Today was way harder than day one or two ... it could have been because D and I were apart today and back to our work schedules ... so we were back in the everyday where having a cig is total habit ... mine started with the ride to work ... being on the beltway without Curly Top in my car ... a cig was a natural to deal with the traffic ... and then watching Mary get up to have smokes at work was so hard ... I just wanted to go out there and have one ... and it made me realize I take no break if I'm not smoking ...
Tonight D and I have been doing work for his company for hours ... and it just feels like we should be outside - right now - having a smoke ... I thought it would get easier as the days went on but I am chomping at the bit to have one right now ... and if he wanted to go to the store I don't think I would disagree!!!
Monday, June 30, 2008
The Quest for the Sno-cone Machine
At the picnic this weekend they had an awesome sno-cone machine ... and Curly Top and I LOVED the sno-cones ... so I decided I was going to find one for us ... not only would it be cool to be able to make our own sno-cones ... her lemonade stands would be the ht of the neighborhood ... I mean who wouldn't stop to get a sno-cone from a cute little Curly Top ...
Little did I know they were about $600 ... way way more than I expected ... so now I need to keep a look out for one on the Rasmus auctions I am so very fond of ... by summer next year I am going to find a killer one ... it is my goal ...
Little did I know they were about $600 ... way way more than I expected ... so now I need to keep a look out for one on the Rasmus auctions I am so very fond of ... by summer next year I am going to find a killer one ... it is my goal ...
Little Things ...
Yesterday on one of D's rides on his moped I asked him if he could get me a card reader ... my desktop has gotten to crawling speeds and we can't figure out why ... so I need to do my photos from my laptop ... he got me a great card reader and an even more awesome gift for my desk ...
It is these little things that I love so very much ... he so knew I would dig this ... it hooks up to a USB port on my computer ... and it just makes me smile every time I look at it ... he seriously ROCKS!!
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It is these little things that I love so very much ... he so knew I would dig this ... it hooks up to a USB port on my computer ... and it just makes me smile every time I look at it ... he seriously ROCKS!!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
The Big Hat
On the way home from the grocery store today ... Curly Top found my hat in the car and fell in love with it ...
Day Two
I think there were more times today that I really wanted to go and have a cig than yesterday ... but D and I still trugged on ... and have now gone two days without smoking ...
Last night when I was putting Curly Top to bed I said, "Have you noticed that daddy and I stopped smoking" ... and she said, "yeeesssss" ... and I said, "Are you happy we stopped smoking?" ... and she said, "Oh yeeesssss" ... and I said, "Do we stink anymore?" and she said ... "No." and then threw her arms around me and patted me on the back and said, "Ohhhhhhhh" ... it is the sweetest thing ... and really if we are not doing this for ourselves we should 1000% be doing this for her ...
I know what we are doing is a good thing ... but at the same time it is oh so hard ...
The hardest times are when I finish a task I didn't want to do ... and think "ahhh now I can have a cig cause I got that done" ... and that is when I realize that no I won't be having a smoke ...
but I am going to power through ...
Last night when I was putting Curly Top to bed I said, "Have you noticed that daddy and I stopped smoking" ... and she said, "yeeesssss" ... and I said, "Are you happy we stopped smoking?" ... and she said, "Oh yeeesssss" ... and I said, "Do we stink anymore?" and she said ... "No." and then threw her arms around me and patted me on the back and said, "Ohhhhhhhh" ... it is the sweetest thing ... and really if we are not doing this for ourselves we should 1000% be doing this for her ...
I know what we are doing is a good thing ... but at the same time it is oh so hard ...
The hardest times are when I finish a task I didn't want to do ... and think "ahhh now I can have a cig cause I got that done" ... and that is when I realize that no I won't be having a smoke ...
but I am going to power through ...
The Mini Bike
So when D finished working on the scooter he found a mini bike on Craigslist that needed work ... and always in need a of a project he got it ... today was his first time riding it!!!
Company Picnic
Yesterday, my dad, D, Curly Top and I took a 2.5 hour ride up to my company picnic (well mine and my dad's company picnic ... in the 5.5 years I have worked there I have never been ... probably cause I work in the satellite office so the 2.5 drive (each way) can be kind of killer ... but we loaded up the car and were on our way ...
It turned out to be so much fun ... and I saw so many people that I work with that I don't actually see in person very often ... and of course everyone loved seeing Curly Top ... plus she got to meet lots of co-workers kids which was great ...They had a playground which she gravitated toward after the obligatory jumping in the bounce house ... in fact she wouldn't eat or do anything else until she jumped in the house ... she didn't like it as much as hers at home though ... so we didn't have to spend the whole day in there ...
The park where we were was huge ... the company set up 3 huge tents ... they had the bounce house ... and bounce slide that Curly Top wanted to go on but she wasn't big enough ... and D was too big to go with her ... they had a ton of great food and drinks ... it was really an awesome afternoon ... and my dad brought his kite ... which everyone loved ...
It turned out to be so much fun ... and I saw so many people that I work with that I don't actually see in person very often ... and of course everyone loved seeing Curly Top ... plus she got to meet lots of co-workers kids which was great ...They had a playground which she gravitated toward after the obligatory jumping in the bounce house ... in fact she wouldn't eat or do anything else until she jumped in the house ... she didn't like it as much as hers at home though ... so we didn't have to spend the whole day in there ...
The park where we were was huge ... the company set up 3 huge tents ... they had the bounce house ... and bounce slide that Curly Top wanted to go on but she wasn't big enough ... and D was too big to go with her ... they had a ton of great food and drinks ... it was really an awesome afternoon ... and my dad brought his kite ... which everyone loved ...
We both got to spend some great quality time with Curly Top ... the weather was super hot but it almost didn't matter because we were outside ... in the fresh air ... hanging out and having fun ...
One of the best parts of the afternoon for D and I was the full on crush Curly Top had for the entertainment ... it was a guy playing keyboard but boy did she love it every time he started to play ... I couldn't resist shooting a video of the crush in process ...
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Day One
Well David and I have made it the whole day without smoking ... and I am so very proud of us ... we decided to go to my company picnic which probably helped cause we spent about 5 hours in the car with Curly Top and my dad ... plus it was just so hot out today and Curly Top was all over the place so we were running around with her ...
Now we were planning on using the Commit losenge ... I put one in my mouth this morning and almost puked ... it was so terribly disgusting I couldn't believe it ... so on the way out today I stopped and got Nicoderm CQ ... in the past I have always used the CVS brand ... any no name brand ... and I have to say ... this one seems soooooooooo much better ... there were only a few times where I really wanted one ... and I think they were just habit times ... it has been pretty good
I will say I miss it ... I sometimes thinks it is kinda sad that I won't ever be smoking again ... I enjoyed it so so so mch ... in fact at this moment I wish I could go out and have one ... :)
Now we were planning on using the Commit losenge ... I put one in my mouth this morning and almost puked ... it was so terribly disgusting I couldn't believe it ... so on the way out today I stopped and got Nicoderm CQ ... in the past I have always used the CVS brand ... any no name brand ... and I have to say ... this one seems soooooooooo much better ... there were only a few times where I really wanted one ... and I think they were just habit times ... it has been pretty good
I will say I miss it ... I sometimes thinks it is kinda sad that I won't ever be smoking again ... I enjoyed it so so so mch ... in fact at this moment I wish I could go out and have one ... :)
Friday, June 27, 2008
Tutu Dancing
My boss' daughter found the CUTEST tutu skirt for Curly Top ... and she just loves it ... when I came in the front door I didn't get the standard "MOMMY" ... all I heard was "tutu tutu tutu tutu tutu tutu tutu" ... she couldn't wait to get into it ... and show off some of her moves ...
Such a Hard Habit to Break ...
Tonight D and I will smoke our last cigs ... we are starting at day one tomorrow of being non smokers ... we have to do it ... for our daughter ... our health ... so I can get pregnant ... and the freaking money we are spending ... it is crazy amounts and we don't have crazy amounts to spend ...
When I was pregnant last time D still smoked and it was so hard on me ... cause he just smelled so bad ... then after the first trimester I wanted to smoke too and I couldn't ... and I started smoking again soon after we got home from the hospital ... even in my hospital bed I kept wondering if I could go down and have a cig ... so it just has to be done ... both of us ... together ...
I know we can do it ... we are strong people ... and want to set a good example for our child ... I don't want her to smoke ... it is such a hard habit to break ...
When I was pregnant last time D still smoked and it was so hard on me ... cause he just smelled so bad ... then after the first trimester I wanted to smoke too and I couldn't ... and I started smoking again soon after we got home from the hospital ... even in my hospital bed I kept wondering if I could go down and have a cig ... so it just has to be done ... both of us ... together ...
I know we can do it ... we are strong people ... and want to set a good example for our child ... I don't want her to smoke ... it is such a hard habit to break ...
Thursday, June 26, 2008
When things click ...
I absolutely love when things with Curly Top just click ... since I started washing her hair (which isn't that long ago since it took her soooooooooooo long to get any) I've been asking her to "look up" so I could get her hair wet and rinse out the soap ... but as soon as I would start to pour the water she would look down and become upset ... or would just refused to do it and I would have to just dump the water on her head ... bath time is just so much more fun now for both of us ...
We also had been going through a HUGE "I hate water" phase ... which can make lots of things nuts ... and she has suddenly snapped out of it ... we were having bath times that consisted of full on total screaming the entire time and no sitting down in the tub ... no getting in the pool in the backyard ... no nothing ... and she is once again enjoying bath time which makes for an enjoyable evening ... and pool time which makes a super hot day nicer ...
She is just such an amazing little person ... everyday I am blown away by her ...
We also had been going through a HUGE "I hate water" phase ... which can make lots of things nuts ... and she has suddenly snapped out of it ... we were having bath times that consisted of full on total screaming the entire time and no sitting down in the tub ... no getting in the pool in the backyard ... no nothing ... and she is once again enjoying bath time which makes for an enjoyable evening ... and pool time which makes a super hot day nicer ...
She is just such an amazing little person ... everyday I am blown away by her ...
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
The joy of the dentist
So today I had a 2 hour plus dental appointment ... now I do love my dentist but I think what I hate so much is that it hurts for hours and days afterwards ... it is my own fault that I waited so long to go ... that was just stupid ...
I got fitted for my crown so I have a temp in ... and of course while working she saw a bit of a cavity forming and said she didn't trust me and was just going to go ahead and fill it right now ... my gums are beyond swollen and I am a bit starving cause I just haven't been able to eat anything yet ... I keep thinking soup sounds good for dinner ... thank God for soup ...
I also got a new night guard cause I am killing my teeth grinding them so much ... I laughed when she put it in and asked how long she thought it would last ... she thinks forever ... I am giving it no more than 3 weeks ...
I think one of the reasons D and I are still together is cause he says my grinding doesn't bother him ... he is the only person in the world ... when my brother and I have had to share a hotel room he puts in ear plugs and pushes them in all the way (he says this is the only time he has to do that) and he can still hear me ...
Once in a hotel there was a knock on the door in the middle of the night ... it was my neighbor they asked me to please stop whatever it was I was doing cause the sound was horrible and keeping them up ... I apologized and explained it was my teeth ... they asked how I had any left ... so we'll see ... I go back to get my permanent crown in 2 weeks and she asked me to bring my guard with me ... :)
I am making a promise to myself to not let my appointments slip by ... I don't want to have this much work done on one tooth ever again ... EVER AGAIN ...
I got fitted for my crown so I have a temp in ... and of course while working she saw a bit of a cavity forming and said she didn't trust me and was just going to go ahead and fill it right now ... my gums are beyond swollen and I am a bit starving cause I just haven't been able to eat anything yet ... I keep thinking soup sounds good for dinner ... thank God for soup ...
I also got a new night guard cause I am killing my teeth grinding them so much ... I laughed when she put it in and asked how long she thought it would last ... she thinks forever ... I am giving it no more than 3 weeks ...
I think one of the reasons D and I are still together is cause he says my grinding doesn't bother him ... he is the only person in the world ... when my brother and I have had to share a hotel room he puts in ear plugs and pushes them in all the way (he says this is the only time he has to do that) and he can still hear me ...
Once in a hotel there was a knock on the door in the middle of the night ... it was my neighbor they asked me to please stop whatever it was I was doing cause the sound was horrible and keeping them up ... I apologized and explained it was my teeth ... they asked how I had any left ... so we'll see ... I go back to get my permanent crown in 2 weeks and she asked me to bring my guard with me ... :)
I am making a promise to myself to not let my appointments slip by ... I don't want to have this much work done on one tooth ever again ... EVER AGAIN ...
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Our Current Favorite Book
Now we still read "Alice the Fairy" ... "Olivia Saves The Circus" ... and "Fancy Nancy" every night ... but Curly Top's current favorite book is "Good Night Washington DC" ... and they have them for a whole bunch of different states and places ... they are the cutest ...
We read it twice before bed every night and the last several mornings she wakes up before I leave for work (this used to never happen ... it is nice for me because I love getting to see her before I leave for work) ... as soon as she sees me in the doorway she whispers "read ... read ... read" ... and grabs Good Night Washington DC ... and on the last page when it says, "Thank you for sharing such a wonderful day" she whispers "yeeeaaaaaaa" ... it is just precious ...
I am so happy she is getting into reading ... I will admit for a little while there I was worried ... she wasn't like other kids I knew ... even as an infant she showed no interest in books ... as a little baby if you tried to read a book she would kick ... try and roll over (probably why she figured out how to) ... if you were holding her she just tried to squirm away ... I thought she would never have a love for reading like I did ... as an infant all she wanted to do was listen to music ... she could do that for hours ... and she seemed remarkable content if she could hear M*A*S*H on ... that seemed to quiet her right down ...
So the fact that she asks to read a lot now makes me so happy ... because it was something so special to me as a kid and I had hoped she would love to read too ...
Recently she has been taking her napkin at meals and holding it saying "book to read" ... so when I ask her to tell me a story she points along just as if she is reading it to me ...
Some days I wish there could be a camera on her all the time ... she is just a trip ...
We read it twice before bed every night and the last several mornings she wakes up before I leave for work (this used to never happen ... it is nice for me because I love getting to see her before I leave for work) ... as soon as she sees me in the doorway she whispers "read ... read ... read" ... and grabs Good Night Washington DC ... and on the last page when it says, "Thank you for sharing such a wonderful day" she whispers "yeeeaaaaaaa" ... it is just precious ...
I am so happy she is getting into reading ... I will admit for a little while there I was worried ... she wasn't like other kids I knew ... even as an infant she showed no interest in books ... as a little baby if you tried to read a book she would kick ... try and roll over (probably why she figured out how to) ... if you were holding her she just tried to squirm away ... I thought she would never have a love for reading like I did ... as an infant all she wanted to do was listen to music ... she could do that for hours ... and she seemed remarkable content if she could hear M*A*S*H on ... that seemed to quiet her right down ...
So the fact that she asks to read a lot now makes me so happy ... because it was something so special to me as a kid and I had hoped she would love to read too ...
Recently she has been taking her napkin at meals and holding it saying "book to read" ... so when I ask her to tell me a story she points along just as if she is reading it to me ...
Some days I wish there could be a camera on her all the time ... she is just a trip ...
Monday, June 23, 2008
Sunday ... Funny ... Sunday
Sunday was a great day for all of us ... I especially had fun spending so much time with Curly Top ... we were too wiped out from the birthday party we went to on Saturday to get up early and go to the Soap Box derby ... which was alright ... it probably would have been too much ...
We still headed out rather early and went to Curly Top's cousin's naming ceremony and brunch ... it was nice the whole family was there ... both sides of my brother's family so it was very nice ...
After getting home we had outside day ... Curly Top wanted to do nothing more than strip down and get in the pool ... it was fantastic ... she hasn't wanted to go in her pool since it got warm ... but once she was in she had a blast ... blowing bubbles ... going down the slide ... splashing mommy ... it was fantastic ... I didn't want the afternoon to end ...
Once we came inside we turned on the Olympic trials and Curly Top loved the diving ... every time someone jumped off the board she exclaimed "ohhhhhhhh" and then clapped when they hit the water ... it is going to make watching the Olympics so so fun ... I can't wait till August ...
My parents stopped by for a bit right before dinner ... Curly Top did a full on dance show for them ... and loved the attention and showing off her new dance moves ... she was just beyond adorable ...
After dinner we read a bunch of books all snuggled up in her room ... it was just a perfect day ... filled with laughter and hugs and kisses ... I couldn't have planned better time with my little girl ...
A moment of thought ...
I had intended to write about how fun our weekend was ... and all that went on ... but sad news trumps that ... someone I have worked with for years ... who my dad has worked with for even longer ... lost a child this weekend ... and it just rips my heart out thinking about it ... their oldest, special needs child drown in their pool this weekend ... they just moved into the house last week and he unfortunately found him and administered CPR but it was too late ... their family is in my prayers ... I just wish there was something more I could do for them ...
Saturday, June 21, 2008
This says it all ...
This picture just captures the essence of Curly Top right now ... she is beyond in love with her "kitty kitty" shoes ... and she can't get enough of her hot pink polish ... she asks me all the time to touch up her toes ... and any time she sees her feet she points them out ... "toes toes toes" ... I just couldn't resist capturing the moment ...
Wonderful day ...
This was the end of the day ... tired ... happy ... red in the face ... fun kinda day ...
We went to Andrews 5th birthday party and had a blast ... Curly Top didn't stop moving for 3 hours straight ... swinging ... jumping in thebounce house ... riding the Little Tykes cars ... she just had a blast ... and it was so nice to hang out with everyone and just have fun ...
She fell asleep soon after this photo was taken but was ready to put on her tutu and perform for D and I when we got home ... she is just a living doll ...
but there was only a second of contention when it was time to get ready for bed ... but she fell asleep within moments of laying down and is now up there cuddling with her baby doll ... it is just the sweetest see ...
Helping Rocket
This morning Curly Top and I were watching The Little Einsteins ... A Galactic Goodnight ... we have seen it a zillion times but it is one that we both love ... I love the song that teaches about the planets and I needed something to keep her occupied while I cut her hair ...
Well in this riveting episode Rocket is having problems going to sleep ... and Curly Top seemed overly anxious to get up ... more so than a normal 2 year olds impatience ... when she was finally allowed to get up she went running across the room to grab her "melmo" doll and then ran up to the TV ... she kept pushing it against the TV saying "no eep kit no eepkit" ... it took me a second but it hit me ... I said, "Are you trying to give Rocket your Elmo dolls because he is having trouble going to sleep" and it was a resounding ... "yesssssssssssss" ...
That for me is just too too cute ...
Well in this riveting episode Rocket is having problems going to sleep ... and Curly Top seemed overly anxious to get up ... more so than a normal 2 year olds impatience ... when she was finally allowed to get up she went running across the room to grab her "melmo" doll and then ran up to the TV ... she kept pushing it against the TV saying "no eep kit no eepkit" ... it took me a second but it hit me ... I said, "Are you trying to give Rocket your Elmo dolls because he is having trouble going to sleep" and it was a resounding ... "yesssssssssssss" ...
That for me is just too too cute ...
Friday, June 20, 2008
Baby Fever
Well maybe it is like "baby clammy" ... there are moments I think about it constantly ... and other moments where it is the farthest thing from my mind ...
Curly Top has sooo much love in her I want her to have a sibling ... she is just beyond precious with her baby dolls ... kissing them ... taking them on walks ... feeding them ... and making "melmo" give them all kisses ... so I know she would be so happy ... although secretly if she could totally voice her opinion she would want an older sibling ... she just loves big kids and I think there will be a moment of disappointment when she figures out she is the older sibling ...
But with kids comes being pregnant again ... now I didn't have a bad pregnancy mind you ... but I swelled up like nobodies business ... like 2 sizes bigger shoes in men's sizes ... I'm not looking forward to that ... and a weird period of time where I only ate white stuff ... vanilla milkshakes ... vanilla pudding and animal crackers ... mashed potatoes ... it was weird ... but the only things I thought I could stomach were things that were white ...
You know the first time you are pregnant it is all new and you don't expect things ... just go with the flow .. kinda leap into it foolishly ... now I would know what I was getting into ... and I know it could be worse ... I could throw up and suffer morning sickness ... be put on bed rest for more than 2 weeks (the 2 weeks last time made me insane ... I just couldn't sit and do nothing - although the swelling went down dramatically) ...
I'm not sure what I am saying ... I think maybe it is just a bit harder for me to get into the spirit of things because I know what I am getting into ... and I am not carefree about it ...
A part of me is a bit sad ... I always dreamed of having 3 kids ... since I was a kid myself ... maybe because growing up I had always wished I had had one more choice of who to play with ... it was always just my brother and me ... and I would think, "Geee if my parents had had one more kid I would have my choice of who to hang out with." ... but with my age and having to have a C-section there will just be one more ... it is hard to let go of a life long dream ... cause I know all too well I am lucky having the one child I have right now ... I know too many people who are never able to have any ... so I do count my blessings on that ...
Curly Top has sooo much love in her I want her to have a sibling ... she is just beyond precious with her baby dolls ... kissing them ... taking them on walks ... feeding them ... and making "melmo" give them all kisses ... so I know she would be so happy ... although secretly if she could totally voice her opinion she would want an older sibling ... she just loves big kids and I think there will be a moment of disappointment when she figures out she is the older sibling ...
But with kids comes being pregnant again ... now I didn't have a bad pregnancy mind you ... but I swelled up like nobodies business ... like 2 sizes bigger shoes in men's sizes ... I'm not looking forward to that ... and a weird period of time where I only ate white stuff ... vanilla milkshakes ... vanilla pudding and animal crackers ... mashed potatoes ... it was weird ... but the only things I thought I could stomach were things that were white ...
You know the first time you are pregnant it is all new and you don't expect things ... just go with the flow .. kinda leap into it foolishly ... now I would know what I was getting into ... and I know it could be worse ... I could throw up and suffer morning sickness ... be put on bed rest for more than 2 weeks (the 2 weeks last time made me insane ... I just couldn't sit and do nothing - although the swelling went down dramatically) ...
I'm not sure what I am saying ... I think maybe it is just a bit harder for me to get into the spirit of things because I know what I am getting into ... and I am not carefree about it ...
A part of me is a bit sad ... I always dreamed of having 3 kids ... since I was a kid myself ... maybe because growing up I had always wished I had had one more choice of who to play with ... it was always just my brother and me ... and I would think, "Geee if my parents had had one more kid I would have my choice of who to hang out with." ... but with my age and having to have a C-section there will just be one more ... it is hard to let go of a life long dream ... cause I know all too well I am lucky having the one child I have right now ... I know too many people who are never able to have any ... so I do count my blessings on that ...
Almost the weekend ...
It is 3:45 in the afternoon on what feels like one of the slowest moving afternoons at work ... I just want the weekend to start ...
Curly Top called me today at work ... (well D dialed) but she only had a little to say ... just made me want to get home even sooner ... and hang out and play in the backyard on the longest day of the year ...
We have lots of fun plans this weekend ... we are checking out auction items on Saturday afternoon ... it is a Rasmus Auction... companies going out of business auction everything off and there is one coming up that has 5 king size mattresses ... and we need one sooooooooo badly ... so we are going to check them out and see which one we want to bid on ...
From there we have a 5th birthday party to go to ... Curly Top is quite excited ... she keeps saying "jump cake" ... cause they have a bounce house and all parties have cake ...
Sunday early morning we are heading into DC to see the Soap Box Derby ... then we have a naming ceremony to go to ... we never have such a jam packed weekend ... I am a bit excited and a bit like "ohhhhh are we all just gonna wanna hang out at home and play" ...
And now after typing all this out I am thinking I need to go home and do all our laundry tonight ... doesn't matter ... it is still a "woohoo" day cause it is Friday!!!
Curly Top called me today at work ... (well D dialed) but she only had a little to say ... just made me want to get home even sooner ... and hang out and play in the backyard on the longest day of the year ...
We have lots of fun plans this weekend ... we are checking out auction items on Saturday afternoon ... it is a Rasmus Auction... companies going out of business auction everything off and there is one coming up that has 5 king size mattresses ... and we need one sooooooooo badly ... so we are going to check them out and see which one we want to bid on ...
From there we have a 5th birthday party to go to ... Curly Top is quite excited ... she keeps saying "jump cake" ... cause they have a bounce house and all parties have cake ...
Sunday early morning we are heading into DC to see the Soap Box Derby ... then we have a naming ceremony to go to ... we never have such a jam packed weekend ... I am a bit excited and a bit like "ohhhhh are we all just gonna wanna hang out at home and play" ...
And now after typing all this out I am thinking I need to go home and do all our laundry tonight ... doesn't matter ... it is still a "woohoo" day cause it is Friday!!!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Bubble Wonderland
After my horrendous backache on Saturday I was worried Father's Day wouldn't be all Curly Top and I had wanted it to be ... but in my opinion it turned out to be a pretty great day ...
She and I left the house early to go to Target to get D's present ... he was in desperate need of new headphones to use when playing guitar ... she and I had a blast ... she picked out ribbons and a gift bag and tissue paper and cheered when we got the headphones ...
D was more than happy to have slept in ... and was up enjoying coffee when we walked in ... he went and sat outside while we wrapped up his present ... signed our cards and then she presented everything to him ... it was just too too cute ...
But I think the best part of the day was the bubble wonderland D set up in the backyard for her to enjoy ... and I truly think he and I got more enjoyment watching her run around shouting "Yo Bu Bu" ...
She and I left the house early to go to Target to get D's present ... he was in desperate need of new headphones to use when playing guitar ... she and I had a blast ... she picked out ribbons and a gift bag and tissue paper and cheered when we got the headphones ...
D was more than happy to have slept in ... and was up enjoying coffee when we walked in ... he went and sat outside while we wrapped up his present ... signed our cards and then she presented everything to him ... it was just too too cute ...
But I think the best part of the day was the bubble wonderland D set up in the backyard for her to enjoy ... and I truly think he and I got more enjoyment watching her run around shouting "Yo Bu Bu" ...
Monday, June 16, 2008
My Little Curly Top
All weekend I just kept noticing how in awe I was of Curly Top ... I know everyone says your love for a kid is greater than you ever expected ... but I also admire her so much ...
If you ask for kisses she stops whatever she is doing to come over and give you a kiss and then say "awwww"
She makes sure to offer you any of her snack and I even catch her offering her baby dolls and stuffed "melmo" and cookie monster sips of her juice
When she gives me a hug she pats my back and when she is snuggling on the couch she strokes my arm
When she is watching something on TV or reading her book and someone is crying or upset she has such empathy for them and feels the exact same way, she always wants to make sure everyone is OK
She constantly said "You OK" just like I say to her when she is jumping in her bounce house or falls down while running around
She was just oh so excited to buy her daddy a Father's Day gift and she carried that gift bag across the room with such a huge smile on her face and was giddy while he was opening it ... I just couldn't believe she comprehended the idea of giving gifts
Lately she seems to be working really hard pronouncing the letters of the alphabet that she struggles with cause she loves how excited we get and she starts cheering and clapping when she gets a new one
She also has started talking to me on the phone when I am not at home which I absolutely adore ... I don't always understand what she is saying but she can spend a good 5+ minutes with me on the phone and it is just oh so fun ... I just love it ... I can't wait till I can understand everything she says ...
She really is just such a great kid ... we lucked out so big time ... I often catch myself wondering how we got so lucky ... especially when she comes running up to me with her arms spread wide saying "awwww mommy" in the perfect little Shirley Temple voice she has ...
If you ask for kisses she stops whatever she is doing to come over and give you a kiss and then say "awwww"
She makes sure to offer you any of her snack and I even catch her offering her baby dolls and stuffed "melmo" and cookie monster sips of her juice
When she gives me a hug she pats my back and when she is snuggling on the couch she strokes my arm
When she is watching something on TV or reading her book and someone is crying or upset she has such empathy for them and feels the exact same way, she always wants to make sure everyone is OK
She constantly said "You OK" just like I say to her when she is jumping in her bounce house or falls down while running around
She was just oh so excited to buy her daddy a Father's Day gift and she carried that gift bag across the room with such a huge smile on her face and was giddy while he was opening it ... I just couldn't believe she comprehended the idea of giving gifts
Lately she seems to be working really hard pronouncing the letters of the alphabet that she struggles with cause she loves how excited we get and she starts cheering and clapping when she gets a new one
She also has started talking to me on the phone when I am not at home which I absolutely adore ... I don't always understand what she is saying but she can spend a good 5+ minutes with me on the phone and it is just oh so fun ... I just love it ... I can't wait till I can understand everything she says ...
She really is just such a great kid ... we lucked out so big time ... I often catch myself wondering how we got so lucky ... especially when she comes running up to me with her arms spread wide saying "awwww mommy" in the perfect little Shirley Temple voice she has ...
Friday, June 13, 2008
Coffee addiction
I am not even sure if the title really describes my love for coffee ... I drank it all day and all night ... like water ... all the time ... when I was pregnant I drank decaf and was fine with that ... I have loved coffee for as long as I can remember ...
But my biggest addiction was Mocha Frappachinos from Starbucks ... every morning without fail I got one ... and half the time I would get one on the way home too ... I planned our trips out of the house so I could stop by Starbucks if not twice at least once ... there are several stores that know my order without having to speak a word to me ... it has been that bad ...
Last Sunday I had a few sips of one ... it was hot out ... blazing hot ... too hot to be drinking that ... walk off the face of the sun hot and I should have just been having water ... but I didn't ... and I paid the price ... I was in bed at 5:30 praying I would throw up ... spent half the night moaning or in the bathroom ...
Come Monday morning there was nothing I wanted less ... all I wanted was water and to sleep ... I left work early and did just that ... slept slept slept ...
Well today is Friday and I have gone the whole week without stepping into a Starbucks ... I don't know that I have ever done that before when one has been accessible to me ...
I haven't gone completely cold turkey on ice blended drinks ... Tuesday I stopped and got a smoothie at Robeks and it hit the spot ... I've always gotten the Strawberry Banana one ... Wednesday I decided to be a bit daring and got a Raspberry one and it was delicious ... Thursday I went all out and got Awesome Acai ... I had been wanting to try it forever and I am so glad I did ... it is amazing ... and sooooooo much better for me than the Mocha Frapps I have been sucking down ...
I've traded:
380 calories for 183
5 grams of fat for 1
78 carbs for 42
65 grams of sugar for 34
1 gram of fiber for 2
0% vitamin C for 26%
0% vitamin A for 3%
165 mg of caffeine for 0
So overall a pretty good change ...
But my biggest addiction was Mocha Frappachinos from Starbucks ... every morning without fail I got one ... and half the time I would get one on the way home too ... I planned our trips out of the house so I could stop by Starbucks if not twice at least once ... there are several stores that know my order without having to speak a word to me ... it has been that bad ...
Last Sunday I had a few sips of one ... it was hot out ... blazing hot ... too hot to be drinking that ... walk off the face of the sun hot and I should have just been having water ... but I didn't ... and I paid the price ... I was in bed at 5:30 praying I would throw up ... spent half the night moaning or in the bathroom ...
Come Monday morning there was nothing I wanted less ... all I wanted was water and to sleep ... I left work early and did just that ... slept slept slept ...
Well today is Friday and I have gone the whole week without stepping into a Starbucks ... I don't know that I have ever done that before when one has been accessible to me ...
I haven't gone completely cold turkey on ice blended drinks ... Tuesday I stopped and got a smoothie at Robeks and it hit the spot ... I've always gotten the Strawberry Banana one ... Wednesday I decided to be a bit daring and got a Raspberry one and it was delicious ... Thursday I went all out and got Awesome Acai ... I had been wanting to try it forever and I am so glad I did ... it is amazing ... and sooooooo much better for me than the Mocha Frapps I have been sucking down ...
I've traded:
380 calories for 183
5 grams of fat for 1
78 carbs for 42
65 grams of sugar for 34
1 gram of fiber for 2
0% vitamin C for 26%
0% vitamin A for 3%
165 mg of caffeine for 0
So overall a pretty good change ...
Thursday, June 12, 2008
It is that SYTYCD time
Finally on So You Think You Can Dance we are at the point where they are doing dances in couples ... Curly Top loves the show at this point ... and I love fast forwarding through everything then next day so we can watch the dancing ...
Tonight before bed we watched last nights show ... just the dances ... and she was in heaven ... twirling around ... clapping at the end of each one ... shouting "yea!! yea!!" ...
When Mia Michaels modern dance routine came on she was in awe ... now I know I am her mom but I was impressed ... she tried to mimic their moves ... she sat on the floor and kicked her leg out ... spun around ... put her hand to her chest and brought it out to the side ... and held my hand and lifted her leg up and to the side ... and when it was over she said ... again ... again ...
I'm so happy she loves to dance ... to move to music ... to try new things ...
now we just gotta get her to use the potty so she can take dance class ... because I know she will love it with all her heart ...
Tonight before bed we watched last nights show ... just the dances ... and she was in heaven ... twirling around ... clapping at the end of each one ... shouting "yea!! yea!!" ...
When Mia Michaels modern dance routine came on she was in awe ... now I know I am her mom but I was impressed ... she tried to mimic their moves ... she sat on the floor and kicked her leg out ... spun around ... put her hand to her chest and brought it out to the side ... and held my hand and lifted her leg up and to the side ... and when it was over she said ... again ... again ...
I'm so happy she loves to dance ... to move to music ... to try new things ...
now we just gotta get her to use the potty so she can take dance class ... because I know she will love it with all her heart ...
Soon no more straddling the toilet
So the bathroom upstairs is so small it hardly even looks like an after thought ... you literally have to straddle the toilet to close the door ... so for the first time we are hiring someone to do work on our house ...
Everything up to this point has been done by D or myself ... mostly D but even if he can't remember I did help paint all but two rooms in the house while I was pregnant ... he seems to forget that info when he talks about how he painted the house and will rolls his eyes when I say "we painted the house" ...
So we have had one contractor come by already and another one is coming by tomorrow morning at 8 AM ... and I am really starting to wish we could do the work ourselves ... there are pros and cons with that idea ... but it should would be easier ...
Pros - less expensive ... could do more because we would be saving money ... wouldn't have to relate my ideas to anyone other than D ...
Cons - it would take us FOREVER ... we have no idea how to move the pipe for a toilet and it isn't something you want to mess around with ... it would take us Forever ... i mention that one twice cause that is a big deal ...
along with making the bathroom bigger we are moving the laundry room up to the top floor ... where all the clothes reside ... right now I go down 4 flights of stairs to get to the basement to do laundry ...
Hate is not a strong enough word for how I feel about laundry ... every aspect of it except having clean clothes I loathe ... just typing about it I feel like I might break into hives ... so having it on the top floor should make it a bit better ... no more lugging baskets to the basement ... easier to do a load here and there rather than spend 8 hours doing laundry on Sunday ... so the fact that I am actually a bit excited about anything laundry related is a huge deal ...
It all just comes down to how we are going to lay everything out ... the more I think about it the bigger the project seems to get ...
there are 3 bedrooms and a bathroom ... the bigger bedroom is our home office ... the medium bedroom is Curly Top's room ... the room that is too small to hold a bed is the spare room ... the plan was to turn the too small room into the bathroom ... and the toilet straddling bathroom into the laundry area ... when the next kiddo comes along they get Curly Top's room and she moves into what is now our office ...
But now I just want to make her room and the too small room bigger by moving the walls into the office ... and just make a bathroom out of what is left of the office ... so each room is attached to it ... and Curly Top doesn't have to move rooms ...
And I am guessing by later this afternoon I will have come up with yet another plan to use the space ... I just know we aren't going to be doing this again ... I want to make it count!!!!
Everything up to this point has been done by D or myself ... mostly D but even if he can't remember I did help paint all but two rooms in the house while I was pregnant ... he seems to forget that info when he talks about how he painted the house and will rolls his eyes when I say "we painted the house" ...
So we have had one contractor come by already and another one is coming by tomorrow morning at 8 AM ... and I am really starting to wish we could do the work ourselves ... there are pros and cons with that idea ... but it should would be easier ...
Pros - less expensive ... could do more because we would be saving money ... wouldn't have to relate my ideas to anyone other than D ...
Cons - it would take us FOREVER ... we have no idea how to move the pipe for a toilet and it isn't something you want to mess around with ... it would take us Forever ... i mention that one twice cause that is a big deal ...
along with making the bathroom bigger we are moving the laundry room up to the top floor ... where all the clothes reside ... right now I go down 4 flights of stairs to get to the basement to do laundry ...
Hate is not a strong enough word for how I feel about laundry ... every aspect of it except having clean clothes I loathe ... just typing about it I feel like I might break into hives ... so having it on the top floor should make it a bit better ... no more lugging baskets to the basement ... easier to do a load here and there rather than spend 8 hours doing laundry on Sunday ... so the fact that I am actually a bit excited about anything laundry related is a huge deal ...
It all just comes down to how we are going to lay everything out ... the more I think about it the bigger the project seems to get ...
there are 3 bedrooms and a bathroom ... the bigger bedroom is our home office ... the medium bedroom is Curly Top's room ... the room that is too small to hold a bed is the spare room ... the plan was to turn the too small room into the bathroom ... and the toilet straddling bathroom into the laundry area ... when the next kiddo comes along they get Curly Top's room and she moves into what is now our office ...
But now I just want to make her room and the too small room bigger by moving the walls into the office ... and just make a bathroom out of what is left of the office ... so each room is attached to it ... and Curly Top doesn't have to move rooms ...
And I am guessing by later this afternoon I will have come up with yet another plan to use the space ... I just know we aren't going to be doing this again ... I want to make it count!!!!
She may have been so tired ...
But it only lasted until D and I were headed to bed ... of course ... she is a napper ... like she is trying to maximize her time on earth ... she slept 4 hours and was wide awake and ready to go and all D and I wanted to do was get in bed ...
So I brought Curly Top to our room ... got her a snack and plopped her between us ... she was mellow ... chomping on some Cheerios and watching an interesting show on Discovery about these nuts that think the landing on the moon was all staged ...
The moment I felt myself drift to sleep she was up ... and playing ... and we just let her ... till I realized stuff was piling up on top of me ... as a sat up there was a cascade of hangers and belts falling to the floor ... I realized our room looked like an obstacle course and I was sorry I hadn't set up a camera to capture her shenanigans ...
Laundry baskets were set up all around the room ... more hangers than I realized we had were scattered about ... weird metal polls that I believe came from her Pack-n-Play from back in the day (where she found these I do not know) were leaning here and there ... I believe in one area she attempted to make a fort because her "melmo" blanket was across 2 laundry baskets ...
When she saw me sit up she squeeled with delight and started running in circles through the course she set up ... and kept coming over and grabbing my hand and pulling me ... this innoscent little child actually thought Mommy was going to jump up and start my own midnight olympics with her ...
I tried to get her to go to her room ... NOT happening ...
I tried to get her to lay down with me ... again ... no go ...
So I now hold the Silver Medal in hanger jump and the Bronze in laundry basket dodge (damn stuffed animal beat me)
She was then ready to lay down ... but only with the TV on and her feet jammed in my belly ...
It was then a series of twists and turns for the next 4 hours of kicking me in the face ... putting her head on my feet ... head on my tummy ... touching noses and saying "mommy ... mommy ... mommy" ... kicking the sheets off ... pulling them back up ... playing with my hair ...
At 5:30 when my alarm went off and I got up to shower ... she snuggled into my pillow and fell asleep ...
of course ...
So I brought Curly Top to our room ... got her a snack and plopped her between us ... she was mellow ... chomping on some Cheerios and watching an interesting show on Discovery about these nuts that think the landing on the moon was all staged ...
The moment I felt myself drift to sleep she was up ... and playing ... and we just let her ... till I realized stuff was piling up on top of me ... as a sat up there was a cascade of hangers and belts falling to the floor ... I realized our room looked like an obstacle course and I was sorry I hadn't set up a camera to capture her shenanigans ...
Laundry baskets were set up all around the room ... more hangers than I realized we had were scattered about ... weird metal polls that I believe came from her Pack-n-Play from back in the day (where she found these I do not know) were leaning here and there ... I believe in one area she attempted to make a fort because her "melmo" blanket was across 2 laundry baskets ...
When she saw me sit up she squeeled with delight and started running in circles through the course she set up ... and kept coming over and grabbing my hand and pulling me ... this innoscent little child actually thought Mommy was going to jump up and start my own midnight olympics with her ...
I tried to get her to go to her room ... NOT happening ...
I tried to get her to lay down with me ... again ... no go ...
So I now hold the Silver Medal in hanger jump and the Bronze in laundry basket dodge (damn stuffed animal beat me)
She was then ready to lay down ... but only with the TV on and her feet jammed in my belly ...
It was then a series of twists and turns for the next 4 hours of kicking me in the face ... putting her head on my feet ... head on my tummy ... touching noses and saying "mommy ... mommy ... mommy" ... kicking the sheets off ... pulling them back up ... playing with my hair ...
At 5:30 when my alarm went off and I got up to shower ... she snuggled into my pillow and fell asleep ...
of course ...
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
I'm so tired ...
Somewhere or sometime this may be considered cruel ... but I just couldn't pass it up ...
Curly Top is not a sleeper ... not at all ... the only thing she wants to do less than sleep is take a bath ...
Last night she "napped" ... she slept for a few hours ... up for a few hours ... it is a regular occurrence lately ... so today D wore her out ... they went to the park and he said he ran her ragged ... they had a blast and she was all over the place ... they came home and played and he said she started acting weird ... and he kept asking her if she was ok ...
when she said no he asked what was wrong and she turned around ... well bless both their hearts ... as he describes it ... it was beyond an explosive diaper ... it was an explosive outfit ... more than I am sure either of them wanted to deal with ...
D said it was straight up to change ... and bathe ... of which the latter she had no interest ... he said she stood there and screamed the entire time ... so he did his best hose-down Silkwood shower and got her out of there ...
After cleaning up the mess everywhere ... family room ... bed room ... bathroom ... and getting her into her jammies ... is where I came in and grabbed my camera ...
and the result is what will at some point be considered cruel ... but I am alright with that assessment ...
Curly Top is not a sleeper ... not at all ... the only thing she wants to do less than sleep is take a bath ...
Last night she "napped" ... she slept for a few hours ... up for a few hours ... it is a regular occurrence lately ... so today D wore her out ... they went to the park and he said he ran her ragged ... they had a blast and she was all over the place ... they came home and played and he said she started acting weird ... and he kept asking her if she was ok ...
when she said no he asked what was wrong and she turned around ... well bless both their hearts ... as he describes it ... it was beyond an explosive diaper ... it was an explosive outfit ... more than I am sure either of them wanted to deal with ...
D said it was straight up to change ... and bathe ... of which the latter she had no interest ... he said she stood there and screamed the entire time ... so he did his best hose-down Silkwood shower and got her out of there ...
After cleaning up the mess everywhere ... family room ... bed room ... bathroom ... and getting her into her jammies ... is where I came in and grabbed my camera ...
and the result is what will at some point be considered cruel ... but I am alright with that assessment ...
Monday, June 9, 2008
This is how to fix disappointment
So I disappointed D by not having everything together to register his scooter ... the scooter that he worked SO hard to get ... spending weekend after weekend redoing some assholes basement as a barter to get it ... labored over it for hours and hours to get it in working order ... multiple trips to the DMV ... only to disappoint once again for not having the right stuff ... thinking everything was in order and sending him and Curly Top to spend 4 hours at the DMV to be turned away yet again ... and God bless him that he spent 4 hours there with a VERY unhappy 2 year old ...
I woke up this morning after sleeping 12 hours and still terribly sick to my stomach ... but my goal was to come home with tags so he could "ride free" as he so often professed ...
I sat on those cold steel benches watching the flashing news board just waiting for them to call E70 ... I knew everything was together this time and I knew I wasn't going to walk out of there without tags ... it was my purpose of the day ...
I've never made a happier call (well it was pretty great calling people to tell them we were getting married ... or that we were having a baby) but on this blazing hot Monday morning as D was about to go into a very important job interview I couldn't have been happier to call and say, "Sweetie ... you can ride free now ... you have tags for your scooter!!"
It took him all of 6 minutes to have his helmet on and get those babies on the bike once I got home ... and even though all I wanted to do was get back in bed ... I was more than happy to snap a few photos of his freedom ride!!
I woke up this morning after sleeping 12 hours and still terribly sick to my stomach ... but my goal was to come home with tags so he could "ride free" as he so often professed ...
I sat on those cold steel benches watching the flashing news board just waiting for them to call E70 ... I knew everything was together this time and I knew I wasn't going to walk out of there without tags ... it was my purpose of the day ...
I've never made a happier call (well it was pretty great calling people to tell them we were getting married ... or that we were having a baby) but on this blazing hot Monday morning as D was about to go into a very important job interview I couldn't have been happier to call and say, "Sweetie ... you can ride free now ... you have tags for your scooter!!"
It took him all of 6 minutes to have his helmet on and get those babies on the bike once I got home ... and even though all I wanted to do was get back in bed ... I was more than happy to snap a few photos of his freedom ride!!
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Present making time ...
Today Curly Top and I are heading to a paint your own pottery place to make something for D for Father's Day ... I am pretty excited about doing this ... first of all it is going to be a girls day out ... which is always nice ... especially after yesterday ... it was more than 24 hours from when I put her to bed on Thursday night until I saw her again when I picked her up at my parents ... for me that is far too long ...
It is supposed to be dangerously hot here today ... I wanted to go to the pottery place first thing but there is a private party till 1 so we will need to venture out during the height of the heat ... so maybe it will be a soak in the baby pool in the backyard evening ...
It is supposed to be dangerously hot here today ... I wanted to go to the pottery place first thing but there is a private party till 1 so we will need to venture out during the height of the heat ... so maybe it will be a soak in the baby pool in the backyard evening ...
Friday, June 6, 2008
How do you fix disappointment?
Today I disappointed my husband big time and I am just sitting here at work sick to my stomach about it ... how do you make up for that? How do you fix it? I work hard every day to be the best person I can be and to do all I can for those around me ... especially my family ...
and to know now that we are going into the weekend with his disappointment just plain old sucks ...
and to know now that we are going into the weekend with his disappointment just plain old sucks ...
Monday, June 2, 2008
Baggu
Today I got my Baggu Bags and I am oh so excited ... I used to be awesome about using canvas bags when I went shopping ... but with carting a kid and all that comes along with her and having a handful of different size bulky bags I just gave up on them ... them I came across these Baggu Bags and from the site I was sold ... they fold up in a pouch ... they aren't expensive ... totally easy to keep one in my purse for quick errands ... and they have a draw string pouch that will hold 10 of them ... they are just perfect ... I am just so so so excited to have found these ... they are great!!!!
Sunday, June 1, 2008
I scream ...
you scream ... we were all screaming for ice cream tonight ... so we decided to go to Cold Stone Creamery ... it was all of our first times ... and boy was it delicious ...
The place was packed but Curly Top didn't care because she danced all over the place ... she and I shared an ice cream and still threw away half of it ... we know now to order the tiny one ...
and we of course tipped ... cause we wanted to hear a song ... Curly Top loved it when people tipped because as soon as they started singing she started shaking her groove thing ... and boy can that girl dance ...
The place was packed but Curly Top didn't care because she danced all over the place ... she and I shared an ice cream and still threw away half of it ... we know now to order the tiny one ...
and we of course tipped ... cause we wanted to hear a song ... Curly Top loved it when people tipped because as soon as they started singing she started shaking her groove thing ... and boy can that girl dance ...
Seriously ...
So I had a root canal on Thursday ... and Friday I was in a ton of pain ... not from the Novocaine shot ... which is normally where the day after pain is for me when having dental work ... but the actual tooth hurt ... couldn't bite down or anything ... but I know he did a lot of work and said it was quite inflamed ... so I called and got a pain killer ... which was alright ... still couldn't bite down but I understood why ...
Yesterday it was still hurting and anything I hate had to be done very gingerly ... which just sucks ...
This morning while brushing my teeth ... my temporary filling came out ... seriously ... just being in pain wasn't enough ... now it is all exposed ... just breathing makes the tooth feel like it is rattling ...
and of course it is Sunday ...
So I guess it is back to the endodontist first thing tomorrow morning ...
Yesterday it was still hurting and anything I hate had to be done very gingerly ... which just sucks ...
This morning while brushing my teeth ... my temporary filling came out ... seriously ... just being in pain wasn't enough ... now it is all exposed ... just breathing makes the tooth feel like it is rattling ...
and of course it is Sunday ...
So I guess it is back to the endodontist first thing tomorrow morning ...
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