I keep yawning but I totally can't sleep ... neither can David ...


we just smoked the last 2 cigarettes in the house ... when we have tried to quit smoking in the past I am bad ... I stash a couple of cigs somewhere for an emergency ... usually that emergency comes in less than 24 hours ... this time I am not doing that ... they are all gone ... there isn't one hidden anywhere ... but I also feel like this time I really want to do it ... I am sick of smoking ... sick of being winded when I go up 4 flights of stairs ... sick of the need ... the want ... the desire to do something bad to myself ... sick of spending the money ... sick of the addiction ... I sure hope this time we can do it ... this time I want to do it ...


this time I really want to do it