Love

i have such happy love feelings right now ... i love when i feel this way about David ...

i have such happy love feelings right now ... i love when i feel this way about David ...

Classmates

now on a more positive note ... i have gotten in touch with several friends from elementary school thanks to ClassMates.com ... which is pretty bitchen ... it is great catching up with people that were so near and dear to me in the past ...


although i am learning i am one of a few people that doesn't have children ... and i may be one of the only people never married ... many have been married and are now divorced ... but only a few never married ...

now on a more positive note ... i have gotten in touch with several friends from elementary school thanks to ClassMates.com ... which is pretty bitchen ... it is great catching up with people that were so near and dear to me in the past ...


although i am learning i am one of a few people that doesn't have children ... and i may be one of the only people never married ... many have been married and are now divorced ... but only a few never married ...

The Change

it has been a weird couple of days ...

the impending office move is really shaking up my world

i am dreading the commute ... BIG TIME

i have been stressed about money issues with the move

and my new job ...


why are they giving me a different job when i really do love what i do now ...

i may not always love the people i work with but i sure do love the job i am doing ...


today i had to pack up everything at my desk that i wanted to send to the city

my cube looks pitiful ...


tomorrow they take down our computers ...

i don't know what we are going to do on friday ...


fuck it is all just too much for me to handle ...

worst part ... the people making the decisions have NO IDEA what they are putting people through ... our entire lives are being changed ... everything we are used to ... the life we love to lead is being changed ...


fucking 3 hours a day traveling to and from work ... fucking sucks cock if you ask me ...

it has been a weird couple of days ...

the impending office move is really shaking up my world

i am dreading the commute ... BIG TIME

i have been stressed about money issues with the move

and my new job ...


why are they giving me a different job when i really do love what i do now ...

i may not always love the people i work with but i sure do love the job i am doing ...


today i had to pack up everything at my desk that i wanted to send to the city

my cube looks pitiful ...


tomorrow they take down our computers ...

i don't know what we are going to do on friday ...


fuck it is all just too much for me to handle ...

worst part ... the people making the decisions have NO IDEA what they are putting people through ... our entire lives are being changed ... everything we are used to ... the life we love to lead is being changed ...


fucking 3 hours a day traveling to and from work ... fucking sucks cock if you ask me ...

Ducky

I love the scene in Pretty In Pink where Ducky lip sync's in the record store ... i always wanted a ducky in my life ... and i don't think for even a moment i have had a Ducky in my life ... ever ...

I love the scene in Pretty In Pink where Ducky lip sync's in the record store ... i always wanted a ducky in my life ... and i don't think for even a moment i have had a Ducky in my life ... ever ...

Sally

i'm watching "When Harry Met Sally" ... and there is a line in this that i have always thought rang true for a theme of my life ... "I always thought he didn't want to get married ... the truth is he didn't want to marry me"

i'm watching "When Harry Met Sally" ... and there is a line in this that i have always thought rang true for a theme of my life ... "I always thought he didn't want to get married ... the truth is he didn't want to marry me"

Confusing

too many things in my life are confusing right now ... work ... way confusing ... relationship ... oh yea totally confusing ... isn't there some point in life where things start falling in place ... i mean where i will have time to enjoy it ... ??

too many things in my life are confusing right now ... work ... way confusing ... relationship ... oh yea totally confusing ... isn't there some point in life where things start falling in place ... i mean where i will have time to enjoy it ... ??

My Crown

my crown is so beautiful ... it is sitting on my monitor here at home just waiting to be put on ... i can hardly wait to get to work today ... this is so fucking funny i was laughing in my sleep last night from the anticipation ...


i deceided to go in the front door today instead of our back entrance so i could walk around the office ... waving like a princess and saying hello to everyone ... it really is just priceless ... what a great spin to put on such a stupid comment ... i am so glad i left the office yesterday and thought about it instead of just blowing up at him ...


i just can't stop smiling thinking about it ... ohhhhh fuck yea!!!!

my crown is so beautiful ... it is sitting on my monitor here at home just waiting to be put on ... i can hardly wait to get to work today ... this is so fucking funny i was laughing in my sleep last night from the anticipation ...


i deceided to go in the front door today instead of our back entrance so i could walk around the office ... waving like a princess and saying hello to everyone ... it really is just priceless ... what a great spin to put on such a stupid comment ... i am so glad i left the office yesterday and thought about it instead of just blowing up at him ...


i just can't stop smiling thinking about it ... ohhhhh fuck yea!!!!

Princess

today work was kinda hectic ... i had to finish up work from yesterday cause i spent the whole day working on a project ... and then a lot of our windows servers were attacked by the Worm virus ... well i have several 100 more customers than the other sales people that were in today ... and if they weren't calling about the virus they were calling to have domains added ... it was just a really big busy phone day for me ...


Carlos was transferring a call to me as i was hanging up on another one and i said ... "ohhhh when are they going to leave me alone?"


the next thing i knew an instant message started blinking on my screen ... as i read it i realized it wasn't for me ... it said ...

"well if she wasn't the princess who took every account, this wouldn't be happening.. Right?"


i saw red ... instantly ... the biggest reason i have so many accounts is because i work so hard ... and care about my work ... he on the other hand doesn't care at all ...


i think if someone who worked really hard made that comment it wouldn't have bothered me as much ...


well as soon as i read it i heard him and john messaging feaverishly ... i finished my phone call ... calmly put my stuff in my bag ... turned off my computer ... and got up and left ... while i was packing up john kept saying ... 'liz ... liz ... liz are you ok ... hey liz' but i didn't look at him or acknowledge him in anyway ... i knew what they thought now ... fuck 'em ...


i really wanted to stand up and say ... "well ya know carlos if you weren't such a fucking moron i wouldn't have so many accounts" ... but i didn't ... i didn't want to say anything that would get me in trouble or make me look bad ...


when i got home the techs were messaging me saying ... 'how ya doing princess?" ... it was pretty funny


but tonight i was sitting here ... and i was thinking ... why should he get off scott free ... fuck that ... and i got up ... got dressed and went to Target ... and got myself a tiera ... and i am going to strutt into work as a princess ... and wear that thing all morning ... when it is time to take it off it is going to sit on my monitor as a reminder ... :)


shit i was laughing so hard in Target I must have looked like a lunatic ... hahahahahaaaaa

today work was kinda hectic ... i had to finish up work from yesterday cause i spent the whole day working on a project ... and then a lot of our windows servers were attacked by the Worm virus ... well i have several 100 more customers than the other sales people that were in today ... and if they weren't calling about the virus they were calling to have domains added ... it was just a really big busy phone day for me ...


Carlos was transferring a call to me as i was hanging up on another one and i said ... "ohhhh when are they going to leave me alone?"


the next thing i knew an instant message started blinking on my screen ... as i read it i realized it wasn't for me ... it said ...

"well if she wasn't the princess who took every account, this wouldn't be happening.. Right?"


i saw red ... instantly ... the biggest reason i have so many accounts is because i work so hard ... and care about my work ... he on the other hand doesn't care at all ...


i think if someone who worked really hard made that comment it wouldn't have bothered me as much ...


well as soon as i read it i heard him and john messaging feaverishly ... i finished my phone call ... calmly put my stuff in my bag ... turned off my computer ... and got up and left ... while i was packing up john kept saying ... 'liz ... liz ... liz are you ok ... hey liz' but i didn't look at him or acknowledge him in anyway ... i knew what they thought now ... fuck 'em ...


i really wanted to stand up and say ... "well ya know carlos if you weren't such a fucking moron i wouldn't have so many accounts" ... but i didn't ... i didn't want to say anything that would get me in trouble or make me look bad ...


when i got home the techs were messaging me saying ... 'how ya doing princess?" ... it was pretty funny


but tonight i was sitting here ... and i was thinking ... why should he get off scott free ... fuck that ... and i got up ... got dressed and went to Target ... and got myself a tiera ... and i am going to strutt into work as a princess ... and wear that thing all morning ... when it is time to take it off it is going to sit on my monitor as a reminder ... :)


shit i was laughing so hard in Target I must have looked like a lunatic ... hahahahahaaaaa

Case

This is going to be the case for my new computer!!!!

This is going to be the case for my new computer!!!!

Stayed Home

it is one thing to get to work and it turn into a shitty day

it is a much different thing to know it is going to be a shitty day before you even leave the house


i wish if i just stayed home it would all go away

it is one thing to get to work and it turn into a shitty day

it is a much different thing to know it is going to be a shitty day before you even leave the house


i wish if i just stayed home it would all go away

Quote

Quote from my mom


"You're the daughter I dreamed of having when I was a little girl.

Only she wore cuter shoes."

Quote from my mom


"You're the daughter I dreamed of having when I was a little girl.

Only she wore cuter shoes."

Quote

Quote for the day ... made by Tracy


" It is a good thing you never became a White House Intern"


reason being ... i truly resemble both Monica and Chandra ... she is getting a lot of milage out of this today ... she thinks it is so funny!!

Quote for the day ... made by Tracy


" It is a good thing you never became a White House Intern"


reason being ... i truly resemble both Monica and Chandra ... she is getting a lot of milage out of this today ... she thinks it is so funny!!

Legally Blonde

Oh my god ... Legally Blonde ... is soooooo good ... i just loved it ... Reese is just awesome and i left the theater with this new lease on empowerment and a huge smile on my face ... even seeing it alone i was just cracking up ... wonderful wonderful wonderful way to start my sunday ...


i hadn't had a "Liz" day in so long i just deceided to create my own!!!!!

Oh my god ... Legally Blonde ... is soooooo good ... i just loved it ... Reese is just awesome and i left the theater with this new lease on empowerment and a huge smile on my face ... even seeing it alone i was just cracking up ... wonderful wonderful wonderful way to start my sunday ...


i hadn't had a "Liz" day in so long i just deceided to create my own!!!!!

Buss To Hell

wow i knew it had been a while since i wrote anything but i didn't realize it had been an entire week ... time sure does fly when you are in hell ...


well i am not exactly in hell ... but i sure do feel like i am on the bus to hell ... yesterday was a completely terrible day ... in fact i can't say any of the days since last Sunday were particularly great ... most days at work were better ... and there is something quite wrong when work is a better place to be than at home ...


david is miserable about not working ... and i am the one he is taking it out on ... fucking A ... explain that one to me ... yesterday it finally came to blows ... well really harsh words ... i woke up feeling pretty good to find Mr. Boo-Hoo at his computer already in bitch mode ... so to try and bring a little cheer to his life [and i was thinking consequently mine] i suggested we go out to eat ... we did and it looked like i could break through the dark clouds and save the day of complete misery but i was totally wrong ...


after lunch we stopped at Staples to get some envelopes for his resume campaign i persuaded him to launch and then i wanted to stop at Home Depot ... I wanted to find this silver paint i had seen on the tv show Trading Spaces and I wanted to get some resin for my magnets ... i wanted to sit outside and enjoy the day and work on my project ... the plan was to see Legally Blonde but that idea was nixed right away ... there are 2 things i have been talking about all week ... legally blonde and the silver paint ...


so anyway upon walking out of Staples i went in the direction of Home Depot ... it is fucking right next door ... in other words we are already fucking there ... and david snapped 'what are you doing' ... 'going to Home Depot' ... 'what do you fucking need there?' [did the light go off for you there ... i realized i may talk at home but it is like the question of the falling tree in the forest ... if no one is there to hear it does it make noise ... if he isn't listening to me am i really saying the words?"] ... so he gripes 'i am going to the car' i know the look on my face was one of dejections ... i slumped my shoulders to head for the car only to hear ... 'fine we'll fucking go to Home Depot' ... would anyone in their right mind think i want to go now ... fuck that i am not going to drag someone around on grumpy day ...


we left ... stopped at Starbucks ... he asked me what was wrong while waiting in the drive through ... was he kidding ... he pulled a hissy fit and doesn't know what is wrong ... we did the things he needed but mine mean nothing and he doesn't understand why i won't look at him ... well i didn't even answer ... i wasn't in the mood to talk ... and so we didn't ... not until late that night ... we said nothing to each other ...


at around 9 David got up to get cigs and asked if when he got back i would show him how to set up the mail merge database on word so he could work on his resumes ... i said sure ... and while he was gone i figured i would refresh myself with how to do it ... the last time i looked for a job was in 1996 ... so i sat down at his computer and started messing around in word ... the program had changed since the last time i used it for this function but right as i figured out everything that needed to be done i heard behind me 'you aren't even fucking going to show me how to do it you are just going to do it yourself?" ... i hadn't even heard him come in let alone sneak right up behind me ...


that was it ... i lost it and started screaming ... "what the fuck is your problem ... i was figuring out how to fucking do it so i could show you ... the program has changed since the last time i fucking used it and i thought it would be a good fucking idea to refresh my memory before i showed you how the fuck to use it"


he stormed out of the room ... and i followed ... he started screaming that he just couldn't talk to me right now or look at me that i better just get the fuck away from him ... what the fuck was he talking about ... me he can't look at fucking me ... fuck you ... all i do is support everything he does ... encourage everything he wants to do ... and live his self centered life ... we do everything how he wants to and he can't fucking look at me ...


i actually saw red


i sat down on the bed and didn't even put in the movie i wanted to watch ... i just turned on Jurassic Park ... and started cutting up magazines for my magnets ... it is a calming thing for me ... i sat there brooding thinking ... how the fuck does he talk to me that way and i say nothing ... no ... not this time ... i don't think so ... and i lost it ...


i got my finger right up in his face ... to let him know i knew it would be annoying but i was pissed and he needed to know how important this is ...


"if you ever fucking talk to me that way again you can get the fuck out of this house ...

boo-hoo you don't have a job ... but you aren't on the street ... you don't have to live with your father ... you have a place to live to live so the necessities of life haven't been ripped away from you ... you get Starbucks and cigarettes whenever you want so you haven't lost the luxuries of life either ... and you are going to scream and be a bitch all day to the person that provides these things for you ... the person that supports all your decisions and stands by you ... fuck you ... you are downright mean to me ... i am SORRY you don't have a job but fuck you if you think i am going to let you treat me like shit any longer ... f u c k y o u!!!!!"


and that was it ... we haven't spoken since ...


i woke up at 8 this morning and have already showered and put together a list of the necessities we need ... i think now i am going to get dressed ... make a little Target trip ... stop off at Starbucks and then head to the 11:20 AM showing of Legally Blonde ... all by myself ... this way i believe i will really enjoy my day ... and he can sit here in this dark dank basement and have his own miserable day alone ...


today i am not getting sucked into his shit

wow i knew it had been a while since i wrote anything but i didn't realize it had been an entire week ... time sure does fly when you are in hell ...


well i am not exactly in hell ... but i sure do feel like i am on the bus to hell ... yesterday was a completely terrible day ... in fact i can't say any of the days since last Sunday were particularly great ... most days at work were better ... and there is something quite wrong when work is a better place to be than at home ...


david is miserable about not working ... and i am the one he is taking it out on ... fucking A ... explain that one to me ... yesterday it finally came to blows ... well really harsh words ... i woke up feeling pretty good to find Mr. Boo-Hoo at his computer already in bitch mode ... so to try and bring a little cheer to his life [and i was thinking consequently mine] i suggested we go out to eat ... we did and it looked like i could break through the dark clouds and save the day of complete misery but i was totally wrong ...


after lunch we stopped at Staples to get some envelopes for his resume campaign i persuaded him to launch and then i wanted to stop at Home Depot ... I wanted to find this silver paint i had seen on the tv show Trading Spaces and I wanted to get some resin for my magnets ... i wanted to sit outside and enjoy the day and work on my project ... the plan was to see Legally Blonde but that idea was nixed right away ... there are 2 things i have been talking about all week ... legally blonde and the silver paint ...


so anyway upon walking out of Staples i went in the direction of Home Depot ... it is fucking right next door ... in other words we are already fucking there ... and david snapped 'what are you doing' ... 'going to Home Depot' ... 'what do you fucking need there?' [did the light go off for you there ... i realized i may talk at home but it is like the question of the falling tree in the forest ... if no one is there to hear it does it make noise ... if he isn't listening to me am i really saying the words?"] ... so he gripes 'i am going to the car' i know the look on my face was one of dejections ... i slumped my shoulders to head for the car only to hear ... 'fine we'll fucking go to Home Depot' ... would anyone in their right mind think i want to go now ... fuck that i am not going to drag someone around on grumpy day ...


we left ... stopped at Starbucks ... he asked me what was wrong while waiting in the drive through ... was he kidding ... he pulled a hissy fit and doesn't know what is wrong ... we did the things he needed but mine mean nothing and he doesn't understand why i won't look at him ... well i didn't even answer ... i wasn't in the mood to talk ... and so we didn't ... not until late that night ... we said nothing to each other ...


at around 9 David got up to get cigs and asked if when he got back i would show him how to set up the mail merge database on word so he could work on his resumes ... i said sure ... and while he was gone i figured i would refresh myself with how to do it ... the last time i looked for a job was in 1996 ... so i sat down at his computer and started messing around in word ... the program had changed since the last time i used it for this function but right as i figured out everything that needed to be done i heard behind me 'you aren't even fucking going to show me how to do it you are just going to do it yourself?" ... i hadn't even heard him come in let alone sneak right up behind me ...


that was it ... i lost it and started screaming ... "what the fuck is your problem ... i was figuring out how to fucking do it so i could show you ... the program has changed since the last time i fucking used it and i thought it would be a good fucking idea to refresh my memory before i showed you how the fuck to use it"


he stormed out of the room ... and i followed ... he started screaming that he just couldn't talk to me right now or look at me that i better just get the fuck away from him ... what the fuck was he talking about ... me he can't look at fucking me ... fuck you ... all i do is support everything he does ... encourage everything he wants to do ... and live his self centered life ... we do everything how he wants to and he can't fucking look at me ...


i actually saw red


i sat down on the bed and didn't even put in the movie i wanted to watch ... i just turned on Jurassic Park ... and started cutting up magazines for my magnets ... it is a calming thing for me ... i sat there brooding thinking ... how the fuck does he talk to me that way and i say nothing ... no ... not this time ... i don't think so ... and i lost it ...


i got my finger right up in his face ... to let him know i knew it would be annoying but i was pissed and he needed to know how important this is ...


"if you ever fucking talk to me that way again you can get the fuck out of this house ...

boo-hoo you don't have a job ... but you aren't on the street ... you don't have to live with your father ... you have a place to live to live so the necessities of life haven't been ripped away from you ... you get Starbucks and cigarettes whenever you want so you haven't lost the luxuries of life either ... and you are going to scream and be a bitch all day to the person that provides these things for you ... the person that supports all your decisions and stands by you ... fuck you ... you are downright mean to me ... i am SORRY you don't have a job but fuck you if you think i am going to let you treat me like shit any longer ... f u c k y o u!!!!!"


and that was it ... we haven't spoken since ...


i woke up at 8 this morning and have already showered and put together a list of the necessities we need ... i think now i am going to get dressed ... make a little Target trip ... stop off at Starbucks and then head to the 11:20 AM showing of Legally Blonde ... all by myself ... this way i believe i will really enjoy my day ... and he can sit here in this dark dank basement and have his own miserable day alone ...


today i am not getting sucked into his shit

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More Sleep

i can't wait till my brother's wedding is over ... the turmoil it is causing my family is making me sick ... everyone is unhappy ... it just sucks ...


i wasn't feeling good when i went to sleep last night ... and this morning david was up super early to go bike riding with Spiro ... so i was up early and went and got coffee before he left ... i worked from 8 to 11 and then laid down ... i slept till david got home at 3 ...


today we played The Game Of Life ... and watched a movie ... ate some dinner ... went out for coffee ... and then worked from like 8 till 11 ... and don't have much hanging for tomorrow ... and since then i have been sitting here not knowing what to do ... not really in the mood to work on one of my sites ... can't think of any sites i wanna go to ... just spinning my wheels hoping inspiration hits me ... so i think i will head to bed ...

i can't wait till my brother's wedding is over ... the turmoil it is causing my family is making me sick ... everyone is unhappy ... it just sucks ...


i wasn't feeling good when i went to sleep last night ... and this morning david was up super early to go bike riding with Spiro ... so i was up early and went and got coffee before he left ... i worked from 8 to 11 and then laid down ... i slept till david got home at 3 ...


today we played The Game Of Life ... and watched a movie ... ate some dinner ... went out for coffee ... and then worked from like 8 till 11 ... and don't have much hanging for tomorrow ... and since then i have been sitting here not knowing what to do ... not really in the mood to work on one of my sites ... can't think of any sites i wanna go to ... just spinning my wheels hoping inspiration hits me ... so i think i will head to bed ...

Depeche Mode

last night was so fun ... we went and saw Depeche Mode at Jones Beach and it was so fun ... the place is amazing and it was the first concert i have seen there ... and i would love to see any band there ...


i wound up working all day today even thought i had the day off ... we got more hosting sign ups today than we got all last week ... isn't that always the way it is ... busy as hell the one day i am working alone ... :)


i think i mostly worked so much cause i am trying to keep my mind off of everything that is going on at work ... i hate when things are unsettled and i don't have all the facts ... i am not one who is good at being patient ... but i have no choice right now ...


its so weird it feels like sunday ... how groovy is it going to feel on friday when i get another weekend ... so to speak ...

last night was so fun ... we went and saw Depeche Mode at Jones Beach and it was so fun ... the place is amazing and it was the first concert i have seen there ... and i would love to see any band there ...


i wound up working all day today even thought i had the day off ... we got more hosting sign ups today than we got all last week ... isn't that always the way it is ... busy as hell the one day i am working alone ... :)


i think i mostly worked so much cause i am trying to keep my mind off of everything that is going on at work ... i hate when things are unsettled and i don't have all the facts ... i am not one who is good at being patient ... but i have no choice right now ...


its so weird it feels like sunday ... how groovy is it going to feel on friday when i get another weekend ... so to speak ...

Smitten

i am smitten with David right now ... i thought i forgot my phone today cause i had to take it out of my bag to charge over the weekend ... usually i charge it at work so i don't forget it ... well i went out to get coffee and looked down to see my antena blinking ... david is so sweet ... he saw my phone charging and put it in my bag for me ... :)

i am smitten with David right now ... i thought i forgot my phone today cause i had to take it out of my bag to charge over the weekend ... usually i charge it at work so i don't forget it ... well i went out to get coffee and looked down to see my antena blinking ... david is so sweet ... he saw my phone charging and put it in my bag for me ... :)

Monopoly

now that david is home on the weekends i don't feel so bored ... so i don't seem to write too much ...

today i got two of my artwork sections done on ItsLiz.com ... and i did a whole bunch of work/work ... and david and i played Monopoly ...


and i learned that the Monopoly game will never be over ... david found a safe place for the board so we can continue later ... he said this game goes on for years ... hahahahahahaa ... it's just cause he is winning so far ...


well i am off to bed ... not really in the mood to write ... tomorrow is going to be a weird day at work ... everyone is back ... i just feel like it is going to be a freaky day ... ack ...

now that david is home on the weekends i don't feel so bored ... so i don't seem to write too much ...

today i got two of my artwork sections done on ItsLiz.com ... and i did a whole bunch of work/work ... and david and i played Monopoly ...


and i learned that the Monopoly game will never be over ... david found a safe place for the board so we can continue later ... he said this game goes on for years ... hahahahahahaa ... it's just cause he is winning so far ...


well i am off to bed ... not really in the mood to write ... tomorrow is going to be a weird day at work ... everyone is back ... i just feel like it is going to be a freaky day ... ack ...