Thought about writing

All weekend I thought about writing here and yet never opened the window ... in fact I hardly used my computer ... I spent every moment I could hanging out with curly top ... and we had a great time ...

My friend Amy posted this on our message board:
http://threesneakybugs.wordpress.com/2008/03/23/making-a-felt-board/
and I decided it was the perfect time to make it ...

Now we don't have a dedicated playroom ... our family room holds everything it possibly can ... so I bought a frame like the posted project but also bought some foam core board ... turned out that was a good idea because there wasn't a single space for me to mount the frame anywhere ... and curly top can carry the boards around and create anywhere she wants ...

Well she absolutely loves it ... played with it off and on all weekend ... kept grabbing the big pieces of felt and asking for "more more more" ... so we kept cutting new shapes and things all weekend ... and I still have a ton of felt ... so I think it will be a growing collection ...

I miss being able to do projects ... I felt like the only reason I could was because my event had been cancelled this weekend ... and it was my first somewhat free time in what feels like forever ... I still have the lingering wonder of why I do it ... maybe one day that question will be answered ...

The Perfect Gift

For almost 9 years now I have tried so hard to get my husband the perfect gift ...

I think the pressure started our first Christmas together ... we had only know each other a very short time and he got me the best gift I had ever gotten ... it will sound silly ... but it was an awesome bubble lamp ... tall lamp for the corner filled with water ... light changes colors and bubble swirled through it ... I cried ... not while he was still there but after he left ... I couldn't believe that in just 2 weeks he got me something that I loved so much ...

never have I gotten him something he loved ...

in fact I've wound up selling lots of the stuff I got him on eBay ... or it sits in the closet ...

Well his birthday is coming up in like a week and a half and he has given me no indication as to what he wants ... so again I am struggling to find the perfect gift ... that I can also afford ...

otherwise I would buy him a Cobra and never buy anything else ever again ...

Crazy Tired

You know that point when you are so tired you start seeing things ... you aren't sure if you are awake or asleep ... eyes go crossed without realizing it is happening ... and you see stars like you are a cartoon character who just got hit on the head ...

I am past that point at this moment ... and it is only 2:37 in the afternoon ... I still have 2.5 hours of work left ... then the forever drive home ... then the regular things of our nightly routine and I am guessing another night of a child who is boycotting sleep ...

I understand she isn't at a job during the day ... unless you consider the life of a child a job ... working hard at learning new things ... playing in the backyard ... painting ... bathing ... eating ... yes those are her tasks for her job ... but she is boycotting naps too ... she is getting less than 5 hours of sleep a day ... she is 2 ... she is supposed to be getting crazy sleep like 12 to 14 hours a day ... 5 shouldn't be cutting it for her ... cause the 2.5 I am averaging isn't cutting it for me and I can pump myself full of coffee all damn day ...

I am at the point of involuntary crying at my desk ... the exhaustion is just too much for me ... you would think I would be used to this ... I mean 5 hours a night for me is bliss ... that is what I run on ... how is cutting that in half killing me ...

I could totally curl up on the nasty floor under my desk and sleep soundly ... if only ...

Big Girl Bed

So today daddy set up the big girl bed for curly top ... and he waited until I got home for her to see it which made me want to cry ... I was just so happy ... and he washed her new "melmo" sheets and comforter so it was all ready to go ...

well she just loved it ... ran right in to her bed and just looked tickled ... then she helped me put together her nightstand and put all her "B's" (binkies) in the drawer ... she seemed so excited for bedtime ...

Curly Top's Big Girl Bed

that wasn't the case though after bedtime rolled around ... she lasted about 13 minutes before the screaming started and wanting to get out ... not wanting to be in her room ... and neither of us could take it again tonight ... we are exhausted ... we need sleep ... and she needed something to keep her occupied till she passed out ...

Hello Kermit the Frog and all your muppet friends ... and thank goodness for portable DVD players ... I told her she was only allowed to watch the movie if she didn't get out of bed ... and even dropping her water didn't get her off the bed ... (i watched on the camera) ... and now she is happily passed out laying sideways on her big girl bed ... and I'm going to catch some Z's of my own before she figures out she fell asleep ...

Week 105

Well at one time I had a fabulous blog recording each week of my daughter's life. The things we did ... the fun we had ... all that she had learned ... I made it to week 47. Yesterday was her 2nd birthday ... that makes it 104 weeks ... I've obviously missed some stuff ...

So maybe I wasn't meant to blog every week ... maybe I just need to do it as I think about it ... as long as I make sure I make the time ... one day she will like this ... I am sure of it ... and so will her future sibling(s) ... so at week 105 I am trying again ...

I will say I miss out on lots of stuff ... being at work sucks ... but she is at home with her daddy ... and he has the unique privilege of experiencing so much with her ... they are both luckier than they realize ...

she has been saying "daddy" for what seems like a year now ... probably 8 months ... just about a month ago she actually said "mommy" ... it was sweet music ... she can say it 9000 times in a row and I don't tire of it ...

her big thing right now is asking "what's that" ... she can point to the same thing and say "what's that" for 2 hours straight and I'll keep answering her ... because that means I actually got to spend two whole hours with her ...

today her and her daddy went and bought a big girl bed ... and are at home right now setting it up ... I wish I could have been with her when she picked out her "Melmo" sheets ... and loaded it all in the car ... I would love to be there screwing the whole thing together and setting up her new big girl room ... but unfortunately I'll have to settle for seeing it all once I get home ...

right now they are the two most important people in my life ... and I let them know that each and every day ... maybe one day through the words I put here they will see I cherished everything about them ...

Week Fifty

So the temperature that sent me to the ER on Friday just kept getting worse all weekend ... the highest was 103.6 ... and I just wasn't feeling well at all ... I really just wanted to cuddle with mommy or daddy as much as I could ... Sunday night I got to sleep in bed with them because I felt terrible ...

First thing Monday morning mommy called my doctor to get me an appointment ... my doctor was so nice ... she said I looked great ... there were no ear infections or anything ... when they did the blood test it showed I was fighting a virus ... so mommy was supposed to keep giving me Tylenol and Motrin for my fever and to make sure I got plenty to drink ...

Mommy got to spend the whole day with me on Monday ... and Tuesday I spent the whole day with Daddy ... we snuggled a lot and watch Little Einsteins and The History Channel ... Wednesday afternoon I got to go to Grandmommy's house ... she read books to me and we got to crawl around and play ... and then I got to go back on Thursday morning ... Friday mommy stayed home with me and took me back to the doctor because I still had a fever ... but they said everything looked good ...

Something happened Wednesday night ... I started screaming and just couldn't stop ... I screamed constantly on Thursday and Friday and today ... no one is sure why ... not even me ... but mommy and daddy are being very patient with me ... thank goodness ...

on a non sick note I have really started walking around while holding onto things ... and I am getting so good at it ... mommy thinks I have been screaming because I want to talk and walk on my own ... and I'm just frustrated

I really missed going to school this week ... I have so much fun there ... but I'll be back next week ...

Week Forty-Nine

Gigi was moved into my class on Monday and Miss Tasha came back ... it was a huge day for me ... she was in the infant 1 class before and we got to play in the mornings but now we can play all day long ... it is so great ... so there are only 3 of us in my class now ... Gigi, me and Armasted ... Miss Tasha told mommy that Gigi and I gave Armasted a hard time all day but he just giggled about it ...

Miss Tasha has been gone for over a month on leave and came back on Monday ... I was so happy to see her and she was so glad to be back ... now I get to spend more time in the big kid infant room with all the big toys ...

But on Friday the school called mommy because I had a fever of 101.2 ... so she came and picked me up ... she took me back to work and gave me some Tylenol but by the time we got home it was up to 103 ... so we went to the emergency room ... we were there forever!! and mommy didn't know we were going to be gone so long so she had to improvise to get me to drink some juice ... they did a bunch of tests but didn't find anything wrong ... they told mommy and daddy that if I still had a fever on Monday to see my pediatrician ...

I am standing up more and more now and getting much faster at it ... and I can crawl so fast now ... I also love playing with the phone ... the other morning I was playing with it and called Mommy's friend Naomi ... not only was it the first phone call I made it was long distance too ...

I also love the TiVo remote ... this morning I was playing with it and hit the thumbs up button 3 times while watching Little Einsteins ... that lets TiVo know I really love that show ...