so kris and i were just talking and i told her ... "you know if you have trouble the next time getting pregnant i will carry the baby for you" ... after kris and i got off the phone david and i went out to smoke a cig and here is how our conversation went:


liz: i was serious when i told kris i would carry her baby for her ... how do you feel about that?

david: well i would feel kind of like a third wheel

liz: i am not keeping the baby ... i would have the baby and then give it to kris and chevy

david: well chevy would at least owe me a round of golf in vegas ... i mean it would be their baby but i would be the one cleaning the litter box and running around and getting you shit

liz: that is your reaction ... what selfish world are you living in ... i would be carrying a baby for my very best friend in the world and you are worried about finally having to clean the littler box

david: well i would be taking care of you ... seems only fair chevy gets me a round of golf for my troubles

liz: again ... your troubles ... i am the one that would be having the baby ... you aren't thinking anything like 'wow that is so nice to do for a friend'

david: no i am thinking about having to clean up shit and run around getting you what you need ...


i had to come right in and call kris ... it was all just too funny not to share with her ...

i have a table full of stuff that needs to be put into ebay auctions ... and it is such a time consuming task ... i am just not too sure i am up for the task!!

I can't remember if i wrote this the other day ... but it was so damn funny i don't want to forget it happened ... david went to Starbucks early one morning ... before showering or brushing his hair ... so it was sticking up all over the place ... when the guy handed david the coffees he said ... "Here ya go chief" ... damn that was really just too funny ...

bad news today ... Kris isn't pregnant ... monday the doctor told her she was ... wednesday they said it didn't look too good and today they told her she wasn't pregnant ... she seems pretty alright with it ... maybe cause now they are going to do it again in may or june which means she could have a march baby ... and i am a march baby and get along great with both chevy and kris so that means they will get along great with their kid ... :)

i again have a terrible headache ... all i did was shower and then go up to the village for a few things and a coffee ... when i got home my head started hurting ... i just took some Excedrin so maybe that will help

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i forgot to mention ... in one week [march 21st] i will be 32 years old [ack!] and tonight i was carded for smokes ... i was so happy when she asked i said ... 'wow in a week i will be 32' and she said 'you have one of those faces that you just can't be too sure'


woohoo for staying out of the sun and being a pale one ... keeps me young!!

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that Twilight Zone test rocks ... that was one of my favorite episodes ... and i was a big Twilight Zone fan ... in fact on one of my college applications where it asked for 'favorite quote' i put ...


'You are traveling through another dimension ... a dimension not only of sight and sound but of mind ... a journey into a wondrous land whose boundries are that of imagination ... that's the sign post up ahead ... your next stop ... The Twilight Zone'


i don't think the school liked that as my favorite quote too much ... but i thought it was rad ...

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so I came up with a new site design tonight ... I had tried a couple of things that I just hated and right as I was about to call it a night I made the new 'lizzieslife' logo and loved it ... so I redid almost everything ... I still have to work on the 'who is lizzie' section and change that a bit ... but otherwise I am digging the new design and will leave it for a while at least ...


I wish the people I was doing sites for would send me some stuff so I could get to work on those ... my days can be a bit boring now and again ... but in the works right now I have 6 sites I could potentially be doing work on but I am not ... and you know what that means ... all 6 people will send me stuff at the same time and wonder what takes me so long to do the work ... :)


I should really get to bed even though I am not all that tired because tomorrow morning some guys are coming to finish hooking up the emergency generator and they will be going in and out of our apartment ... so me in my nightie drooling on my pillow probably isn't a site people want to see ...


ohhhhh I added a link to Photos I Took which is my photo album site ... check out the top link 'Hollywood Motel' ... that was the cheesy hotel we stayed in our last night in NY ... man the place was gaudy and our eyes burned all night from the massive amounts of disinfectant they used ... some sex hotel let me tell you ... hahahahaaa

i can't seem to get past the fact that i don't like how this site is designed ... i just don't like it ... and i haven't thought of anything new ... but i look at it ... and it really is blah ... big time ... hummmmm what to do what do to ...

i don't even know why i opened the window

i have nothing to write

well i went to sleep with a raging headache last night ... it hurt so much so that i told david not to touch me cause it made my head hurt more ... i took 2 Excedrin PMs and slept till noon ... which was great ... but now i still have a headache ...


we just went up to the village to get some coffee so i am feeling a bit better ... but i still woke up feeling like shit ... and it is so sunny here today but if i look at the sun or it's reflection i get those silver spots like a migraine ... bogus shit ... at least we didn't have anything planned for today ... i was thinking of going out and finishing some painting i need to do but the spray paint made me so light headed the other day it might be better for another day ... :)


well i think it is time to clean up a bit and shower ... i mean it is 2 in the afternoon already ... i don't want to feel like the whole day was wasted ... hahahaaa

i am so excited ... david's brother drew has found some junior high pics of davie and he is sending them to me this weekend ... i can hardly wait!!!!!

i feel terrible ... david didn't pass his test today ... and he just looked so sad ... and there was nothing i could do except try and cheer him up ... we are going to the bookstore soon so he can get a more updated book and start studying for the test again ... and this time he will have more than one day to study ...

we were up so early this morning after not much of sleep ... pretty much nothing happened today ... so since my brain is so tired ... i am off to bed ... :)

I am so excited ... the other night I was doing random searches on Google for people I hadn't talked to in ages ... one e-mail address was for my friend Brian ... I wasn't sure if it was him ... and we haven't been in touch since February 1999 ... so I sent a quick short e-mail to see if I found the correct Brian ... and boy howdy I did ... I was so excited to see he had written back and that life was groovy for him ... he is someone that I went to college with and was actually my first true love ... and every few years we get back in contact with each other ... it is just so exciting ...


I had a great march 11th ... especially for a day that marked the 6 month anniversary for one of the worst days in American history ... :)

my best friend Kris just called ... AND SHE IS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!

after all the hell she went through with infertility drugs ... she is finally going to have a baby ... :)

I am so happy for her and Chevy


woooooooohooooooooooo!!!!!!!

so i know my brother has been lied to by his wife ... to make our family look bad ... but there is no way of telling him ... he would take her word over anyone else's ... it is his wife ... and i am at such odds as to what to do ... this whole thing just sucks ... big time ... i don't blame my parents for wanting to move to cali ...


i do blame my brother though ...

I am watching this show on CBS about the World Trade Center ... and I am reliving this day all over again ... I can't stop crying ... I can't stop being thankful I didn't go to work that day ... so happy I was at home and not in the city ... what a horrible horrible day ... they are showing the fire station that was near my work ... it is a war zone ... rubble in the street ... I can't stop watching it but it is making my chest hurt ... it is being at September 11th all over again ...


growing up I remember hearing the stories of my parents as to where they were when JFK was assonated ... it was my dad's birthday and my mom was walking across campus ... she remembers stopping at the bookstore and seeing a book titled "Fools Die On Friday" ... leaving the bookstore and seeing people run to the student lounge to see the TV yelling ... "JFK has been shot"


I wondered what my kids would one day ask me if I knew where I was when something happened ... I remember where I was when I heard Elvis died [playing with play-dough on a rainy day and my mom sobbing on the couch] ... or when John Lennon was killed [my mom woke me up to get ready for school ... she was crying and told me one of the Beatles had been killed] ... or maybe when Reagan had an attempt on his life ... [I heard it on the radio on the way home from school] ... or when the space shuttle blew up [I was taking a biology test and my teacher, Mr. Serio, was listening to the radio and started to cry and turned on the TV in the classroom so we could see what happened] ...


but now I know ... when I have kids ... they will ask me where I was the day the terrorists attacked The World Trade Center ... and I will tell them mommy was lucky enough to have stayed home from work that day ... that I was supposed to be in the city ... blocks from the terror but instead I had chosen to stay home that day and I was in front of the TV watching the horror ... crying ... and answering phone calls and emails from loved ones letting them know I was alright ...


thank god ...

it has been kind of a lazy day ... finished looking over the java script site and saved all the ones i think i will ever need ... made another necklace ... and have been working on my laundry ... right now david and i are sticking to our apartment cause my brother is upstairs talking with my parents ...


i think david and i will go out to eat ... get out of the house for a bit ... :)

lets see ... i spent about an hour looking at different java scripts ... an hour making a new necklace [which came out rad] and an hour on ebay looking for new beads ... and now i think it is time for bed ... cause if it isn't raining in the morning i want to paint these wooden trays i bought ... so i can't sleep too late in the morning ...


sweet dreams ... xxox

I have been craving Mexican food for ages now ... and there just wasn't a place near us in NY ... so tonight my mom, dad, David and I went out for Mexican food ... we were sure we were going to have to wait for a table so David and I smoked a cig while my mom went in to put our name down and my dad went to park the car ... only my mom instantly poked her head out and said ... 'they have a table right now so when your dad gets here put the cigs out and come inside' ... I looked at David and said 'that either means it is a really big place or a really bad place' ...


we went in ... sat down ... checked out the menu [for a Mexican restaurant they really had a very very small selection ... I mean I grew up in cali where Mexican restaurants there were like deli's in NY] ... we all decided what we were having and ordered ...


about 45 minutes later a runner came out with my mom's food ... and what she said was chicken fajitas [i ordered steak fajitas, dad ordered chicken and david ordered blackened chicken] ... so anyway the runner came out with my mom's tacos and what she said was chicken fajitas and beans and rice and placed it in front of my dad ... about 10 minutes later we saw our waitress and my dad stopped her and asked where the rest of our food was ... we needed to refresh her on what I got and what David got and she said she would be right back ... I asked if she could at least bring the tortillas for my dad's fajitas so he could start eating ... when she came back she asked again what David and I had ordered and informed us the fajitas they had brought out to the table were the blackened chicken ones ... but my dad had already started nibbling on the beans and rice ... and then she left again ...


about 10 minutes later she brought out the tortillas and hurried away from our table ... but at this point my mom was half way through her food ... the fajita were totally cold and David still didn't have beans or rice ... my dad saw the manager and asked him to come over where he explained the whole thing ... the waitress stopped by the table while he was telling the manager and he said ... please take this food that has been sitting here for 20 minutes and bring all our food out together while it is all hot ... which David was very happy about cause there was no way he was going to eat cold food ... especially fajitas ... I mean they come out smoking on a plate and his was starting to shrivel at this point ...


about 10 minutes later we received the three meals we were missing ... they refreshed our drinks and then it was like the Twilight Zone ... about every 5 minutes the waitress came by and said 'is everything alright' ... even after all the plates were taken away and we had our check ... she kept coming by saying that ... it was kinda weird ...


so needless to say that is probably our only time going to that restaurant ... I need to find a good authentic Mexican restaurant ... that has a huge selection and good service ... I sure wish I could go out to cali and eat at Mi Casa ... man that place was the bomb ... !!!

i have been working on web sites all day today ... did some work on my dad's site and my friend Miranda's ... it is icky and kinda rainy out ... and i really don't feel like doing much of anything ... but i feel like if i lay down on the couch to watch TV i will fall asleep ...


maybe i should work on a new necklace since i got all my beading stuff together ... sounds like a plan ... :)

yea i think i might mess around with the site design idea more tomorrow ... but for now i have read 100 blogs ... it is almost 2 in the morning ... and i don't want to sleep the day away ... lots of fun stuff to do once the sun comes up ... and now that we have tons of windows in our house ... it is even fun being in the house working on stuff ...


sweet dreams ... xxox

i keep wanting to change my blogger design ... yet again ... but david keeps telling me it is good how it is right now ... but i am still looking around for inspiration ... i do love the daisies ... it just seems so boring ... like i should jazz it up somehow ... i mean i do have all sorts of time on my hands ... even though i have 3 web sites to be working on and about 3 art projects i am messing around with ...

Which Friends Character are You?



Which Friend are you?

Strawberry: 50/100 Pear: 0/100 Banana: 80/100 Tomato: 0/100 Lemon: 0/100

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by Ellen and Aaron!

i am going a little crazy with these 'who are you' quiz things ... but they can be kinda fun ... and i see so many of them while reading other people's blogs ...

so i have a dilema ... when i worked in the hosting business i had an ornery customer that used to get so hyper at the smallest little thing ... ranting up a storm ...

well he still runs websites and i am no longer in the business ... so i register all my domain names through him ... and he gives me a price cut ... Tuesday ... TUESDAY i sent him a request to renew 2 of my expired domain names and he still hasn't done it ... i wrote him yesterday and he said he has been sick and he is trying to clear up a credit card so he can put more money in his account with OpenSRS ... it has been 3 fucking days now ... and if he didn't put money in the account today that means it won't happen till monday ... i could loose my domain names ...


he would have never gone for this when he was my customer ... why now am i supposed to tolerate it? ... in fact it is totally pissing me off now ... when it comes to matters of business who gives a fuck if someone is sick ... he used to call me at home when he needed a domain name renewed ... this is crazy ...


i think it is time i find someone new to register my domain names ... i would do it myself but you have to give OpenSRS $500 to start and i don't need 50 years of domain registrations to start ... i just need these 2 for right now ...


damn it ...

i spent the day in the car while david was in applying for jobs ... it was so dumb of me to not take a book or a magazine or something ... my mind stayed constantly on bored ... we did have lunch at Fresh Fields today ... man i love that place ... when we buy a condo i want to make sure there is a Fresh Fields near by so we can shop there ... the place is just awesome ...


well david is poking around in the storage room so i am going to go see if i can lend a hand ... :)

i sent my brother a letter tonight ... seeing if i could mediate between him and my parents ... and get us back to one family unit ... he will either work with me or get mad at me ... but i am going to do my best not to worry about the outcome and just see what happens ...

Which Rock Chick Are You?


not sure why i am digging these dorky little quizzes ... or how i have found so many all of a sudden ... but i guess PJ Harvey is pretty groovy ...

ok ... now i took this quiz tonight ... saw it on someone else's blogger ... and shit i am old ... like this question freaked me out a little ...


You listen to:


-Funky punk rock

-I'm a pop princess baby

-Head banging goodness

-Anything goes, I don't mind

-Old school rock like the Beatles and Smashing Pumpkins


when did the Smashing Pumpkins become old school??


then i got to this question ...


Imagine you're 30, you see yourself:


-Floating comfortably in your mansion pool with your boyfriend

-Sitting at home, cuddling up with your husband

-Still acting like a teenager

-Still at the front of the mosh pits

-Getting plastic surgery


imagine you're 30 ... shit in 16 short days i will be 32 ... granted i still get carded for smokes ... but is 30 so old that it is an age people imagine so far in the future ... my goodness ...


but then i saw my match was Elijah wood ... and my friend heather and i think he is such a cutie ... i mean have you seen 'The Ice Storm' ... that movie kicks ass ... and he is just so awesome in it ... i think she and i have watched it at least 10 times each ... and never together ... so that is 20 viewings right there ...


but after these questions i am still feeling a bit old ... i mean plastic surgery at 30 ... there isn't a wrinkle or sag on me yet ... how old do these people making the quiz think 30 is?

since David and I finally have a little money I decided to buy David ... me ... kris ... and heather a little present ... I have set up some cafepress stores with pictures my friend Bob Dix drew for me ... so I bought a tote bag for myself and a ceramic coaster for kris, heather and I with this picture and I made a ceramic coaster for David with this picture ... I sure hope they turn out cute ... I have been wanting to order some cafepress stuff for a while ... I should get David a pair of boxers with the funky finger picture ... maybe soon ...

so since I upgraded to Blogger pro ... I have these free advertisement things for the Blogger.com page ... but I am not sure what to use them for ... I mean do I really need to advertise my blog? ... doubt it ... should I advertise someone's site that I work on ... don't really think Blogger is the customer base for window coverings or dildos ... so I am just not sure what to do with them ... and is this site really interesting enough to publicize ... I don't think so ... even I don't read my own blog ... but I need to use them soon ... so who knows ...

i went to get my hair cut today while david was out pounding the pavement ... but the woman that cuts my hair was out today and won't be in till wednesday at 2 PM ... so i guess i have to wait ... although i was really ready today ...


i did do a little decorating this afternoon ... spruced some stuff up a bit ... there is still some to do but we did the majority the first week ...


tomorrow my mom and i are going out ... davie wants to work on the phone system in the house and he wants some alone time ... plus my mom wants some time with me ... and shit i need to go to Target ... so it works out well for everyone ...


so i think i am going to read some blogs right now ... see what is going on in other people's lives ...

Link

What is your meaning of life?

What is your meaning of life?

Not Broken

well after 4 hours at the hospital today they said it didn't seem like it was broken ... they put me in one of those air casts and told me to see an orthopedic surgeon during the week ... so my mom is going to find one for me that does MRIs ... see what is going on ...


David seems a little bummed out living here ... and it makes me worry ... I don't want him to hate it here ... we have a great chance to get our heads above water ... but it will only make it worse if he hates being here ... cause then he will be ready to move out sooner than we should ... we have saved quite a bit of money so far but I know he wants a job really bad ... and I hope he finds one he loves really soon ...

well after 4 hours at the hospital today they said it didn't seem like it was broken ... they put me in one of those air casts and told me to see an orthopedic surgeon during the week ... so my mom is going to find one for me that does MRIs ... see what is going on ...


David seems a little bummed out living here ... and it makes me worry ... I don't want him to hate it here ... we have a great chance to get our heads above water ... but it will only make it worse if he hates being here ... cause then he will be ready to move out sooner than we should ... we have saved quite a bit of money so far but I know he wants a job really bad ... and I hope he finds one he loves really soon ...

Sharp Pain

well after the semi sleep i had last night ... i am 99% sure my leg is fractured ... it was like a flashback to 1998 when i broke my leg ... every time i moved it hurt ... i couldn't roll over or snuggle up more or just lay there without the sharp and throbbing pain ...


i should have gone to the doctor last night but it was upsetting my mom so much ... she was already having a terrible day and then she kept saying 'if i hadn't gone out you wouldn't have gone to get the mail' ... like me falling in the garage was her fault ... i also thought by morning it might not hurt anymore ... but i was totally wrong ... it hurts even more now ... i think as soon as someone wakes up i will get them to take me to the hospital ... i would go now myself so no one had to sit there and just wait ... but i don't have the first idea where a hospital out here is ...


i can't believe i am going to be in another cast ... what a pisser ...

well after the semi sleep i had last night ... i am 99% sure my leg is fractured ... it was like a flashback to 1998 when i broke my leg ... every time i moved it hurt ... i couldn't roll over or snuggle up more or just lay there without the sharp and throbbing pain ...


i should have gone to the doctor last night but it was upsetting my mom so much ... she was already having a terrible day and then she kept saying 'if i hadn't gone out you wouldn't have gone to get the mail' ... like me falling in the garage was her fault ... i also thought by morning it might not hurt anymore ... but i was totally wrong ... it hurts even more now ... i think as soon as someone wakes up i will get them to take me to the hospital ... i would go now myself so no one had to sit there and just wait ... but i don't have the first idea where a hospital out here is ...


i can't believe i am going to be in another cast ... what a pisser ...

Fell

i went out to get the mail tonight ... and on my way back into the garage i slipped and the leg i broke twisted around behind me and i fell on it ... and it has been so painful since it happened ... just sitting still hurts ... and i just don't want to go to the hospital ... everyone is in a bad enough mood ... and ya know going to the hospital is always a 4-6 hour proposition ... i just don't feel up to it today ... maybe i'll just take a hot bath and relax ...

i went out to get the mail tonight ... and on my way back into the garage i slipped and the leg i broke twisted around behind me and i fell on it ... and it has been so painful since it happened ... just sitting still hurts ... and i just don't want to go to the hospital ... everyone is in a bad enough mood ... and ya know going to the hospital is always a 4-6 hour proposition ... i just don't feel up to it today ... maybe i'll just take a hot bath and relax ...

the way my brother is treating my parents is fucking shitty ... and it is putting me in a terrible position ... i don't like it ... my mom is so crushed ... and it is making my parents fight ... and ya know it is all bullshit ... he is an asshole ... and i am sitting here trying to pull the pieces back together ... and there is really nothing i can do ... i hate being powerless ... and i hate not being able to help people ... it just bites the big one ...

Powerless

the way my brother is treating my parents is fucking shitty ... and it is putting me in a terrible position ... i don't like it ... my mom is so crushed ... and it is making my parents fight ... and ya know it is all bullshit ... he is an asshole ... and i am sitting here trying to pull the pieces back together ... and there is really nothing i can do ... i hate being powerless ... and i hate not being able to help people ... it just bites the big one ...

New Haircut i think i am going to go and get my hair cut like this ... i should probably wait till i am going for a job interview or something since right now i don't go anywhere but starbucks or do anything but drink coffee ... but i sure do love the haircut ...

Haircut

New Haircut i think i am going to go and get my hair cut like this ... i should probably wait till i am going for a job interview or something since right now i don't go anywhere but starbucks or do anything but drink coffee ... but i sure do love the haircut ...

well we are moved into my parents house ... and almost finished unpacking so I finally feel like I have time to write a little ... I have some pictures to post later from the macheezmo hotel we stayed at our last night in NY ... it was crazy gross ... it just made the two of us laugh so much ...


trip out here was pretty good and it is alright living in DC ... although my parents live in a wealthy area and the women here can be a bit rude ... but we will get used to it ...


this apartment blows our old one away ... as soon as I am finished unpacking I must take pictures ...


well David made dinner for everyone tonight so I am going to head upstairs ... it smells divine ... :)

All Moved In

well we are moved into my parents house ... and almost finished unpacking so I finally feel like I have time to write a little ... I have some pictures to post later from the macheezmo hotel we stayed at our last night in NY ... it was crazy gross ... it just made the two of us laugh so much ...


trip out here was pretty good and it is alright living in DC ... although my parents live in a wealthy area and the women here can be a bit rude ... but we will get used to it ...


this apartment blows our old one away ... as soon as I am finished unpacking I must take pictures ...


well David made dinner for everyone tonight so I am going to head upstairs ... it smells divine ... :)