I miss writing ... yet I have all the time in the world to do it and I don't ... maybe it is cause I have all the time in the world ... what would I say ... things like "still haven't found a job" ... "still stuck in the house" ... "still hot as hell outside" ... "still getting up at 4:30 in the morning to take David to the train" ... "still driving to the train at 6 at night to pick David up" ... "my life is still pretty boring" ...


I want a job ... and everyday I apply to more and more with no luck ... I have never had this much trouble finding a job ... David and I aren't going to buy a condo till I have a steady paycheck that isn't unemployment ... and speaking of unemployment mine runs out on July 17th ... so I don't have much more time ...


I am having trouble sleeping at night too ... I have taken to staying up way too late and getting about 2 hours of sleep ... then taking David to the train and coming home and getting back in bed around 6 or 6:30 in the morning and then sleeping till 10 ... it is a bad habit to be in cause when I do get a job I won't be able to do it ... but I guess it is better than conking out in the middle of the afternoon and taking a nap ... at least I am still waking up in the morning ...


I can't believe June is almost over ... David and I have been together a year and a half now and the time has flown by ... even with all the hardships ... I can't believe we have lived in the apartment at my parent's house for 4 months ... before we got here David said '3 months max' and now he is the one that would like to wait to get a condo ... I guess since he is gone for most of the day it doesn't seem like so much to him ... me on the other hand ... sometimes I feel like we have lived here a year already ...


I think one day this week I am going to take the train up to the city and meet David after work ... then I could go to the bead shop and get some groovy beads and we could go out to dinner or something ... at least I would get out of the house for a while ...


and I miss Heather ... she has been in Indonesia for almost a month now ... she gets back July 1st and I can hardly wait till she is back on US time and we can have a nice long talk ... a month with no talking is almost too much for me ...


David and I went to the post office on Saturday and sent everything off to get his passport ... and I think my parents have some frequent flyer miles that are going to expire ... so we are going to try and plan a trip to Europe ... David has never been ... and I have never been without my parents ... so it would be a great experience for both of us ... I think we are going to shoot for September ... go for two weeks ... spend a week in London and a week in Paris ... it will be great ...


well I should really try and get some sleep ... my alarm is going to go off in 4 hours ... and that is already too soon for me ... :)