I had some really gnarly dreams last night ...


I dreamt I had a sack of money and a small gun ... the next part of my dream I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl ... that was just so happy and cooing all the time ... so I got out my dream dictionary and it said:


Money: Small worries followed by much happiness. Many changes for the best in your life

Baby: A happy baby means love returned and many loving friends

Firearm: Violent and disagreeable arguments that could bring about much grief and sorrow.


pretty trippy since I went to sleep so mad at David ... I just laid on the couch crying till I was asleep ... he did break the silence after about 7 hours and said 'are you ok?' ... I said 'no' ... he said 'what can I do?' ... and I said 'nothing' ... I just wasn't in the mood to talk about it ... and I didn't have the strength to fight anymore ...


well I am off to the post office right now ... and to get a Starbucks ... ya know I would like to not get him one ... but then I feel so bad about it ... we'll have to see how I feel when I get there ...