have you ever just wanted to cry and cry and cry and hope it dehydrates you body so much you die ...


right now i wish that would happen ...


i ache with unhappiness ...

and i hate being this way ...


i am tired of finding new jobs ... learning to work with new people ... moving ... i just want a settled life ... i want to have enough money to not have to use change to buy lunch ...


i work fucking hard ... i am kind to people ... is this really too much to ask ... i don't think so ...


since 1989 i have moved 18 times ... to 5 different states ... its enough