I think there were more times today that I really wanted to go and have a cig than yesterday ... but D and I still trugged on ... and have now gone two days without smoking ...
Last night when I was putting Curly Top to bed I said, "Have you noticed that daddy and I stopped smoking" ... and she said, "yeeesssss" ... and I said, "Are you happy we stopped smoking?" ... and she said, "Oh yeeesssss" ... and I said, "Do we stink anymore?" and she said ... "No." and then threw her arms around me and patted me on the back and said, "Ohhhhhhhh" ... it is the sweetest thing ... and really if we are not doing this for ourselves we should 1000% be doing this for her ...
I know what we are doing is a good thing ... but at the same time it is oh so hard ...
The hardest times are when I finish a task I didn't want to do ... and think "ahhh now I can have a cig cause I got that done" ... and that is when I realize that no I won't be having a smoke ...
but I am going to power through ...
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