Monday is known as a down day ... "I don't like Mondays" ... "Does someone have a case of the Monday's?" ... I never really felt that way until this morning ... and I am so fuming mad at David I am making myself sick ...


he called last night from work and said he wanted to work this morning ... was that alright because he needed to be there at 6 which meant he would have to drop me off at the train around 10 after 5 which is 2 hours early and 30 minutes before the first train ... but of course I was fine with that because he is working ...


he called last night at 12:15 on his way home from work ... while on the phone I let him know that the alarm was set for 4:15 so we could leave the house at 4:55 ... that there were clean clothes out for him for work monday morning ... and he said thank you ...


at 3:30 David put his arm over me and it startled me ... when I looked at the clock I said "we will be getting up soon so start preparing yourself" ... at 4:15 my alarm went off and although I had had less than 4 hours sleep ... I got up and did everything I needed to do in the bathroom ... that way David could sleep an extra bit ... once I was finished I went in to wake him up ...


he said ... "I am just dropping you off at the train ... I didn't sign the sheet last night so the shipyard won't let me and I would drive out there for nothing" ... I was pissed ... what the fuck ... I said "what the fuck is your problem ... why wouldn't you tell me this last night when you called or when you got home and I woke up and reminded you how early we have to get up" ... he couldn't even see the problem in any of this ... so now I am up and showered with my contacts in ... I can't go back to sleep for an hour when I am this tired ...


I hate to complain but writing this post is the only thing keeping me awake ... and I am going to have a hell of a time at work today ... it is just so inconsiderate ... I would never have done this to him ... I keep crying I am so tired and so upset ... it is just such a lack of feeling for me ...


I already have trouble staying awake at work ... I don't know how I will ever do it today ...