Crazy Tired

You know that point when you are so tired you start seeing things ... you aren't sure if you are awake or asleep ... eyes go crossed without realizing it is happening ... and you see stars like you are a cartoon character who just got hit on the head ...

I am past that point at this moment ... and it is only 2:37 in the afternoon ... I still have 2.5 hours of work left ... then the forever drive home ... then the regular things of our nightly routine and I am guessing another night of a child who is boycotting sleep ...

I understand she isn't at a job during the day ... unless you consider the life of a child a job ... working hard at learning new things ... playing in the backyard ... painting ... bathing ... eating ... yes those are her tasks for her job ... but she is boycotting naps too ... she is getting less than 5 hours of sleep a day ... she is 2 ... she is supposed to be getting crazy sleep like 12 to 14 hours a day ... 5 shouldn't be cutting it for her ... cause the 2.5 I am averaging isn't cutting it for me and I can pump myself full of coffee all damn day ...

I am at the point of involuntary crying at my desk ... the exhaustion is just too much for me ... you would think I would be used to this ... I mean 5 hours a night for me is bliss ... that is what I run on ... how is cutting that in half killing me ...

I could totally curl up on the nasty floor under my desk and sleep soundly ... if only ...