i'm watching Beautiful Girls even though i should be getting ready to go grocery shopping right now ... i just love this movie though ... so i figure i can go after the movie ...


i am starting to worry about sex ... my whole life ... since before i started having sex ... i would get overly excited [wet] at being near a boy i liked ... or making out with a boy or when i was having sex ... and during masturbation ... and suddenly it is gone ... and it is scarring me ... i don't know if it has to do with age ... or stress ... or medical reasons ... i just don't know ... it didn't happen when i tried to masturbate the other night or when we try and have sex ... and it has me all freaked out ... i don't like it and i don't know how to deal with it ...