I have a job interview at 11 AM and I am kind of nervous ... in fact I have actually been stressing out and I am not one to stress too much ... during the last 2 weeks I have had terrible lower back pain and a twitch in my left eye and I have come to the conclusion they are due to stress ... David is depressed about not having a job ... and although I enjoyed the break from work ... 11 months is too long ... tomorrow is actually the 11 month anniversary of me getting laid off ...


we have this beautiful condo waiting for us ... and until we are working steady jobs that pay reasonably well we can't move in ... and the sad thing with us both being out of work for so long is that we are loosing our savings ... granted living with my parents has helped so much ... no rent or utilities is great ... in fact we would be on the street right now if it weren't for our living situation ... but at the same time ... we are too old to be living here ... we need to let our life together blossom ... the one good thing is we don't live in that shit-hole of a place someone dared to call an apartment in New York anymore ... I don't think we would have made it spending another summer in that place ...


every night I go to sleep praying David finds a job that he loves ... he deserves it so much ... he is such a hard worker and really a great person ... and there are just so few jobs and so many employees right now ... it hurts him to not be working ... and it hurts me to see him so upset ... I know it will help when I have a job but that will also put a heavier burden on David ... he wants to be earning money too ...


ahhhh we are good people ... it is time for just a little bit of good to come our way ... and it needs to be a day of only good ... not like when he passed the A+ test and we came home to find out someone stole his credit card and cleaned out the account ...


one day of only good ... something that will be uplifting in our life ... that will put us on the path to actually living in the home we own ... :)