I have finally started a hard core weight loss program ... i finally got tired of putting it off ... and i am sick of hating what i look like ... for 3 days now i have done great ... eating all the right things and walking everyday ... but the walking is a little much for me right now ... the leg i broke a while back has been insanely swollen and hurts like a bitch so i have been looking for a lower impact workout that i can do every other day that way i still walk but i can give my leg a rest ... i am finding the pilates very interesting and i think tomorrow i will go to Blockbuster and see if they have any videos i can rent ... make sure i like the workout before i spend the big bucks getting the equipment i need ... and i definitely want to start doing yoga again ... when i was doing it everyday i was always so happy ... so i see no reason not to start doing it again ... i would love to find a class ... but for right now i would settle on finding a good video that i can use at home for a while and save some money ...


my first goal is to loose enough weight that David's dad and brother notice when they come out here for July 4th ... since they will be the first people i see that don't see me every single day ... my goal after that is to loose enough weight by Christmas that people who see me now won't recognize me ... and it has happened before ... there was a 3.5 month period in my life once where i lost so much weight that the next time kris saw me ... when i went to pick her up at the airport ... she walked right past me ... and when i called out her name the look of utter shock was on her face ... i need to do that again ...


i am getting ready to start interviewing for jobs and i know my weight makes a huge difference ... it shouldn't ... but it does ... and i would rather feel super about myself than just ok when i go to talk to people ...


well this getting up at 4:30 in the morning has been kicking my ass ... i feel like a zombie typing this right now ... in fact i have that feeling that i am floating i am so tired ... so it is off to bed for me ... :)