Wednesday, May 30, 2001
Bad Mood Day
man ... i can't break the bad mood ... and to make matters worse we are moving servers from our old office to the new one ... not good ... they didn't write anyone ahead of time and let them know ... so customer after customer is calling all pissed off ... not the day i feel like dealing with this ...
man ... i can't break the bad mood ... and to make matters worse we are moving servers from our old office to the new one ... not good ... they didn't write anyone ahead of time and let them know ... so customer after customer is calling all pissed off ... not the day i feel like dealing with this ...
Tuesday, May 29, 2001
Alone Time
david not having a job is not as good of a thing as i thought it was ... and believe it or not it has nothing to do with money ... it has to do with how he is acting ... it feels like he is mad at me ... but i have no idea why ...
i believe i have been really supportive ... and helpful ... and reassuring ... i have been open and honest ... and yet i still feel like he is mad at me ... thinking about it right now makes me want to cry ... but there is really no where in our house to be alone ...
i went to Starbucks tonight so i could get out of the house a bit ... but i spent the whole time on the phone with Kris ... i have found in my car is the only place she and i can really talk and get stuff out ...
i have only been home alone for a couple of hours one evening since the end of March ... not the easiest thing for me ... i really really love my alone time ... i mean i lived alone for the majority of my adult life ...
in the dorm in college i had a roommate for 2 months and then i moved into my own room for the rest of the year and that summer ... then i lived in houses with roommates for one year and then had my own apartment for the remaining 3 years i was in kansas ... i lived with my mom for a year and then with eric for three and until david moved in i lived in my own apartment for 3 years ... with a few months here and there staying with people ... so since i was 19 ... the last 12 years i have lived 7 of them alone ...
so having no alone time is something that is an adjustment to me ...
but i think i went off on a tangent there ...
i don't know what i am trying to say ... i just don't understand why he is mad at me ...
i believe i have been really supportive ... and helpful ... and reassuring ... i have been open and honest ... and yet i still feel like he is mad at me ... thinking about it right now makes me want to cry ... but there is really no where in our house to be alone ...
i went to Starbucks tonight so i could get out of the house a bit ... but i spent the whole time on the phone with Kris ... i have found in my car is the only place she and i can really talk and get stuff out ...
i have only been home alone for a couple of hours one evening since the end of March ... not the easiest thing for me ... i really really love my alone time ... i mean i lived alone for the majority of my adult life ...
in the dorm in college i had a roommate for 2 months and then i moved into my own room for the rest of the year and that summer ... then i lived in houses with roommates for one year and then had my own apartment for the remaining 3 years i was in kansas ... i lived with my mom for a year and then with eric for three and until david moved in i lived in my own apartment for 3 years ... with a few months here and there staying with people ... so since i was 19 ... the last 12 years i have lived 7 of them alone ...
so having no alone time is something that is an adjustment to me ...
but i think i went off on a tangent there ...
i don't know what i am trying to say ... i just don't understand why he is mad at me ...
david not having a job is not as good of a thing as i thought it was ... and believe it or not it has nothing to do with money ... it has to do with how he is acting ... it feels like he is mad at me ... but i have no idea why ...
i believe i have been really supportive ... and helpful ... and reassuring ... i have been open and honest ... and yet i still feel like he is mad at me ... thinking about it right now makes me want to cry ... but there is really no where in our house to be alone ...
i went to Starbucks tonight so i could get out of the house a bit ... but i spent the whole time on the phone with Kris ... i have found in my car is the only place she and i can really talk and get stuff out ...
i have only been home alone for a couple of hours one evening since the end of March ... not the easiest thing for me ... i really really love my alone time ... i mean i lived alone for the majority of my adult life ...
in the dorm in college i had a roommate for 2 months and then i moved into my own room for the rest of the year and that summer ... then i lived in houses with roommates for one year and then had my own apartment for the remaining 3 years i was in kansas ... i lived with my mom for a year and then with eric for three and until david moved in i lived in my own apartment for 3 years ... with a few months here and there staying with people ... so since i was 19 ... the last 12 years i have lived 7 of them alone ...
so having no alone time is something that is an adjustment to me ...
but i think i went off on a tangent there ...
i don't know what i am trying to say ... i just don't understand why he is mad at me ...
i believe i have been really supportive ... and helpful ... and reassuring ... i have been open and honest ... and yet i still feel like he is mad at me ... thinking about it right now makes me want to cry ... but there is really no where in our house to be alone ...
i went to Starbucks tonight so i could get out of the house a bit ... but i spent the whole time on the phone with Kris ... i have found in my car is the only place she and i can really talk and get stuff out ...
i have only been home alone for a couple of hours one evening since the end of March ... not the easiest thing for me ... i really really love my alone time ... i mean i lived alone for the majority of my adult life ...
in the dorm in college i had a roommate for 2 months and then i moved into my own room for the rest of the year and that summer ... then i lived in houses with roommates for one year and then had my own apartment for the remaining 3 years i was in kansas ... i lived with my mom for a year and then with eric for three and until david moved in i lived in my own apartment for 3 years ... with a few months here and there staying with people ... so since i was 19 ... the last 12 years i have lived 7 of them alone ...
so having no alone time is something that is an adjustment to me ...
but i think i went off on a tangent there ...
i don't know what i am trying to say ... i just don't understand why he is mad at me ...
Thin Line
have you ever been at a place in life where you really want to be happy ... and you really seem to be ... but deep down inside something tells you ... you are kidding yourself ...
so you don't know if you are truly happy and it is just your self preservation mechanisim trying to keep you from getting hurt ... or are you kidding yourself that you are happy ...
it is a thin line to draw ... and very hard to read ...
so you don't know if you are truly happy and it is just your self preservation mechanisim trying to keep you from getting hurt ... or are you kidding yourself that you are happy ...
it is a thin line to draw ... and very hard to read ...
have you ever been at a place in life where you really want to be happy ... and you really seem to be ... but deep down inside something tells you ... you are kidding yourself ...
so you don't know if you are truly happy and it is just your self preservation mechanisim trying to keep you from getting hurt ... or are you kidding yourself that you are happy ...
it is a thin line to draw ... and very hard to read ...
so you don't know if you are truly happy and it is just your self preservation mechanisim trying to keep you from getting hurt ... or are you kidding yourself that you are happy ...
it is a thin line to draw ... and very hard to read ...
Kitty Garden
i went over to Borders to get a fruit smoothie and i got the greatest thing for Kramer ... it is a kitty garden ... it is perfect for the window sill and grows cat nip ... it only takes about 8 days to grow and it regenerates quickly ... it will discourage him eating the house plants and give him a treat ...
i went over to Borders to get a fruit smoothie and i got the greatest thing for Kramer ... it is a kitty garden ... it is perfect for the window sill and grows cat nip ... it only takes about 8 days to grow and it regenerates quickly ... it will discourage him eating the house plants and give him a treat ...
Lunch
lunch just doesn't last long enough ... i like our new lunch room and the break i get ... but it doesn't last long enough ... that is for sure
Workers
man ... i really think now that i have finished my home page it is time to update my resume ... but ya know is there ever a job where everyone works hard? is that possible?
every office job i have ever there are always slackers that ride the coat tails of the people [me] that actually do work ... so wouldn't i just discover this at any job?
unless of course i work for myself ...
every office job i have ever there are always slackers that ride the coat tails of the people [me] that actually do work ... so wouldn't i just discover this at any job?
unless of course i work for myself ...
man ... i really think now that i have finished my home page it is time to update my resume ... but ya know is there ever a job where everyone works hard? is that possible?
every office job i have ever there are always slackers that ride the coat tails of the people [me] that actually do work ... so wouldn't i just discover this at any job?
unless of course i work for myself ...
every office job i have ever there are always slackers that ride the coat tails of the people [me] that actually do work ... so wouldn't i just discover this at any job?
unless of course i work for myself ...
Monday, May 28, 2001
Laundry
i think i am starting to get tired ... but i still have all the laundry to fold ... and david has been asleep since about 9 ...
there is something weird going on with my computer ... there are several sites i have tried to go to tonight that I get DNS errors for ... but when i pcAnywhere into my work computer i get to them just fine ... and i just can't figure out why i am getting the error here and not at home ... they aren't sites i have been to before ... so it isn't like i am waiting for DNS propagation cause they changed hosts or servers or something ... ahhhh i'll ask david about it tomorrow ...
so i guess i should finish the laundry and head to bed ... back to work tomorrow after 4 days off isn't going to be easy ... i didn't miss being in the office at all ...
there is something weird going on with my computer ... there are several sites i have tried to go to tonight that I get DNS errors for ... but when i pcAnywhere into my work computer i get to them just fine ... and i just can't figure out why i am getting the error here and not at home ... they aren't sites i have been to before ... so it isn't like i am waiting for DNS propagation cause they changed hosts or servers or something ... ahhhh i'll ask david about it tomorrow ...
so i guess i should finish the laundry and head to bed ... back to work tomorrow after 4 days off isn't going to be easy ... i didn't miss being in the office at all ...
i think i am starting to get tired ... but i still have all the laundry to fold ... and david has been asleep since about 9 ...
there is something weird going on with my computer ... there are several sites i have tried to go to tonight that I get DNS errors for ... but when i pcAnywhere into my work computer i get to them just fine ... and i just can't figure out why i am getting the error here and not at home ... they aren't sites i have been to before ... so it isn't like i am waiting for DNS propagation cause they changed hosts or servers or something ... ahhhh i'll ask david about it tomorrow ...
so i guess i should finish the laundry and head to bed ... back to work tomorrow after 4 days off isn't going to be easy ... i didn't miss being in the office at all ...
there is something weird going on with my computer ... there are several sites i have tried to go to tonight that I get DNS errors for ... but when i pcAnywhere into my work computer i get to them just fine ... and i just can't figure out why i am getting the error here and not at home ... they aren't sites i have been to before ... so it isn't like i am waiting for DNS propagation cause they changed hosts or servers or something ... ahhhh i'll ask david about it tomorrow ...
so i guess i should finish the laundry and head to bed ... back to work tomorrow after 4 days off isn't going to be easy ... i didn't miss being in the office at all ...
Freaks & Geeks
i wish they hadn't taken Freaks and Geeks off the air ... i dug this show ... reminded me of junior high ... they have it on Fox Family but there wasn't even a full season of shows ... so i have seen them all like 3 times now ...
Yummy
davie cooked an amazing dinner tonight ... steak ... fries ... and green beans ... it was so good ... after we finished we went to starbucks and now we are watching Groundhog Day ... and i am drying my hair so i don't have to get up too early tomorrow ... :)
Trivial ...
david and i have been playing the TV edition of Trivial Pursuit for hours and it is soooooo fun ...
Movies
man there are great movies on all day today ...
we already watch Vacation
now we are watching Funny Farm
Next is Valley Girl
then on to Three Amigos
after that Overboard
and then to top it off ... Groundhog Day ...
we are set till 10 tonight ... by then it might be time to turn off the TV ...
there is a break from 1 to 1:30 and I am thinking that is the time to head to starbucks ... yummy ... i can hardly wait ...
we already watch Vacation
now we are watching Funny Farm
Next is Valley Girl
then on to Three Amigos
after that Overboard
and then to top it off ... Groundhog Day ...
we are set till 10 tonight ... by then it might be time to turn off the TV ...
there is a break from 1 to 1:30 and I am thinking that is the time to head to starbucks ... yummy ... i can hardly wait ...
man there are great movies on all day today ...
we already watch Vacation
now we are watching Funny Farm
Next is Valley Girl
then on to Three Amigos
after that Overboard
and then to top it off ... Groundhog Day ...
we are set till 10 tonight ... by then it might be time to turn off the TV ...
there is a break from 1 to 1:30 and I am thinking that is the time to head to starbucks ... yummy ... i can hardly wait ...
we already watch Vacation
now we are watching Funny Farm
Next is Valley Girl
then on to Three Amigos
after that Overboard
and then to top it off ... Groundhog Day ...
we are set till 10 tonight ... by then it might be time to turn off the TV ...
there is a break from 1 to 1:30 and I am thinking that is the time to head to starbucks ... yummy ... i can hardly wait ...
Archives
I just don't get it ... suddenly my archives aren't working ... i can't see the template page so that i can just put it back to default ... even though i hate doing that cause for some reason it was harder to set that up than the regular blog ... and now things don't seem to publish cause of the archives ...
to top that i got Tracy's cold and kinda feel like hell today ... and don't want to be too far away from the bathroom for too long ... such joy!!
to top that i got Tracy's cold and kinda feel like hell today ... and don't want to be too far away from the bathroom for too long ... such joy!!
I just don't get it ... suddenly my archives aren't working ... i can't see the template page so that i can just put it back to default ... even though i hate doing that cause for some reason it was harder to set that up than the regular blog ... and now things don't seem to publish cause of the archives ...
to top that i got Tracy's cold and kinda feel like hell today ... and don't want to be too far away from the bathroom for too long ... such joy!!
to top that i got Tracy's cold and kinda feel like hell today ... and don't want to be too far away from the bathroom for too long ... such joy!!
Sunday, May 27, 2001
Again ... Whatever
well i see everything in here that i wrote all day ... but it isn't showing up on the site ... or in the archives ... ack whatever ... i need sleep ...
Whatever ...
so i have been trying to write in here all night but it just isn't working ... so i think i will head to bed
11 PM Doesn't Count
so we were supposed to have steaks tonight ... david took them out this morning when he got up and i was excited cause it got warm out ... and our neighbors said we could use their grill ...
david laid down at 5:30 and said he was taking a nap ... i said please don't take a nap now ... we should start dinner then if you want to take a nap ...
no no he said i need a little nap ...
and i said ... you don't take naps ... naps are an hour or two ... you sleep 6 hours when you lay down and i am not going to have dinner at 11:30 at night ...
he said he would be up before 11:30 at night and i said ... 11 PM doesn't count ...
well it is 5 minutes till 11 ... i made ramin noodles for dinner that were pretty gross ... and my stomach has hurt ever since ... and i am pretty bummed out that a holiday weekend was wasted ... we finally had good weather for the first time in a week and i was stuck in here ... i mean i went out a couple of times myself ... but ya know i wanted to spend time with david ...
now that he slept the day away when he gets up it will be time for me to go to bed ... and i hate that ... then when i get up in the morning he will be laying down again for sleep ...
he should just go find some fucking night crawler job ... he used to bitch a storm when he had to work nights ... but i don't understand why that is how he fucking lives ...
writing about it is upsetting me so i am going to stop ...
david laid down at 5:30 and said he was taking a nap ... i said please don't take a nap now ... we should start dinner then if you want to take a nap ...
no no he said i need a little nap ...
and i said ... you don't take naps ... naps are an hour or two ... you sleep 6 hours when you lay down and i am not going to have dinner at 11:30 at night ...
he said he would be up before 11:30 at night and i said ... 11 PM doesn't count ...
well it is 5 minutes till 11 ... i made ramin noodles for dinner that were pretty gross ... and my stomach has hurt ever since ... and i am pretty bummed out that a holiday weekend was wasted ... we finally had good weather for the first time in a week and i was stuck in here ... i mean i went out a couple of times myself ... but ya know i wanted to spend time with david ...
now that he slept the day away when he gets up it will be time for me to go to bed ... and i hate that ... then when i get up in the morning he will be laying down again for sleep ...
he should just go find some fucking night crawler job ... he used to bitch a storm when he had to work nights ... but i don't understand why that is how he fucking lives ...
writing about it is upsetting me so i am going to stop ...
so we were supposed to have steaks tonight ... david took them out this morning when he got up and i was excited cause it got warm out ... and our neighbors said we could use their grill ...
david laid down at 5:30 and said he was taking a nap ... i said please don't take a nap now ... we should start dinner then if you want to take a nap ...
no no he said i need a little nap ...
and i said ... you don't take naps ... naps are an hour or two ... you sleep 6 hours when you lay down and i am not going to have dinner at 11:30 at night ...
he said he would be up before 11:30 at night and i said ... 11 PM doesn't count ...
well it is 5 minutes till 11 ... i made ramin noodles for dinner that were pretty gross ... and my stomach has hurt ever since ... and i am pretty bummed out that a holiday weekend was wasted ... we finally had good weather for the first time in a week and i was stuck in here ... i mean i went out a couple of times myself ... but ya know i wanted to spend time with david ...
now that he slept the day away when he gets up it will be time for me to go to bed ... and i hate that ... then when i get up in the morning he will be laying down again for sleep ...
he should just go find some fucking night crawler job ... he used to bitch a storm when he had to work nights ... but i don't understand why that is how he fucking lives ...
writing about it is upsetting me so i am going to stop ...
david laid down at 5:30 and said he was taking a nap ... i said please don't take a nap now ... we should start dinner then if you want to take a nap ...
no no he said i need a little nap ...
and i said ... you don't take naps ... naps are an hour or two ... you sleep 6 hours when you lay down and i am not going to have dinner at 11:30 at night ...
he said he would be up before 11:30 at night and i said ... 11 PM doesn't count ...
well it is 5 minutes till 11 ... i made ramin noodles for dinner that were pretty gross ... and my stomach has hurt ever since ... and i am pretty bummed out that a holiday weekend was wasted ... we finally had good weather for the first time in a week and i was stuck in here ... i mean i went out a couple of times myself ... but ya know i wanted to spend time with david ...
now that he slept the day away when he gets up it will be time for me to go to bed ... and i hate that ... then when i get up in the morning he will be laying down again for sleep ...
he should just go find some fucking night crawler job ... he used to bitch a storm when he had to work nights ... but i don't understand why that is how he fucking lives ...
writing about it is upsetting me so i am going to stop ...
Way Too Creepy
speaking of gas stations i am going to have to start traveling farther and father away from my home and work to get gas ... sweet as they may seem ... the gas station attendants at the 3 stations that are convienent for me are so pushy about going out ...
tonight i stopped at the station across from my house cause they fill the car up for you ... and since it is late i didn't think it was a good idea to get out of my car alone ... he kept asking me if i were married ... did i want to go out and have lunch ... i told him i lived with my boyfriend and he said ... 'you don't need to tell him' ... i said i would never do that to another person ... he was leaning in my window and kept pinching my cheek ... i mean is hit right ...
i started the car and he just leaned in further ... making it so i couldn't leave ... asking me why my boyfriend and i aren't married ... i should leave him if he won't marry me and go out with him ... i kept saying i was tired and needed to get home ... i was so uncomfortable ... i just wanted to get home ...
tonight i stopped at the station across from my house cause they fill the car up for you ... and since it is late i didn't think it was a good idea to get out of my car alone ... he kept asking me if i were married ... did i want to go out and have lunch ... i told him i lived with my boyfriend and he said ... 'you don't need to tell him' ... i said i would never do that to another person ... he was leaning in my window and kept pinching my cheek ... i mean is hit right ...
i started the car and he just leaned in further ... making it so i couldn't leave ... asking me why my boyfriend and i aren't married ... i should leave him if he won't marry me and go out with him ... i kept saying i was tired and needed to get home ... i was so uncomfortable ... i just wanted to get home ...
speaking of gas stations i am going to have to start traveling farther and father away from my home and work to get gas ... sweet as they may seem ... the gas station attendants at the 3 stations that are convienent for me are so pushy about going out ...
tonight i stopped at the station across from my house cause they fill the car up for you ... and since it is late i didn't think it was a good idea to get out of my car alone ... he kept asking me if i were married ... did i want to go out and have lunch ... i told him i lived with my boyfriend and he said ... 'you don't need to tell him' ... i said i would never do that to another person ... he was leaning in my window and kept pinching my cheek ... i mean is hit right ...
i started the car and he just leaned in further ... making it so i couldn't leave ... asking me why my boyfriend and i aren't married ... i should leave him if he won't marry me and go out with him ... i kept saying i was tired and needed to get home ... i was so uncomfortable ... i just wanted to get home ...
tonight i stopped at the station across from my house cause they fill the car up for you ... and since it is late i didn't think it was a good idea to get out of my car alone ... he kept asking me if i were married ... did i want to go out and have lunch ... i told him i lived with my boyfriend and he said ... 'you don't need to tell him' ... i said i would never do that to another person ... he was leaning in my window and kept pinching my cheek ... i mean is hit right ...
i started the car and he just leaned in further ... making it so i couldn't leave ... asking me why my boyfriend and i aren't married ... i should leave him if he won't marry me and go out with him ... i kept saying i was tired and needed to get home ... i was so uncomfortable ... i just wanted to get home ...
Seriously 32 Minutes
I just waited at the Starbucks drive-thru for 32 minutes ... way way way too long ... i would have gone inside but there wasn't a single place to park the car ... it is in the same parking lot as the movie theater and at night it is next to impossible to find anything but handicap parking and i am not parking there ... so for 32 minutes i sat there ... watching my gas gage get closer and closer to empty ...
I just waited at the Starbucks drive-thru for 32 minutes ... way way way too long ... i would have gone inside but there wasn't a single place to park the car ... it is in the same parking lot as the movie theater and at night it is next to impossible to find anything but handicap parking and i am not parking there ... so for 32 minutes i sat there ... watching my gas gage get closer and closer to empty ...
Birthday in the City
so lets try this again ...
having friday off work was great ... david and i hung out and took our time going up to the city ... we took the Lindenhurst train instead of driving to Farmingdale ... so we just had to walk to the end of the street instead of driving over by work ...
we got to the city and instead of figuring out where to go on the subway [which is usually what we do] we deceided to be lazy and grab a cab to the hotel ...
once we got there we checked into our beautiful room and then headed out in search of a starbucks ... unfortunately it wasn't a busy and shopping laden area so we walked around for over an hour ... didn't find a starbucks but found a groovy asian restaurant ... had dinner and on the way home found a starbucks about 5 blocks from the hotel ... so we got coffee and headed back to the room ...
i think both of us would have like to go to the park or something since it was across the street ... but it was rainy out and much colder than we had anticipated so going back to the room was just fine with both of us ...
we actually fell asleep in the 8 o'clock hour ... and woke up around 11:30 ... ordered decadent desserts from room service and hung out ... ate dessert ... drank coffee and watched TV till about 2 in the morning ...
we were both up around 7 AM and ordered room service for breakfast ... ate ... showered ... watched some TV ... and it was just raining too much ... neither of us felt like doing much so we headed to the train station ... and got downstairs just as the train was leaving for Lindenhurst ... which made it nice not having to wait around ...
once we got home we went to the bookstore ... out for coffee ... hung out here ... napped ... worked on the computer ... and watched movies ...
so far it was a groovy weekend ...
having friday off work was great ... david and i hung out and took our time going up to the city ... we took the Lindenhurst train instead of driving to Farmingdale ... so we just had to walk to the end of the street instead of driving over by work ...
we got to the city and instead of figuring out where to go on the subway [which is usually what we do] we deceided to be lazy and grab a cab to the hotel ...
once we got there we checked into our beautiful room and then headed out in search of a starbucks ... unfortunately it wasn't a busy and shopping laden area so we walked around for over an hour ... didn't find a starbucks but found a groovy asian restaurant ... had dinner and on the way home found a starbucks about 5 blocks from the hotel ... so we got coffee and headed back to the room ...
i think both of us would have like to go to the park or something since it was across the street ... but it was rainy out and much colder than we had anticipated so going back to the room was just fine with both of us ...
we actually fell asleep in the 8 o'clock hour ... and woke up around 11:30 ... ordered decadent desserts from room service and hung out ... ate dessert ... drank coffee and watched TV till about 2 in the morning ...
we were both up around 7 AM and ordered room service for breakfast ... ate ... showered ... watched some TV ... and it was just raining too much ... neither of us felt like doing much so we headed to the train station ... and got downstairs just as the train was leaving for Lindenhurst ... which made it nice not having to wait around ...
once we got home we went to the bookstore ... out for coffee ... hung out here ... napped ... worked on the computer ... and watched movies ...
so far it was a groovy weekend ...
so lets try this again ...
having friday off work was great ... david and i hung out and took our time going up to the city ... we took the Lindenhurst train instead of driving to Farmingdale ... so we just had to walk to the end of the street instead of driving over by work ...
we got to the city and instead of figuring out where to go on the subway [which is usually what we do] we deceided to be lazy and grab a cab to the hotel ...
once we got there we checked into our beautiful room and then headed out in search of a starbucks ... unfortunately it wasn't a busy and shopping laden area so we walked around for over an hour ... didn't find a starbucks but found a groovy asian restaurant ... had dinner and on the way home found a starbucks about 5 blocks from the hotel ... so we got coffee and headed back to the room ...
i think both of us would have like to go to the park or something since it was across the street ... but it was rainy out and much colder than we had anticipated so going back to the room was just fine with both of us ...
we actually fell asleep in the 8 o'clock hour ... and woke up around 11:30 ... ordered decadent desserts from room service and hung out ... ate dessert ... drank coffee and watched TV till about 2 in the morning ...
we were both up around 7 AM and ordered room service for breakfast ... ate ... showered ... watched some TV ... and it was just raining too much ... neither of us felt like doing much so we headed to the train station ... and got downstairs just as the train was leaving for Lindenhurst ... which made it nice not having to wait around ...
once we got home we went to the bookstore ... out for coffee ... hung out here ... napped ... worked on the computer ... and watched movies ...
so far it was a groovy weekend ...
having friday off work was great ... david and i hung out and took our time going up to the city ... we took the Lindenhurst train instead of driving to Farmingdale ... so we just had to walk to the end of the street instead of driving over by work ...
we got to the city and instead of figuring out where to go on the subway [which is usually what we do] we deceided to be lazy and grab a cab to the hotel ...
once we got there we checked into our beautiful room and then headed out in search of a starbucks ... unfortunately it wasn't a busy and shopping laden area so we walked around for over an hour ... didn't find a starbucks but found a groovy asian restaurant ... had dinner and on the way home found a starbucks about 5 blocks from the hotel ... so we got coffee and headed back to the room ...
i think both of us would have like to go to the park or something since it was across the street ... but it was rainy out and much colder than we had anticipated so going back to the room was just fine with both of us ...
we actually fell asleep in the 8 o'clock hour ... and woke up around 11:30 ... ordered decadent desserts from room service and hung out ... ate dessert ... drank coffee and watched TV till about 2 in the morning ...
we were both up around 7 AM and ordered room service for breakfast ... ate ... showered ... watched some TV ... and it was just raining too much ... neither of us felt like doing much so we headed to the train station ... and got downstairs just as the train was leaving for Lindenhurst ... which made it nice not having to wait around ...
once we got home we went to the bookstore ... out for coffee ... hung out here ... napped ... worked on the computer ... and watched movies ...
so far it was a groovy weekend ...
Saturday, May 26, 2001
Damn It All
man this sucks ... i just wrote about our whole day in the city ... clicked on 'blogger' instead of post and publish and lost everything
Friday, May 25, 2001
David's 36th
woohoo ya can't beat a day off ... i woke up at the same time i do every day for work ... and thought ... woohoo i can go back to sleep ... but when i woke up at 10 i thought i was late for work for a brief moment there ... but then realized ... ohhhh yea don't have to go to work today ...
so while david was still asleep i went out and got coffee ... some smokes ... and a couple of donuts from the local bakery ... and we have just been hanging out ... man it took me forever to post this ... i started before my shower ... hahahaaa
so while david was still asleep i went out and got coffee ... some smokes ... and a couple of donuts from the local bakery ... and we have just been hanging out ... man it took me forever to post this ... i started before my shower ... hahahaaa
woohoo ya can't beat a day off ... i woke up at the same time i do every day for work ... and thought ... woohoo i can go back to sleep ... but when i woke up at 10 i thought i was late for work for a brief moment there ... but then realized ... ohhhh yea don't have to go to work today ...
so while david was still asleep i went out and got coffee ... some smokes ... and a couple of donuts from the local bakery ... and we have just been hanging out ... man it took me forever to post this ... i started before my shower ... hahahaaa
so while david was still asleep i went out and got coffee ... some smokes ... and a couple of donuts from the local bakery ... and we have just been hanging out ... man it took me forever to post this ... i started before my shower ... hahahaaa
Thursday, May 24, 2001
Dork
OK i just did a whole bunch of work ... and feel good ... i am leaving everything at a good place ... geezzzz you would think i was going away for a week and not just a day ... dork dork dork ... but it sure does crack me up ...
well i am off to bed now ... i am finally nearing exhaustion ...
well i am off to bed now ... i am finally nearing exhaustion ...
NYC Hotel
The Stanhope, Park Hyatt New York : New York Since May 25th is David's birthday my brother has set us up at that hotel ... it looks so sweet ... my brother travels so much that he gets free nights all over the place ... so we are leaving tomorrow afternoon ... checking into the hotel ... hopfully it won't be raining too much and we are going to go hang out in Central Park and see the Alice in Wonderland statue ... go out for dinner ... and then head back to the hotel and enjoy our room ... then on Saturday ... we are going to sleep in ... have breakfast in bed ... and go to the Metropolitan Museum of Art before heading home ... everything is really close so even if it is raining it won't be too bad ...
i really am sooooo excited ... i should head to bed ... even though i can sleep in tomorrow ... wooooohooooo
i really am sooooo excited ... i should head to bed ... even though i can sleep in tomorrow ... wooooohooooo
The Stanhope, Park Hyatt New York : New York Since May 25th is David's birthday my brother has set us up at that hotel ... it looks so sweet ... my brother travels so much that he gets free nights all over the place ... so we are leaving tomorrow afternoon ... checking into the hotel ... hopfully it won't be raining too much and we are going to go hang out in Central Park and see the Alice in Wonderland statue ... go out for dinner ... and then head back to the hotel and enjoy our room ... then on Saturday ... we are going to sleep in ... have breakfast in bed ... and go to the Metropolitan Museum of Art before heading home ... everything is really close so even if it is raining it won't be too bad ...
i really am sooooo excited ... i should head to bed ... even though i can sleep in tomorrow ... wooooohooooo
i really am sooooo excited ... i should head to bed ... even though i can sleep in tomorrow ... wooooohooooo
Starting Time Off
[huge smile] ... well at 7:40 PM i started my weekend ... and 35 minutes ago David turned 36 ... amazing ... there was a time when that sounded so old ... now that i am getting close ... hummm ... not too old at all ...
well life has been stressful for me lately ... lots of stuff pulling at me everywhere so i am doing the smart thing ... i am taking tomorrow off of work ... now i have worked at my job since April 2000 ... and monday will be the first holiday i haven't gone into the office ... yes we are including thanksgiving ... christmas ... new years ... everything ... much of it was work loyality ... lots of it was cause david had to work those holidays and i didn't want them to suck for him ...
well david no longer works there ... and i am taking a day off ... [smile] ...
now this does not mean i have stopped my obsessive/compulsive behavior ... i will still do work before we go to the city tomorrow ... and when we get home on saturday ... and of course sunday and monday ... but i will do it from the comfort of my own home ... without having to talk to customers ... in my jammies ... kitty sitting on my lap ... smooching with david whenever we pass each other ... and that is the way i like to work ...
i am going to sleep in ... and stay up late ... and have a good 4 ... count them 1 ... 2 ... 3 ... 4 ... out of the office ... ohhhhhh joy!!!!!!! i really am so excited ...
and ya know what else i am going to do this weekend ... i am not going to answer the phone if i don't know who it is by the caller ID ... i guess i do that most of the time ... but being OC shit i still wind up picking it up ... but not this weekend ... nothing stressful ... including Mr. Noel that stupid Student Loan guy ...
well life has been stressful for me lately ... lots of stuff pulling at me everywhere so i am doing the smart thing ... i am taking tomorrow off of work ... now i have worked at my job since April 2000 ... and monday will be the first holiday i haven't gone into the office ... yes we are including thanksgiving ... christmas ... new years ... everything ... much of it was work loyality ... lots of it was cause david had to work those holidays and i didn't want them to suck for him ...
well david no longer works there ... and i am taking a day off ... [smile] ...
now this does not mean i have stopped my obsessive/compulsive behavior ... i will still do work before we go to the city tomorrow ... and when we get home on saturday ... and of course sunday and monday ... but i will do it from the comfort of my own home ... without having to talk to customers ... in my jammies ... kitty sitting on my lap ... smooching with david whenever we pass each other ... and that is the way i like to work ...
i am going to sleep in ... and stay up late ... and have a good 4 ... count them 1 ... 2 ... 3 ... 4 ... out of the office ... ohhhhhh joy!!!!!!! i really am so excited ...
and ya know what else i am going to do this weekend ... i am not going to answer the phone if i don't know who it is by the caller ID ... i guess i do that most of the time ... but being OC shit i still wind up picking it up ... but not this weekend ... nothing stressful ... including Mr. Noel that stupid Student Loan guy ...
[huge smile] ... well at 7:40 PM i started my weekend ... and 35 minutes ago David turned 36 ... amazing ... there was a time when that sounded so old ... now that i am getting close ... hummm ... not too old at all ...
well life has been stressful for me lately ... lots of stuff pulling at me everywhere so i am doing the smart thing ... i am taking tomorrow off of work ... now i have worked at my job since April 2000 ... and monday will be the first holiday i haven't gone into the office ... yes we are including thanksgiving ... christmas ... new years ... everything ... much of it was work loyality ... lots of it was cause david had to work those holidays and i didn't want them to suck for him ...
well david no longer works there ... and i am taking a day off ... [smile] ...
now this does not mean i have stopped my obsessive/compulsive behavior ... i will still do work before we go to the city tomorrow ... and when we get home on saturday ... and of course sunday and monday ... but i will do it from the comfort of my own home ... without having to talk to customers ... in my jammies ... kitty sitting on my lap ... smooching with david whenever we pass each other ... and that is the way i like to work ...
i am going to sleep in ... and stay up late ... and have a good 4 ... count them 1 ... 2 ... 3 ... 4 ... out of the office ... ohhhhhh joy!!!!!!! i really am so excited ...
and ya know what else i am going to do this weekend ... i am not going to answer the phone if i don't know who it is by the caller ID ... i guess i do that most of the time ... but being OC shit i still wind up picking it up ... but not this weekend ... nothing stressful ... including Mr. Noel that stupid Student Loan guy ...
well life has been stressful for me lately ... lots of stuff pulling at me everywhere so i am doing the smart thing ... i am taking tomorrow off of work ... now i have worked at my job since April 2000 ... and monday will be the first holiday i haven't gone into the office ... yes we are including thanksgiving ... christmas ... new years ... everything ... much of it was work loyality ... lots of it was cause david had to work those holidays and i didn't want them to suck for him ...
well david no longer works there ... and i am taking a day off ... [smile] ...
now this does not mean i have stopped my obsessive/compulsive behavior ... i will still do work before we go to the city tomorrow ... and when we get home on saturday ... and of course sunday and monday ... but i will do it from the comfort of my own home ... without having to talk to customers ... in my jammies ... kitty sitting on my lap ... smooching with david whenever we pass each other ... and that is the way i like to work ...
i am going to sleep in ... and stay up late ... and have a good 4 ... count them 1 ... 2 ... 3 ... 4 ... out of the office ... ohhhhhh joy!!!!!!! i really am so excited ...
and ya know what else i am going to do this weekend ... i am not going to answer the phone if i don't know who it is by the caller ID ... i guess i do that most of the time ... but being OC shit i still wind up picking it up ... but not this weekend ... nothing stressful ... including Mr. Noel that stupid Student Loan guy ...
Wednesday, May 23, 2001
Work Funk
work is starting to feel unfulfilling ... every time i think i have found something i could do for the long term ... after about a year i get restless and bored ... i could do my job in my sleep ... and it is the same thing every single day ... just usually for different customers ...
... can you set up a new domain for me liz ...
... could you change my DNS liz ...
... will you register a new domain for me liz ...
... liz i am new to the web business any help you could give me would be great ...
how long can a person do the same thing ... actually i should rephrase that ... how long can i do the same thing ... every day ...
i think my body is permanantly forming into the shape of my computer chair ... and my arms will forever stick out in front of me like they are on a keyboard ...
but if i wasn't working in the internet industry i don't know what i would be doing ... there are only a handful of things that i am both good at and enjoy ... this is one of those things ... its just loosing its appeal lately ...
maybe we aren't supposed to love our jobs every minute of every day ... i get that ... but my funk has lasted for a couple of months now ...
maybe it has been since David quit working there ... maybe once he is working again i will enjoy working again ... and when he has an office to talk about when he gets home ... maybe me talking about mine [even though he hates it there] won't be so bad anymore ...
... he is so amazing on the computer i don't understand why jobs aren't falling at his feet ...
... can you set up a new domain for me liz ...
... could you change my DNS liz ...
... will you register a new domain for me liz ...
... liz i am new to the web business any help you could give me would be great ...
how long can a person do the same thing ... actually i should rephrase that ... how long can i do the same thing ... every day ...
i think my body is permanantly forming into the shape of my computer chair ... and my arms will forever stick out in front of me like they are on a keyboard ...
but if i wasn't working in the internet industry i don't know what i would be doing ... there are only a handful of things that i am both good at and enjoy ... this is one of those things ... its just loosing its appeal lately ...
maybe we aren't supposed to love our jobs every minute of every day ... i get that ... but my funk has lasted for a couple of months now ...
maybe it has been since David quit working there ... maybe once he is working again i will enjoy working again ... and when he has an office to talk about when he gets home ... maybe me talking about mine [even though he hates it there] won't be so bad anymore ...
... he is so amazing on the computer i don't understand why jobs aren't falling at his feet ...
work is starting to feel unfulfilling ... every time i think i have found something i could do for the long term ... after about a year i get restless and bored ... i could do my job in my sleep ... and it is the same thing every single day ... just usually for different customers ...
... can you set up a new domain for me liz ...
... could you change my DNS liz ...
... will you register a new domain for me liz ...
... liz i am new to the web business any help you could give me would be great ...
how long can a person do the same thing ... actually i should rephrase that ... how long can i do the same thing ... every day ...
i think my body is permanantly forming into the shape of my computer chair ... and my arms will forever stick out in front of me like they are on a keyboard ...
but if i wasn't working in the internet industry i don't know what i would be doing ... there are only a handful of things that i am both good at and enjoy ... this is one of those things ... its just loosing its appeal lately ...
maybe we aren't supposed to love our jobs every minute of every day ... i get that ... but my funk has lasted for a couple of months now ...
maybe it has been since David quit working there ... maybe once he is working again i will enjoy working again ... and when he has an office to talk about when he gets home ... maybe me talking about mine [even though he hates it there] won't be so bad anymore ...
... he is so amazing on the computer i don't understand why jobs aren't falling at his feet ...
... can you set up a new domain for me liz ...
... could you change my DNS liz ...
... will you register a new domain for me liz ...
... liz i am new to the web business any help you could give me would be great ...
how long can a person do the same thing ... actually i should rephrase that ... how long can i do the same thing ... every day ...
i think my body is permanantly forming into the shape of my computer chair ... and my arms will forever stick out in front of me like they are on a keyboard ...
but if i wasn't working in the internet industry i don't know what i would be doing ... there are only a handful of things that i am both good at and enjoy ... this is one of those things ... its just loosing its appeal lately ...
maybe we aren't supposed to love our jobs every minute of every day ... i get that ... but my funk has lasted for a couple of months now ...
maybe it has been since David quit working there ... maybe once he is working again i will enjoy working again ... and when he has an office to talk about when he gets home ... maybe me talking about mine [even though he hates it there] won't be so bad anymore ...
... he is so amazing on the computer i don't understand why jobs aren't falling at his feet ...
M-I-S-T-A-K-E
it has been a rough and weird couple of days ... so much so i couldn't even bring myself to write ... in fact yesterday when i got home from work i never even turned the computer on ...
i think yesterday was a day of self loathing ... today is a day of loathing everyone else ... happy thought huh?
yesterday i learned that everything within my profile on my computer ... was gone
now yes i believe i mentioned a 24 hour period where i backed everything up ... but when i write everything i was using it in the very broadest of terms ... it turns out i backed up everything that DIDN'T get erased ... those things that i lost ... yes those were the things i had not yet backed up ... what kinda karma kick is that ...
so everything saved to my desktop ... [and unfortunately i had been saving a lot of my stuff to my desktop lately ... using the computer SOOOOOO much kinda made it easier]
my computer just seems to be a mess ... and it is making me nuts ... i am so sorry that last friday i thought it would be adventurous to look for new photos for my home page ... m-i-s-t-a-k-e ... that is for sure ...
i think yesterday was a day of self loathing ... today is a day of loathing everyone else ... happy thought huh?
yesterday i learned that everything within my profile on my computer ... was gone
now yes i believe i mentioned a 24 hour period where i backed everything up ... but when i write everything i was using it in the very broadest of terms ... it turns out i backed up everything that DIDN'T get erased ... those things that i lost ... yes those were the things i had not yet backed up ... what kinda karma kick is that ...
so everything saved to my desktop ... [and unfortunately i had been saving a lot of my stuff to my desktop lately ... using the computer SOOOOOO much kinda made it easier]
my computer just seems to be a mess ... and it is making me nuts ... i am so sorry that last friday i thought it would be adventurous to look for new photos for my home page ... m-i-s-t-a-k-e ... that is for sure ...
it has been a rough and weird couple of days ... so much so i couldn't even bring myself to write ... in fact yesterday when i got home from work i never even turned the computer on ...
i think yesterday was a day of self loathing ... today is a day of loathing everyone else ... happy thought huh?
yesterday i learned that everything within my profile on my computer ... was gone
now yes i believe i mentioned a 24 hour period where i backed everything up ... but when i write everything i was using it in the very broadest of terms ... it turns out i backed up everything that DIDN'T get erased ... those things that i lost ... yes those were the things i had not yet backed up ... what kinda karma kick is that ...
so everything saved to my desktop ... [and unfortunately i had been saving a lot of my stuff to my desktop lately ... using the computer SOOOOOO much kinda made it easier]
my computer just seems to be a mess ... and it is making me nuts ... i am so sorry that last friday i thought it would be adventurous to look for new photos for my home page ... m-i-s-t-a-k-e ... that is for sure ...
i think yesterday was a day of self loathing ... today is a day of loathing everyone else ... happy thought huh?
yesterday i learned that everything within my profile on my computer ... was gone
now yes i believe i mentioned a 24 hour period where i backed everything up ... but when i write everything i was using it in the very broadest of terms ... it turns out i backed up everything that DIDN'T get erased ... those things that i lost ... yes those were the things i had not yet backed up ... what kinda karma kick is that ...
so everything saved to my desktop ... [and unfortunately i had been saving a lot of my stuff to my desktop lately ... using the computer SOOOOOO much kinda made it easier]
my computer just seems to be a mess ... and it is making me nuts ... i am so sorry that last friday i thought it would be adventurous to look for new photos for my home page ... m-i-s-t-a-k-e ... that is for sure ...
Monday, May 21, 2001
Goofy
when i turn around ... and see him sitting there ... all i can do is smile ... i feel like a goof ...
and to be honest i love it
and to be honest i love it
Missing David
we are pulling into the final stretch ... it is 5:15 ... 45 minutes left ... woohoo ... i can hardly wait to get home ...
its so weird i miss david a lot during the day ... i've never missed anyone like this ... i am sorry we don't work together any more ... but when we were working together we didn't get to see each other much cause of the funky hours they gave him ... i love that he is at home ... i would love it if he wanted to be a stay home dad and do freelance work on the computer ... or run websites ... god that would make me totally happy ... :)
its so weird i miss david a lot during the day ... i've never missed anyone like this ... i am sorry we don't work together any more ... but when we were working together we didn't get to see each other much cause of the funky hours they gave him ... i love that he is at home ... i would love it if he wanted to be a stay home dad and do freelance work on the computer ... or run websites ... god that would make me totally happy ... :)
we are pulling into the final stretch ... it is 5:15 ... 45 minutes left ... woohoo ... i can hardly wait to get home ...
its so weird i miss david a lot during the day ... i've never missed anyone like this ... i am sorry we don't work together any more ... but when we were working together we didn't get to see each other much cause of the funky hours they gave him ... i love that he is at home ... i would love it if he wanted to be a stay home dad and do freelance work on the computer ... or run websites ... god that would make me totally happy ... :)
its so weird i miss david a lot during the day ... i've never missed anyone like this ... i am sorry we don't work together any more ... but when we were working together we didn't get to see each other much cause of the funky hours they gave him ... i love that he is at home ... i would love it if he wanted to be a stay home dad and do freelance work on the computer ... or run websites ... god that would make me totally happy ... :)
Time Flies
man i opened this window first thing this morning when i got here and i am just now finding time to write ... hummm i don't know if that is good or not ... i mean i guess that indicates that i have been busy ... and when you are busy the time flies ... and it is 3:21 right now which ... yea the day has pretty much flown by
but now that i say that i am sure it will hit a stand still ...
training a new guy at work today ...
but now that i say that i am sure it will hit a stand still ...
training a new guy at work today ...
man i opened this window first thing this morning when i got here and i am just now finding time to write ... hummm i don't know if that is good or not ... i mean i guess that indicates that i have been busy ... and when you are busy the time flies ... and it is 3:21 right now which ... yea the day has pretty much flown by
but now that i say that i am sure it will hit a stand still ...
training a new guy at work today ...
but now that i say that i am sure it will hit a stand still ...
training a new guy at work today ...
Sunday, May 20, 2001
First Communion
well i had wanted to write yesterday when we got home ... but i was still busy fixing up my computer ... cleaning up the hard drive and backing everything up ... and i vowed not to do anything until i got that finished ... well i didn't finish all that until 9:00 tonight ... then i had to catch up on saturday and sunday's emails from work ... since i am the only one that responds to anything over the weekend ... :)
so i had a fabulous time yesterday at the First Communion ... it was a beautiful service and then the party afterwards was so fun ... Gina had it outside with tents up and tons of food and people ... we hung out outside in fantastic weather all afternoon ... we didn't get home till after 6 ... David's dad is awesome ... so sweet and fun to hang out with ... we also sat around with his aunt and uncle ...
Nicolas loved the lava and glitter lamps we got him ... which was good ... and Paula liked the frame we got ...
all in all everything turned out wonderfully ...
then i worked on my computer from the time we got home until about 4 in the morning ... so staying up so late i wasted half the day today sleeping ... but i was amazed i slept in until 2:30 this afternoon ...
and it feels great to have my computer all cleaned up ... it is something i have thought about doing for ages ... but just didn't get around to ... once you see you could loose everything ... well then it becomes a mission to get it done ... and now keeping it up won't be a big deal because everything is in place ... [smile] ...
i also cleared 1.5 GB of junk off the computer ...
well it is after midnight ... and i am sitting here with wet hair ... so i should get to blowing it dry ...
so i had a fabulous time yesterday at the First Communion ... it was a beautiful service and then the party afterwards was so fun ... Gina had it outside with tents up and tons of food and people ... we hung out outside in fantastic weather all afternoon ... we didn't get home till after 6 ... David's dad is awesome ... so sweet and fun to hang out with ... we also sat around with his aunt and uncle ...
Nicolas loved the lava and glitter lamps we got him ... which was good ... and Paula liked the frame we got ...
all in all everything turned out wonderfully ...
then i worked on my computer from the time we got home until about 4 in the morning ... so staying up so late i wasted half the day today sleeping ... but i was amazed i slept in until 2:30 this afternoon ...
and it feels great to have my computer all cleaned up ... it is something i have thought about doing for ages ... but just didn't get around to ... once you see you could loose everything ... well then it becomes a mission to get it done ... and now keeping it up won't be a big deal because everything is in place ... [smile] ...
i also cleared 1.5 GB of junk off the computer ...
well it is after midnight ... and i am sitting here with wet hair ... so i should get to blowing it dry ...
well i had wanted to write yesterday when we got home ... but i was still busy fixing up my computer ... cleaning up the hard drive and backing everything up ... and i vowed not to do anything until i got that finished ... well i didn't finish all that until 9:00 tonight ... then i had to catch up on saturday and sunday's emails from work ... since i am the only one that responds to anything over the weekend ... :)
so i had a fabulous time yesterday at the First Communion ... it was a beautiful service and then the party afterwards was so fun ... Gina had it outside with tents up and tons of food and people ... we hung out outside in fantastic weather all afternoon ... we didn't get home till after 6 ... David's dad is awesome ... so sweet and fun to hang out with ... we also sat around with his aunt and uncle ...
Nicolas loved the lava and glitter lamps we got him ... which was good ... and Paula liked the frame we got ...
all in all everything turned out wonderfully ...
then i worked on my computer from the time we got home until about 4 in the morning ... so staying up so late i wasted half the day today sleeping ... but i was amazed i slept in until 2:30 this afternoon ...
and it feels great to have my computer all cleaned up ... it is something i have thought about doing for ages ... but just didn't get around to ... once you see you could loose everything ... well then it becomes a mission to get it done ... and now keeping it up won't be a big deal because everything is in place ... [smile] ...
i also cleared 1.5 GB of junk off the computer ...
well it is after midnight ... and i am sitting here with wet hair ... so i should get to blowing it dry ...
so i had a fabulous time yesterday at the First Communion ... it was a beautiful service and then the party afterwards was so fun ... Gina had it outside with tents up and tons of food and people ... we hung out outside in fantastic weather all afternoon ... we didn't get home till after 6 ... David's dad is awesome ... so sweet and fun to hang out with ... we also sat around with his aunt and uncle ...
Nicolas loved the lava and glitter lamps we got him ... which was good ... and Paula liked the frame we got ...
all in all everything turned out wonderfully ...
then i worked on my computer from the time we got home until about 4 in the morning ... so staying up so late i wasted half the day today sleeping ... but i was amazed i slept in until 2:30 this afternoon ...
and it feels great to have my computer all cleaned up ... it is something i have thought about doing for ages ... but just didn't get around to ... once you see you could loose everything ... well then it becomes a mission to get it done ... and now keeping it up won't be a big deal because everything is in place ... [smile] ...
i also cleared 1.5 GB of junk off the computer ...
well it is after midnight ... and i am sitting here with wet hair ... so i should get to blowing it dry ...
Friday, May 18, 2001
What Was I Thinking
i fucked up big time tonight ... right now i am typing this on David's computer cause i killed mine tonight ... i was going to work on my home page tonight ... and deceided to start cleaning through the hard drive on the way to finding stray pictures i might want to use ... and i thought i was in 'my documents' ... cleaned everything up that wasn't in a folder and then deleted the rest ... only to realize when i was rebooting that i was directly in the C: drive ... and found it wouldn't reboot and for almost 4 hours now david has been working on saving my computer ...
at this point i don't care if he can rescue any files ... ya know i have lost them all before when someone was doing work on my computer and i got over it ... most of my digital pictures are on CD ... most not all ... and all my websites are on the server at work and i have burned copies lying around ... and i think a couple of times i have backed up my computer to CD so i would pretty much find everything ... but if i totally killed my computer and he can't get it to work again ... well then i would be bummed ... i would be so mad at myself for being so careless ...
bless his heart for spending the entire Friday evening struggling with my computer ... i feel so bad ... i am sure this wasn't how he wanted to spend the evening ... and i don't want him to feel bad at all if he can't get everything back up like it was ... if anything he would get closer than i ever could ... fuck what was i thinking??
at this point i don't care if he can rescue any files ... ya know i have lost them all before when someone was doing work on my computer and i got over it ... most of my digital pictures are on CD ... most not all ... and all my websites are on the server at work and i have burned copies lying around ... and i think a couple of times i have backed up my computer to CD so i would pretty much find everything ... but if i totally killed my computer and he can't get it to work again ... well then i would be bummed ... i would be so mad at myself for being so careless ...
bless his heart for spending the entire Friday evening struggling with my computer ... i feel so bad ... i am sure this wasn't how he wanted to spend the evening ... and i don't want him to feel bad at all if he can't get everything back up like it was ... if anything he would get closer than i ever could ... fuck what was i thinking??
i fucked up big time tonight ... right now i am typing this on David's computer cause i killed mine tonight ... i was going to work on my home page tonight ... and deceided to start cleaning through the hard drive on the way to finding stray pictures i might want to use ... and i thought i was in 'my documents' ... cleaned everything up that wasn't in a folder and then deleted the rest ... only to realize when i was rebooting that i was directly in the C: drive ... and found it wouldn't reboot and for almost 4 hours now david has been working on saving my computer ...
at this point i don't care if he can rescue any files ... ya know i have lost them all before when someone was doing work on my computer and i got over it ... most of my digital pictures are on CD ... most not all ... and all my websites are on the server at work and i have burned copies lying around ... and i think a couple of times i have backed up my computer to CD so i would pretty much find everything ... but if i totally killed my computer and he can't get it to work again ... well then i would be bummed ... i would be so mad at myself for being so careless ...
bless his heart for spending the entire Friday evening struggling with my computer ... i feel so bad ... i am sure this wasn't how he wanted to spend the evening ... and i don't want him to feel bad at all if he can't get everything back up like it was ... if anything he would get closer than i ever could ... fuck what was i thinking??
at this point i don't care if he can rescue any files ... ya know i have lost them all before when someone was doing work on my computer and i got over it ... most of my digital pictures are on CD ... most not all ... and all my websites are on the server at work and i have burned copies lying around ... and i think a couple of times i have backed up my computer to CD so i would pretty much find everything ... but if i totally killed my computer and he can't get it to work again ... well then i would be bummed ... i would be so mad at myself for being so careless ...
bless his heart for spending the entire Friday evening struggling with my computer ... i feel so bad ... i am sure this wasn't how he wanted to spend the evening ... and i don't want him to feel bad at all if he can't get everything back up like it was ... if anything he would get closer than i ever could ... fuck what was i thinking??
Zero
woohoo ... i am leaving work today without one thing in my Inbox ... that hasn't happened in about 4 months ... it feels so great ...
i mean in the 30 minutes it takes me to get coffee and get home there will probably be 14 items but right now it says ZERO!!!!
i mean in the 30 minutes it takes me to get coffee and get home there will probably be 14 items but right now it says ZERO!!!!
A Gift?
you know i bet we should be brining a present tomorrow ... and don't have anything ... hummm i should check on that ...
can you tell i don't feel like working anymore today?
can you tell i don't feel like working anymore today?
12 12
12:12 ... time is ticking by ... but not quite fast enough for me ... i mean it is friday after all ...
15 Minutes
FunkyFingerProd: 15 minutes just went by could you feel that ?
Oh Its Liz: hahahahaaa god i love you
Oh Its Liz: hahahahaaa god i love you
Thursday, May 17, 2001
Meeting The Fam
so Gina ... David's sister-in-law's mother ... would like me to come to his nephew's First Communion ... it is on Saturday ... David and I had already planned ... I would go to the Dr. on saturday morning and he would catch the bus from there ... the church is just down the street ... then i was going to go hang out at Starbuck's and David would either get a ride there ... or take the bus back ... sounded good to me ... i haven't really met his family ...
his dad comes by all the time to see david but it is always while i am at work ... and i met his brother once but it was for about 2.5 minutes ... and i've met gina and his sister-in-law ... along with nicolas and dante but that was for all of about 10 minutes ... i'm kind of nervous ...
its silly really but david has had many girl friends and lived with the majority of them ... i just kinda feel like 'the one right now' ... and meeting everyone is just weird for me ... i don't know why i think all this but i do ...
his dad comes by all the time to see david but it is always while i am at work ... and i met his brother once but it was for about 2.5 minutes ... and i've met gina and his sister-in-law ... along with nicolas and dante but that was for all of about 10 minutes ... i'm kind of nervous ...
its silly really but david has had many girl friends and lived with the majority of them ... i just kinda feel like 'the one right now' ... and meeting everyone is just weird for me ... i don't know why i think all this but i do ...
so Gina ... David's sister-in-law's mother ... would like me to come to his nephew's First Communion ... it is on Saturday ... David and I had already planned ... I would go to the Dr. on saturday morning and he would catch the bus from there ... the church is just down the street ... then i was going to go hang out at Starbuck's and David would either get a ride there ... or take the bus back ... sounded good to me ... i haven't really met his family ...
his dad comes by all the time to see david but it is always while i am at work ... and i met his brother once but it was for about 2.5 minutes ... and i've met gina and his sister-in-law ... along with nicolas and dante but that was for all of about 10 minutes ... i'm kind of nervous ...
its silly really but david has had many girl friends and lived with the majority of them ... i just kinda feel like 'the one right now' ... and meeting everyone is just weird for me ... i don't know why i think all this but i do ...
his dad comes by all the time to see david but it is always while i am at work ... and i met his brother once but it was for about 2.5 minutes ... and i've met gina and his sister-in-law ... along with nicolas and dante but that was for all of about 10 minutes ... i'm kind of nervous ...
its silly really but david has had many girl friends and lived with the majority of them ... i just kinda feel like 'the one right now' ... and meeting everyone is just weird for me ... i don't know why i think all this but i do ...
Leftovers
lunch was so good ... i ate leftovers of last nights dinner ... man it is awesome living with a chef ... [smile] ... he is amazing ... i have a picture on my desk of my brother and jenny and david and i ... and i just love it ... i look at it all the time ... it is so cute ... i need to scan it ... as soon as we get a plug for the scanner since the bitchen david got it hooked up to my computer ... 2 years it has been sitting there cause i didn't have a card for my computer ... and yesterday he hooked everything up while i was at work then realized somewhere in one of my many moves i lost the cord ... so he can't even test it to see if the card works ... i am sure it is driving him crazy ...
lunch was so good ... i ate leftovers of last nights dinner ... man it is awesome living with a chef ... [smile] ... he is amazing ... i have a picture on my desk of my brother and jenny and david and i ... and i just love it ... i look at it all the time ... it is so cute ... i need to scan it ... as soon as we get a plug for the scanner since the bitchen david got it hooked up to my computer ... 2 years it has been sitting there cause i didn't have a card for my computer ... and yesterday he hooked everything up while i was at work then realized somewhere in one of my many moves i lost the cord ... so he can't even test it to see if the card works ... i am sure it is driving him crazy ...
Friends
i wish today were friday ...
but it being Thursday and the season closer for Friends is on tonight that isn't too bad either ... been kinda looking forward to it ... i just wish it were 7PM right now ... and i was just getting home ... getting in my jammies and hanging out drinking coffee with David ...
hummm ... almost time for lunch ... woo hoo a break ...
but it being Thursday and the season closer for Friends is on tonight that isn't too bad either ... been kinda looking forward to it ... i just wish it were 7PM right now ... and i was just getting home ... getting in my jammies and hanging out drinking coffee with David ...
hummm ... almost time for lunch ... woo hoo a break ...
i wish today were friday ...
but it being Thursday and the season closer for Friends is on tonight that isn't too bad either ... been kinda looking forward to it ... i just wish it were 7PM right now ... and i was just getting home ... getting in my jammies and hanging out drinking coffee with David ...
hummm ... almost time for lunch ... woo hoo a break ...
but it being Thursday and the season closer for Friends is on tonight that isn't too bad either ... been kinda looking forward to it ... i just wish it were 7PM right now ... and i was just getting home ... getting in my jammies and hanging out drinking coffee with David ...
hummm ... almost time for lunch ... woo hoo a break ...
Wednesday, May 16, 2001
Dali
gotta get some sleep ... i am getting bummed out ... there is nothing i can do to cheer David up about work ... and that makes me feel bad ... i always seem to be good at cheering people up ...
at least i thought of something for his birthday ... a framed Salvador Dali poster for the office ... he loves the art work ... so i know he would love having it hang in here ... so maybe i will think of something work wise too ...
lets hope so ...
at least i thought of something for his birthday ... a framed Salvador Dali poster for the office ... he loves the art work ... so i know he would love having it hang in here ... so maybe i will think of something work wise too ...
lets hope so ...
gotta get some sleep ... i am getting bummed out ... there is nothing i can do to cheer David up about work ... and that makes me feel bad ... i always seem to be good at cheering people up ...
at least i thought of something for his birthday ... a framed Salvador Dali poster for the office ... he loves the art work ... so i know he would love having it hang in here ... so maybe i will think of something work wise too ...
lets hope so ...
at least i thought of something for his birthday ... a framed Salvador Dali poster for the office ... he loves the art work ... so i know he would love having it hang in here ... so maybe i will think of something work wise too ...
lets hope so ...
19 Minutes
i love going out to have a smoke ... looking at my watch ... and seeing i have only 19 minutes left of work ... wooohooooo ...
i do have to stop at the grocery on the way home which i hate ... when i get out of here i just want to zoooooom straight home ... but there are responsibilities ... and i will be so happy when we have chicken tonight for dinner ...
i do have to stop at the grocery on the way home which i hate ... when i get out of here i just want to zoooooom straight home ... but there are responsibilities ... and i will be so happy when we have chicken tonight for dinner ...
i love going out to have a smoke ... looking at my watch ... and seeing i have only 19 minutes left of work ... wooohooooo ...
i do have to stop at the grocery on the way home which i hate ... when i get out of here i just want to zoooooom straight home ... but there are responsibilities ... and i will be so happy when we have chicken tonight for dinner ...
i do have to stop at the grocery on the way home which i hate ... when i get out of here i just want to zoooooom straight home ... but there are responsibilities ... and i will be so happy when we have chicken tonight for dinner ...
Idiots
idiots in front of me
idiots behind me
idiots all around me
i am swimming in a sea of incompetence
idiots behind me
idiots all around me
i am swimming in a sea of incompetence
Tuesday, May 15, 2001
Gifts
i can't believe i care for david sooooo much and yet i can't think of one single thing that would bring a smile to his face for his birthday ... i have never had such a hard time figuring out what gift to get someone ...
at christmas david hardly knew me and got me a bitchen bubble lamp ... i mean it is amazing ... and so beautiful and i just love it ... and i got him a keyboard for his palm and i think he used it only the day i got it for him ... in fact we may have sold it on ebay already ... why is this sooooo hard ...
at christmas david hardly knew me and got me a bitchen bubble lamp ... i mean it is amazing ... and so beautiful and i just love it ... and i got him a keyboard for his palm and i think he used it only the day i got it for him ... in fact we may have sold it on ebay already ... why is this sooooo hard ...
i can't believe i care for david sooooo much and yet i can't think of one single thing that would bring a smile to his face for his birthday ... i have never had such a hard time figuring out what gift to get someone ...
at christmas david hardly knew me and got me a bitchen bubble lamp ... i mean it is amazing ... and so beautiful and i just love it ... and i got him a keyboard for his palm and i think he used it only the day i got it for him ... in fact we may have sold it on ebay already ... why is this sooooo hard ...
at christmas david hardly knew me and got me a bitchen bubble lamp ... i mean it is amazing ... and so beautiful and i just love it ... and i got him a keyboard for his palm and i think he used it only the day i got it for him ... in fact we may have sold it on ebay already ... why is this sooooo hard ...
Spark
tonight i am pretty bored ... i need something new to do ...
all day i look forward to getting home and seeing david ... its hard to imagine what i looked forward to before he was living here ... of course that may be why i stayed at the office till all hours of the night ...
but even when i do see david ... coming home and sitting at my computer for another 6 hours after sitting at it 9 hours at work ... well it is no wonder my body aches ... geezzz ... i think 15 hours a day in front of some bright box is more than enough ...
we have started playing cards a bit ... which is fun ... but even that is lacking spark ...
ya know what else ... i miss windows ... i see why people who live in the basement can become depressed ... it just sucks that it can be night here 24 hours a day ... its like living in alaska in the winter all year long ...
all day i look forward to getting home and seeing david ... its hard to imagine what i looked forward to before he was living here ... of course that may be why i stayed at the office till all hours of the night ...
but even when i do see david ... coming home and sitting at my computer for another 6 hours after sitting at it 9 hours at work ... well it is no wonder my body aches ... geezzz ... i think 15 hours a day in front of some bright box is more than enough ...
we have started playing cards a bit ... which is fun ... but even that is lacking spark ...
ya know what else ... i miss windows ... i see why people who live in the basement can become depressed ... it just sucks that it can be night here 24 hours a day ... its like living in alaska in the winter all year long ...
tonight i am pretty bored ... i need something new to do ...
all day i look forward to getting home and seeing david ... its hard to imagine what i looked forward to before he was living here ... of course that may be why i stayed at the office till all hours of the night ...
but even when i do see david ... coming home and sitting at my computer for another 6 hours after sitting at it 9 hours at work ... well it is no wonder my body aches ... geezzz ... i think 15 hours a day in front of some bright box is more than enough ...
we have started playing cards a bit ... which is fun ... but even that is lacking spark ...
ya know what else ... i miss windows ... i see why people who live in the basement can become depressed ... it just sucks that it can be night here 24 hours a day ... its like living in alaska in the winter all year long ...
all day i look forward to getting home and seeing david ... its hard to imagine what i looked forward to before he was living here ... of course that may be why i stayed at the office till all hours of the night ...
but even when i do see david ... coming home and sitting at my computer for another 6 hours after sitting at it 9 hours at work ... well it is no wonder my body aches ... geezzz ... i think 15 hours a day in front of some bright box is more than enough ...
we have started playing cards a bit ... which is fun ... but even that is lacking spark ...
ya know what else ... i miss windows ... i see why people who live in the basement can become depressed ... it just sucks that it can be night here 24 hours a day ... its like living in alaska in the winter all year long ...
Internet Cafe
i want to open an internet cafe ... i think about it all the time ...
i went online tonight to check out different cafes ... and there was nothing there that spoke to me ... nothing that matched what i wanted to do ... the vision i have ...
maybe someday ...
i went online tonight to check out different cafes ... and there was nothing there that spoke to me ... nothing that matched what i wanted to do ... the vision i have ...
maybe someday ...
Missing David
2:01 ... seems like so long until 6 PM ...
and i sure do miss david ... i really liked when we worked together ...
and i sure do miss david ... i really liked when we worked together ...
Slackers
right on i can write again ... you never know how much you will miss something until it is gone ... and i sure did miss my blogger ...
work hasn't been fun lately ... and since i work soooooooooooo much ... to me that is important ... i am starting to wonder why i work hard ... what is the point ... i am surrounded by slackers that do less than what is acceptable to get by ...
work hasn't been fun lately ... and since i work soooooooooooo much ... to me that is important ... i am starting to wonder why i work hard ... what is the point ... i am surrounded by slackers that do less than what is acceptable to get by ...
right on i can write again ... you never know how much you will miss something until it is gone ... and i sure did miss my blogger ...
work hasn't been fun lately ... and since i work soooooooooooo much ... to me that is important ... i am starting to wonder why i work hard ... what is the point ... i am surrounded by slackers that do less than what is acceptable to get by ...
work hasn't been fun lately ... and since i work soooooooooooo much ... to me that is important ... i am starting to wonder why i work hard ... what is the point ... i am surrounded by slackers that do less than what is acceptable to get by ...
Saturday, May 12, 2001
Friday, May 11, 2001
Ick
i just feel ick ... not sure why but i do ...
david and i went to the diner tonight for dinner ... got coffee ... and came home ... he has been itching to play cards and i don't even feel like doing that ...
and i have stuff to work on on the computer ... and i don't even feel like doing that ...
i think i wish i could just lay in bed ... wrapped up in his arms ...
but at the same time i don't feel like doing that ...
who knows what is up with me ... but whatever it is ... it feels weird ...
david and i went to the diner tonight for dinner ... got coffee ... and came home ... he has been itching to play cards and i don't even feel like doing that ...
and i have stuff to work on on the computer ... and i don't even feel like doing that ...
i think i wish i could just lay in bed ... wrapped up in his arms ...
but at the same time i don't feel like doing that ...
who knows what is up with me ... but whatever it is ... it feels weird ...
i just feel ick ... not sure why but i do ...
david and i went to the diner tonight for dinner ... got coffee ... and came home ... he has been itching to play cards and i don't even feel like doing that ...
and i have stuff to work on on the computer ... and i don't even feel like doing that ...
i think i wish i could just lay in bed ... wrapped up in his arms ...
but at the same time i don't feel like doing that ...
who knows what is up with me ... but whatever it is ... it feels weird ...
david and i went to the diner tonight for dinner ... got coffee ... and came home ... he has been itching to play cards and i don't even feel like doing that ...
and i have stuff to work on on the computer ... and i don't even feel like doing that ...
i think i wish i could just lay in bed ... wrapped up in his arms ...
but at the same time i don't feel like doing that ...
who knows what is up with me ... but whatever it is ... it feels weird ...
Bread Winner
work can make me soooooooooo mad sometimes ...
and they should be happy that right now i am the bread winner ... cause if not i would have just gathered everything up and skipped on out of here a few minutes ago ... :)
and they should be happy that right now i am the bread winner ... cause if not i would have just gathered everything up and skipped on out of here a few minutes ago ... :)
Staying
man i don't think i got to write at all yesterday ... busy day and i think the one time i tried it didn't work ... today i just want to get out of here ... it is only 2:20 which means i basically have 4 more hours before it is time to leave ... i had the opportunity to have my Dr.'s appointment at 4 today and i should have taken it ... i would have gotten to leave in about an hour ... but instead i deceided to be the caring worker and stay till 6 ... cause who doesn't want to leave early on Friday ...
there are many days ... when i look at the people around me ... i feel like i should be making more money ... but for me it isn't the easiest thing to bring up ... the majority of people that make more than me do a hell of a lot less work ... just doesn't seem right ...
there are many days ... when i look at the people around me ... i feel like i should be making more money ... but for me it isn't the easiest thing to bring up ... the majority of people that make more than me do a hell of a lot less work ... just doesn't seem right ...
man i don't think i got to write at all yesterday ... busy day and i think the one time i tried it didn't work ... today i just want to get out of here ... it is only 2:20 which means i basically have 4 more hours before it is time to leave ... i had the opportunity to have my Dr.'s appointment at 4 today and i should have taken it ... i would have gotten to leave in about an hour ... but instead i deceided to be the caring worker and stay till 6 ... cause who doesn't want to leave early on Friday ...
there are many days ... when i look at the people around me ... i feel like i should be making more money ... but for me it isn't the easiest thing to bring up ... the majority of people that make more than me do a hell of a lot less work ... just doesn't seem right ...
there are many days ... when i look at the people around me ... i feel like i should be making more money ... but for me it isn't the easiest thing to bring up ... the majority of people that make more than me do a hell of a lot less work ... just doesn't seem right ...
Wednesday, May 9, 2001
Warm Heart
wow i just realized the twitch in my eye went away ... although now that i thought of that ... hummmm ya think it will come back?
i love coming home from work ... it used to make no difference ... i would stay at work till like 8 easy ... take my time getting home ... and then log into my work computer to do some more work ... now i just can't wait to see Davie ... he just makes me so happy ... a smile bursts across my face as soon as i see him ...
today he picked me up at work ... and as soon as i spotted him in the parking lot ... i got the warmest feeling in my heart ...
i love coming home from work ... it used to make no difference ... i would stay at work till like 8 easy ... take my time getting home ... and then log into my work computer to do some more work ... now i just can't wait to see Davie ... he just makes me so happy ... a smile bursts across my face as soon as i see him ...
today he picked me up at work ... and as soon as i spotted him in the parking lot ... i got the warmest feeling in my heart ...
wow i just realized the twitch in my eye went away ... although now that i thought of that ... hummmm ya think it will come back?
i love coming home from work ... it used to make no difference ... i would stay at work till like 8 easy ... take my time getting home ... and then log into my work computer to do some more work ... now i just can't wait to see Davie ... he just makes me so happy ... a smile bursts across my face as soon as i see him ...
today he picked me up at work ... and as soon as i spotted him in the parking lot ... i got the warmest feeling in my heart ...
i love coming home from work ... it used to make no difference ... i would stay at work till like 8 easy ... take my time getting home ... and then log into my work computer to do some more work ... now i just can't wait to see Davie ... he just makes me so happy ... a smile bursts across my face as soon as i see him ...
today he picked me up at work ... and as soon as i spotted him in the parking lot ... i got the warmest feeling in my heart ...
Metabolife
i guess the day has gone pretty quick ... i started metabolife today ... tracy gave me one of hers to take ... and when david picks me up i am going to buy my own
Twitch
this twitch in my eye is killing me ... it has been non stop since yesterday afternoon and right now it is making me nuts ... i can see my eyelid jerking up and down ... so annoying ...
Grrrrr
sometimes ... at work ... there is just too much anger in me ... i have to find something to counter that ...
i miss david!!
i miss david!!
Tuesday, May 8, 2001
Sides
overall a pretty good day ... feeling much better ... and i can't wait to sleep on my regular side of the bed again ... :)
Brewsters Millions
Brewsters Millions is on ... this morive is so damn funny ... now that i have done a significant amount of work i think i am going to crawl back in bed and watch it ... [smile] ...
Crazy
ahhh will my mom ever see me as an adult ... sometimes she talks to me like i am 12 ... on things i know ... it is crazy ... or is it that it drives me crazy ... ??
Home From Work
well i bit the bullet and stayed home from work today ... i hate doing that but i could hardly walk when i woke up ... my head is spinning and i couldn't sleep ... i hate being sick and not being able to sleep ... it was one of my worst nights of sleep lately ...
david and i are going to have to switch back to our original sides of the bed ...
david and i are going to have to switch back to our original sides of the bed ...
well i bit the bullet and stayed home from work today ... i hate doing that but i could hardly walk when i woke up ... my head is spinning and i couldn't sleep ... i hate being sick and not being able to sleep ... it was one of my worst nights of sleep lately ...
david and i are going to have to switch back to our original sides of the bed ...
david and i are going to have to switch back to our original sides of the bed ...
Monday, May 7, 2001
Fever
ok it is sooooo time to get in bed and try and sleep ... i think it is the only way to get rid of the fever ...
xxox
xxox
Quote of the Day
Kindness No man can be happy without a friend, nor be sure of his friend till he is unhappy. -Thomas Fuller
Kindness No man can be happy without a friend, nor be sure of his friend till he is unhappy. -Thomas Fuller
Quote of the Day
Kindness You cannot do a kindness too soon, for you never know how soon it will be too late. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
Kindness You cannot do a kindness too soon, for you never know how soon it will be too late. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
Quote of the Day
Kindness A kind heart is a fountain of gladness, making everything in its vicinity freshen into smiles. -Washington Irving
Kindness A kind heart is a fountain of gladness, making everything in its vicinity freshen into smiles. -Washington Irving
Quote of the Day
Love A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy. -George Jean Nathan
Love A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy. -George Jean Nathan
Love Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, but among those whom I love, I can: all of them make me laugh. -WH Auden
Quote of the Day
Love I love a hand that meets my own with a grasp that causes some sensation. -Samuel Osgood
Quote of the Day
Ability Our chief want in life is somebody who shall make us do what we can. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
Quote of the Day
Ability People are always ready to admit a man's ability after he gets there. -Bob Edwards
Mailing Rent
i think it is time for bed ... i feel as if i am going down hill fast ...
and to add to the pressure i am already feeling ... my landlord just called to tell me he wants the rent on the first from now on ... ya know it isn't that i don't have the money ... it is that i feel like i am running around in so many different directions i space mailing it ... and he won't let me drop it off at his house which is 3 blocks away ... ya know if i could drop it at his house on the way to work on the first then woohoo ... that works with my life so much better ... but this mailing shit never works ... i know that makes no sense ... most would find it easier to mail something than drop it off but come on ...
to mail my rent -
write out check
find an envelope
get out visor
look up landlord's address
address envelope
find stamp - 7 out of 10 times having to go buy more cause who knows what happened to the last batch
i don't actually have a mailbox so there is no where to leave it here so i either have to drive to the post office which is a whole world of inconvienence in itself or i have to mail it from work ... now the steps before are usually done before the first of the month ... remembering to actually mail it is a whole other thing ... stuff to do/problems abounding fly at me as i walk into work ... usually starts at home ... in my pjs before i leave and i start working them out and figuring out what i have to do while on my way to work ... so by the time i get there i never remember that beautifully sealed envelope in my purse ... most times i see it like 2 days later after the mail has been picked up ... and it winds up being a friday ... so i think ... hummmmm i don't want to leave the check in the office over the weekend i'll take it to the post office on saturday ...
... and like today it winds up being money morning the 7th of May when I wrote the check on the 28th of April ...
to drop it off at his house:
write the check on Saturday the 28th
leave for coffee at Starbucks
drop off check
get my mocha frappachino
come home ... sip coffee ... smoke cigs ... cuddle with david
geeezzzzz my way everyone wins
why won't he let me drop the check off at his house???
and to add to the pressure i am already feeling ... my landlord just called to tell me he wants the rent on the first from now on ... ya know it isn't that i don't have the money ... it is that i feel like i am running around in so many different directions i space mailing it ... and he won't let me drop it off at his house which is 3 blocks away ... ya know if i could drop it at his house on the way to work on the first then woohoo ... that works with my life so much better ... but this mailing shit never works ... i know that makes no sense ... most would find it easier to mail something than drop it off but come on ...
to mail my rent -
write out check
find an envelope
get out visor
look up landlord's address
address envelope
find stamp - 7 out of 10 times having to go buy more cause who knows what happened to the last batch
i don't actually have a mailbox so there is no where to leave it here so i either have to drive to the post office which is a whole world of inconvienence in itself or i have to mail it from work ... now the steps before are usually done before the first of the month ... remembering to actually mail it is a whole other thing ... stuff to do/problems abounding fly at me as i walk into work ... usually starts at home ... in my pjs before i leave and i start working them out and figuring out what i have to do while on my way to work ... so by the time i get there i never remember that beautifully sealed envelope in my purse ... most times i see it like 2 days later after the mail has been picked up ... and it winds up being a friday ... so i think ... hummmmm i don't want to leave the check in the office over the weekend i'll take it to the post office on saturday ...
... and like today it winds up being money morning the 7th of May when I wrote the check on the 28th of April ...
to drop it off at his house:
write the check on Saturday the 28th
leave for coffee at Starbucks
drop off check
get my mocha frappachino
come home ... sip coffee ... smoke cigs ... cuddle with david
geeezzzzz my way everyone wins
why won't he let me drop the check off at his house???
i think it is time for bed ... i feel as if i am going down hill fast ...
and to add to the pressure i am already feeling ... my landlord just called to tell me he wants the rent on the first from now on ... ya know it isn't that i don't have the money ... it is that i feel like i am running around in so many different directions i space mailing it ... and he won't let me drop it off at his house which is 3 blocks away ... ya know if i could drop it at his house on the way to work on the first then woohoo ... that works with my life so much better ... but this mailing shit never works ... i know that makes no sense ... most would find it easier to mail something than drop it off but come on ...
to mail my rent -
write out check
find an envelope
get out visor
look up landlord's address
address envelope
find stamp - 7 out of 10 times having to go buy more cause who knows what happened to the last batch
i don't actually have a mailbox so there is no where to leave it here so i either have to drive to the post office which is a whole world of inconvienence in itself or i have to mail it from work ... now the steps before are usually done before the first of the month ... remembering to actually mail it is a whole other thing ... stuff to do/problems abounding fly at me as i walk into work ... usually starts at home ... in my pjs before i leave and i start working them out and figuring out what i have to do while on my way to work ... so by the time i get there i never remember that beautifully sealed envelope in my purse ... most times i see it like 2 days later after the mail has been picked up ... and it winds up being a friday ... so i think ... hummmmm i don't want to leave the check in the office over the weekend i'll take it to the post office on saturday ...
... and like today it winds up being money morning the 7th of May when I wrote the check on the 28th of April ...
to drop it off at his house:
write the check on Saturday the 28th
leave for coffee at Starbucks
drop off check
get my mocha frappachino
come home ... sip coffee ... smoke cigs ... cuddle with david
geeezzzzz my way everyone wins
why won't he let me drop the check off at his house???
and to add to the pressure i am already feeling ... my landlord just called to tell me he wants the rent on the first from now on ... ya know it isn't that i don't have the money ... it is that i feel like i am running around in so many different directions i space mailing it ... and he won't let me drop it off at his house which is 3 blocks away ... ya know if i could drop it at his house on the way to work on the first then woohoo ... that works with my life so much better ... but this mailing shit never works ... i know that makes no sense ... most would find it easier to mail something than drop it off but come on ...
to mail my rent -
write out check
find an envelope
get out visor
look up landlord's address
address envelope
find stamp - 7 out of 10 times having to go buy more cause who knows what happened to the last batch
i don't actually have a mailbox so there is no where to leave it here so i either have to drive to the post office which is a whole world of inconvienence in itself or i have to mail it from work ... now the steps before are usually done before the first of the month ... remembering to actually mail it is a whole other thing ... stuff to do/problems abounding fly at me as i walk into work ... usually starts at home ... in my pjs before i leave and i start working them out and figuring out what i have to do while on my way to work ... so by the time i get there i never remember that beautifully sealed envelope in my purse ... most times i see it like 2 days later after the mail has been picked up ... and it winds up being a friday ... so i think ... hummmmm i don't want to leave the check in the office over the weekend i'll take it to the post office on saturday ...
... and like today it winds up being money morning the 7th of May when I wrote the check on the 28th of April ...
to drop it off at his house:
write the check on Saturday the 28th
leave for coffee at Starbucks
drop off check
get my mocha frappachino
come home ... sip coffee ... smoke cigs ... cuddle with david
geeezzzzz my way everyone wins
why won't he let me drop the check off at his house???
Noodles
it is so good to be home ... but i can't seem to lay down ... i feel restless and like shit at the same time ... maybe cause i want to eat first before falling asleep ... david is in the kitchen right now making me some noodles ... probably my most favorite thing to eat when i don't feel good ... man he is the greatest!!
it is so good to be home ... but i can't seem to lay down ... i feel restless and like shit at the same time ... maybe cause i want to eat first before falling asleep ... david is in the kitchen right now making me some noodles ... probably my most favorite thing to eat when i don't feel good ... man he is the greatest!!
Too Much
i can't take being here any more ... i think the contributing factors to me being sick so much would be living in our basement ... it is so dusty and no ventalation ... and the stress i am taking on ... i have more on my plate than i can handle ... but when i tell people they don't believe me ...
i don't understand why they don't believe me ... i produce 9 times what the other people in my position produce ... why would i not have too much??????
i don't understand why they don't believe me ... i produce 9 times what the other people in my position produce ... why would i not have too much??????
i can't take being here any more ... i think the contributing factors to me being sick so much would be living in our basement ... it is so dusty and no ventalation ... and the stress i am taking on ... i have more on my plate than i can handle ... but when i tell people they don't believe me ...
i don't understand why they don't believe me ... i produce 9 times what the other people in my position produce ... why would i not have too much??????
i don't understand why they don't believe me ... i produce 9 times what the other people in my position produce ... why would i not have too much??????
Work Sick
i am so sick i can't believe i am here today ...
i am seeing double ... sneezing ... runny nose ... headache ... hot/cold spells ... just fucking horrible!!!
i am seeing double ... sneezing ... runny nose ... headache ... hot/cold spells ... just fucking horrible!!!
Sunday, May 6, 2001
Good Long Day
well what a great day ... house all fixed up ... all the laundry done and most of it put away ... did a whole bunch of work-work tonight ... showered and my hair is almost dry ... so i can sleep in tomorrow morning ... and i am about to go lay down in my newly rearranged bedroom ... woohoo ...
david and i did need to change sides of the bed when we moved stuff ... so i hope that doesn't screw up our sleeping ... man this house is so groovy ... and i really really love living with David ... it is just so great ...
man we did so much today it felt like the longest day ever ... well i also am staying up till 4 AM so i guess that would make it a long day ... and i mean long in a good way ... i had time to do everything i needed ...
well i think it is finally time for sleep ... xxox
david and i did need to change sides of the bed when we moved stuff ... so i hope that doesn't screw up our sleeping ... man this house is so groovy ... and i really really love living with David ... it is just so great ...
man we did so much today it felt like the longest day ever ... well i also am staying up till 4 AM so i guess that would make it a long day ... and i mean long in a good way ... i had time to do everything i needed ...
well i think it is finally time for sleep ... xxox
well what a great day ... house all fixed up ... all the laundry done and most of it put away ... did a whole bunch of work-work tonight ... showered and my hair is almost dry ... so i can sleep in tomorrow morning ... and i am about to go lay down in my newly rearranged bedroom ... woohoo ...
david and i did need to change sides of the bed when we moved stuff ... so i hope that doesn't screw up our sleeping ... man this house is so groovy ... and i really really love living with David ... it is just so great ...
man we did so much today it felt like the longest day ever ... well i also am staying up till 4 AM so i guess that would make it a long day ... and i mean long in a good way ... i had time to do everything i needed ...
well i think it is finally time for sleep ... xxox
david and i did need to change sides of the bed when we moved stuff ... so i hope that doesn't screw up our sleeping ... man this house is so groovy ... and i really really love living with David ... it is just so great ...
man we did so much today it felt like the longest day ever ... well i also am staying up till 4 AM so i guess that would make it a long day ... and i mean long in a good way ... i had time to do everything i needed ...
well i think it is finally time for sleep ... xxox
All Finished
well i did it ... everything is pretty much finished and it is before 2 AM ... ahhhhhhhhh it looks sooooooo much better ... i have a few things here and there that need to be put away ... and the stuff on the walls needs to be rehung ... and the place is ready ... i am so glad i did the majority of it ... the stuff that is left i look forward to ... not only is the bedroom done ... the kitchen is completely redone and it looks awesome ... soooooo much more room ... if we didn't have our bikes in the kitchen we could have a small kitchen table ... but that will be for the next house ... i don't want to buy another thing to bring down here ...
right now i am watching the end of the second I Love Lucy and waiting for the first load of hots to be finished so i can take a quick shower ... hummmm i should probably do a little work before i go to bed ... hummmm maybe there is some old bath towel in the cabinet and i can use that so i can get some work done while the second to the last load is drying ... then i can do like an hours worth of work and head to bed ... sleep in a little if i go ahead and shower and wash my hair tonight ... ohhhh this is all sounding like a great idea ... that is what i am going to do ...
when i finish this cig ...
right now i am watching the end of the second I Love Lucy and waiting for the first load of hots to be finished so i can take a quick shower ... hummmm i should probably do a little work before i go to bed ... hummmm maybe there is some old bath towel in the cabinet and i can use that so i can get some work done while the second to the last load is drying ... then i can do like an hours worth of work and head to bed ... sleep in a little if i go ahead and shower and wash my hair tonight ... ohhhh this is all sounding like a great idea ... that is what i am going to do ...
when i finish this cig ...
well i did it ... everything is pretty much finished and it is before 2 AM ... ahhhhhhhhh it looks sooooooo much better ... i have a few things here and there that need to be put away ... and the stuff on the walls needs to be rehung ... and the place is ready ... i am so glad i did the majority of it ... the stuff that is left i look forward to ... not only is the bedroom done ... the kitchen is completely redone and it looks awesome ... soooooo much more room ... if we didn't have our bikes in the kitchen we could have a small kitchen table ... but that will be for the next house ... i don't want to buy another thing to bring down here ...
right now i am watching the end of the second I Love Lucy and waiting for the first load of hots to be finished so i can take a quick shower ... hummmm i should probably do a little work before i go to bed ... hummmm maybe there is some old bath towel in the cabinet and i can use that so i can get some work done while the second to the last load is drying ... then i can do like an hours worth of work and head to bed ... sleep in a little if i go ahead and shower and wash my hair tonight ... ohhhh this is all sounding like a great idea ... that is what i am going to do ...
when i finish this cig ...
right now i am watching the end of the second I Love Lucy and waiting for the first load of hots to be finished so i can take a quick shower ... hummmm i should probably do a little work before i go to bed ... hummmm maybe there is some old bath towel in the cabinet and i can use that so i can get some work done while the second to the last load is drying ... then i can do like an hours worth of work and head to bed ... sleep in a little if i go ahead and shower and wash my hair tonight ... ohhhh this is all sounding like a great idea ... that is what i am going to do ...
when i finish this cig ...
Looking Good
man i must say i am so sick of putting stuff away ... mind you the room looks bitchen ... but i am getting so tired of putting it all away ... i just want the house to be finished ... finish up my laundry ... eat a little something ... and relax ... but i think i am still a long way from there ... i should stop watching TV while working but come on ... The Usual Suspects and now The Practice ... then a little Seinfeld ... its a great Sunday night ... I am just sorry we didn't get all this done yesterday ... but man it looks awesome ...
man i must say i am so sick of putting stuff away ... mind you the room looks bitchen ... but i am getting so tired of putting it all away ... i just want the house to be finished ... finish up my laundry ... eat a little something ... and relax ... but i think i am still a long way from there ... i should stop watching TV while working but come on ... The Usual Suspects and now The Practice ... then a little Sinefeld ... its a great Sunday night ... I am just sorry we didn't get all this done yesterday ... but man it looks awesome ...
Rearranging
well we are doing it ... we are rearranging the bedroom ... i hate calling it that ... see there are three rooms in this house ... the kitchen which is where you walk in when you walk down the stairs ... then you walk into what is supposed to be the den ... through the den is the third room which is supposed to be the bedroom and where the bathroom is ... we have set the house up differently ... you still walk down the stairs into the kitchen ... cause you can't really change that ... then you walk into a bedroom/den ... it has the bed and the big TV ... the bookcases and a stereo ... then you walk into the office which has a futon, our huge desk and then our clothes and dresser ... works out great cause the bathroom is in the office ... which is the room we are usually in if one of us stays up late or gets up early ... i love how the house is set up and with this new rearranging the bedroom should be awesome now ... ok ... back to work
well we are doing it ... we are rearranging the bedroom ... i hate calling it that ... see there are three rooms in this house ... the kitchen which is where you walk in when you walk down the stairs ... then you walk into what is supposed to be the den ... through the den is the third room which is supposed to be the bedroom and where the bathroom is ... we have set the house up differently ... you still walk down the stairs into the kitchen ... cause you can't really change that ... then you walk into a bedroom/den ... it has the bed and the big TV ... the bookcases and a stereo ... then you walk into the office which has a futon, our huge desk and then our clothes and dresser ... works out great cause the bathroom is in the office ... which is the room we are usually in if one of us stays up late or gets up early ... i love how the house is set up and with this new rearranging the bedroom should be awesome now ... ok ... back to work
Call From The Past
WOW ... WOW ... WOW ...
i just got off the phone with Shalini ... we were friends from age 9 to 19 ... and then we didn't speak again until today ... at age 31 ... 12 years of not speaking and except for filling in a few details it was like we never stopped speaking ...
it was some stupid fight that got blown up ... and it was two girls who were inseparable growing apart that kept us from talking ... and maybe it was something we had to do to become the adults we are today ... but for 12 years i have felt terrible that we haven't spoken ... and after her accident i wanted to talk to her so badly ... but i thought it just wasn't the right time ... she was going through enough ... and now finally we are talking again ... it was so great ...
her sister is in school out here so there is a chance i will get to see her sometime soon which would be rad ...
and we were talking about dorky stuff ... like how we wear our hair ... and we do it the same now ... i mean things that never ever change ... it is amazing ... it was just sooooo great talking to her ...
but for now ... it is 2:30 so i MUST get to work on the house ... david is even awake ... so we should get this done and be able to relax tonight in a nice clean organized bitchen house ... :)
i just got off the phone with Shalini ... we were friends from age 9 to 19 ... and then we didn't speak again until today ... at age 31 ... 12 years of not speaking and except for filling in a few details it was like we never stopped speaking ...
it was some stupid fight that got blown up ... and it was two girls who were inseparable growing apart that kept us from talking ... and maybe it was something we had to do to become the adults we are today ... but for 12 years i have felt terrible that we haven't spoken ... and after her accident i wanted to talk to her so badly ... but i thought it just wasn't the right time ... she was going through enough ... and now finally we are talking again ... it was so great ...
her sister is in school out here so there is a chance i will get to see her sometime soon which would be rad ...
and we were talking about dorky stuff ... like how we wear our hair ... and we do it the same now ... i mean things that never ever change ... it is amazing ... it was just sooooo great talking to her ...
but for now ... it is 2:30 so i MUST get to work on the house ... david is even awake ... so we should get this done and be able to relax tonight in a nice clean organized bitchen house ... :)
WOW ... WOW ... WOW ...
i just got off the phone with Shalini ... we were friends from age 9 to 19 ... and then we didn't speak again until today ... at age 31 ... 12 years of not speaking and except for filling in a few details it was like we never stopped speaking ...
it was some stupid fight that got blown up ... and it was two girls who were inseperable growing apart that kept us from talking ... and maybe it was something we had to do to become the adults we are today ... but for 12 years i have felt terrible that we haven't spoken ... and after her accident i wanted to talk to her so badly ... but i thought it just wasn't the right time ... she was going through enough ... and now finally we are talking again ... it was so great ...
her sister is in school out here so there is a change i will get to see her sometime soon which would be rad ...
and we were talking about dorky stuff ... like how we wear our hair ... and we do it the same now ... i mean things that never ever change ... it is amazing ... it was just sooooo great talking to her ...
but for now ... it is 2:30 so i MUST get to work on the house ... david is even awake ... so we should get this done and be able to relax tonight in a nice clean orgainzed bitchen house ... :)
i just got off the phone with Shalini ... we were friends from age 9 to 19 ... and then we didn't speak again until today ... at age 31 ... 12 years of not speaking and except for filling in a few details it was like we never stopped speaking ...
it was some stupid fight that got blown up ... and it was two girls who were inseperable growing apart that kept us from talking ... and maybe it was something we had to do to become the adults we are today ... but for 12 years i have felt terrible that we haven't spoken ... and after her accident i wanted to talk to her so badly ... but i thought it just wasn't the right time ... she was going through enough ... and now finally we are talking again ... it was so great ...
her sister is in school out here so there is a change i will get to see her sometime soon which would be rad ...
and we were talking about dorky stuff ... like how we wear our hair ... and we do it the same now ... i mean things that never ever change ... it is amazing ... it was just sooooo great talking to her ...
but for now ... it is 2:30 so i MUST get to work on the house ... david is even awake ... so we should get this done and be able to relax tonight in a nice clean orgainzed bitchen house ... :)
Saturday, May 5, 2001
Desk Downfall
this is rediculous that i am still awake ... now i am doing what david does ... we will never get everything finished tomorrow ...
our new desk set up is kind of a bummer ... the thing is so huge we are across the room from each other now ... we used to be sitting so our chairs were practically touching ... and we could touch ... now we gotta get up to do that ... oh well at least the set up looks bitchen now ...
our new desk set up is kind of a bummer ... the thing is so huge we are across the room from each other now ... we used to be sitting so our chairs were practically touching ... and we could touch ... now we gotta get up to do that ... oh well at least the set up looks bitchen now ...
Can't Sleep
can't seem to go to sleep tonight ... keep sitting here messing around with stuff. .. oh well ... i'll wind up sleeping all day tomorrow ... although David is still up ... he must be happy ... checking the clock ... seeing it is almost 3 AM and thinking ... woohoo she is still up so i don't have to feel bad about being up ...
it is kinda bugging me i can't get into my work computer ... i know there are sign ups ... and my customers email me all the time ... people could really need stuff and I can't even find out ... although at the same time it is probably pretty good for me to take a break ... i have been feeling quite burnt out lately ...
David's birthday is on the 25th of this month ... and my plan had been to take him to The Russian Tea Room because he has never been there before and always wanted to go ... but now that we are getting closer to his birthday i don't have the money to do it ... and i have no idea what to do now for his birthday if we aren't going there ...
hummm i did think of something i may be able to do for his birthday ... he has never been to a broadway show ... or any type of show for that matter ... and he was a Rocky Horror fan in high school like myself ... we tried to go once but there was standing room only ... which now way would that be fun ... i could ask for that Friday off and we could go to the city and see Rocky Horror ... i'm going to check for tickets ... The Rocky Horror Show Live
damn the tele-charge site isn't working ... i guess i'll have to check tomorrow ... i think i am going to get in bed ... watch Fletch and try and fall asleep ...
it is kinda bugging me i can't get into my work computer ... i know there are sign ups ... and my customers email me all the time ... people could really need stuff and I can't even find out ... although at the same time it is probably pretty good for me to take a break ... i have been feeling quite burnt out lately ...
David's birthday is on the 25th of this month ... and my plan had been to take him to The Russian Tea Room because he has never been there before and always wanted to go ... but now that we are getting closer to his birthday i don't have the money to do it ... and i have no idea what to do now for his birthday if we aren't going there ...
hummm i did think of something i may be able to do for his birthday ... he has never been to a broadway show ... or any type of show for that matter ... and he was a Rocky Horror fan in high school like myself ... we tried to go once but there was standing room only ... which now way would that be fun ... i could ask for that Friday off and we could go to the city and see Rocky Horror ... i'm going to check for tickets ... The Rocky Horror Show Live
damn the tele-charge site isn't working ... i guess i'll have to check tomorrow ... i think i am going to get in bed ... watch Fletch and try and fall asleep ...
can't seem to go to sleep tonight ... keep sitting here messing around with stuff. .. oh well ... i'll wind up sleeping all day tomorrow ... although David is still up ... he must be happy ... checking the clock ... seeing it is almost 3 AM and thinking ... woohoo she is still up so i don't have to feel bad about being up ...
it is kinda bugging me i can't get into my work computer ... i know there are sign ups ... and my customers email me all the time ... people could really need stuff and I can't even find out ... although at the same time it is probably pretty good for me to take a break ... i have been feeling quite burnt out lately ...
David's birthday is on the 25th of this month ... and my plan had been to take him to The Russian Tea Room because he has never been there before and always wanted to go ... but now that we are getting closer to his birthday i don't have the money to do it ... and i have no idea what to do now for his birthday if we aren't going there ...
hummm i did think of something i may be able to do for his birthday ... he has never been to a broadway show ... or any type of show for that matter ... and he was a Rocky Horror fan in high school like myself ... we tried to go once but there was standing room only ... which now way would that be fun ... i could ask for that Friday off and we could go to the city and see Rocky Horror ... i'm going to check for tickets ... The Rocky Horror Show Live
damn the tele-charge site isn't working ... i guess i'll have to check tomorrow ... i think i am going to get in bed ... watch Fletch and try and fall asleep ...
it is kinda bugging me i can't get into my work computer ... i know there are sign ups ... and my customers email me all the time ... people could really need stuff and I can't even find out ... although at the same time it is probably pretty good for me to take a break ... i have been feeling quite burnt out lately ...
David's birthday is on the 25th of this month ... and my plan had been to take him to The Russian Tea Room because he has never been there before and always wanted to go ... but now that we are getting closer to his birthday i don't have the money to do it ... and i have no idea what to do now for his birthday if we aren't going there ...
hummm i did think of something i may be able to do for his birthday ... he has never been to a broadway show ... or any type of show for that matter ... and he was a Rocky Horror fan in high school like myself ... we tried to go once but there was standing room only ... which now way would that be fun ... i could ask for that Friday off and we could go to the city and see Rocky Horror ... i'm going to check for tickets ... The Rocky Horror Show Live
damn the tele-charge site isn't working ... i guess i'll have to check tomorrow ... i think i am going to get in bed ... watch Fletch and try and fall asleep ...
Rearranging Ideas
well ... finally ... everything on my blogger is working the way i want it to ... even if at the bottom of the page it says 'done with errors on the page' ... as long as the errors don't seem to affect me ... who cares ...
to say the least today was insanely unproductive ... i couldn't get into my machine at work so i couldn't answer emails ... or set up new accounts ... David slept all day so we couldn't work on rearranging the bedroom ... i ate some of my left-overs from last night and got sick all over again ... [so of course i threw that out pronto] ... and i just felt icky the rest of the day ...
we did do a little grocery shopping ... went out for coffee ... FINALLY packaged up all the cardboard boxes by the front door ... it is so rediculous the garbage man won't take them but we do not have any sort of cardboard recycling in the area ... what do they expect me to do with them?
i'll tell you what i am going to do ... they are all packaged up now so i am going by our old office and dumping those in the dumpster ... no one will be phased by it and i will have a clean front door again ...
oh and david did take apart these funky silver chairs we have but they were just taking up toooooo much room in this little place and we weren't using them ... so they are all disassembled and put away for a time when we have a bigger house ... and i took everything off the bookcases so we wouldn't have to do that part tomorrow ... we could just start rearranging ... i can't wait ... that room is such a disaster right now ... i hate going in there ... probably why i haven't been sleeping so well ... i lay there and think 'how could this room work better' ... what a dork ...
i want to finish everything up with the house tomorrow ... so i don't have to think about it anymore ... and i can take some pictures ... everyone keeps asking what the place looks like ... and since february it has been in such a state of transition i didn't want to photograph it ... i also have that kitchen cabinet from the 50's that we bought last weekend ... maybe i'll go get some Rustolium [sp?] and work on it throughout the day while we are moving stuff ... it drys fast enough that it might be ready by night time which would be fabulous ... yea i think that should be my plan for tomorrow ...
man i have such lofty ideas before i go to bed ... then i wake up and want to just rest knowing the week ahead of me is going to wipe me out ... oh well i guess we will see in the morning ... for now it is off to bed ...
xxox
to say the least today was insanely unproductive ... i couldn't get into my machine at work so i couldn't answer emails ... or set up new accounts ... David slept all day so we couldn't work on rearranging the bedroom ... i ate some of my left-overs from last night and got sick all over again ... [so of course i threw that out pronto] ... and i just felt icky the rest of the day ...
we did do a little grocery shopping ... went out for coffee ... FINALLY packaged up all the cardboard boxes by the front door ... it is so rediculous the garbage man won't take them but we do not have any sort of cardboard recycling in the area ... what do they expect me to do with them?
i'll tell you what i am going to do ... they are all packaged up now so i am going by our old office and dumping those in the dumpster ... no one will be phased by it and i will have a clean front door again ...
oh and david did take apart these funky silver chairs we have but they were just taking up toooooo much room in this little place and we weren't using them ... so they are all disassembled and put away for a time when we have a bigger house ... and i took everything off the bookcases so we wouldn't have to do that part tomorrow ... we could just start rearranging ... i can't wait ... that room is such a disaster right now ... i hate going in there ... probably why i haven't been sleeping so well ... i lay there and think 'how could this room work better' ... what a dork ...
i want to finish everything up with the house tomorrow ... so i don't have to think about it anymore ... and i can take some pictures ... everyone keeps asking what the place looks like ... and since february it has been in such a state of transition i didn't want to photograph it ... i also have that kitchen cabinet from the 50's that we bought last weekend ... maybe i'll go get some Rustolium [sp?] and work on it throughout the day while we are moving stuff ... it drys fast enough that it might be ready by night time which would be fabulous ... yea i think that should be my plan for tomorrow ...
man i have such lofty ideas before i go to bed ... then i wake up and want to just rest knowing the week ahead of me is going to wipe me out ... oh well i guess we will see in the morning ... for now it is off to bed ...
xxox
Day Sleeper
I love David dearly ... but when he pulls stuff like this it upsets me so much ...
he is a lot like I used to be ... a computer insomniac who does their best work in the middle of the night ... some where around 2:45 is where it really kicks in and the next thing you know it is 6 AM and you still just have a little bit of work you want to do ... everything is clicking ... the net is fast ... your mind is racing from a caffeine and nicotine buzz and it is finally somewhere between 7 and 9 AM and it is time for sleep ... this is all well and good ... i was like this for years [but having to be in an office now at 9:30 AM instead of working at home hardly leaves me time to stay up all night] ... so anyway this is all fine ... but there are 2 days a week when we are finally home together and that is Saturday and Sunday ... so when we make plan for Saturday and he crawls into bed at 9:30 in the morning when I am just getting up ... i am kinda pissed ... it is now 2:30 and it will be well over an hour before he wakes up ... so if we get started on all we talked about doing it won't be till he is finally awake and out of that groggy state which could easily be 5 PM ... well needless to say i am going to again start getting tired at like 10 ...
he has Sunday ... Monday ... Tuesday ... Wednesday ... and ... Thursday ... to stay up all night and sleep all day ... why does he do it on Friday too ... Ya know for 5 months he worked Saturday and Sunday ... and we never had a day off together ... maybe that was better ... the plans i made didn't involve him ... so i was able to get everything done while he was at work ... but you know what was planned for today ... to clean and completely rearrange the room he is currently sleeping in ... it isn't even like i can proceed with my plans without him ... he is in there asleep ... and i don't want to just go in there and get to work anyway cause the day will be worse if he is cranky too ... :)
well i am going to go back to packing up my winter clothes ... hummm i bet i wind up laying down to take a nap around the time he is getting up ... irony huh ...
he is a lot like I used to be ... a computer insomniac who does their best work in the middle of the night ... some where around 2:45 is where it really kicks in and the next thing you know it is 6 AM and you still just have a little bit of work you want to do ... everything is clicking ... the net is fast ... your mind is racing from a caffeine and nicotine buzz and it is finally somewhere between 7 and 9 AM and it is time for sleep ... this is all well and good ... i was like this for years [but having to be in an office now at 9:30 AM instead of working at home hardly leaves me time to stay up all night] ... so anyway this is all fine ... but there are 2 days a week when we are finally home together and that is Saturday and Sunday ... so when we make plan for Saturday and he crawls into bed at 9:30 in the morning when I am just getting up ... i am kinda pissed ... it is now 2:30 and it will be well over an hour before he wakes up ... so if we get started on all we talked about doing it won't be till he is finally awake and out of that groggy state which could easily be 5 PM ... well needless to say i am going to again start getting tired at like 10 ...
he has Sunday ... Monday ... Tuesday ... Wednesday ... and ... Thursday ... to stay up all night and sleep all day ... why does he do it on Friday too ... Ya know for 5 months he worked Saturday and Sunday ... and we never had a day off together ... maybe that was better ... the plans i made didn't involve him ... so i was able to get everything done while he was at work ... but you know what was planned for today ... to clean and completely rearrange the room he is currently sleeping in ... it isn't even like i can proceed with my plans without him ... he is in there asleep ... and i don't want to just go in there and get to work anyway cause the day will be worse if he is cranky too ... :)
well i am going to go back to packing up my winter clothes ... hummm i bet i wind up laying down to take a nap around the time he is getting up ... irony huh ...
Friday, May 4, 2001
Little Lucy
and now it is finally time to get in bed ... watch a little I Love Lucy and get some zzzzzzz ... suddenly i am soooooo tired!!!
Past Countdown
man do i ever get to leave on time ... and isn't it most important on a friday ... ssshhheeessssshhhhh
No Chat
i wish today were as fun as i had hoped it would be ... i miss david ... he was up all night working on his computer and crawled into bed as my alarm was going off ... which means i don't get to chat with him at all which is a bummer ... well back to work ... only 3 hours left ...
Thursday, May 3, 2001
New Desks
well last night rocked ... work wasn't too bad ... Tracy really started helping me and it made a huge difference ... plus having the new phone system ... even if some people think i am their secretary it is all pretty groovy ...
last night David and I went to IKEA and bought new desks ... 4 tables that all fit together to form the most bitchen set up ... i just LOVE it ... and man he is so damn groovy ... he knew i wanted to rearrange the rest of the room and even though he was so tired tonight ... he help me finish everything up ... and this room is awesome now ... it just looks sooooooo good ... i am loving this apartment again ... i have been itching to move but now that we are setting everything up and it is looking good i am loving this place again ...
and David ... i am loving him ... every moment of dating him has been different than anything I have experienced dating-wise ... we fight but it is healthy fighting ... and we get along sooooo well ... and i really miss him during the day when i am at work ... there is a little ache in my heart when i think about him ... i miss him working at the same place ... it was fun to get a little smile from him ... but now i have instant messenger and we chat during the day ...
it is nice though that he doesn't work there anymore cause he worked every weekend ... so i didn't even look forward to Friday afternoon at 6 ... now it is like Monday morning at 9:30 AM I am already looking forward to Friday ... even though we are going to redo the rest of the apartment ... it will be fun ... i like working on our home ... its more fun and more special with David ...
ok i am getting sappy ... and that is totally out of character ... but these are the things on my mind all the time ...
i think i should be off to bed ... i was exhausted today and i had a migraine ... well it was never full blown but it was lurking there all day ... i stayed up till like 2:30 or something last night ... after redoing the office ... and messing around ... [great messing around i need to add] .. i didn't go to sleep till like quarter to 4 ... and then i woke up with a terrible headache around 4:49 [obviously i looked at the clock on the way to the bathroom] then it was up for work at 8 ... rough day ...
and since i have been sitting here dreaming about getting in bed i think it is time i do it ...
xxox
last night David and I went to IKEA and bought new desks ... 4 tables that all fit together to form the most bitchen set up ... i just LOVE it ... and man he is so damn groovy ... he knew i wanted to rearrange the rest of the room and even though he was so tired tonight ... he help me finish everything up ... and this room is awesome now ... it just looks sooooooo good ... i am loving this apartment again ... i have been itching to move but now that we are setting everything up and it is looking good i am loving this place again ...
and David ... i am loving him ... every moment of dating him has been different than anything I have experienced dating-wise ... we fight but it is healthy fighting ... and we get along sooooo well ... and i really miss him during the day when i am at work ... there is a little ache in my heart when i think about him ... i miss him working at the same place ... it was fun to get a little smile from him ... but now i have instant messenger and we chat during the day ...
it is nice though that he doesn't work there anymore cause he worked every weekend ... so i didn't even look forward to Friday afternoon at 6 ... now it is like Monday morning at 9:30 AM I am already looking forward to Friday ... even though we are going to redo the rest of the apartment ... it will be fun ... i like working on our home ... its more fun and more special with David ...
ok i am getting sappy ... and that is totally out of character ... but these are the things on my mind all the time ...
i think i should be off to bed ... i was exhausted today and i had a migraine ... well it was never full blown but it was lurking there all day ... i stayed up till like 2:30 or something last night ... after redoing the office ... and messing around ... [great messing around i need to add] .. i didn't go to sleep till like quarter to 4 ... and then i woke up with a terrible headache around 4:49 [obviously i looked at the clock on the way to the bathroom] then it was up for work at 8 ... rough day ...
and since i have been sitting here dreaming about getting in bed i think it is time i do it ...
xxox
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