well david and i have spoken about 3 words to each other since he woke up ... its like he is mad at me for getting mad ... sometimes i can't win ...


i don't even know what to type right now ... i just feel like crying ... i made dinner tonight ... not even a thank you or that was good ... nothing ... all i wanted was a good coffee tonight ... it was pouring rain but we went anyway ... and mine fucking sucked ... it was the worst one i have had ... i had to dump the whole thing down the drain ...


i am just hurt right now ... sometimes i wonder why he is with me ...


why are guys such buttheads ... right now all of my friends are upset with the men they are with ... you know sometimes i just want to feel special ... and i can't remember the last time that happened ...


this is just making me too upset right now ... trying to type out how i feel ... i think i will just get in bed and cry till i fall asleep ...