In 30 minutes I will be entering the 7th day of being a non-smoker ... or actually an ex-smoker ... and it seriously has to be the hardest and easiest thing I have ever done ... it was easier to quit drinking ... to quit smoking out ... to quit all the bad stuff I used to do ...


the periods of time where I don't think about it at all are getting longer ... but when I do think about it I feel like I could rip into a pack of smokes and smoke 10 at a time ...


someone said to me the other day ... "you are loosing your best friend" ... and it is so true ... when I was sad or bored or excited or tense or busy or stressed or satisfied ... I had a smoke ... and there is nothing the same that takes its place ...


there is some joy in having money ... not having to go to the store all the time ... not having to estimate if we will have enough to get us through to the morning ...


I can't even write anymore ... cause it is making me want to smoke ... so I am just going to hang out and watch SNL ... with Queen Latifa