well i sure do hate fighting with dave ... and right now ... he just hates me ... i'm not quite sure why ... i told him he sucked when he wouldn't get up to help me clean ... but right then he did suck ... that is a reason to be so mad at me that we didn't talk yesterday ...


i told him tonight that i was tired of always having the responsibility ... that i don't get a choice when we have to go do something cause i am the one that drives ... and it is the truth ... and ya know what i love having his company but sometimes it is like pulling teeth to get him to go with me ...


you know i thought we would be able to have fun now that i am not working too ... i thought it was a great chance to hang out ... i mean shit when i worked on long island i worked such late hours all the time ... and all weekend too ... and then when our office moved to the city i have a 4 hour commute each day ... and was so tired by the time i got home ...


but now i think he hates having me home ...


i tried to make tonight a little more special ... while he was sleeping i ordered dinner from Outback ... a little treat for both of us ... and i knew he wasn't feeling well cause he was hungry ... but it didn't help ... we still fought tonight ...


maybe our place is too small and cramped for two people to be here all the time ...


or maybe he is like the other men that have been in my life ... eventually they just get tired of me ...