33 is fast approaching ... for years I looked forward to this birthday ... but with the days I have been having lately I am not ready for it ...


my teeth grinding has gotten to an all time high ... almost everyday for the last week I have woken up with a terrible headache ... and a sore jaw ... and poor David has been going out to the couch or staying on the computer cause he can't sleep with the noise anymore ... unfortunately I don't know what I can do about it ... I have had 4 different bite plates of varying thickness and material and all of them I have ground through in less than a week ... the last one I had made me look like I was in shock it was so thick and my mouth stayed open so wide ... the dentist guaranteed me I wouldn't grind through it ... 4 days later I was back in his office with holes straight through the thing and he was just amazed ... he said he worried I might be doing more damage to my teeth going through the guards ...


and work has just been rough ... the sales people who I do work for treat me like I am the enemy ... not like I am there to make their life easier but fight everything I do ... and it is so draining ... my body aches by the time I get home each night ... and once I get here I still have work to do ...


it feels like ages since I have had a work free day where I wasn't stuck at home cause of snow ... I am usually a winter person and at this point I don't want to see another flake ever again ... and I wish all the black crap on the sides of the street would finally melt ... enough already ...


I could probably go on bitching for quite some time cause it has been days of discouragement ...


oh and my right eye has been burning all day ... and watering ... and I don't know why ... I even used anti-histamine eye drops which are the bomb and usually fix anything


ya know what ... I think I need an art project ... something relaxing that eases my mind ... and give me something to concentrate on other than work ... and headaches ... and all that stuff ...


or maybe a massage ... never gone and gotten one of those but for someone to help me release the tension built up in my body that would be a great thing ... yea I gotta look into that ...