On November 14th I am starting 128 days to healthy ... or at least healthier ... it isn't some book or anything ... it is my own plan ... things in my life must change ... I need to become happier with myself ... in 128 days I will be 33 ... I have looked forward to this birthday for a long time ... 3 is my favorite number so I always envisioned turning 33 in 2003 would make it a great year ... and in order for that to happen I have to make a change ...


I want to have gastric intestinal bypass surgery ... my parents are freaking on the idea ... and are saying no ... but do they really have a say when I am old enough to make that decision ... so these next 128 days will decide ... if I can loose weight on my own and get my fat ass out of my computer chair and do some exercise then maybe I can loose it all on my own ... but if it doesn't happen I am going for the surgery ... and they will have to deal with their own fears ...


I feel if I give it a valiant effort for 1/3 of a year ... that will be a good test ... but at this time even though I am totally happy on the outside ... inside I have grown to loath myself ... I have become uncomfortable in my own skin ... and a person shouldn't live that way ...


so tomorrow starts my 128 days to change ... :)