hummmm it has been movie night tonight ... I just finished watching The Negotiator ... and now I can't decide ... while I do my holiday cards should I watch Mommie Dearest or Bye, Bye Love ... both are great movies ... but I think I will go with the one that makes me laugh ...

Quotes from my "Wild Words from Wild Women" calendar:


"I have a brain and a uterus, and I use both."

- Patricia Schroeder, Colorado congresswoman


"It's not how old you are but how you are old."

- Marie Dressler, who obtained her Oscar at age fifty-eight


"My attitude toward men who mess around is simple: If you find 'em, kill 'em."

- Loretta Lynn, country and western singer


"I want no fences around me, unless I erect them myself."

- Faye Dunaway, free-thinking film actress


"All discarded lovers should be given a second chance, but with somebody else."

- Mae West, doyenne of the sexy double-entendre


"Great food is like great sex - the more you have the more you want."

- Gael Greene, renowned restaurant critic


"The glass ceiling gets more pliable when you turn up the heat."

- Pauline R. Kezer, Connecticut secretary of state


"Oh, I'm so inadequate - and I love myself!"

- Meg Ryan, movie actress


"You can't shake hands with a clenched fist."

- Indira Gandhi, former prime minister of India


"I think that business practices would improve immeasurably if they were guided by 'feminine' principles - qualities like love and care and intuition."

- Anita Roddick, founder of the fabulously successful Body Shop store


"Show me someone who never gossips, and I'll show you someone who isn't interested in people."

- Barbara Walters, mother of the misty-eyed interview


"The only women who don't believe that sexual harassment is a real problem in this country are the women who have never been in the workplace."

- Cynthia Heimel, humorist, tackling a touchy topic


"Being a sex symbol has to do with an attitude, not looks. Most men think it's looks, most women know otherwise."

- Kathleen Turner, who dared to appear bare at the age of forty-six


"Sex appeal is fifty percent what you've got and fifty percent what people think you've got."

- Sophia Loren, still sexy and nearing seventy


"Ideas are a dime a dozen. People who implement them are priceless."

- Mary Kay Ash, founder of Mary Kay Cosmetics


"A lot of guys think the larger a woman's breasts are, the less intelligent she is. I don't think it works like that. I think it's the opposite. I think the larger a woman's breasts are, the less intelligent men become."

- Anita Wise, satirist

I think I might be one of the only people to have lost weight after Thanksgiving ... it is a miracle ... and I didn't deny myself ... of course I was the only one last night that wasn't wallowing around in pain ... I tried everything and felt more than satisfied ... even had pecan pie for the first time in my life ... but this morning the scale was 2 pounds lighter ... I couldn't believe it ... that means with 112 days left on my 128 days to healthy I am down 16 pounds ... makes me so happy ... I haven't done anything in ages that improves how I feel on the inside ... I am so glad I started this ... no one can see a difference in my body yet ... but in my attitude it is noticeable ... :)

I would like to share a site that has the coolest baby pillows ... they are called baby guling pillows and it is a body pillow for a baby ... they take to it naturally and are quite popular in Indonesia ... they are made by Heather Mac and can be seen here ... check them out they are quite beautiful ...

Happy Thanksgiving ... yea it is Turkey Day ... and we have big plans ...


my brother is having 10 people for dinner ... David is really excited about the turkey ... his eyes light up like a kid when he talks about it ... and got beautiful cobalt blue bottles and put flowers in them and made name tags for each persons place card ...


I of course am thankful for so many things ... family ... friends ... health ... but I think this year I am most thankful for David ... he is the kindest person I have ever been with ... never has a boyfriend cared for me so much ... worried about my safety ... been there to help and support me ... and I feel so lucky he is such a big part of my life ...


now go out there and gobble gobble till ya gotta unbutton the pants ... :)

I tried ... I really really tried ... but it didn't work ... due to my mishaps this morning I was the last one in the office ... since we have a long weekend everyone came in early ... so at 3:30 when I should have already been on the bus to catch the train I watched everyone leave ... while I sat here waiting for the UPS man ... now he is sweet ... and told me I was awesome for waiting around ... and I did earn 2 extra hours of work towards the 16 I am not getting paid for this week ... but it still sucks staying late ...


there is one other thing happening that I would rather not talk about ... but suffice it to say being without a bathroom on the way home could pose problems ...


I am not sure what I did to get my karma out of wack but maybe it is past me now ... my blogs are getting bitter and I don't like that ... I am normally such a happy person ... of course I did spend 14 months without a job living life joyously ... so maybe 3.5 weeks isn't long enough for me to get back into the swing of things ... :) ... but I am working on it ...


I have some fun pictures to post once I get home ... photos always cheer up my mood ...


so as Martha would say ... that will be a "Good Thing" ... :)

So lets recap Wednesday from 4:30 AM to noon ...


~ woke up and threw up due to severe cramps

~ ran late this morning, just couldn't get it together

~ spilt my coffee while trying to put it in my thermos

~ got to the train to have the doors close in my face

~ ran up the stairs at my destination in time to see the bus pass me by and no one tell the driver I was waving frantically

~ sat in the 31 degree weather for an hour waiting for the next bus

~ one bus passed by this guy and I without stopping ... waited for the next one

~ missed a call from my sister-in-law so I lost out on getting a really cute pink hat

~ don't have enough milk here to make both Slim Fast drinks today and I ran out of popcorn for the air popper


so that is my Wednesday to this point in the day ... each time something shitty happened I thought "can't get any worse" ... but now I know better ... so to cheer myself up I am going to write a list of things that make me happy ... in no particular order


1 - getting off work early

2 - curling up with David

3 - laughing

4 - getting a good seat to myself on the train

5 - magazine subscriptions arriving in my mailbox

6 - Starbucks Mocha Frappachinos

7 - coming home to a house David cleaned

8 - sleeping in without the phone or sun waking me up

9 - Kramer curling up on my lap

10 - the numbers on the scale going down

11 - cross country road trips

12 - Amtrak trips

13 - my holiday card this year

14 - decorating my house

15 - peppermint ice cream

16 - wrapping holiday gifts

17 - watching Alice in Wonderland

18 - reading a book I just can't put down

19 - the moment all the laundry is finished and put away

20 - doing something for someone else that makes them happy

I just went to a link I saw on smackTHEweasel and laughed my ass off ... shit this is some funny stuff ... check it out ... Be prepared to laugh hard

when a coworker feels they are above answering the phone I have a problem with that ... unless you are the boss I see no reason why anyone should be above pitching to to answer the phone ... every office job I have had there is someone like that ...


what makes me crazy is when 75% of the incoming calls are for that one person ... and 70% of those calls are personal ...


if I were to ever get an overabundance of personal calls at work I would try and pick up the phone as much as possible ... because I wouldn't want people to think I spent my whole day talking to my boyfriend/husband/child/sister/mother/best friend ... whatever the case may be ...


it isn't so bad here because we don't get too many phone calls ... not like the other jobs I have had ... but the woman here who feels she is above answering the phone gets so many personal calls it is CRAZY ... all day long ... she is chatting with someone ... without shame ... you can hear her all over the office ... it is something I just wouldn't do ...

weekends aren't long enough ... it takes me at least a day to decompress from a week of waking up at 4 AM ... now sleeping in is 6 AM ... pathetic ... it is already Monday again and I am back at work ...


of course this is a 3 day work week [can't beat that] but I don't get paid for Thursday and Friday ... which hurts so close to Christmas ...


I was selected to enter the blogger redesign contest ... and with such an insane sleeping schedule I just never had the time to sit down after work last week and work on it ... they extended the deadline from Friday the 22nd to Sunday the 24th at noon ... and I still had nothing to submit ... I guess if it takes me weeks to redo my own blog and come up with something I like ... how could I come up with someone in a week when I get home from work at 6 and I am in bed 2 hours later ... so even though I really wanted to do it ... I just didn't get around to it ...


I did finish everything I could on a huge site David and I are working on ... and now I am waiting for them to give me the rest of the content ... so since I have done everything I can on my end ... and a site that should have taken no more than a month has now been in process for 4 months ... and it is close to the end of the year ... I went ahead and billed them ... so if they send the money that will be a great thing ... then David and I could move into our condo ... woohoo ...


ok I think I have done enough rambling ...


oh we did go out to dinner for my dad's birthday on Saturday ... we went to a Hibachi restaurant that was so amazingly good ... yowza ... too bad it was so expensive or I would be there again ... soon!!!

employee handbook

So please tell me if I have just had cushy jobs in the past but I was reading our employee handbook tonight and it turns out ...


~ we have no vacation days or personal days

~ since I started work after October 1, 2002 I don't earn any vacation days until January 2004 ... then I earn 1/2 a day each month till June and then a day each month for the rest of the year

~ there are no paid holidays for the first 60 days of employment so I won't get paid for the 2 days off for Thanksgiving, 2 days at Christmas and New Year's Day

~ Maternity leave is without pay

~ vacation days can not be carried over ... so in November 2004 I will have earned 7.5 days that have to be taken by December 31st

~ 10 missed days of work in a 12 month period and you are automatically fired [this includes being sick with a doctors note]


I can't even type any more ... it is too upsetting ... I mean when I broke my leg I would have easily missed 10 days of work ... when I had pneumonia I was bed ridden for 3 weeks ... I just don't understand these restrictions on people ...


2004 ... I won't have vacation days for 2 years ... my first paid day off will be Memorial Day 2003 ...


ya know I made a commitment to work for 2 years ... by the time I am allowed to leave I will be earning my first vacation day ... hahahahaaaa ...

I have only been employed 3 weeks ... David only a week ... and I officially have no life ... up at 4 AM doesn't leave much time to do stuff at night ... I should be in bed right now [7:42 PM] but I just got out of the shower and would rather not go to sleep with wet hair so as to avoid waking up and looking like Cyndi Lauper circa 1985 ... [not that I didn't love her] ...


and I have to admit something ... my job is so beyond boring ... I took a job at the same company my dad works for ... just in a different office ... and I made a promise I would keep it for 2 years ... I can't even imagine doing it for 2 months ... today my day consisted of setting up this mailing for these trips they give away each year ... to about 600 dealers ... to do this I had to ...


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you get the idea ... it was all I could do to keep my eyes open ... I think I dozed off a couple of times ... which wouldn't look good if anyone noticed ... thank goodness no one did ... and I can't complain about the job because I am lucky to have one ... but ya know I am a Sesame Street kinda kid ... quick 2 minute ideas that keep me interested and then move on to the next ... I like to stay challenged ... keep busy ... and not be bored ...


I mean I guess the job is easy ... but is that how I want to go through life ... with an easy job ... I spend a lot of time at work ... it should be a rewarding experience ...


ahhh I am just bitchy tonight ... I am sure I will feel better Saturday morning ... when I can sleep in ... which could be 6 AM at this point ... hahahahaaaa

I don't think my body was meant to be up for 30 minutes already ... ya know I was in bed by 8:15 last night ... I don't even get to watch TV anymore and I love TV ... I mean West Wing is on tonight and I can't imagine staying up till 10 ... wow life sure has changed ... and until I get my first paycheck I liked being unemployed better ... :) I would be going to bed now instead of getting up ...

I was molested on the train today ...


the stop right before mine is the first above ground stop since being in the city ... and right as we pulled into the sunlight I felt someone tickling my hip ... like they were reaching their hand around the seat ... it scared the hell out of me ... I whipped around to catch the guy behind me ... and he looked at me as though I were crazy ... and then I felt it again ... my music was on so loud I was just out of my head trying to figure out what was happening ...


for the first time in my life I put my cell phone in my pants pocket on vibrate ...


I was molesting myself ...

almost everyone is out of my office this week ... actually till the 2nd of December ... and being on the early schedule with David I am here at the crack of dawn ... so I have a good 2 hours here before anyone else comes in ... it is too bad i don't have a better computer or i could work on some of my own stuff in the morning ... but then maybe that is why i have a shitty 'puter ... :)

so the rest of the day ended up alright ... well almost alright ... I walked all the way to the bus this afternoon to realize I forgot my phone and cigs ... and without the phone getting home would be tough ... so I went all the way back ... running ... got my stuff and ran back to the bus just in time ... so that part turned out good ...


David got a job ... it is doing computer work on a somewhat temp basis ... they have a 7 year project going on so it could last that long or it could last a week ... either way he is working and quite happy about it ... the bummer is ... the crazy wake up schedule I had today ... that is now my new schedule everyday ... we will be taking the train together for most of the way ... then we switch trains and he goes 4 more stops ... and I go 9 more ...


life will be better when we move to the condo cause I will be able to walk home ... until then I'll hang out in the car and read for about an hour waiting for David ...


ok I am so exhausted ... I must shower and head to bed ... :)

ok the waking up insanely early was bad ... the bone chilling weather didn't help much either ... but I resolved to have a good day ... I spent a lot of time last night ripping songs and setting up my MP3 player with new music ...


the train was pretty good since it was so early I didn't have to share my seat ... the music I chose was just OK ... I didn't know if it was cause I was so tired or what but there were a few good songs I played numerous times ...


the bus was there when I got off the train ... and was ready to leave so I didn't have to wait in the cold ... I didn't get to smoke a cig but that was alright ...


everyone on the bus were the people I normally ride home with ... see I spend only 8 hours at work cause I don't take lunch and my boss is fine with that ... so everyone looked familiar ... a couple people smiled or said hello as I got on ... I went and sat down ... and to my surprise I sat in a seat that appeared to be next to an open window during the rain last night ... it was a huge ... I mean huge puddle and my entire ass got wet ... through to my skin ...


that was it ... that officially made it a sucky day ... walking around like I wet my damn pants ... in the freezing temperatures ... way too early in the morning with little sleep ...


stuff is better now that I am here ... and I will get to leave an hour earlier than I usually do which is always nice ...


so it will be off to bed early for me ...

Monday is known as a down day ... "I don't like Mondays" ... "Does someone have a case of the Monday's?" ... I never really felt that way until this morning ... and I am so fuming mad at David I am making myself sick ...


he called last night from work and said he wanted to work this morning ... was that alright because he needed to be there at 6 which meant he would have to drop me off at the train around 10 after 5 which is 2 hours early and 30 minutes before the first train ... but of course I was fine with that because he is working ...


he called last night at 12:15 on his way home from work ... while on the phone I let him know that the alarm was set for 4:15 so we could leave the house at 4:55 ... that there were clean clothes out for him for work monday morning ... and he said thank you ...


at 3:30 David put his arm over me and it startled me ... when I looked at the clock I said "we will be getting up soon so start preparing yourself" ... at 4:15 my alarm went off and although I had had less than 4 hours sleep ... I got up and did everything I needed to do in the bathroom ... that way David could sleep an extra bit ... once I was finished I went in to wake him up ...


he said ... "I am just dropping you off at the train ... I didn't sign the sheet last night so the shipyard won't let me and I would drive out there for nothing" ... I was pissed ... what the fuck ... I said "what the fuck is your problem ... why wouldn't you tell me this last night when you called or when you got home and I woke up and reminded you how early we have to get up" ... he couldn't even see the problem in any of this ... so now I am up and showered with my contacts in ... I can't go back to sleep for an hour when I am this tired ...


I hate to complain but writing this post is the only thing keeping me awake ... and I am going to have a hell of a time at work today ... it is just so inconsiderate ... I would never have done this to him ... I keep crying I am so tired and so upset ... it is just such a lack of feeling for me ...


I already have trouble staying awake at work ... I don't know how I will ever do it today ...

I am SOOOOOOOOOOO excited ... like over a year ago I saw this picture hanging in an apartment on the TV show Three Sisters ... I had no idea who the artist was or anything about it ... except that it said "call again call again" and it had a girl that looked like she was from the 20's ... I looked for it for ages ... I wrote to different magazines as well as NBC to find out who the artist was or where I could get it ... no one knew ... every once in a while I would try searching for it again to no avail ... well tonight I put "call again" as a search argument on ebay and got a cigar sign ... it wasn't the picture I was looking for but the type looked familiar ... so I moved my search to Google and I FOUND IT ...

isn't she just so cute ... at least I know how to get it when I one day have some money ... :) ... I found it at this pretty groovy site ...

By the way ... the caricature of me was done by my friend Bob Dix and you can check out his stuff at http://www.bobdix.org ... he is great ... check out the "bobtoons" section for personalized work ...

I don't know if there is a better scene in a movie than when Aretha Franklin is singing "Think" in The Blues Brothers ... I just LOVE it ... it makes me want to get up and dance and sing ... if I could sing ... :) ... she ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS!!!!!! and Matt 'Guitar' Murphy well he is one hot number ... when I was in college he played at the bar across the street from my house ... I was friends with everyone that worked there and after his show I got to hang out and have a beer with him and he is one of the nicest men ... it was such a groovy night ...

well David is off to work ... I am so happy for him ... he has been in such a great mood since yesterday ... it is too bad it isn't a permanent job but who knows what it will lead to ... I am just so happy he is doing something with computers and doesn't have to cook ...


kinda sucks that my days off he is working but I do get some alone time ... which I just love ... and I don't get too much of that ... I have a site I need to design ... and I have wooden letters I want to paint and hang above the bed in our new bedroom ... so there is plenty to do ... besides I need to shower and I am going to give myself a facial ... I also need to do some searching for Christmas gifts ... Hanukah gifts ... whatever the recipient celebrates ...

I have been checking out barkins.com and got this great short film link ... Farm Sluts ... if you aren't on a dial up it is soooo worth checking out ... I love the film!!!

down 3 pounds in 2 days ... and I couldn't be happier ... this is the part I like ... in the beginning when I am dropping weight ... I just hope it keeps up


ohhh and I got to sleep in today ... it makes it such a great experience when you are getting up early all week to go to work ... I get up every morning at 5:25 ... today I woke up at 5ish ... closed my eyes again ... then at 7ish ... then at 9ish ... then at 11 I got up ... it just felt wonderful!!!!!

I added a new link to the site ... an "extras" as a place to put whatever I want ... I also am looking forward to updating the "about" page ... that will be tomorrow's project while David is working ...


so I have gotten through 2 of my 128 days to healthier ... so when I wake up tomorrow I will be on day 126 ... I am looking forward to stepping on the scale ...


and sleeping in ... !!!!!

i am so happy right now i could bust ... David just called me ... he got a job ... it is only for Saturday and Sunday but it is computer work ... and the guy that hired him really liked him and said he would see what else he could find ...


so we are going to dinner when he picks me up to celebrate ... i haven't heard him sound this happy in a long time ... :)

I had the news on for a bit this morning and they were talking about the increased terrorist threats ... how it would be something "spectacular" [i feel that is the wrong word to use ... it has a positive connotation] ... anyway ... while on the train today i noticed some things that were unusual ... they had someone at each station standing by the turnstiles ... where you use your pass to get on and off ... looking at each person ... not stopping anyone but at least checking them out ...


then while riding the train at several of the stops they made an announcment that if you see anyone suspicious, doing anything out of the ordinary, bags or boxes left anyway to immediately report it to a Metro official ...


it just gave me an eerie feeling ... it was weird ...

I just adore taking the train ... so many interesting things happen and when I am not dozing I catch a few of them ... tonight there was a group of 6th graders on the train walking around taking a survey ... they claimed it was for extra credit ... but I have a feeling that in part they were proving to each other how smart they were and how dumb everyone else is ... little do they realize that unless they join the scientific or medical field there is little use for the 4 stages of mitosis ... none the less it was fun ... they were asking people their favorite radio station ... if they were pro abortion ... favorite ice cream ... 4 stages of mitosis ... what is 10[squared] ... the capital of Zimbabwe ... but it got people talking ... and laughing ... and it was a fun diversion on the ride home ...


it is too bad they didn't ask me the questions ... I know the 4 phases of mitosis are prophase, metaphase, anaphase and telophase ... don't ask me how I know that ... in college I only went to biology class on test day ... I mean the class was at 8 o'clock in the morning ... on the total opposite side of campus ... during the winter ... in Kansas ... where it can be 30 below on a good day ... and I pulled a C ... just enough to get by ... my schooling trademark ...


I did great on my first day of 128 days to healthier ... although by the time David picked me up at the station I was nursing a killer headache and felt a little loopy from the lack of solid food ... so we went to dinner ...


and now that I am actually mixing with people in the real world I am coming in contact with germs again ... not that I am a germ-o-phobe ... but come on ... the guy next to me tonight was talking about how he had Tori Amos tickets but couldn't go cause he was too sick ... if you are too sick for a great concert don't get on the fucking train ... before I left work I was feeling funky but I thought it was the lack of food ... now that I am home I feel even funkier ... achy ... tired ... I need to take care of myself ... a year off work and I wasn't sick ... cause I didn't come in contact with others too much ... but now ... now I need to work on getting more rest ... and being good to myself ... cause if I am not at work I don't get paid ... it isn't like my old job where I could work at home if need be ... I gotta be there to get the moula ... :)

On November 14th I am starting 128 days to healthy ... or at least healthier ... it isn't some book or anything ... it is my own plan ... things in my life must change ... I need to become happier with myself ... in 128 days I will be 33 ... I have looked forward to this birthday for a long time ... 3 is my favorite number so I always envisioned turning 33 in 2003 would make it a great year ... and in order for that to happen I have to make a change ...


I want to have gastric intestinal bypass surgery ... my parents are freaking on the idea ... and are saying no ... but do they really have a say when I am old enough to make that decision ... so these next 128 days will decide ... if I can loose weight on my own and get my fat ass out of my computer chair and do some exercise then maybe I can loose it all on my own ... but if it doesn't happen I am going for the surgery ... and they will have to deal with their own fears ...


I feel if I give it a valiant effort for 1/3 of a year ... that will be a good test ... but at this time even though I am totally happy on the outside ... inside I have grown to loath myself ... I have become uncomfortable in my own skin ... and a person shouldn't live that way ...


so tomorrow starts my 128 days to change ... :)

well I finished it ... the new site is up ... I know I know I made all these logos and asked people to vote on them ... and then I didn't use a single one ... David was bummed I didn't use the star logo that got the most votes but I found it really hard to have a square logo ... I just couldn't make a page ... and the site I made came to me in a dream while sleeping on the train ... I am digging it ... I am sure I will need to do a few tweeks here and there but I love it ... and I feel like I can write again ... I was holding off cause all I have been doing when I got home was working on the design ...


ya know having a job doesn't leave much time in the day for other things ... I had forgotten what life was like ...

I am going crazy ... i have tried so many designs and just can't come up with anything that i like ... and yes logo #5 got the most votes ... but i didn't realize how much a square logo sucks ... that a long straight one makes for an easier set up ...


but i am going to keep trying ... and figure something out ... thanks for voting everyone ... :)

I need some help ... I want to redesign my site and I just can't pick a logo ... so I made a whole bunch and I want help choosing ... so please check out ... the logo page and leave a comment as to what you think is best ... :) thanks!!!!

since becoming a commuter I have learned while listening to my MP3 player I mouth the words to songs ... constantly ... not sure why but it never bothers me if someone is watching or what ... probably looks a little freaky which comes to the second thing I have noticed ... there are times when the seat next to me is the only one empty on the train car ... the isles are full ... and I am sitting alone ... probably not a bad lot in life ... :)

wow ... life is so different with a job ... first of all I can't believe I haven't written anything ... but I am just so tired when I get home ... and I feel like I have so much to do before going to sleep that I haven't really thought about it ... and there isn't big time internet access in the office ... and I don't want anyone knowing about the site so I would rather not write there ...


so I took the train on monday and asked a really nice woman about the bus and made it to work just fine ... even caught the bus home and it went smoothly ... everyone seems impressed cause several of them have worked there for years and can't believe I can take public transportation ... but boy howdy do I love using the public stuff ... makes my life so much easier ... especially since it has been raining ... I would be a wreck if I had to drive ...


work is pretty good ... very easy stuff ... and most of the time it is 4 women in the office so we all chit-chat while getting our stuff done ... nothing like working in internet sales ... that was just too stressful to be a healthy person ... and I don't foresee doing too much work once I get home ... all in all pretty good ...


David on the other hand is breaking my heart ... well he isn't but his situation is ... he wants a job so badly it makes me cry and it just isn't happening ... every night I think good thoughts for him as I go to sleep that tomorrow will be the day he finds something he loves ... but it hasn't worked yet ...


but I am off to bed right now so I will think double good thoughts for him ... :)

tomorrow is my first day at my new job ... normally I am nervous about work ... this time I am more nervous about taking the bus ...


since David and I have one car and the office where I will be working is off the beltway [which is usually laden with traffic] I am taking the train to work ... I love taking the train ... I don't care if it takes me twice as long at least I don't have to sit in traffic ... instead I can read or sleep or whatever ... but in order to get from the train station to work I have to take the Ride-On bus which I have never done ... sounds silly to be worried about taking the bus but I am ... I am sure it will be better after tomorrow but until then I am nervous ...


the work thing I am fine with ... unfortunately I took a job they have been begging me to take since I lived in Las Vegas ... the unfortunate part is it is with the same company my dad works for ... different office but same company ... I just don't like that ... he is a big-wig and everyone knows him ... and with our last name there is no mistaking I am his daughter ... the woman I will be working for has been wanting me to come work there for ages ... so she is quite excited ... and at least I know everyone there ...


I am worried about getting up on time ... it has been almost 14 months since I had a job ... since I was 14 I haven't gone this long without working ... so it will be weird at first ... and I need to catch a 7:01 AM train so we have to leave the house by at least 6:25 so I can get and drink my coffee before getting on the train [in DC you aren't allowed to eat or drink on the train or it is a $50 fine ... imagine telling New Yorkers they can't do that ... all hell would break loose] ...


so I guess I should get all my stuff together ... I want to be ready to go right when I get up ... to save time I showered and did my hair before Sopranos ... so I should be good to go right away ...


ahhhh wish me luck!!