there was a brief moment when i thought looking for a job would be fun and exciting ... i mean come on i am in new york ... and there are so many groovy companies out here to choose from ... but i am sad my job is ending ... i really really loved this job ... i saw myself doing it for years ... i loved the people i worked with ... my customers ... and the work i was doing ...


I WANT MY OLD JOB BACK!!!!!!!


why are they changing a good thing ... and why don't i have the money to start my own adult web host ... i don't need to make a ton of money ... i just want to be happy at work ... and i want to make enough money so that i don't have to worry in life and i can put a little bit away ...


i want david and i to be able to get a house ... and build a home together ...

fuck i want us to have enough money to go to a fricken movie once in a while ...


i work so hard and it is all slipping away ... i am loosing my job and there is nothing i can do about it ... sure i could stay with this company and either hate my life or sink with the ship ... but i DON'T WANT TO WORK THERE ANYMORE ... i no longer like the people i work with ... and i am not happy about their practices ... i am too fucking talented and hard working to stay somewhere where i am underpaid ... and have to do things i don't like ...


fuck i want this nightmare to end ...