We had to get more diaper pail liners so we made it an afternoon ... walked all over Buy Buy Baby ... got a new Sesame Street lunch pail ... she just absolutely loves window shopping so we had to stop at every store and check out their window display ...
We went to the toy store where Curly Top tried out a sit and spin which she was only fond of for a moment ... she really liked the train table and the Calico Critters (I think that is what the doll house was called) ... we went into the bike store cause she kept talking about daddy's "mo bike" (scooter) and wanted to try out a bike ... she didn't quite get the peddles yet but boy she loved being on the bike ...
Then the question came that had come about 870 times already since daddy had left for work ...
"Mommy ... where's daddy?"
"Daddy's at work sweetie"
"Daddy go mo bike"
"No sweetie Daddy didn't ride his motor bike to work"
I know this time she just wanted him to see her on the bike ... but I caught the look I had gotten over and over today ... and the look and conversation every person that passed us while out today ... After the bike store we went and got smoothies and sat outside enjoying the afternoon ... talked about the cars driving by ... how delicious the smoothie was ... and of course ... "Where's Daddy?" ...
I so so so wish I got to spend every day with her ... it is making me cry right now that I don't get to do that ... that I miss out on precious moments every single day ... that it is just whisps of time that I am with her ...
Love just isn't a deep enough word for how I feel about her ...
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