ok i need to get this out ... and if tracy happens to read it well then i will deal with that problem as it arrises ...


there is a big adult hosting show in las vegas next week ... and i have been chosen to stay here and work ... to be with left with the two most worthless people in my department which means i am going to be overly swamped ...


tracy has been to 2 shows already ... i have been to one and sal has been to one ... tracy is going to this show ... and it is a week when her grandmother and aunt and uncle will be in town and it is her anniversary ... yet she is the one going to the show and i am the one staying here ...


i have gotten more emails than ever from customers that are going to be at the show and asked if they could take me out as a thank you for all my help ... and i have to tell them ... 'no i am stuck here' ...


the shows are the only place to meet customers who are big ... and i am the only sales person that has signed a huge huge huge customer from the show ... in fact i have signed up several huge customers that i met at shows and they are still choosing to leave me behind ...


sal was orignially picked to go cause he delt with content sales ... we don't even do content anymore ... and yet he and tracy are still the ones going ...


i need a fucking break from this place ... my last day off without doing any work at all was back in like january ... i took vacation in march but they sent me away with a laptop and i checked email and helped customers the whole time ...


i want one day away from here without touching my computer for work reasons ... and the fact that i feel the empending doom of next week isn't helping my attitude that much ...


i wish i didn't have the guilty conscience and i could call in sick tomorrow and spend the day with david without doing any work/work ...