Pain

i am so depressed ... my life feels like it is going down the crapper ...

when david gets mad or upset with me ... i try to work things out ...

when i get upset or mad with david ... he punishes me by not speaking to me and sits in the other room ...


i don't understand that ... i don't think that he realize that when he does that ... i spend half the time in this room crying ... it makes my chest hurt ... my heart ... i feel a lump on my soul ...


and when i go and get in bed ... he will wake up and come back in the computer room ...


i am aching with pain right now ...