i feel like a zombie ... moving around mindlessly


ya know what i can't leave here ... not if i want to buy a house ... i have been at this job for over a year now that is the reason my parents feel they can trust me in putting a down payment on a house ... and at the same time i would love the power to pack up everything on my desk ... delete all my personal email from my machine and just walk out without saying a work ...


but i could never do that