september 14, 2001 ... that is the day ... just knowing that i felt better ... for the next 8 days it is going to feel like the night before christmas when i just want to wake up and have it be christmas morning and see all the groovy stuff Santa has left me ... i don't know how i am going to last ...


and every moment that goes by ... and with every fucking work email i get ... i am happier and happier the end is near ... that place has made me so depressed and unhappy ...


i would like to take a little break ... do stuff around the house ... and start working out and get rid of some of this depression weight i have put on ... i need to start feeling better about myself ... it isn't fair to me or david to just slip into whatever is happening to me because of a fucked up shitty job ...


it is so sad ... it has taken away my love for working within the internet industry ...