I have been ripping MP3's from my CD's all day today ... I did other stuff in between like all our laundry [since I have attempted to put fear of the bats aside and enter our laundry room again] ... rearranged our closet [subconsciously so it was neater and I could see if any bats made it their home] ... I found some great birthday cards for my friend Jason [got out of the house so I wouldn't think of the bats for a while] ... and watched killer episodes of Alias and Queer as Folk [nothing to do with bats at all ... except that I would normally turn out the lights and relax on the couch but opted for all the lights and sitting up on the couch] ...


it is becoming very draining always worried about when they will appear ... any weird squeaky or cricket sound I hear I jump ... I don't walk into a room anymore without looking up at the vents ...


I was smart ... I called all the Blockbusters in our area till I found one that had the game Ghost Recon and asked them to hold it for me ... I knew once David had it he would stay up till almost dawn playing ... sort of a bat protector for me ... and I was right ... he was up till after 4:30 last night ... and he is deep into the game tonight ...


in order to bring myself away from having a stress heart attack we are starting yoga at work tomorrow ... that should be great for me ... I can hardly wait ... I need something like that so badly ...


well I am off to the bat cave bedroom for some much needed sleep ... tomorrow someone is coming to clean our ducts ... I sure hope that helps ... in some way ... even if it is only in my mind ...

its snowing ... can you believe it ... March 30th and we have snow ... crazy i tell ya ...

David is crazy ...


I am in the office reading the meeting notes for our association for the last several years to see if bats were ever brought up ... cause we are going to our next meeting ... I have the window open and there is a strong smell of fertilizer but on top of that I could smell cigar ... now I love the smell of cigar ... it reminds me of my grandfather and just brings good memories ... so I walked into the living room to see if David could smell it and there he is making screens for the vents outside ... puffing on a big 'ol cigar ... where he got it I don't know but he is puffing away ... which has to be annoying the hell out of the neighbors upstairs ...


I don't know if I condone causing trouble ... but at the same time it is kinda funny ...

:) I have calmed down a bit ... I did a lot of reading yesterday on bats and I guess if I am going to have something in my house it isn't too bad ...


They are not aggressive animals ... even when chased they won't attack ... they only bite if you try and pick them up ... which I am not planning on doing ... so basically if I leave it alone it will leave me alone ...


but I also learned any excavation of bats has to be done before May 1st ... cause babies are born in May and if you seal up any entrances between May and August the babies that can't fly can't get out ... so I am on a mission to have a bat free house within the next month ...


the trapper couldn't find anything yesterday so last night we left the grate off the duct ... the screen off the window ... and the window open ... while we sat in the other room watching The E! True Hollywood Story of Family Feud that I had TiVoed earlier in the week ... since we didn't hear anything last night I am hoping he found his way out ...


regardless I am having someone come in on monday and clean our duct work ... can't hurt to suck all the shit out of them ... and we are sealing up anything that would appear to be a crack to the outside world ...


but right now it is David I am more worried about than any bat ... he is so upset and has so much built up rage that I worry he is going to do something that he gets in trouble for ... he so bitterly despises the people upstairs ... if they ever come in contact with each other I don't know what will happen ... and once he gets his mind set there is no turning back ... I am really very scared for him ... I don't want him to do anything foolish ... it isn't worth it ...

unfortunately by the time the Trapper got to the house the bat was back in hiding ... and it won't be out again until it is dark when it cost double to have someone come out ... so I have been reading up on bats and bat removal ...


they are passive creatures ... they don't bite unless they are picked up ... even if you chase them they won't attack ... but there is the danger of rabies if they bite ... that would suck ...


our condo association is a bunch of assholes ... when I called to see if anyone else was having this problem it was like talking to a recording that kept saying "this isn't our responsibility" ... I told her I wasn't looking for money ... I was looking for guidance ... didn't matter ... I told her the trapper really felt that the foam on the outside sealed up their exit and that is why we have been having problem since then ... she said there is no way that could be the case ...


that is when I rattled off my facts ... that bats only need 1/4" of space to enter something ... so a crack in the wall would be enough ... and a crack in our heating duct would be enough ... that an opening 6/8" by 7/8" is big enough for them ... and that everything here was hunky-dory up until Saturday night ... they filled the crack Saturday afternoon and Saturday night we started hearing strange noises ... our cat started going crazy ... and it was a really warm night ... optimal feeding time ...


again she said there is no way their foam is the problem ... this woman went from telling me they had problems with the people upstairs to defending their fucking foam fiasco ...


David is pissed ... now he is dealing with bats in the house ... and being walked all over ... it is only a matter of time before one of us goes upstairs to tell them what we really think ... I am ready to cut out a big piece of black construction paper in the shape of a bat ... and in silver pen write "your fucking foam chased bats into our house" and put it on their door for all to see ... but I have learned when fighting with someone you don't want anything on paper ... it all has to be verbal with a he said / she said story later ... bummer ...


David and I were trying to get some sleep now ... since we will most likely be up all night ... but it isn't working ... Kramer obviously smells the critter and keeps getting up to inspect the house ... tensions are too high to sleep during that ...


maybe I will see if Davie wants to go out for a bit to eat ... ease the tension ... :)

Where bats get into your house ...

They're baaaaaacccccccck!!! [Poltergeist theme in my head]


bats ... more fucking bats ... I am ready to sell the damn place ... and I am starting to think this is why they moved ... transferred to Japan my foot ... they wanted to get the hell away from the bats ... that is why they were looking for a quick closing ... it is sick ... at least I went to sleep at 9:30 last night cause by 4 I knew something was wrong but kept ignoring it ... by 5 I was up ... and David had every door closed and was sitting vigil on the sofa ...


so the guy is coming back over today ...


David said the bat in the heater this time was trying even harder to get out ...


one was ok ... fluke incident ... got rid of it ... life moves on ... now that there is more than one I don't think I can ever be comfortable again ... cause now I will always wonder ...


I am just sick to my stomach ... life was easier as a renter rather than an owner ...

I learned something very important today ... it is terribly hard to have 2 good days in a row at work ... so when I do have a good day I should expect to come into a bad day the next day ...


I have also learned that most people out there don't realize condescending emails that place blame on everyone but themselves doesn't endear people to you ... it makes them hate you ... all day the people I am trying to help at work ... be their office support write me emails that are rude and snotty ... do they think I want to go out of my way to help them ... no it makes me want to fuck with them whenever possible ... to make their stuff the last stuff I work on ... it is a good lesson in restraint thought ... cause I am holding back big time ...


on a good note I was happy with who got kicked off American Idol last night ... and I TiVoed Wanda at Large and David and I watched it this morning and it was quite funny ... I set it up with a season pass so I always get the show ... :)


I wish time were moving faster I am ready to go home ... tomorrow is truly TGIF ... woooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!

yes I was totally ranting in last nights post ... but with good reason ... it was a fucking bat in the house ...


so today was quite interesting ... I think about 4 AM David and I finally fell asleep ... but at 6 when my alarm went off I was up ... cause the thought of the bat came rushing to my mind ... I got up and Kramer was sitting at the foot of the bed and seemed pretty calm so I wasn't worried ... he is an excellent bat barometer ... made some coffee ... started getting my stuff together ... watched a little news and figured I didn't need to stay here till I talked to the trapping company ... I could call them from work and go in early ... as I was walking back to get dressed Kramer freaked ...


he ran into the dining room ... up on the window sill ... standing on his hind legs he just focused in on the heating duct ... and then I heard the rustling and squirming of the bat ...


that was enough for me ... I called the emergency line of the trapping company and left my number and a guy called me back in like 3 minutes ... I was shaky and panicked and he just laughed ... I kept asking "can you come today ... can you come today" ... I told him everything that had happened and he said he would be here between 10 and noon ... I said "as long as it is today I don't care" ...


I left for work ... leaving David alone with the bat ... and at 9 called our condo association office to see if it was our responsibility to cover the outside vents with screen or theirs ... the woman in the office was very nice and said she would send someone from maintainence over to check it out ... before coming over they called David to ask some questions ...


one of the questions was "well has anything recently been put in that could seal the area?" ... David told them about the foam fiasco and the guy said ... "oh yea I know who you are talking about ... we've had problems with them" ... schwoooooo so it isn't just us smoking ... they are complainers and trouble makers ... woohoo ... I feel better ...


except the bat is still in the house ...


so the maintenance guy comes over to check out the vents and tells David they aren't attached to the heating at all ... they are for the fan in the kitchen ... when he sees the foam and newspaper shoved in the gap he is pissed ... David said he stood there shaking his head in disbelief ...


moments after the maintenance guy leaves the guy from the trapping company arrives ... he too goes out and looks at the vent and tells David ... that goes to the fan in the kitchen ... also letting David know that the bat flew into the vent ... worked his way through ... came out the fan in the kitchen and has been flying around the house at night and going into the heating duct at day break to hang out ... and when we saw him last night he probably got stuck trying to get out ... ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww


suddenly stuff started to make sense ... Saturday night [the day of the foaming incident] Kramer went crazy ... woke Drew up who was sleeping in the living room ... woke David and I up by going crazy in the closet and jumping so hard on a Rubbermaid bin that he broke the top ... what we didn't realize is that Kramer was probably chasing the bat around ...


... again ... ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww


the trapper checked the vent and said it looked at if the top of the vent had been open and that is how he was getting out but it somehow [foam] got sealed and so he was working his way through the house ... [French bastards] ...


so the trapper was in the office checking out the heating duct and asked David for a ladder ... when David went into the laundry room [which I insisted the door be kept closed since the furnace is in there and the bat might work his way out] the bat started flying around ... ewwwwwwwwwwwwww ... so David calmly closed the door ... got the trapper ... who went in with a coffee can and caught the sucker ... woohoo!!!!! bat free house ... bat free house ...


he gave David some screen to use on the vents outside ... checked out our duct work to make sure there wasn't a nest ... David paid him $175 and he was on his way ...


Kramer seems a bit sad that his playmate is gone ... but he'll get over it ... especially since David and I are now so happy ...


ding dong the bat is gone!!!!

the bat came into the house ... INTO THE HOUSE DAMN IT ... and you know why ... cause French Bitch sealed up its way out with that fucking foam ... god damn mother fucker ... it is stuck in our heating vent and it is freaking my shit out ... and animal control can't come out and get it cause they aren't allowed to disassemble anything or go into duct work ... so we have to wait till 8 AM to have a trapping company come out and get the creepy mother fucker out of the house ... it is taking all my restraint to not haul my ass upstairs and pound on the bitch's door ... it is a fucking creepy bat ... I've had one fly into my hair before and it is sick shit ... I am not a bat chick and never will be ...


and when all this started I was having a rather enjoyable evening making myself a CD and adding a new section to my website with MP3 downloads of what is on my current MP3 player ...


how am I to go to sleep tonight ... I am tired ... and I must be at work in the morning ... shit man ... I am pissed ... that fucking foam ...


I wish they would move I wish they would move I wish they would move and take the god damn bat with them ...

Got this awesome picture from this link that Drew sent me

so many conflicted images are running through my head ... sometimes I don't know what is real and what I am imagining ... am I reading too much or too little into situations ... it is all too weird for me right now ...


but despite all the confusion I have been in a remarkably good mood ...

I loved growing up in California and wouldn't change it for a thing ... and I often times miss it ... but today wasn't one of those days


you miss out on something very important when you live in Cali ... the changing of the seasons ... it is always so close to the same there ... but almost anywhere else you go through terribly cold months to where you think the sun may never come out again ... and when it hits 65 degrees it is like the greatest thing on earth ... well today it was 67 degrees and I was in heaven ... we opened the door at work to let the breeze in ... there was almost no traffic all day ... all the drivers around me seemed to be in a good mood ... I even laughed when I spilt coffee on myself first thing in the morning ... everyone just instantly gets in a better mood ... it is awesome ...


I even wore sandals today ... woohoo for the beginning of spring and the end of winter ... but mind you ... when it becomes totally humid and 98 degrees I will be wishing for either winter again or to live in Cali ... :)

Just a quick note before bed ... we just finished watching the Oscars and I am wondering how a man [Roman Polanski] who was convicted of the statutory rape of a 13 year old girl when he was 45 and who fled the country in 1978 never returning so as to avoid incarceration can be applauded and praised by a group of people who are so against war and violence and suffering ...


I was happy to hear that Michael Moore got booed during his ranting ... the Oscars are neither the time nor the place for speeches of that sort ... especially when service men and woman who are serving their country are watching ...

New Saga on the Bitchy Neighbor Front


This morning I could hear French Bitch and her husband doing something on the patio ... then the doorbell rang and I thought "great they have come to complain again" ... David answered the door and it was Mr. French Bitch and he said he was working with foam on his patio and it dripped onto ours but that he would be back later to clean it up ... I looked outside and there was quite a bit more than a drip on the railing and cement of our patio but we were on the way out and there was nothing to do then ...


it turns out there is a gap between their patio floor and the brick front of the patio ... so they were using the sealing foam that expands and hardens to seal the gab ... so they didn't smell the smoke anymore ... all the patios except the top floor just have a railing ... theirs is a brick wall so the gap is there to drain water and snow when it rains ... I am not sure where it will go now that there is no gap


and the stuff they dripped on our patio ... well first of all I don't want them down here cleaning it up ... fuck that ... so I went to work on it myself ... there is some up on the cement at the top that I am not sure how we are going to clean ... but the stuff on the railing won't come all the way off ... and the bits I have gotten off have eaten away at the paint ... it is just a big fucking mess ...


I took some pictures but they are a bit hard to see ... but here they are ...

Fabulous fabulous day ... slept in ... relaxed ... David, Drew and I went out running around shopping ... came home and got ready for dinner ... went to Outback Steakhouse with my brother and sister-in-law and my parents and David and Drew ... dinner was awesome [so stuffed now] and got some gift certificates so tomorrow we are going to do some more shopping [Container Store and Crate & Barrel] ...


I got a bunch of different email cards today for my birthday but this one from Brian is my favorite ... I have already watched it 4 times today ... 5 now cause I watched it once more while getting the link ... make sure to watch till the very end cause the woman saying "bu-bye" is so funny ...


so 33 is pretty great so far ... and I have 364 more days to see just how good it can get ... :)

The new attitude brought even more surprises my way yesterday ... the kitchen table David and I have both wanted since before we knew each other ... finally came ... see a year ago I found a website that sold retro tables that are brand new ... and we made a deal to redo their horrible website in exchange for a table ... we were beside ourselves with joy ... but somehow it just didn't happen ... they just stopped responding ... instead of just telling us they changed their mind ... so I started searching the web hard and learned they didn't make the table themselves like they claimed ... they bought them from a company in North Carolina ... well the company only sells to retailers and manufacturers ... not the general public ... but my dad works for a company that is a manufacturer ... so we ordered it through them ... for 1/3 of the price it is sold by retailers ... woohoo for that ... so here is the new dining room table ... :)

I went to bed last night thinking of what a stupid bitch I have been lately ... complaining about my ridiculous problems when there is so much shit going on in the world ... that I should just be happy ... that I shouldn't let the French Bitch get to me ... that not having a day off of work is not the end of the world for a I do have a job and I need to be happy about that ... I made a resolve to myself to just be happier ... to let things roll off my back more often ... and go with flow ...


so I wound up sleeping pretty good because of my new attitude ... so good that I stayed in bed a little longer but it was fine ... got to work earlier than usual ... and when my coworker came in it turns out she can't have her surgery tomorrow ... so I do get the day off ... woohoo ... how rad is that ...


so the new attitude seems to make everything brighter ... and tomorrow I can sleep in and have a groovy day on my 33rd birthday ... rock and roll!!

Check out the George W. Bush re-mix of Liam Lynch's "United States of WHATEVER!" right here


Now it is quite funny but on an even funnier note is 106.7 KROQ's [in Southern California] Kevin and Bean with "Gay Whatever" ... I sent it to my friend Jason and he just loved it ... check it out right here

I really needed the laugh of the 101 Dumbest Moments in Business because when I opened it up to start reading I was ready to start crying ...


I have obviously been getting depressed ... it is apparent in the stuff I have been writing ... but this morning it felt especially bad ... the one thing that I was looking forward to was having Friday off ... David, Drew and I were planning on going to see "A View from the Top" ... and then out to dinner ... and I was really looking forward to not being here [work] for the day ... it has been so stressful lately and to be quite honest it is a crappy job ... yes it is a job and I am thankful to have it ... but in all reality it sucks ... but I try not to let that get to me ... I need the money ... it is unfortunate I make half of what I used to make ... and that the tasks assigned to me are mind numbingly boring but right now we are a single income family and we need the money ... I can wear whatever I want ... and set my own hours ... so there are perks ...


anyway ... I got a little side tracked there ... I was really looking forward to having Friday off ... I have been thinking about it since last Friday when my boss said it was fine ... but today my coworker walked in with news ... she is getting laser eye surgery on Friday ... and will be out ... we can't have the office closed ... and since my day was just a personal day to do nothing ... I will loose my day off ... it just makes me want to cry ... it is a silly thing to cry about I know ... but I feel so overburdened with stress I wanted a break ...


I wanted a day without being here ... I wanted an afternoon in my house without the French Bitch being home ... I wanted to sleep in ... I wanted to avoid traffic ... I just wanted a break from all the stuff that has been getting me riled ... and I wanted that on my birthday ...


ok now that I have bitched maybe I can get over it and move on ... so I have Saturday and Sunday off ... that is fine ... :)

The 101 Dumbest Moments in Business

I read this whole article ... and I must say ... quite funny!

Ya know what ... the French bitch upstairs is spoiling my space ... I came home excited ... renewed ... had a great day at work ... was having a fabulous hair day [not that it matters it is me and one other person in the office ... but still a great hair day is a great day] ... I printed all these fabulous photos ... bought frames ... avoided most of the traffic out there ... and then I get home and my chest hurts ... and I don't want to talk too loud ... have the TV too loud ... smoke at all ...


I just feel spoiled ... and not like I am getting a whole bunch of gifts spoiled ... but rotten spoiled ... since getting home I have felt teary [and I am not PMSing] ...


shit man this is my birthday week ... the whole week is supposed to be great ...


there is some good news ... I got Friday off of work ... and David's brother Drew is coming to stay with us for the weekend ... and my parents are taking us to Outback for dinner [gotta love the free meal on your birthday ... I always pick something David and I couldn't afford] ...


but for now I am going to stop bitching about the French Bitch ... worry about my own feelings more than hers ... and look forward to turning 33 ... something I have looked forward to for quite some time ...


in fact I think I will go have a smoke before heading to bed ... and this one I am going to enjoy ...


of course tomorrow I am going to buy some hard core incense and burn it all night on the patio ... :)


and on a side note ... do you think her being French and the impending war have anything to do with her heightened disdain for me ... it has been almost 4 months without an incident ... this week Bush talks that we are closer and closer and she has blown through several cans of air freshener ... slammed the door more times than I can count ... and stomped around so much she might need new shoes ...

well I found that art project to put me in a better mood ... I found a whole bunch of photos I love ... turned them into black and whites and printed them out ... then tonight on my way home from work I stopped at Michael's and got some of those clear plastic box frames [the cheap ones] ... and some pre-cut black mat ... and framed them all ... and now we are going to hang them in the hallway ... they look so great ... I just need to get some 5 x 7 frames cause I thought I had a whole bunch at home ... which I do ... but they are all scratched and chipped ... so I am going to get some of those tomorrow ... and I found a couple more pictures that I want to scan and print out ...

it has been a beautiful day today ... just amazing ... we have every door and window open in the place and it is great ...


problem is ... since the weather is nice again we have to deal with the upstairs neighbor... we stopped smoking on the patio like she asked ... we bought a smokeless ashtry which works like a charm ... once in a while if David is doing work out there or something he will have one ... but 98% of the time we smoke inside now ... with the door open ... but tonight I could hear her complaining and spraying the hell out of air freshener on her patio ... when we were and weren't smoking ... and it just makes me feel uncomfortable, guilty and terrible ... at the same time it is my house ... I don't know where to let my emotions fall ... how to feel ... or what to do ...


I hate being uncomfortable in my own home ... at the same time I hate to think I am making someone uncomfortable in their home ...


it makes David really mad and I hate to see him like that ... I also hate to think of what he will say if she comes down here again ... he won't be as nice as he was before ... he won't keep his mouth shut ... and he will piss them off ... :) but then that is just David ...


the whole situation just fucking sucks ...

When I went to the University of Kansas I didn't fit any sort of stereo type ... I was a total hippy ... followed the dead in the summer ... wore flower garlands in my hair when we would go out at night ... and worked at this great hippy/dead/Guatemalan store called The Phil Zone ... but I was also on Student Senate ... with all the straight laced stiff ones and totally loved it ... I had a perfect attendance record all 3 years I was there ... and I even ran 2 campaigns ... Senate was a big deal at KU ... we even had CNN at meetings ... and to totally throw the hippy stereo type out the window I was also in a Sorority ... it seemed to be very important to both my parents and Kris' parents ... so at the age of 21 we joined a house ... most pledges are 18 so we were way above the average ... what my parents didn't know is my whole reason for agreeing was I learned at Greek parties ... as long as you are Greek ... it is $5 for all the beer you can drink ... which meant kris and I could get loaded as some lame Greek party and then go out with our friends and we wouldn't have to spend much money ... and our parents were paying for any Greek stuff ... it was great ...


but we had a bit of a stuffy house ... some girls didn't understand why Kris and I had friends outside the sorority ... duhhhhhhh ... all my friends can't be from one place ...


there is a thing in Greek life of stealing people's composite pictures ... it is the huge frame that usually hangs in the entry way or the living room of the house that has a picture of each person in the house ... so when a sorority or fraternity steals the composite in order for the owners to get it back they have to come over and do something silly ... sing for it or bring dessert or something ... so it is a big deal ... our house was kinda dorks most of the time and we hadn't really gotten any ... it isn't easy to get them and if you get caught then you have to do something silly ...


well one night I was drunk [surprise surprise] and I called kris who was living at the house ... [i never lived in the soririty house] ... I told her to get Katie and Veronica [the only other cool girls in the house] and to meet me out back in 20 minutes ... when they got in the car I told them we were going to do something cool for the house ... we were going to get a good composite picture ...


the first one we got was just so easy I couldn't believe people didn't do this more often ... so we went to find a second ... and a third ... then a fourth ... and finally a fifth ... that one was brand new and still in the box ... they hadn't even hung it up yet ...


the back of my Jeep Cherokee was loaded and we brought them back to the house and lined the walls of our chapter room with them ... we were all giddy with excitement ... we knew everyone in the house would be thrilled ... this would give us status as a house to reckon with ... besides everyone would see 5 different fraternities coming to do stuff for us ...


well I couldn't have been more wrong ... I guess since it was kris and I ... and we were never totally accepted in our house ... they FREAKED out ... they said they were going to call the police and have me arrested for grand larceny [can you believe this shit] ... they told me I needed to take each of them back and apologize ...


well the next day Kris and I loaded them in my car [we didn't rat out Katie and Veronica cause the house loved them and so did we] ... and as we were driving to the first house I told Kris "Fuck this ... we did something really cool I am not going to apologize ... in fact I think I know how we can still get something good out of this" ... I put each composite in the wrong house ... hung it right up there on the wall like nothing had happened ... and I made sure that no one got each others so it would take a while to straighten it all out ... so house A got house B's and house B got house C's and so on ...


I knew guys in each of the houses and it turns out it took them ages to realize they even had the wrong picture ... and even longer still to figure out who had who's ... it was sweet justice for Kris and I for having such bitchy sisters ... all in all it was about 8 months before everyone figured it out ... :)

weird stuff happens when ya leave the house ...


we stopped off at CVS and then headed to Starbucks for coffee before getting our hair cut ... as David is driving through the parking lot I am looking out the car door window watching a woman pull into a parking space in front of the dry cleaners ... she is coasting into the space when suddenly her engine revs ... all 4 wheels come up off the ground ... she jumps the curb ... I yell "oh my god" ... and she flies through the front window of the dry cleaners ... it was unbelievable ... even after her car stopped moving forward the engine was still revving ... it was just crazy ...


we stopped and everyone was ok ... but I was just in shock ... we got our coffees and pulled out just as the cops and ambulance were pulling up ...


after the hair cuts we went to Home Depot ... as we were cruising the parking deck looking for a space we both jumped as we heard this huge crashing sound ... we looked left and there was a Budget rent-a-truck trying to pull into the lower level of the deck while the cab of the truck was being smashed by the upper level ... he ripped off several feet of the top of the truck cause he didn't stop at impact ... kept going for a bit ... as it backed up parts of the parking deck were falling to the ground and the truck was in bad shape ...


maybe this is why David and I are such home bodies at times ... too much weird shit going on out there ... one of those events happening in a day would blow my mind ... but 2 ... we have had our weekend full ... guess this means tomorrow I can stay at home ... :)

TiVo is greater than I could have ever imagined ... I am having so much fun with it ...


I am also so excited it is the weekend and we aren't going away ... although I had fun last weekend I just never get anything done when you only have a couple of weekend hours ... Davie and I are going to get haircuts ... grocery shopping ... COFFEE ... just get out and enjoy some of this day ... then I am going to finish putting away everything in the house ... because our new table comes next week ... woohoo ... :)

TiVo BABY!!!!! David is the best ever ... I got my birthday present today ... a few days early ... and Davie got me TiVo ... I can't even believe it ... it is so awesome ... I spent the evening playing with it and setting it up ... tonight I paused live TV while I made some hot chocolate ... it is just amazing ... I am sure I will be going on and on and on about how bitchen TiVo is for ages ... cause it really is the coolest thing I have ever gotten!!! ... And the first show it is recording ... I Love Lucy of course ... Thank you David ... I adore you to pieces!!!!!

ok the day turned out much better ... my coworker seemed to be fine after lunch ... it stopped snowing and actually got a bit sunny ... and I got to leave work at a reasonable hour for the first time in weeks ... and as an added bonus I got all my bills paid today too ...


so for once I am in a good mood once I got home ... I am sure that makes David happy ... and anything that makes davie happy can't be all bad ... :)

something weird is going on at work today ... the girl I work with seems perturbed with me ... and when there are only 2 people in the office that isn't a good thing ... and I am not quite sure why she would be ... I want to ask her but at the same time I am too worn out to get into anything today ... I just want to get my work done and get home ... it is too bad it isn't 4 o'clock ... and I was heading out the door ... I guess it will come soon enough ...


on a happy note I think our new dining room table is arriving tomorrow ... I think ... could be Friday but from an email I got today it looks like we might have it tomorrow ... that inspires me to get some shit done on the house tonight ... so we will be ready for it's arrival ...

it is totally fucking snowing ... I can't believe this ... what the hell ... spring is 10 days away and we are still getting snow ... it is crazy ... I thought I said I didn't want to see another flake ... man alive ... I am ready to wear sandals and T-shirts ... my scarf is starting to feel like a noose around my neck ...

33 is fast approaching ... for years I looked forward to this birthday ... but with the days I have been having lately I am not ready for it ...


my teeth grinding has gotten to an all time high ... almost everyday for the last week I have woken up with a terrible headache ... and a sore jaw ... and poor David has been going out to the couch or staying on the computer cause he can't sleep with the noise anymore ... unfortunately I don't know what I can do about it ... I have had 4 different bite plates of varying thickness and material and all of them I have ground through in less than a week ... the last one I had made me look like I was in shock it was so thick and my mouth stayed open so wide ... the dentist guaranteed me I wouldn't grind through it ... 4 days later I was back in his office with holes straight through the thing and he was just amazed ... he said he worried I might be doing more damage to my teeth going through the guards ...


and work has just been rough ... the sales people who I do work for treat me like I am the enemy ... not like I am there to make their life easier but fight everything I do ... and it is so draining ... my body aches by the time I get home each night ... and once I get here I still have work to do ...


it feels like ages since I have had a work free day where I wasn't stuck at home cause of snow ... I am usually a winter person and at this point I don't want to see another flake ever again ... and I wish all the black crap on the sides of the street would finally melt ... enough already ...


I could probably go on bitching for quite some time cause it has been days of discouragement ...


oh and my right eye has been burning all day ... and watering ... and I don't know why ... I even used anti-histamine eye drops which are the bomb and usually fix anything


ya know what ... I think I need an art project ... something relaxing that eases my mind ... and give me something to concentrate on other than work ... and headaches ... and all that stuff ...


or maybe a massage ... never gone and gotten one of those but for someone to help me release the tension built up in my body that would be a great thing ... yea I gotta look into that ...

I think I am going to set up some ebay auctions and sell some of my stuff so I can buy this super groovy clock from FredFlare.com ... I just love this clock and it would look so awesome in our kitchen ... especially after we get our retro kitchen table and chairs which should be here before my birthday ...  I mean who wouldn't love a cat clock whose tail wagged back and forth and eyes went side to side ... in fact it might be worth it just to see how Kramer reacts ... :) Check out the Kit Cat clock and other things at FredFlare.com

It was a fun weekend because it was different ... but it is a stressful Sunday because I didn't get much done at home ...


we left early Saturday morning for Philly to go to the flower show ... which turned out to be pretty cool ... David and I saw a booth that was "rooftop gardens" for people living in the city but one of the ideas we are going to do here ... they made stepping stones that fit into each other to cover the area and we are going to do it for our patio with some flower and herb boxes ... and since they are made of cement and heavy they don't have to be affixed to the surface so they don't violate condo rules ...


we went out for Cuban food which was pretty good ... and I slept like a baby in the king size bed in the hotel ... now I want one for here ... :)


even though we arrived home at a reasonable time I was just wiped out from running around all weekend that I only got a few things accomplished ... then it was time for TV ... it is Sunday night after all ...


QAF was great tonight ... I really liked it ... I just love that show ... Six Feet Under was pretty good but everyone is become more screwy ... I love Lily Taylor but I am not very fond of her character on the show ... but on Queer As Folk there is no one I don't like ... :) ... so usually every moment of the show is good ...


but now that it is 11 and I have had such a busy weekend [for me] ... I should get in bed ... get a good nights sleep before starting another dragging/stressful week of work ...

tomorrow my mom and dad and brother and sister-in-law and David and I are driving to Pennsylvania for the flower show ... it is a present from Jason and Jenny ... luckily we are taking 2 cars [since David and I are still smokers ... and my dad too for that matter but I don't know if my mom will let him ride with us :)] ... so David and I will be able to smoke and rock out to music ... not have to talk too much ... and stop for coffee along the way ...


not sure why they are so gung ho on the flower show but it should give me an opportunity to take some groovy pictures ... at least I believe so even though I have never been to a flower show ... then we are all going out to dinner and staying in a hotel ... it should be a fun weekend even though all I want to do is sleep in this weekend and Saturday nor Sunday will I have the chance to do so ... :)

tonight is the last episode of "I'm a Celebrity ... Get Me Out of Here" ... and I am kinda sad to see it go off ... as dorky as that may sound ... I have enjoyed watching it ... and the two people I have been voting for are both in the final ... so I believe it is my votes that put them there :) of course I would believe that ... I am also waiting for Melissa Rivers and Cris Judd to get my phone number off the caller ID log and personally call to thank me ... hahahahhaaaa


well I am too tired to write any more ... hope everyone has a fabulous day ... :)

I need some help with a moral issue ...


tonight I stopped at the grocery store ... I got some coffee oreos ... two things of chicken carvers ... two packages of Lipton garlic pasta ... and 3 packs of cigarettes ... I went to the self check out cause it is so much more fun ... started scanning my stuff and when I scanned the first pack of cigs the machine said "this is an item that requires age verification please put the item aside someone will be over shortly to verify your identification" ... it said it on each pack when I scanned them through ... so the lane light started blinking and I finished my order and then the "finish and check out" came up on the screen ... clicked it ... ran my ATM through ... got cash back ... loaded my stuff and headed home ...


as I was unloading my grocery bag I looked at the receipt ... the cigs weren't on there ... everything else was but not the cigs ... I feel like I should go back to the store and pay for the cigs ... David doesn't think it is such a big deal ... and I just don't know what to do ...


so do I go back to the store and pay for the 3 packs of cigs ... or just forget it and think of it as a nice treat for the day ...

well March 3, 2003 came and went without an eventful occurrence ... this was a once in a lifetime day ... I charged into the day ready to make something happen ... something memorable ... but it just wasn't in the cards ...


I guess some times nothing memorable can be a good thing ... :)

since 3 is my favorite number ... today should be especially lucky ... :)

Oh my goodness I just lucked out ... Queer as Folk season 3 premiers tonight ... and it was only by a fluke that I found out ... turned on the TV to catch the tail end of the commercial ... what a night for TV ... I'm a Celebrity for 2 hours ... season premier of Six Feet Under ... while I tape Alias ... then the season premier of Queer as Folk ...


damn you think I might be a bit hooked to the TV ...


ahhhh who the hell cares ... :)

I finally found a store out here that sells my favorite candles ... it seemed that everywhere I looked out here they only carried Yankee Candles and I am not too fond of them but I bought them so the house would smell nice ... but my favorites are Colonial at HOME ... they have the greatest staying power and wonderful scents ...


so I bought two ... Fresh Rain which I have burning in the living room and Fresh Picked Raspberries which is burning right here next to my computer ... they are both simply awesome ...


well back to cleaning house ... it is about 50 degrees here today [total shocker ... feels like spring] and we have the windows open ... I sure enjoy house cleaning more when it is nice outside and the breeze is blowing ... weird ...

we have a bat living in a vent on our balcony ... how gross is that? ...


so as not to bother the neighbor upstairs ... and so we don't freeze our asses off ... we sit inside the house at the sliding glass door and smoke ... usually the door is open enough that Kramer can get out ... well last night Kramer started going crazy when I was having a smoke and just flew through the partially open door ... I had just finished my cig when he went out and I started calling him to come in ... he doesn't disobey often but last night he just sat there staring at the vent and whenever I said his name he meowed ... so I stepped out on to the balcony to get him when something swooped down at me ... I flailed my arms ... Kramer jumped around and I ran in the house and as I was shutting the door I saw a dark flying figure shoot right into the vent ... Kramer was frozen just staring at the vent ...


tonight neither David nor I can sleep ... I noticed he wasn't in bed and came out to see what was going on ... he told me he had just had a cig and the flying thing ... it wasn't a bird or a big moth ... it was in fact a bat ... he just witnessed what I did last night ...


shit I got the shivers typing that ... I really don't want a bat living on our patio ... in my lifetime I have had 3 really close encounters with them ... last nights swoop makes 4 ... personally I think that is enough ... :)

came across a pretty groovy blog ... Trash Log ... I would love to come up with an idea that I would do each day ... I dig blogs like that ... enjoy!!

I am in quite a unique position ... showing David the direct effects of karma ...


here is how it is ...


see David and I worked together for a crooked bastard ... in fact that is how we met ... eventually David had too many issues with our boss and they couldn't work them out so they both thought it was best David leave the company ... but in order for David and I to survive I needed my job there ... we needed the money ... so each day I continued to work there and each night I would come home to David's bitching and hatred of the man I worked for [we'll call him S] ... S would call the house and David would freak out ... he would ask me to do work and David would become livid ... I bit my tongue and tried to appease everyone ... but it wasn't easy ...


there were times David would take his anger out on the company ... launch DOS attacks on their servers ... and I would pretend I didn't know what was happening and calmly talk to my customers letting them know we were taking care of everything ... and I didn't get mad at David ... I would just beg him not to do anything that would land him in serious trouble ...


eventually he turned the company in for software theft and their slighting their employees on overtime ... I got nervous but nothing actually happened while I was working there ... but not even 2 weeks after they laid me off the walls started crumbling around them ... US Marshals busted into the server rooms and started shutting down servers ... lawyers went through their books ... and by this time I was happy the stuff was happening to them ... they used and abused lots of people ... no one should get away with that ... and in the end it cost them more money than I will ever make in my lifetime ...


but the 6 months I continued to work there after David left were hell on me ... I was always nervous and sick that either one of us would get in trouble for something even if we weren't doing stuff ... but with someone who lies, cheats, and steals you never know what they will pull ...


fast forward 2 years ... David and I have our own web hosting and design business ... and we have this customer that I feel is a chiseler and crooked ... he tries to take advantage of people ... and if he feels he has the slightest bit of power or authority over anyone he exploits it ...


for about 8 months now I have done all the work on the site and I have been his contact ... and it has been horrible ... when I suggest things for the site he tells me I have no idea what I am talking about ... I couldn't possibly understand how web site ... in particular this one ... work ... it is too complicated for me ... I bite my tongue instead of reeling off obscenities and telling him I have been designing and selling on the web for almost 10 years now and fucking know what I am doing ... that just because I have tits and a vagina doesn't make me an idiot ... but I abstained and let him think he is coming up with everything ... [this is a man that for the first 2 months of work on the site he kept calling hyperlinks "the blue little underliney things"] ...


well I guess my headstrongness [is that even a word] got to him ... I just didn't take his crap ... I learned that from David ... the more you let people push you around the more they will and I have learned to stand up for myself ... anyway he got sick of it and sent me an email telling me they were looking into moving the site and letting someone else take over the day to day work on it ... what a fucking pisser ...


David who doesn't kiss up at all had to make the decision ... he could either tell them to fuck off and move their site ... or he could go against every bone in his body and kiss up to this man ... he took a day to think about it and went with the latter ... he puckered up and phoned the client ...


obviously the client felt more power because David explained he had taken me off the project [hahahaa like he is my boss] ... and that he would now be taking over full time ... he wrote a list of things that were to be done and saved the contract ...


and yea for David ... I know he felt good about that ... and I was happy cause it is a lot of money ... but not even 5 minutes after he hung up the phone he started talking to me like the client used to .. saying I did this and that wrong ... and this and that needed to be fixed ... not only did it hurt that he would think this son-of-a-bitch were telling the truth ... the fact that he had the balls to talk to me like that drove me to debate should I punch him in the head or kick him in those balls that were now taking over ...


I left the room to go think on my own but for a day there we were at each others throats ... he was pissing me off to no end ... David is the tech guy ... I am the design gal ... I know the coding and how the site has been done ... David has taken care of all the tech aspects of the sites ... but now he was attempting to design the site without talking to me ... second guessing the work I had done ... and treating me like this ...


then it hit me ... our roles from 2 years ago were totally reversed ... he was now working for someone that I had worked for and now I despised ... he was talking about it when I wanted to hear nothing of the site ... he starting working on the site late into the night and ignoring me completely ... he was putting more into the job than he was getting paid for ... all the things he complained about regarding me ...


and shit I know how to take down a site as well as the next person ... I can corrupt files ... I can send emails telling someone what an asshole they are from an anonymous source ... I can do everything David did ... [well not reaming them for software theft or over time stuff since it isn't happening] ... but everything he did to make my life hell while working a job I needed I can do back now ... he has that scared look on his face that I used to walk around with ... just talking about taking the site down for an hour or so freaks him out ...


and he finally sees what he did ... he acknowledges that although he may have been pissed off at what happened at our first job together ... I still had to work there ... I needed to earn money for us ... and that it probably really did suck being in my position ...


not that I would do anything to jeopardize his job ... but using a little torture here and there ... I am all up for that ... in fact it makes me a bit giddy ... seeing him squirm like I did ... it is nice to know that in the future ... should anything like this ever arise again ... he will understand from experience where I am coming from ...