Today was way harder than day one or two ... it could have been because D and I were apart today and back to our work schedules ... so we were back in the everyday where having a cig is total habit ... mine started with the ride to work ... being on the beltway without Curly Top in my car ... a cig was a natural to deal with the traffic ... and then watching Mary get up to have smokes at work was so hard ... I just wanted to go out there and have one ... and it made me realize I take no break if I'm not smoking ...
Tonight D and I have been doing work for his company for hours ... and it just feels like we should be outside - right now - having a smoke ... I thought it would get easier as the days went on but I am chomping at the bit to have one right now ... and if he wanted to go to the store I don't think I would disagree!!!
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