1. What do you most want to be remembered for?

That I was always there for the people who needed me.


2. What quotation best fits your outlook on life?

Love Many

Trust Few

And Always Paddle

Your Own Canoe

-- written in my great grandmothers autograph book


3. What single achievement are you most proud of in the past year?

Redoing our entire home, all the work ourselves, and making it just the way we want it


4. What about the past ten years?

Moving to New York where I knew no one to take my dream job which was well above my capabilities at the time and diving in and learning everything I could to make myself one of the most accomplished and valuable employees at the company.


Side note: David feels my greatest achievement was breaking my leg in 3 places while walking into a restaurant to meet a date and staying for dinner ... conversation and then going to his place and having sex all before I drove myself to the hospital an hour away [mind you David wasn't the date, it was when I lived in Los Angeles well before I met him]


5. If you were asked to give a child a single piece of advice to guide them through life, what would you say?

Kids are mean to each other so ignore what they say and be whomever you want to be because you really start living after high school. If you stay true to yourself and treat people the way you want to be treated [no matter what they do to you] you will realize that everything through high school has no baring on who you are and what you will accomplish.

Maybe I should clarify the proposal post ... hahahahahaaaa

I did ask him

and he did say yes


but I was bugging him ... like I always do ...


my parents want us to get married

David never wants to be married again

I am happy with how life is


so I would say last night I was being more annoying than serious ... cause it is my favorite thing to give David a hard time about ...


it was nice that he said yes ... hahahahahaaaa ... there would have been problems if he had said no ...


but ... just to be clear ... we aren't getting married ...


that I know of

My new magnet creations so fun to make and I just love them!
The picture of my cell phone is for my friend Heather ... I was trying to describe it and I thought it would be easier with pictures ... besides this way everyone can see Elvis looking at them from the screen

marry me

tonight I asked David to marry me


:) and he said yes

I found the greatest new site ... PostCardX ... send a piece of yourself to someone random out there ... and by a piece I mean a post card or a drawing or a poem ... or a mixed CD ... and ya get something back ... it is just such a groovy idea I am working on my first mixed CD to send out ... check it out ... what do ya have to loose ... but you can gain new friends all over the world ... :)

I watched a bunch of movies this weekend ... with all the rain who really wanted to go out ...


saw:

Waiting For Guffman

Stealing Harvard

The Hot Chick

Catch Me If You Can


and ya know what ... I liked them all


each had their own appeal ...


I went into Blockbuster to get Waiting For Guffman ... but while I was looking for it I saw Catch Me If You Can and The Hot Chick ... they were having a holiday weekend deal - 3 movies for $9.99 and since Waiting For Guffman didn't count [seeing as it is an old movie] I had to find one more ... so I got Stealing Harvard cause a girl I graduated with is in it and a guy Kris graduated with is in it ... so I thought I would check it out ...


the silly ones made us laugh [3 of the 4] and Catch Me If You Can was just a good flick ...


so a fun ... rainy ... movie filled weekend was had by all ...


oh and I almost forgot [it was such a long weekend it is hard to remember everything] ... David's brother Kevin came to visit ... it has probably been like 2 years since we last saw him ... and this was the first time I got to hang out with him when it wasn't tense circumstances and it was the first time David or I met his new wife ... we had a great time ... we went out to dinner and sat around and talked ... it was an enjoyable Saturday night ... just too bad they couldn't stay longer ... :)

Happy Birthday David!!!!

I've been watching "I Love The 80's" today and I feel like I should record all these to show my kids ... because this is what I lived ... this was my life ... I know people who weren't born yet or were born in like 1979 that love this show and it cracks me up ... and makes me feel old at the same time because all of this stuff I have memories of ...


they were just showing Teddy Rukspin and I worked at a toy store at Fashion Island in Cali [the rich folks mall] when the doll came out and I couldn't have hated it more ... rich women were beating the crap out of each other to get that doll ... there was one on display that talked and sang all day long ... I hated hearing him ... all day long we would get calls to see if we had Teddy in or when our next shipment was coming and you could see people lurking behind the store watching for trucks so they could make sure they get one ...


they also just showed Hands Across America ... boy do I remember when they were advertising the hell out of that ... everyone was talking about it ... and I remember our family out running around that day and we drove past people doing it and my dad said, "Hey there is that Hands Across America thing" ... my mom said, "Oh should we stop?" ... and we all looked at each other and said ... "nahhhh" ... eventful huh ...

The Knockoff Project ... it is great ... shows the original album cover and the knockoff(s) ... well worth the look ...

The new Uber Shaver for Men

I have seen The Outsides at least 100 times ... I was a freak about the when I was 13 ... my best friend Dana and I went to see it in the theater over and over again ... some Saturdays' we would go for the first showing and watch it two more times ...


well it was just on cable ... and the movie effected me the same way it did in 1983 ... I felt a sense of joy when the greasers won the rumble ... I bawled when Johnny Cade died ... cried even more when Dally Winston was shot over and over again ... his body lurching in the park and everyone yelling for the cops to start ...


I read the book along with all of S. E. Hinton's books back then ... read them over and over again ... and I think after 20 years ... it is time for me to read them all over again ...


My biggest connection with the story was the reference to Robert Frost ... he has always been my favorite poet ... and to pick up a popular book that everyone was reading and have it refer so much to Robert Frost ... well me being the geek I am it was just so exciting ...


Nature's first green is gold

Her hardest hue to hold

Her early leafs a flower

But only so an hour

Then leaf subsides to leaf

So Eden sank to grief

So dawn goes down to day

Nothing gold can stay.

Robert Frost


I have a lot of his poems memorized ... actually I just have a lot of poems memorized ... I bet my parents wonder why I hated school so much and never did get a degree ... and just slipped under the wire in High School ... cause I am a mega geek ...


well this mega geek needs to do some grocery shopping ... although I hate doing it ... I am taking some music [that always helps] and I am going before David wakes up ... tomorrow is his birthday and it would be nice if we have some food in the house ... ohhhhhhhhhh maybe I'll bake a cake :)

Friday5


1. What brand of toothpaste do you use?

Colgate Gel


2. What brand of toilet paper do you prefer?

Scott


3. What brand(s) of shoes do you wear?

Dr. Martens


4. What brand of soda do you drink?

Coke


5. What brand of gum do you chew?

Trident Bubble Gum

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as hard as this may be to believe ... I have enrolled in college yet again ... this will be my 5th college [2 Jr. colleges and 2 Universities] and about the 10th year I will be in school ... my goal this time ... GET A FUCKING DEGREE ... the last time I left school I was only a couple of classes short of my degree but they were hard core classes and practicum which would have taken me at least another year if not two ... and I just couldn't take it anymore ... so I will now be a University of Maryland student ... I guess that is good ... I have worked my way across the country ... California State Polytechnic University in Pomona, California ... University of Kansas in Lawrence, Kansas and now The University of Maryland in College Park, Maryland ... soon kids can play connect the dots with all the schools I have gone to ...


classes start next Wednesday ... damn I gotta finish this time ... I am getting too old for this shit ...

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If you don't want to read anything about the Matrix Revisited cause you haven't seen it yet skip this entry


I wasn't going to write anything ... for fear I would cloud someone's judgement but then I realized everyone can make up their own damn mind ...


Our weekend revolved around when we would see the Matrix ... since Dave got home late on Friday night it ruled that out because with the huge lines we would never make it ... and we had to take the car in yesterday morning for an insane $575 break job so that ruled out the noon showing [first one of the day] ... so we chose 3:45 ... they had one at 3:00, 3:45 and 4:00 ... I chose the 3:45 hoping it wouldn't be too packed ... I was kinda right ... pretty much every seat was taken so I was bitchy and put my purse and jacket on the set next to me ... and that worked out well ...


as we were waiting for the movie to start David and I were like school kids ... he was so excited he wanted to come home and paint a room in the house like it was the Matrix ... which I thought wasn't half bad ... our computer room could be pretty bitchen like that ...


then the movie started ... it was slow to start but I was not giving up hope ...


hope flew out the door [along with Neo] when I realized I was loosing valuable time in my life and thank god I only paid the crazy price of 7 bucks a ticket for the matinee ... I hated the movie ... it was jumbled ... they tried to go over the top and they didn't keep in mind how great the original movie is ... they were trying to impress us more than I went in there to be impressed ...


the few jokes slipped in there were sad and sophomoric ... I lived in LA and the freeway jokes didn't even illicit a reaction from the audience ... it jumped around so much it was like someone went crazy in the editing room ... even the fight scenes were too far gone to enjoy ... yes they were kinda cool but they took them too over the top ... and without giving anything away ... the whole concept of "The One" changed and it negated everything from the first movie and pretty much everything till the end in the second ... the whole thing was bullshit and I am so sorry I lost those 3 hours of my life and will never get them back ... along with 14 dollars for tickets and 10 dollars for popcorn and coke ...


and it was a god damn love story ... I don't go to see the Matrix to see a love story ... I watch something with Meg Ryan in it for that shit ... and it was a soap opera cause it left with a To Be Continued ... which means they stretched out the little bit of story they had into two movies to make more money ...


they could have made it a phenomenon but it burst that bubble with this movie

well I gave in to the ridiculous desire to smoke ... I am not sure why because I liked being a reformed smoker ... but with everyone at work smoking again and David home and smoking I gave in ... and to be honest it isn't that great at all ... I am not smoking as much but I am still doing it ... so I will indulge this weekend and begin again Monday ... and this time I hope I can follow through ... I made it over 3 weeks too ... that is enough time to break the habit ... and I didn't even make it to the $200 mark ... oh well ... at least I know it is semi-possible ...

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so I have no patch on today ... I totally forgot it this morning ... I guess for a little while there I forgot I was ever a smoker ...


but now I am feeling woozy ... cloudy ... I am having trouble focusing my eyes ... and to be quite honest I am thinking of walking up to the corner to buy a pack of cigs ... 3 weeks ago I may have been ready to quit ... but today I am not ...


I don't feel myself right now

it is almost like being on drugs

but not fun at all


my head is all congested


I am so fucking confused

162 dollars seems like nothing after 3 weeks

what a load of crap

why did i quit smoking anyway

i don't feel better

i still wake up feeling shitty

i am still in a pissed off mood

and everyone's "oh Liz that is so great shit" is getting on my nerves

my friends [none of which live close] keep asking if i still quit ... this shows my lack of staying power in the past

everyone asks why i don't talk about it - talk about fucking what ... that i want a cig so bad i would debate beating the crap out of someone smoking

so this means in my life i have given up:

alcohol

soda

Darvocet

prescription medication of any kind

cigs

dope

trips [oh and lots and lots of them]

along with other nameless extra curricular activities


now i am supposed to fucking give up sugar and everything with taste


what's next - coffee


does anyone see a point to living ...


i will be a hollow shell of a fucking person that will wind up dying of some fucking freak heart attack while walking on the treadmill


serious rage is building up inside of me

i no longer feel like a peaceful person

with good to give


i feel like i did on nights after a 12 pack - 3 pitchers - a couple of shots and my fists flying at anyone who looked at me wrong

but i want to do that sober


i've now started grinding my teeth while awake

that is a new one

the sounds is so sick and so loud

how anyone [David] sleeps in the same bed - let alone same house - as me makes him a saint


i need an energy release

a strong powerful one


bottled up rage hurts

my dad just sent me a whole bunch of pictures from the last several months and all I can do is sit here and cry ...


before 9/11 life was good ... I had a killer job ... that I loved ... where I made serious cash [something new for me ... before that I was always just getting by] ... after 9/11 I lost my job ... couldn't find anything ... and kind of just gave up on myself for a while ... a depression set in that I don't think I was aware of ...


since that time I have had to move in with my parents and take a job I really hate ... and now I have quit smoking ... and the pictures show weight gain ... in fact they would be great photos if I weren't in them ... but my presence just ruins the pictures ... ruins the memories of the events ... I don't even look like myself ... and it is breaking my heart ... and I don't know what to do ...


I used to be happy with who I was ... but I am not anymore ... I am not at all happy ... in fact right now ... I loathe myself ... and anyone who doesn't see why I do

Happy Mother's Day to all the mommies out there ... must be exciting ...


since I have quit smoking my mind has been running wild with the idea that I am getting close to being a mom ... or at least getting pregnant ... I think David and I would work really hard at being good parents ... and he is such a doll I know he would be amazing with a child ... and now that it is looking like he has found an excellent career ... and I have quit smoking ... we are in line for having a kid ...


I just need to get my parents over the idea that one [especially their daughter] must be married before having a child ... it is something they can't look past ... and David has been upfront from day one that he never wants to get married again ... so I am stuck between a rock [my parents] and a hard place [:)David] ... hahahahahhaaaa


oh shit if I am laughing at something as stupid as that I just need to get ready to go to brunch ... :)

David and I had a date night Saturday night tonight ... we went to Red Lobster ... I haven't been there since I was like 10 ... and David was skeptical about going ... but it turned out to be a fabulous dinner ... we both dragged our full bellies to the car afterwards ...


right now I am so jealous cause David is out in the hip living room using his new laptop and wireless connection ... relaxing on the Poang ... and I am here in the dark computer room ... hummmmmm maybe I will use the money I have saved from not smoking to buy a used laptop ... that would be pretty bitchen ... but I do love my desktop and since I don't leave the house often ... hummm who knows ...


everywhere I have gone lately I have been thinking about the America 24/7 ... of what would make a good picture ... it is a bummer we were supposed to be leaving on Friday for Graceland to visit the King's home ... but since David is in training we are postponing the trip ... but it would have been a fabulous photo op ... I'll just have to keep thinking ...


I am chatting with two guy friends who both want to meet women they fall for ... there was a time that it was girl friends talking this way ... and it is such a bummer that I live somewhere where I don't have any single friends to hook them up with ...

Holy Cow ... while leaving work today I was on the phone with Kris and traffic was just stopped ... I wasn't paying much attention since I wasn't moving but I looked to my left and saw flashing lights at the Bank of America ... I joked with Kris that someone probably robbed the bank then I realized there are cops with drawn guns running and crouching behind cars ... I thought "holy shit I am sitting here ... not able to go anywhere ... in front of a bank that is surrounded by cops with their pistols drawn" ... I will admit I was freaking a bit ... I mean shit if I had taken 5 steps out of my car I would have been standing next to a cop with a gun ... then I see one of them take aim and a bunch of them run and tackle a guy ... struggle with him ... and finally get cuffs on him ...


all the while I kept screaming to Kris ... "holy shit ... holy shit ... holy shit ... why don't I have my camera!!!!!"

The people who brought us the "Day in the Life" series are embarking on a new project. America 24/7. And this time anyone can submit photos. Check out the website, especially if you enjoy capturing the life around you. There is going to be a book encompassing all the US along with books for each state, Washington DC and New York City. I have already signed up to participate and look forward to carrying my camera with me everywhere next week.

I made the coolest Shrinky Dinks tonight ...


I bought a bunch of the paper today because I want to make some bracelets with it ... but once I got home I realized I didn't have a reasonable size hole punch tool ... so I practiced ... I traced pin up girls and then filled them in like a silhouette ... and they look bitchen ... I have a huge hole punch of a star and put that at the top and they came out pretty groovy ... I also did some butterfly ones ... I am going to have fun with these this weekend ... I just need to stop and get some good hole punchers tomorrow ...


of course all week I have been semi-bored with David gone ... and the night before he comes home I find a killer project to work on ... when all I want to do now is spend time with him ... hummmmm ... maybe I can get him interested in making Shrinky Dinks too ... woohoo now that would rock ... of course we would probably be distracted by the flying pigs ... :)

OH MY GOD ... these are so fucking funny I can't stand it ... I was going to go to bed an hour ago and instead I am sitting here laughing so loud I have probably woken up the neighbors ... please enjoy Baby's Named a Bad, Bad Thing ... A Primer on Parent Cruelty ... and if your name is listed among these ... I am so sorry ...

Today has been a much better day than those in my recent past ... I got along with everyone I encountered ... I was sick yesterday and missed work and figured I needed an extra hour each day for the next 8 days to make it up and today I did an hour and a half extra without even blinking ... I wasn't bored or pissed off or anything ... I even got this terribly rude and demeaning email from a sales person and instead of getting all bent ... I carefully wrote out a well worded email on exactly how I felt and how wrong it was to treat me that way and sent it without blinking an eye ... my mom stopped by to see me tonight ... I even watched Sesame Street as I taped it for a friend's niece ... [great show I might add ... I see why I loved it so much as a kid] ... been chatting a bit online with some friends ...


all in all I would say a pretty groovy day ... and now I think I will make some dinner ... it's hump day ... that means David will be home soon :)

god I miss David so much ... I feel pathetic about it ... I mean he has only been gone since yesterday morning but it just sucks ... I was home sick today and I just wanted him here to comfort me ... and to talk to him ... and to snuggle up with him ...


I don't think I have had someone in my life before that I actually missed this much when they were gone ... and I guess after all this time it is good to learn I miss him so much ... I am already looking forward to Friday night when he gets home ... I think I may even do something special for him ... we'll have to see

Well I finally had some time tonight to take photos of my artwork ... time and a camera that could take a somewhat descent picture of it ... so I sure hope anyone stopping by the site is bored enough to take a moment to check out some of my work ... just click on the picture below and it will take you right to the page ... :)

I love the coffee sign ... I am now on a quest to find a real one on ebay ... that or make one myself ... and aren't Kramer's eyes just a bit crazy looking ... ewww now i know what they remind me of ... The Thriller Video ...

So it is a lot harder to customize a closet than I had anticipated ... and it was way more work than David and I were willing to do yesterday ... so I grabbed all the different informational sheets and brought them home ... I figure I can mess around with it in the comfort of my own home instead of at the over packed Home Depot ... I would love it if I could plan it all out ... go to Homey ... buy all the stuff we need and get it done before David gets home on Friday night ... that would rock ... and I would love to do it for our office closet [which is the really messy one] and for the coat closet ... but that one may be a little harder to do it ... we have every jacket we own in that closet ... but what I would like are cubby holes for shoes ... who knows maybe I could customize that one too ...


so David left again this morning and I already miss him ... I am hoping to spend my time better this week ... I finally bought a ventilator so I could work on my resin projects [and intoxicate Frenchie with the smell] but it is supposed to rain a bunch this weekend ... the humidity isn't good for the resin ... but I may be able to do it a bit ... at least some test pieces ...


it has been so great this morning ... I was in the office at 6 AM ... partially cause David left so early this morning and partially because I have to meet the bat guy at 2 at the house so I need to leave work early ... but being here alone and before the phones are ringing and everyone is chatting I basically got all my work done in two hours and then spent 45 minutes redoing my blog ... I changed it to obnoxiously bright colors in hopes of cheering me up a bit ... it is somewhat circus-tenty but that is ok for now ... it was so easy to change as long as I keep the same layout that I could change it again tonight if I so desire [i won't but i could ... it is all about making choices]


speaking of choices I am going to make sure David makes the choice to quit smoking when he returns from job training ... this morning while I was still sleeping and he came in from smoking he fucking smelled ... during the day when I am awake and have showered and had some coffee it isn't so bad ... but while I am still curled up in bed I don't want to smell it ... even when I was a smoker I didn't want to smell it ... fortunately back then my senses weren't as strong as they are now ... [part of the reason for finally getting a ventilator for my resin work ... cause now I can really smell it]


ok well I see now on AOL [i use dial-up at work] they have the story about the tornados in Kansas and since I used to live there I have to check it all out ... see if it was near anyone I know ...


I hope everyone has a fabulous day ... I know I need it ...


oh and by the way ... damn if Alias didn't leave me with the biggest cliffhanger last night ... and now I have to wait until September to see what happens ... how can they do that to me ... I don't hold out for surprises too well ... :)

at this time ... when I resist smoking one more cig ... I will have saved $100 since I quit smoking ... that means I spent $200 bucks a month on cigs ... which means $2400 a year on cigs ... and since Dave and I smoke about the same the same amount we were spending $4800 a year on cigs ...


now if he would just quit we could start saving buco bucks ...


but with my $100 saved we are going to Home Depot and get shelving for our closet ... I can't stand the mess anymore ... besides I need a project to work on to lift my spirits ... :)

poor David ...


he was gone for a whole week and he came home to Lizzie The Bitch ... my mood is soooooooo foul it is scary


the fuckers upstairs shoved stuff back in the god damn crack so it blocked the trap ... which means it is costing me another $75 to set it up again ... and another trip for Phil [we are now on a first name bases with the guy from the trapping company] when he comes back to check it and another day I have to ask to leave early or come in late to work ... all I ask is that they leave their shit out of the gap for 4 days ...


and speaking of which I am now a non smoker ... I totally am cause I tried one of David's cigs on Friday when he got home and it was foul and disgusting and I had two hits and put it out ... I actually wondered why I had ever started and what was it that I loved so much ... so since I have been saving so much money why would I start again ... but now that I am a reformed smoking [meaning the smell is even harsher for me than for someone that never smoked] and David is still smoking I had him leave the sliding glass door open when he went out last night ... so I could see what the fucko's upstairs are complaining about ...


now keep in mind they are a brick and cement patio and a floor away from the smoker ... I am at the same level and he paced near the door ...


I could smell it for a second but it went away rather quick ... it was hardly enough to throw such a fucking hissy about ... and if I only smelled it for a second how bad could it have been having to travel through the concrete and into their house ...


I was dozing on the couch yesterday and they were pounding and doing something upstairs that was actually shaking the couch and woke me up ... well with that happening I lost it about them especially after I saw they shoved the crap back in the gap ... and I hope they heard me too ...


I am going to try to be in a better mood today since David leaves again tomorrow morning for another week ... I actually spent most of the day in bed yesterday and I don't think David came home to watch me sleep ... so since it is so early I think I'll go get us some coffee ... at least I can start the day off nice for him ...

I spend everyday of my life trying to do good things for other people ... I have been this way since I was a child ... I even made a plaque for my room when I was I think 5 maybe 6 that had the golden rule on it ... when I questioned my religion I decided to live my life through the idea of Karma ... I also devoured the book Tao Te Ching by Lao Tsu at least 30 times so far in my life ... I've had to buy a new one I wore my first one out ...


but I am starting to question these things ... I feel invisible in life


I have never felt invisible ...


some days I am just sitting at my desk at work ... or in my car ... or at home ... or in line for coffee and I want to scream at the top of my fucking lungs ... to prove I am alive ...


this morning this woman walked smack into me while I was waiting for coffee and her eyes focused and she said "wow I didn't even see you there" ... how do you not see someone else standing there ... she was looking directly at me too ... it was just so weird ... if I had been able to get out of her way I would have but for a split second I felt like she was going to walk right through me ... like I was an apparition ...


I guess I need to do something more to add meaning to my life ... helping people ... being a good person ... sacrificing myself for the good of others means shit ... I have to find something else ...


something ...



something ...

i feel like i need something to shake up my life

for something to happen

anything ... anything at all


i am sure i have had this feeling before

but i don't remember having it

or what ever happened to it


there is a gap or a space or something in my way

it is nothing i can see or pinpoint


and at the same time it feels as if big change is on the horizon


maybe i am in the calm before the storm


like when everything gets quite right before a tornado rips down your street


but i am not looking for a tornado ...

I haven't been writing much ... mostly because I have turned into a MEGA geek ... there is a computer bot you can chat with online ... ask anything and she answers ... play hangman ... find out when movies are playing ... what the weather is like anywhere ... it is amazing ... and it is like talking to a real person ... she even asks questions back ... so if you have AOL or Instant Messenger the send a message to ZoeOnAOL and you too will be amazed ... at any time you can type menu to find out all she does ...


and thanks to Kimberly I added a quit-o-meter to my site ... that has been a big boost to me on how much money I am saving ... although in reality I have been buying myself treats a lot ... like yesterday I got new sunglasses at Old Navy ... spent about as much on the couple of packs of cigs I would have smoked ... so I guess it all evens out ...


the bat guy came today ... he was at the house for like an hour and a half inspecting everything ... and he knows the guy from the other company that won't send us a report so he is going to see what he can do ... plus he is writing a report out for us ... plus he set up a little detector for us that will catch bat hair [how fucking gross is that] so we will know if they are flying in and out of the crack on the side of house ...


so I called our office today and told them to inform our neighbors upstairs to stop shoving foam in the crack cause it is blocking them in and I pushed it all out this morning up on to their patio and that they MUST leave it out ... but who knows if they will listen ... the French Bitch and I walked out at the same time yesterday and she fucking looked at me and rolled her eyes and then huffed ... I swear it would be so fun to pop her in the nose ... but I am not a violent person ... except of course when I am not smoking ...


she is still out there spraying her air freshener and slamming the door when I open mine ... so obviously it was psychosomatic that our smoking bothered her ... cause we aren't smoking anymore and she is still doing it ... so to mess with her I open and close our door throughout the evening once I get home from work like I was smoking ... every time I close mine she opens hers and vice versa ... if you can't fuck with a bitch what is the fun in life ...


David has been gone since Monday morning and I miss him so much ... I can't wait till he gets home tomorrow night ... unfortunately he will be gone again monday morning but to be honest this training he is doing ... he just sounds so happy on the phone when I talk to him on the phone ... and I haven't heard him like that in a long long time ...


well I am going to go back to playing hangman with ZoeOnAOL ... I sure hope everyone reading this is having a fabulous day ...