Before I start

 May 13, 1999

Before I start ... a friend reminded me that I really need to let loose and forget about the fact that people are reading this ... even the people I am writing about ... so I am working harder at doing that ... ack ... here goes ...

oh and fair warning ... this is going to be a long entry ... {there I go I say I am going to not think about the fact that people are reading this and then warn you it is going to be long ... yea I am doing great so far ... hahahahaaa}

What a day I had yesterday ... so much so that I couldn't even write about it ... even though there was so much I was going to write about ... I don't even remember what happened in the morning ... all I remember is what happened once I left work ...

I took the tram to my car after work ... and a total cutie sat next to me ... and actually stuck up a conversation with me ... which no one ever seems to do on the tram ... and I kept thinking ... shit how can I tell him about my site ... and as we passed the dorms there was one room with an "open 24 hours" neon sign ... and he said ... wow I bet they don't have any privacy living there ... and I realized that was it ... I said "well at my house there really isn't any privacy ... I have a live web cam running when I am at home" ... and gave him my web cam card ... he asked me all sorts of questions about how and why I set it up ... told me he would check it out ... and ending with a ... "you're weird" in a funny voice ... I am getting bolder by the second ...

But then I came home to find out my damn phone was turned off ... I have been fighting with MCI for months about overcharging me ... and it turns out they denied my claim and shut off my phone ... and wanted me to pay $1000 ... yea like I have that much ... what a joke ... so I called my brother ... who kicks some serious ass ... and after 4 hours he had MCI adjust my credit claim ... and the phone company ready to turn my phone back on ... he was so swift with the people ... and I certainly was soooo thankful ...

But I was still bummed out that I couldn't be on the computer ... they said it would take from 2 to 24 hours ... I couldn't believe that time range ... and I must have checked 100 times ... the stupid message was killing me ... I felt so bad that I couldn't change my message on my site ... because I am so good about getting home when I say I will be ... and I didn't want people to worry ... but what I think bummed me out the most was that I wasn't going to get to talk to my friend Clint ... our evening conversations are usually the best part of my day ... talking to him makes me feel fantastic ... he has an amazing soul ... is quite kind ... and I learned last night I look more forward to talking to him than I realized ...

but I did get so much done ... since I couldn't be on the computer ... I finally put away all my laundry ... totally cleaned my kitchen ... went through my bills ... all the stuff I have been meaning to do ... but couldn't pull myself away from the computer to do ... all the while checking my phone line ...

at 11 I decided to go through all the pics on the computer and work on a new gallery ... it wasn't as much fun not having the cam on ... but I got so much more done ... and at midnight my cell phone rang ... I was sure it was my mom ... but to my delight it was Clint ... making sure everything was alright ... it really may not have been a big deal ... but god it was sooooo cool ... and made me so happy ... we talked for a while and I totally enjoyed it ... a part of me worried our conversation flow might not happen when we weren't on the computer ... or that he might feel somewhat obligated to talk to me when we were on the computer ... but it didn't feel like that at all ... and he wouldn't call to make sure everything was alright if it was that way ...  I think I actually worry cause in the past ... when I have wanted to meet someone ... the longer we wait ... for some reason the worse it turns out ... maybe expectations  get heightened about the other person over time ... I am not saying this is going to happen ... but I do worry ... cause I have met many people from online ... and I promised myself I wasn't going to push to meet ... cause I HATE when people do that to me ...

enough of this ... I went to a temp agency today ... and everyone there was so cool ... and they told me I had the best test scores they had seen in a long time ... that I would have a job in no time ... even asked me where I would like to work ... which rocked ... so hopefully next week I will be making some cash ... cause to say I really needed money would be a complete understatement ... I am desperate ...

I met a really cool chick online today from Melbourne Australia ... where Kate and Fiona live ... we have been talking all day and she is totally cool ... ICQ rocks cause you can talk to people from all over ... more so than any other service ...

well I made these bitchen star wars magnets ... and they came out great ... and my brother called tonight and wants me to paint a new shelf for him for his kitchen ... I made some for his bedroom and he loved them ... so I am excited ... I get excited about any art project ...

ok I think I got everything out that has been on my mind ... of course I can always write more ... but man did I write enough tonight ... schwooooo!!