work is weird ... everything just feels funky ... people are being laid off ... who knows who is staying or going ... what is happening ... it is all quite confusing ... and hard to process ...


and i can't talk to david about it ...


david just doesn't like my boss cause when he was his boss he feels he got the short end of every stick ... i think he feels worse about it because it caused him to be out of a job ... and had to depend on me ... which didn't make him happy ... but see sanj saved me from depending on anyone else ... he hired me for the job i really wanted ... that no one would hire me for because i didn't have a college degree ... but he didn't care about that ... he knew i could do it and do a great job at it ... he also made sure he paid me enough to not have to depend on my parents any more ... and the company helped me move out here ... he did so much for me ... i am very thankful for him and indebted to him ...


besides to me ... he is the one that brought david and i together ... if he hadn't hired both of us ... we may have never met ... but david wants to change the story of how we met ...