gotta be honest

I gotta be honest ... I am surprised David and I still aren't smoking ... it is amazing ...


we went out tonight and got a treadmill ... I am so excited ... I have 4 months to loose a good amount of weight before I must go wedding dress shopping ... and then I'll have 3 months after that to loose more weight for the wedding ... I really want to look great that day ... I've let myself go and I would be ashamed to get married and have all those photos taken looking like this ... I know David doesn't think I will use the treadmill but he will be surprised ... instead of getting up and having a couple of cigs first thing in the morning ... I will now get up and walk for at least 15 minutes in the morning ... and then again when I get home from work ... we are setting it up in the living room so I can watch TiVo while I walk ... I may even set up the TiVo to start taping shows it thinks I will like so I have tons of stuff to watch while walking ... but I just gotta do it ... my goal is a hefty one ... too much so to write down cause everyone will think I am crazy ... but I have it in my head and I will know if I am on track ... the not smoking is fantastic ... the loosing weight will be even better ...


well I am not that tired but I gotta go to sleep ... we have had company all weekend so tomorrow I gotta get up early and get a lot done before I head back to work ... :)