11050

Pedometer readout for 11/30/03: 11050

feel good

all we do is argue lately ... argue ... fight ... bicker ... sometimes I just want to take a right hook to his face he pisses me off so badly ... I have pent up anger just shaking inside me ... and I can't believe it is cause we quit smoking ... we never used to argue and now he seems rude and inconsiderate all the time ... he makes rude comments to me and I yell back at him ... it is no way to live ...


I can't even get a fucking patch to stick on me tonight ... I just want to go out and buy a pack of cigs ... we got along great when we were smoking ... we have given up so much "vice" kinda stuff ... drinking ... drugs ... I want my cigs back ... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck ... I wish I knew a neighbor that smoked so I could just bum one ... that is all I want right now ... that and for some reason I really want to kick the shit out of David ... I think that would feel good ...

gotta be honest

I gotta be honest ... I am surprised David and I still aren't smoking ... it is amazing ...


we went out tonight and got a treadmill ... I am so excited ... I have 4 months to loose a good amount of weight before I must go wedding dress shopping ... and then I'll have 3 months after that to loose more weight for the wedding ... I really want to look great that day ... I've let myself go and I would be ashamed to get married and have all those photos taken looking like this ... I know David doesn't think I will use the treadmill but he will be surprised ... instead of getting up and having a couple of cigs first thing in the morning ... I will now get up and walk for at least 15 minutes in the morning ... and then again when I get home from work ... we are setting it up in the living room so I can watch TiVo while I walk ... I may even set up the TiVo to start taping shows it thinks I will like so I have tons of stuff to watch while walking ... but I just gotta do it ... my goal is a hefty one ... too much so to write down cause everyone will think I am crazy ... but I have it in my head and I will know if I am on track ... the not smoking is fantastic ... the loosing weight will be even better ...


well I am not that tired but I gotta go to sleep ... we have had company all weekend so tomorrow I gotta get up early and get a lot done before I head back to work ... :)

Thanksgiving Baby News

Thanksgiving was pretty great ... we had it at our house with my mom and dad, brother and sister-in-law and David's brother Drew ... and we all got some wonderful news ... Jason and Jenny are having a baby ... they have been trying for some time now so it is just so exciting for them ...


David and I are still smoke free ... but I have been sick for days now ... I think it is cause I am not smoking ... seems to be the only time I get sick :) ...


I am in a quandary about Christmas gifts ... we are trying so hard to save money for our wedding ... there are still a lot of things we need to buy ... but I still need to get gifts for everyone ... I just wish I could think of affordable things ... hummmmmm I could go ahead and get Jason and Jenny baby stuff ... knock out two gifts with one :)

The Capitol Steps

Last night was sooooo fun ... it was my dad's birthday so we all met in DC [we all means mom, dad, brother, sister-in-law, David and I] for dinner and then walked to the Ronald Reagan building and saw The Capitol Steps [capsteps.com] ... they are so fricken hysterical I almost wet myself during the show ... check out their site ... if you go to where they sell their albums you can hear a song off each one ... they take a regular song and then spoof something from current events ... Martha, Bush, Clinton, SUV's ... it is absolutely fantastic ... we all really had a great time ... my brother is now looking into seeing what it would take to have them at the wedding ... they really were that good ...


then we all went to Georgetown for ice cream ... all in all it was a fantastic evening ...


and David and I are still smoke free ... it has been hard at times ... but today with the money we saved we went out and bought a new game for the XBOX ... SSX Tricky 3 ... so far it is a brilliant game ... and that keeps our minds off smoking ...


we also went out today and did all the grocery shopping for Thanksgiving ... since both of us hate going to the food store it was a huge accomplishment getting that done ...


and thank god that it is only a 3 day work week ... that fucking rocks ... I have several huge graphics projects that have to get finished ... so I will probably only have to work 3 days and get a whole bunch of overtime to boot ... can't beat that ...


well it is much later than I realized ... I need to sleep cause I wanna get to work as early as possible so my overtime starts earlier in the day ... :)

quitting now

Conversation with Kris when discussing the possibility of her quitting smoking as well ...


I said, "I'm not gonna lie. Sure I miss it but I would miss a lung as well"


She, too, is quitting now.

fortune

Put up the quitmeter this morning ... it is calculating both David and myself ... we spent a fortune on smokes ... it will be nice to have some of that money again ... :)

my drive to work takes 20 minutes ... tonight it took me 2 hours to get home ... rain just seems to freak everyone out ... it would have been a great time to have a book on tape ...


I did stop and get a "learn to knit" package on the way home ... I am excited about learning ... I got a beautiful yellow yarn to make a scarf ... and it is going to be a super long one ... that I can wrap around my neck at least twice ...


so in the mean time I am smoking like a nut tonight ... to get it out of my system ... and I think it is great that everyone in my office and David are quitting all at the same time ... and I just got an email that our candy shipment is on the way ... woohoo ...


well I better start making dinner ... so it is ready for Davie when he gets home from work ... :)

we are going for the quitting smoking again ... Thursday is the day ... same as the Great American Smoke-out ... this has got to be the last time we quit ... we need the money ... we are about to start making our invitations and I know if we are smoking while we make them ... people will smell the smoke when they open them ... and our tentative plans are to try and get pregnant a year from now ... and I wanted to be smoke free for a year before getting pregnant ... so the time seems right ... I am a bit nervous but I just gotta do it ... I am getting too old for this shit ... hummmm I wonder if I can find that quit smoking counter ...


I also need to figure out a way to buy a treadmill ... I need the exercise and it will be much easier without smoking ...


I am also going to teach myself to knit ... I figure it would be a great way to concentrate on something other than smoking ... besides the scarves in the store are never long enough for me ... :) ... I am hoping to find someone nice enough in the store tomorrow to help me figure out what I need ... :)

Wow 2 months to the day since I last wrote ... that has got to be some sort of record for me ... I'm not sure what it's been ... combination of many things I guess ... planning a wedding ... making lip balm ... working on our house ... and I felt like I was complaining here too much ... there are several "complainers" in my life and it just wears you down ... day in and day out ... and I felt like this site was turning me into the same thing ... because I didn't want to turn into one out loud ... I was turning into a cyber complainer ... but I am past that now ...


I must say I am also enjoying the wedding planning now ... my mom has mellowed out ... and all the big things have been taken care of ... it is exciting to think in 7.5 months I'll be married ... Davit even seems pretty excited about it ... and this is a man who never wanted to get married again ... he designed our invitation and we are making them ourselves and they are awesome ... we should be getting stuff sometime this week that we sent off to a printer ...


I'm happy I am back ... we have so much cool stuff planned in the next couple of months that I really wanted to journal again so I don't forget how great life is and everything that goes on ... :)