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I can't think of a title ... maybe cause I am just crying too hard ...

I got home from work at 5:33 this evening ... except for 20 minutes for dinner I have been working on one thing or another ... it is now 11:04 and I am exhaused ... bawling my head off ... and still have many hours of work left but no energy to do it ...

I think life sucks right now ... nothing is going how I wanted it to go ... nothing at all ...

I think is fucking sucks that we've taken no trip ... no break ... no freaking time for family this summer ... all I have done is work work work work work ... on one thing or another or another ...

We shouldn't even be going to the family reunion in NC this weekend ... I don't know how we are going to pay for it ... money is beyond tight right now that I can't even figure out why we wanted to have another child ...

I can't stop crying ... just bawling right now ... to where I can't catch my breath ...

I am overwhelmed ... too many things to do and no time ... I am suffocating ...

I am terribly unhappy with everything outside of my daughter and my husband ... everything ...

I hate my job ... I hate all the side jobs I do ...

I am depressed that in 3 months I will have been at my job 6 years ... that is just horrible ... I didn't even want to be there 2 years ...

And truthfully ... right now ... all I want is a smoke ...