I can't even begin to explain how insanely bored I am right now ... it is the kind of bored where you want to ram something sharp through your skull to see if you can even feel it ...


and the boredom isn't occurring cause I am not smoking and need to find new ways to spend my time cause I am smoking ... yesterday was a false start ... I made it 12 hours and then had a cig ... then David went out and bought a pack ... then we stopped and got a pack this morning when he took me to work ... so we are going to try again tomorrow ...


wow I just got the nicest surprise ... nothing sounded good to eat today ... so I was just going to skip it ... get something later ... and one of the women in the office went out to get lunch and brought stuff back for me ... without even asking ... and ya know when I saw her walk in I thought ... "ohhhh I should have gotten something that looks so good" ...


so I guess my boredom has broken for a little while ... although in less than an hour I will have to stand outside in the pouring rain and wait for the bus ... David is working on the condo and just doesn't feel like driving back up here today ... and I don't blame him ... it is fricken miserable outside ...