Blew It

my parents sure did blow it tonight ... when david and i were out running errands today we were talking about moving to DC and deceided that is what we were going to do ... i said we would give my landlord 2 months notice and move in february ... he said ... if we have deceided to move why give him 2 months ... it isn't your money that is down on the deposit [my job that laid me off actually paid the finders fee, deposit and first months rent on this place] ... tell the landlord we are moving out december 31st and we will just pack up and move before christmas ...


i of course wasn't going to say anything to them till december 1st when i gave notice ... and it is a good thing i know how to work these things cause we came home and were watching TV and working and they kept calling and being bitchy and unreasonable and demanding on the stupidest shit ... it wasn't totally unlike them but it was somewhat for it to be out of the blue like that when stuff has been going so well ...


the last time i hung up the phone with my mom tonight david said ... 'that is it we are not moving there ... i am not living by anyone's rules but my own ... there is a reason i moved away from my parents and this is exactly it'


and you know what he is totally right ... they are waving all sorts of stuff in my face to get us to move out there ... and i just can't do it ... every guy i have ever dated has had a problem with the relationship i have with my parents ... i let them control many aspects of my life because it is easier than arguing with them ... and it makes them happy ... and they are always so upset with how my brother seems to have no regard for them ... so to appease everyone but myself i just give in ...


well i love david way too much to let my parents get in the way ... it bothered eric a lot ... he felt like he was being bought all the time and i understand where he is coming from ... i am not going to let that happen with my relationship with david ... this relationship means the world to me ...