Today was the first time in 2 weeks that I have gone out with just Curly Top ... so it was my first time driving and totally taking care of her ... we first went to my doctors appointment ... a follow up from my surgery and except for her moment of fear that the appointment was for her she did great ... we blew up rubber gloves into balloons and one of the nurses brought cookies in for her ...
My doctor said I was doing great ... he said the pain I was having that was so bad and that I am having that isn't as bad most likely isn't from the surgery ... it is my body trying to repair itself ... he said I had the sickest gallbladder he has ever seen ... that my body would need to do a lot to get back to normal ... he also told me that it had been sick longer than 2 months that I either just was ignoring the pain or attributing it to other things ...
So with the closer to clean bill of health Curly Top and I headed to Target ... we had a great time ... my little girl is now wearing clothes from the Girl's department ... and she found a Hello Kitty top that she just LOVED ... it is so totally cute and I got it in an extra small which just fits ... so we are going back to get it in a small so it will last longer ...
After Target we went to get smoothies and I carried her through the parking lot ... it was the first time in 2 weeks that I have picked her up for more than to put her on the changing table or in her high chair and I could tell she has really missed it ... she hugged me so hard and kept giving me kisses and saying, "Oh mommy ... oh mommy" ... it was just so sweet and so loving ... as much as my stomach was hurting I didn't want to put her down ... but I had to and we ran hand in hand to the smoothie shop ...
As ready as I am to get pregnant, I've had a taste of what it will be like not being able to carry her ... cause I know while pregnant I won't be able to ... she is just too heavy ... so that part will be sad ... but I know she is as ready as I am to have another child in the house ... any time anyone asks her if she wants a brother or sister she enthusiastically says, "yeeesssss" ...
So I guess my surgery happened at a great time ... didn't slow down the trying ... althogh I will say that when you are ready to start planning for a bigger family it is hard month after month knowing it isn't happening yet ... but maybe this month will be the charm ... maybe it wasn't happening because my body knew I had to take care of my gallbladder first ... at least that is what I am telling myself ...
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