I didn't want to write anything until I had gotten through the whole day for fear of jinxing anything ... but I spent April Fools Day doing all of Lincoln's feedings ... every 3 hours I was down in the NICU for his bottle ... but the most important part of each bottle was the blood test that was done first ... see for every sugar test done where his numbers were above 55 his glucose central line got to be reduced by 2 mL per Hr ... Tuesday he didn't pass any of them ... in fact a couple of times he had the central line raised ... but starting early Wednesday morning he started passing his tests ... and when I was down there for his 8:30 feeding I got so excited to see the machine reduced by 6 for the 3 feedings during the night ...
So every single time I went down there yesterday he consistantly got scores around 70 which was fantastic ... and by the last feeding David and I did at 11:30 he was reduced to 1 and had actually passed enough to turn off the machine ...
So since I am up in the middle of the night I just called down there to see how he is doing ... the nurse said that after we left at 12:30 he woke up screaming about half an hour later and ate another ounce of food which is great and that his 2:30 test his score was a 72 ... the doctor is coming first thing in the morning and taking out his central line ... and she said he has been pooping up a storm which will help his bilirubin numbers ... they are a bit questionable and he is very red ... in fact David and I call him umpa loompa ... which is a sign of some jaundice but since he was to term the numbers have to be higher than his before they use the bili lights ...
So now once they take out his central line he has to go 24 hours with good sugar tests ... tests that are above 55 and ideally around 70 and then he is allowed to go home ... I'm sorry I will be leaving today because I would love to do another full day of feedings to see how he is doing ...
I'm just so very proud of how well he did all day Wednesday ... it was such a great day for all of us!!
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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Joy Through The Pain
So today I have been in much more pain than I was yesterday ... I guess I thought I was going to have miracle abdominal surgery and be pain free but that isn't the case ...
I did get to take a shower this morning which was very nice and very needed ... and I got to see my doctor this morning ... which it was so good to see him ... I just love him so much ... he of course mentioned, "He wasn't 11 pounds" which was my guess ... and I said yes but I was only an ounce off and closer than his guess ... he is being very cool ... he said he was going to come and visit me again tomorrow before we decide when I am going home ... kind of hoping Lincoln gets to go at the same time as me ...
Then the doctor who delivered Lincoln came by to see me ... she said my incision looks great and that I can probably go home tomorrow but they aren't putting in the order for it yet so they can see how I am tomorrow ... she mentioned how much better I looked now than when she saw me Sunday morning ... and commented on how funny and happy I was after I got my spinal ...
After seeing the doctors I headed down alone to NICU ... where I got to snuggle Lincoln for a while ... I wanted to stay and feed him but he is just so heavy sitting on my stomach that after about 40 I needed to go back upstairs ... I just didn't think I would be able to do it alone ... it is much easier when David is with me and we can pass him back and forth and help each other ...
While I was down there another mother was wheeled in to see her baby ... the woman wheeling her looked at me and said, "ohhhh hello there." with a big smile on her face ... then she started to giggle ... I said hello and she said, "You probably don't remember me ... I was in the operating room with you Sunday, I was one of the nurses." ... I said, "Oh so are you giggling because of how I acted after I got the spinal?" and she said, "Yes, we all thought you were so cute and so happy after that." ...
I headed back up to my room and ate my lunch and took some pain medication and a nap ... today the pain has just been especially hard and without a nap yesterday I was hurting ... as I was waking up I saw the cutest little kid run into my room ... I was so happy to be awoken by Schuyler yelling, "Mommy oh mommy I missed you." ... I guess they called while I was asleep and said they were heading over ... and I was so happy to see them ...
We all visited for a while and then headed down to the NICU ... my dad and I went in first ... then he tagged out and my mom came in ... today my mom got to hold Lincoln for the first time ... and she was so happy to do so ... it was a nice visit with him and then we all headed back upstairs ...
David got here soon after we got back to the room and Skye was happy to see him ... I hate it that she still hasn't met her brother or seen him ... she just doesn't really know what is going on ... after my parents and Skye headed out David went and got dinner and had it in my room with me while I was having dinner ... then we went down for a quick visit with Lincoln and are getting ready to head down now to feed him his 9:30 bottle ... I sure hope his glucose test is good before this feeding and they can reduce his intake ... it hasn't been reduced all day today which just prolongs his stay ... I really believe I am going to leave before him and I well up with tears every time I think about it ... I want us all to go home together ... but whatever happens ... happens ...
I did get to take a shower this morning which was very nice and very needed ... and I got to see my doctor this morning ... which it was so good to see him ... I just love him so much ... he of course mentioned, "He wasn't 11 pounds" which was my guess ... and I said yes but I was only an ounce off and closer than his guess ... he is being very cool ... he said he was going to come and visit me again tomorrow before we decide when I am going home ... kind of hoping Lincoln gets to go at the same time as me ...
Then the doctor who delivered Lincoln came by to see me ... she said my incision looks great and that I can probably go home tomorrow but they aren't putting in the order for it yet so they can see how I am tomorrow ... she mentioned how much better I looked now than when she saw me Sunday morning ... and commented on how funny and happy I was after I got my spinal ...
After seeing the doctors I headed down alone to NICU ... where I got to snuggle Lincoln for a while ... I wanted to stay and feed him but he is just so heavy sitting on my stomach that after about 40 I needed to go back upstairs ... I just didn't think I would be able to do it alone ... it is much easier when David is with me and we can pass him back and forth and help each other ...
While I was down there another mother was wheeled in to see her baby ... the woman wheeling her looked at me and said, "ohhhh hello there." with a big smile on her face ... then she started to giggle ... I said hello and she said, "You probably don't remember me ... I was in the operating room with you Sunday, I was one of the nurses." ... I said, "Oh so are you giggling because of how I acted after I got the spinal?" and she said, "Yes, we all thought you were so cute and so happy after that." ...
I headed back up to my room and ate my lunch and took some pain medication and a nap ... today the pain has just been especially hard and without a nap yesterday I was hurting ... as I was waking up I saw the cutest little kid run into my room ... I was so happy to be awoken by Schuyler yelling, "Mommy oh mommy I missed you." ... I guess they called while I was asleep and said they were heading over ... and I was so happy to see them ...
We all visited for a while and then headed down to the NICU ... my dad and I went in first ... then he tagged out and my mom came in ... today my mom got to hold Lincoln for the first time ... and she was so happy to do so ... it was a nice visit with him and then we all headed back upstairs ...
David got here soon after we got back to the room and Skye was happy to see him ... I hate it that she still hasn't met her brother or seen him ... she just doesn't really know what is going on ... after my parents and Skye headed out David went and got dinner and had it in my room with me while I was having dinner ... then we went down for a quick visit with Lincoln and are getting ready to head down now to feed him his 9:30 bottle ... I sure hope his glucose test is good before this feeding and they can reduce his intake ... it hasn't been reduced all day today which just prolongs his stay ... I really believe I am going to leave before him and I well up with tears every time I think about it ... I want us all to go home together ... but whatever happens ... happens ...
Monday, March 30, 2009
Seeing Schuyler
Today I finally got to see Schuyler ... and boy did I miss her ... she has been to the hospital with my parents before but I was still back in Labor & Delivery and kids aren't allowed back there ... so she got to see David but not me ...
Tonight everyone got here around 4:30 and we all hung out ... Skye seemed pretty happy to see me too ... so it was nice getting a couple of hours with her ... she and my dad and I all hung out in the room while David and my mom went down to the NICU for a while ...
She still hasn't met her brother so I don't think she quite gets it yet ... she is just getting presents and staying at Grandmommy and Granddaddy's house ... although she kept begging to come home last night ... made me a bit sad that we weren't all heading home ...
After my parents and Skye left David and I went down to the NICU and I got to feed Lincoln for the first time ... he did pretty good too ... David and I took turns giving him his bottle and burping him ... unfortunately his sugar still isn't that great so they haven't been able to reduce the glucose in his feeding tube too much ... but we got to hang out with him and that was great ...
David and I came back up to the room for a while and talked ... he has been working so hard all by himself on getting the house set up and cleaned up for our arrival home ... I wish I could be there to help him ... I miss him and Schuyler and now Lincoln so much when I am in my hospital room alone at night ... David and I are IMing now and probably will till it is time to fall asleep ... I can't wait till we are all home together ...
Tonight everyone got here around 4:30 and we all hung out ... Skye seemed pretty happy to see me too ... so it was nice getting a couple of hours with her ... she and my dad and I all hung out in the room while David and my mom went down to the NICU for a while ...
She still hasn't met her brother so I don't think she quite gets it yet ... she is just getting presents and staying at Grandmommy and Granddaddy's house ... although she kept begging to come home last night ... made me a bit sad that we weren't all heading home ...
After my parents and Skye left David and I went down to the NICU and I got to feed Lincoln for the first time ... he did pretty good too ... David and I took turns giving him his bottle and burping him ... unfortunately his sugar still isn't that great so they haven't been able to reduce the glucose in his feeding tube too much ... but we got to hang out with him and that was great ...
David and I came back up to the room for a while and talked ... he has been working so hard all by himself on getting the house set up and cleaned up for our arrival home ... I wish I could be there to help him ... I miss him and Schuyler and now Lincoln so much when I am in my hospital room alone at night ... David and I are IMing now and probably will till it is time to fall asleep ... I can't wait till we are all home together ...
Holding Lincoln
This morning after finally getting to eat some breakfast I had transport take me down to the NICU ... I was finally going to get to spend some time with my son ... up until this morning I had kissed him before going to NICU and touched his leg on the way to my room ...
David had told me that they wouldn't take him out of the incubator but I just wanted to sit down there with him and hang out ... and to my surprise she asked if I wanted to hold him ... I was so excited ... he is so sweet and soft and opened his eyes ... and cooed when I kissed him ... it was awesome ...
The nurse was a bit uptight ... none of us like her ... so the fact that I got to hold him was awesome ... I spent about 2 hours down there just cuddling and kissing him ... and he really seemed so so so happy being in my arms ... I just wish he could be in my room with me like the other moms ...
OK I gotta pack up my stuff again ... they are moving me up to maternity ... since I am no longer on the magnesium ... this should be my last move before I get to go home ...
David had told me that they wouldn't take him out of the incubator but I just wanted to sit down there with him and hang out ... and to my surprise she asked if I wanted to hold him ... I was so excited ... he is so sweet and soft and opened his eyes ... and cooed when I kissed him ... it was awesome ...
The nurse was a bit uptight ... none of us like her ... so the fact that I got to hold him was awesome ... I spent about 2 hours down there just cuddling and kissing him ... and he really seemed so so so happy being in my arms ... I just wish he could be in my room with me like the other moms ...
OK I gotta pack up my stuff again ... they are moving me up to maternity ... since I am no longer on the magnesium ... this should be my last move before I get to go home ...
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Off To My New Room
So I had to go on magnesium ... during labor my blood pressure got really high ... as soon as they gave me the spinal it went down to normal ... but to be careful I had to have the magnesium again ...
So a little while ago (around 1 AM) they moved me out of L&D and over to the high risk side ... right across from the NICU ... and my nurses were so nice that on the way here they wheeled my bed into the NICU so I could see Lincoln for a little bit ... I was so thankful ... he is just precious and I hate that he is in there like his sister was as well ... but at least I got to see him :)
So a little while ago (around 1 AM) they moved me out of L&D and over to the high risk side ... right across from the NICU ... and my nurses were so nice that on the way here they wheeled my bed into the NICU so I could see Lincoln for a little bit ... I was so thankful ... he is just precious and I hate that he is in there like his sister was as well ... but at least I got to see him :)
Lincoln Has Arrived
On Saturday night ... well Sunday morning I got in bed around 12:24 AM ... not even around ... it was exactly 12:24 AM when I took a sip of water and laid down ... I noticed the time because I thought to myself, "Well I'll have to get in bed earlier tomorrow night because I can't have anything after midnight the night before my C-section" ...
Around 2:45 AM I awoke and was about to get up to pee when I just started gushing ... I hopped out of bed so fast but I was too late ... the bed was drenched ... there was a puddle on the floor and a trail to the bathroom ... I sat there thinking, "Really ... you are scheduled for Monday and you are coming today?" ...
David was still up ... I went to the top of the stairs and said, "Hey honey ... my water broke" ... I called the service and the doctor called me back in a few minutes ... I told her my water broke and she told me to head to the hospital ... I asked if I could take a shower first and she told me to hurry ...
See in my mind I kinda thought she was going to tell me I could still come Monday ... with Schuyler I know I was induced but my water broke on its own on Friday afternoon and I didn't have her for 24 more hours ... I mean after my water broke it was still like 12ish hours before they moved me to Labor & Delivery and another 12ish hours before I was dilated enough to start pushing ...
So I took a shower ... realized I had never finished getting my stuff together because that was what I was going to do on Sunday ... still hadn't gotten anything together for Schuyler ... called my parents and told them we were on our way ... woke up a terribly cranky 2.5 year old and herded her to the car and we were on our way ...
By the time we got to the car I was already soaked and realized I needed to start timing my contractions ... they were getting much stronger than I had realized ... as we pulled out of the driveway they were 4 minutes apart and strong ... as we were leaving my parents house they were 3 minutes apart ... and as we were pulling into the hospital they were at 2.5 minutes ... and getting stronger each time ...
David dropped me at the door and went to park the car ... the security guard was a bit freaked out and when I looked down I realized why ... my pants were completely drenched and a puddle was forming ... he told me to go on up and would send my husband up after me ... it was 3:30 in the morning so he knew the next guy through would be my husband ...
I headed up to the 3rd floor to check in ... and the contractions were getting much stronger ... and I was starting having trouble talking ... thank goodness my doctors office had basically registered me cause there wasn't much I had to do ... but sit on the wheelchair and go to L&D ...
I couldn't believe how much water there was ... it was just crazy ... but I got in a hospital gown and found a way to get into the bed ... the contractions were coming around a minute a part ... and I was really in pain ... then my stomach started pushing on its own ...
The doc still wasn't there ... the nurse checked me and I was 5 cm dilated ... I couldn't believe it ... that happened in an hour and a half ... it took me 1/2 the day last time to go that far ...
The nurse said ... "You know you have dilated pretty quick and your contractions are showing pretty strong ... are you sure you don't want to have this baby by pushing?" ... I actually squeaked out a giggle and said, "Hell no ... my daughter was 8.8 pounds ... I pushed for 5 hours ... got no where and they would have had to break her shoulder to get her out ... this kid is even bigger."
At this point I was in terrible pain ... worse than my contractions with pictocin ... and I thought those were supposed to be so bad ... they started to feel like they were one on top of the other and I kept asking where my epidural was ... they were waiting for the doctor to get there ... then my stomach started pushing on its own more often ... it was weird ... I couldn't stop it during the contractions ... the nurse checked me again and now I was at 6cm ... it had only been a little while and she asked again if I wanted to have him vaginally ... again my answer was hell no ...
Finally the doctor arrived ... unfortunately it again wasn't my doctor that I love so much but it was the same doctor who delivered Skye ... when she walked in she said, "Well you didn't sound like this on the phone ... sure is progressing fast huh?" ... She checked me and said, "Alright get the anesthesiologist we need to go soon ... she is between 6 and 7" ...
When the anesthesiologist arrived they started wheeling me to the operating room ... I will admit I was having a terribly hard time with the contractions ... I felt like there wasn't a break between them ... and they were so strong my stomach was pushing hard but the doc kept saying he was up high still so not to worry ...
We got into the operating room and they got me sitting up on the operating table ... they were giving me a spinal and had me stick my back out ... and then held me in a sort of head lock to keep me still ... as they were cleaning my back I had a contraction and thought, "Thank goodness that will be the last one before the medicine kicks in" ... yea no not the case ... they stuck the first needle in as another contraction hit and I had to be still ... had to stay in the headlock ... and nothing to squeeze or preferable push on ... it was rough ... so I thought, "well at least that is it before the sweet medicine kicks in." (I was still thinking I was getting an epi not a spinal) ... ah ha wrong again ... the next needle corresponded with a violent contraction where my stomach was pushing and it was all I could do to stay still ... while I was still having the contraction they were rushing me to lay down ... and kinda freaking out about it in my opinion ... getting me to move and adjust and I just couldn't understand what the rush was all about ...
Until I realized I felt nothing from the rib cage down ... not a single thing ... well some pushing on my tummy but they got me into position just in time ... the sheet was up in no time and David was in sitting beside me ...
Now that I was drugged up I kept saying, "You guys are all so wonderful. Thank you so much. I am so happy now." ... When I saw the anesthesiologist I said, "Everyone must be in love with you." ... they were all laughing at me ... but I meant every word of it ... I was a happy mommy at that moment ...
I had NO idea they had even started until we heard the entire operating room go, "woooooooooo" ... I looked at David and asked him what was wrong ... he said he didn't know and then the doctor said, "That is a big baby." ... The nurse who kept asking me if I wanted to push him out came to the other side of the curtain and said, "Yea there was no way you were pushing him out ... he weighs 10 pounds 15.4 ounces ... that is a big baby." ...
He started crying right away and they cleaned him up and handed him off to David ... I was smart this time and wore my glasses into the operating room so I could see him ... and he looked so happy being held by his daddy ...
This time we got to go right back to the L&D room ... (with Skye I was in recovery for like 6 hours or something) ... we got all situated and David hung out with Lincoln ... waiting for the nurse to come in and take care of Lincoln ...
I was of course still feeling no pain ... and couldn't even move my legs if I wanted to ... but since I wasn't able to sit up well I wasn't able to hold him yet ... but I did get to give him a kiss ...
The nurse informed us that he had to go to NICU ... his blood sugar was very low ... he had a bit of a heart murmur that they felt would correct itself ... and that he tended to breath like he didn't realize it would happen involuntarily ... so David went down and saw Lincoln when he got all situated in the NICU ... then it was time for us to nap ... David hadn't slept in over a day ... and we were just wiped out ...
All in all it was a quick process ... but a lot more pain and hard work that I had thought would happen ... glad to know my boy already knows how to do the things he wants to do when he wants to do them ... and so happy he is here to help complete our family ...
Around 2:45 AM I awoke and was about to get up to pee when I just started gushing ... I hopped out of bed so fast but I was too late ... the bed was drenched ... there was a puddle on the floor and a trail to the bathroom ... I sat there thinking, "Really ... you are scheduled for Monday and you are coming today?" ...
David was still up ... I went to the top of the stairs and said, "Hey honey ... my water broke" ... I called the service and the doctor called me back in a few minutes ... I told her my water broke and she told me to head to the hospital ... I asked if I could take a shower first and she told me to hurry ...
See in my mind I kinda thought she was going to tell me I could still come Monday ... with Schuyler I know I was induced but my water broke on its own on Friday afternoon and I didn't have her for 24 more hours ... I mean after my water broke it was still like 12ish hours before they moved me to Labor & Delivery and another 12ish hours before I was dilated enough to start pushing ...
So I took a shower ... realized I had never finished getting my stuff together because that was what I was going to do on Sunday ... still hadn't gotten anything together for Schuyler ... called my parents and told them we were on our way ... woke up a terribly cranky 2.5 year old and herded her to the car and we were on our way ...
By the time we got to the car I was already soaked and realized I needed to start timing my contractions ... they were getting much stronger than I had realized ... as we pulled out of the driveway they were 4 minutes apart and strong ... as we were leaving my parents house they were 3 minutes apart ... and as we were pulling into the hospital they were at 2.5 minutes ... and getting stronger each time ...
David dropped me at the door and went to park the car ... the security guard was a bit freaked out and when I looked down I realized why ... my pants were completely drenched and a puddle was forming ... he told me to go on up and would send my husband up after me ... it was 3:30 in the morning so he knew the next guy through would be my husband ...
I headed up to the 3rd floor to check in ... and the contractions were getting much stronger ... and I was starting having trouble talking ... thank goodness my doctors office had basically registered me cause there wasn't much I had to do ... but sit on the wheelchair and go to L&D ...
I couldn't believe how much water there was ... it was just crazy ... but I got in a hospital gown and found a way to get into the bed ... the contractions were coming around a minute a part ... and I was really in pain ... then my stomach started pushing on its own ...
The doc still wasn't there ... the nurse checked me and I was 5 cm dilated ... I couldn't believe it ... that happened in an hour and a half ... it took me 1/2 the day last time to go that far ...
The nurse said ... "You know you have dilated pretty quick and your contractions are showing pretty strong ... are you sure you don't want to have this baby by pushing?" ... I actually squeaked out a giggle and said, "Hell no ... my daughter was 8.8 pounds ... I pushed for 5 hours ... got no where and they would have had to break her shoulder to get her out ... this kid is even bigger."
At this point I was in terrible pain ... worse than my contractions with pictocin ... and I thought those were supposed to be so bad ... they started to feel like they were one on top of the other and I kept asking where my epidural was ... they were waiting for the doctor to get there ... then my stomach started pushing on its own more often ... it was weird ... I couldn't stop it during the contractions ... the nurse checked me again and now I was at 6cm ... it had only been a little while and she asked again if I wanted to have him vaginally ... again my answer was hell no ...
Finally the doctor arrived ... unfortunately it again wasn't my doctor that I love so much but it was the same doctor who delivered Skye ... when she walked in she said, "Well you didn't sound like this on the phone ... sure is progressing fast huh?" ... She checked me and said, "Alright get the anesthesiologist we need to go soon ... she is between 6 and 7" ...
When the anesthesiologist arrived they started wheeling me to the operating room ... I will admit I was having a terribly hard time with the contractions ... I felt like there wasn't a break between them ... and they were so strong my stomach was pushing hard but the doc kept saying he was up high still so not to worry ...
We got into the operating room and they got me sitting up on the operating table ... they were giving me a spinal and had me stick my back out ... and then held me in a sort of head lock to keep me still ... as they were cleaning my back I had a contraction and thought, "Thank goodness that will be the last one before the medicine kicks in" ... yea no not the case ... they stuck the first needle in as another contraction hit and I had to be still ... had to stay in the headlock ... and nothing to squeeze or preferable push on ... it was rough ... so I thought, "well at least that is it before the sweet medicine kicks in." (I was still thinking I was getting an epi not a spinal) ... ah ha wrong again ... the next needle corresponded with a violent contraction where my stomach was pushing and it was all I could do to stay still ... while I was still having the contraction they were rushing me to lay down ... and kinda freaking out about it in my opinion ... getting me to move and adjust and I just couldn't understand what the rush was all about ...
Until I realized I felt nothing from the rib cage down ... not a single thing ... well some pushing on my tummy but they got me into position just in time ... the sheet was up in no time and David was in sitting beside me ...
Now that I was drugged up I kept saying, "You guys are all so wonderful. Thank you so much. I am so happy now." ... When I saw the anesthesiologist I said, "Everyone must be in love with you." ... they were all laughing at me ... but I meant every word of it ... I was a happy mommy at that moment ...
I had NO idea they had even started until we heard the entire operating room go, "woooooooooo" ... I looked at David and asked him what was wrong ... he said he didn't know and then the doctor said, "That is a big baby." ... The nurse who kept asking me if I wanted to push him out came to the other side of the curtain and said, "Yea there was no way you were pushing him out ... he weighs 10 pounds 15.4 ounces ... that is a big baby." ...
He started crying right away and they cleaned him up and handed him off to David ... I was smart this time and wore my glasses into the operating room so I could see him ... and he looked so happy being held by his daddy ...
This time we got to go right back to the L&D room ... (with Skye I was in recovery for like 6 hours or something) ... we got all situated and David hung out with Lincoln ... waiting for the nurse to come in and take care of Lincoln ...
I was of course still feeling no pain ... and couldn't even move my legs if I wanted to ... but since I wasn't able to sit up well I wasn't able to hold him yet ... but I did get to give him a kiss ...
The nurse informed us that he had to go to NICU ... his blood sugar was very low ... he had a bit of a heart murmur that they felt would correct itself ... and that he tended to breath like he didn't realize it would happen involuntarily ... so David went down and saw Lincoln when he got all situated in the NICU ... then it was time for us to nap ... David hadn't slept in over a day ... and we were just wiped out ...
All in all it was a quick process ... but a lot more pain and hard work that I had thought would happen ... glad to know my boy already knows how to do the things he wants to do when he wants to do them ... and so happy he is here to help complete our family ...
Friday, March 27, 2009
Are There Two In There
Asking me if I am carrying twins ... and even triplets lately ... is the most popular question I get ... and if only people knew how much it ripped through me each time ...
Half the time I want to say, "It was twins yes ... but I lost one of them ... thanks so much for bringing it up and opening up that wound again." ... but they don't know ... they are just amazed at the size of my belly ... it is a natural question ...
Today I had to stop at the hospital on the way to work for my pre-op blood tests ... 4 people asked me if I was carrying twins and one asked me if it was triplets ... it just makes me so sad to have to say no each time ... because it is something that is still on my mind all the time ... I am still very conflicted about the fact that we are not having twins ... and I have had long enough to get used to the idea but it is still so hard ...
I know I look like I am ready to go at any minute ... everyone gives me that look like should I be out on my own ... when I walked into the reception at the hospital they gave me a maternity badge and called for a wheelchair ... then she asked if I had any stuff with me ... I laughed and said, "I am just here for my pre-op blood tests - I am only 37 weeks pregnant and not in labor." ... The woman was cute and apologized ... then said, "must be twins." ...
After asking if it is twins everyone wants to take a guess at the size ... today I got 2 nurses guessing 13 pounds ... one guessed 12 and one said 11.8 to 12 ... I told them all my doctor thinks 10.4 ...
Once I have Lincoln then people won't ask the twins question and maybe I can put it behind me and think about it less and less each day ...
Half the time I want to say, "It was twins yes ... but I lost one of them ... thanks so much for bringing it up and opening up that wound again." ... but they don't know ... they are just amazed at the size of my belly ... it is a natural question ...
Today I had to stop at the hospital on the way to work for my pre-op blood tests ... 4 people asked me if I was carrying twins and one asked me if it was triplets ... it just makes me so sad to have to say no each time ... because it is something that is still on my mind all the time ... I am still very conflicted about the fact that we are not having twins ... and I have had long enough to get used to the idea but it is still so hard ...
I know I look like I am ready to go at any minute ... everyone gives me that look like should I be out on my own ... when I walked into the reception at the hospital they gave me a maternity badge and called for a wheelchair ... then she asked if I had any stuff with me ... I laughed and said, "I am just here for my pre-op blood tests - I am only 37 weeks pregnant and not in labor." ... The woman was cute and apologized ... then said, "must be twins." ...
After asking if it is twins everyone wants to take a guess at the size ... today I got 2 nurses guessing 13 pounds ... one guessed 12 and one said 11.8 to 12 ... I told them all my doctor thinks 10.4 ...
Once I have Lincoln then people won't ask the twins question and maybe I can put it behind me and think about it less and less each day ...
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
37 Weeks
Well it is official today ... I made it one week longer than I did with Skye ... pretty happy about that ...
But boy am I hurting ... it is hard to get up because the pressure is so hard core ... and I have to steady myself before walking ... so I sit for longer periods than I probably should because the whole walking is so hard ...
I have started having some contractions ... in the last day or so ... could be the last couple of days ... I thought it was the baby moving but then when I really sat and concentrated on them last night I figured out the difference between the baby actually moving and the contractions ... there is no regularity to them and it is quite some time between each one but they are there ... obviously he is just as uncomfortable as I am ...
I've gotten so big that I am wondering if I was someone who was going to go to my due date if they would change that assessment ... people look at me now with a pained look on their face ...
I have my last doctors appointment on Thursday and then baby day is on Monday ... I just called the hospital to get the paperwork to preregister and it turns out my doctors office already did it for me ... she said I am already in the system all ready to go ... just need to show up ... so I got to cross something off my to do list without having to do anything ... if only the rest of the list would go that quickly ...
I can't believe the day is almost here ... less than a week ... tonight I will be packing my bag just in case these contractions become something serious ...
But boy am I hurting ... it is hard to get up because the pressure is so hard core ... and I have to steady myself before walking ... so I sit for longer periods than I probably should because the whole walking is so hard ...
I have started having some contractions ... in the last day or so ... could be the last couple of days ... I thought it was the baby moving but then when I really sat and concentrated on them last night I figured out the difference between the baby actually moving and the contractions ... there is no regularity to them and it is quite some time between each one but they are there ... obviously he is just as uncomfortable as I am ...
I've gotten so big that I am wondering if I was someone who was going to go to my due date if they would change that assessment ... people look at me now with a pained look on their face ...
I have my last doctors appointment on Thursday and then baby day is on Monday ... I just called the hospital to get the paperwork to preregister and it turns out my doctors office already did it for me ... she said I am already in the system all ready to go ... just need to show up ... so I got to cross something off my to do list without having to do anything ... if only the rest of the list would go that quickly ...
I can't believe the day is almost here ... less than a week ... tonight I will be packing my bag just in case these contractions become something serious ...
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
36 Weeks
I had my last sono this morning ... they didn't do any measurements just said, "wow he really is big" ... but they did all the stuff to make sure he moved and breathed - he had the hiccups which counted - it just took a lot longer than normal because I was late for my appointment and then the office was packed so it was about 3 hours from the last time I ate to the time of the test ... so he was still and quiet ... they had to buzz my stomach to get him moving ... which I remarked, "If he is anything like his sister and dad that just pissed him off." ...
I am huge ... it takes me a lot longer to do anything ... even if I start earlier I am still late ... and we still don't have a thing ready for his arrival but we are working on it ... maybe in the next week ... I guess we only have 2 weeks left so it will have to be sometime soon ...
The tech did get me a sono photo ... the only thing she could get was his foot and even that she said was so big she couldn't get the whole thing in ...
I am huge ... it takes me a lot longer to do anything ... even if I start earlier I am still late ... and we still don't have a thing ready for his arrival but we are working on it ... maybe in the next week ... I guess we only have 2 weeks left so it will have to be sometime soon ...
The tech did get me a sono photo ... the only thing she could get was his foot and even that she said was so big she couldn't get the whole thing in ...
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
35 Weeks
I had a sonogram today ... unfortunately no pictures ... he was just too big ... the doctor kept saying, "oh my goodness" ...
Turns out he couldn't get a full measurement of his abdomen ... but what he got he said this big guy is a little over 9 pounds right now ... he is already bigger than Skye was at 36 weeks when she was born ...
I checked to make sure it looked like I would go till March 31st since my parents are leaving on Friday for a trip and they really want to be here when he was born and he said it looked good ... but they are having me come back next Tuesday to make sure everything is alright ... and I see my OB every Thursday so two appointments a week for the next 3 weeks I should be pretty well covered ...
Weird thing that I don't remember with Skye ... I have sooooooo much trouble walking until I go to the bathroom then I am fine ... I think he is kicking my bladder and laughing about it ... I told a friend tonight I was really looking forward to not getting up 4 times a night ...
So even though our house is totally not ready I have to start doing something to get ready for this kid ... it is going to happen in 3 weeks from today and we are not even close to ready ... granted I can spent my maternity leave hanging out with my kids and getting this house back in order ... but I think I at least need to go through all the clothes I have and have some ready for him ...
I am feeling a bit better than I was last week ... not sure why that is but I'll take it ...
Turns out he couldn't get a full measurement of his abdomen ... but what he got he said this big guy is a little over 9 pounds right now ... he is already bigger than Skye was at 36 weeks when she was born ...
I checked to make sure it looked like I would go till March 31st since my parents are leaving on Friday for a trip and they really want to be here when he was born and he said it looked good ... but they are having me come back next Tuesday to make sure everything is alright ... and I see my OB every Thursday so two appointments a week for the next 3 weeks I should be pretty well covered ...
Weird thing that I don't remember with Skye ... I have sooooooo much trouble walking until I go to the bathroom then I am fine ... I think he is kicking my bladder and laughing about it ... I told a friend tonight I was really looking forward to not getting up 4 times a night ...
So even though our house is totally not ready I have to start doing something to get ready for this kid ... it is going to happen in 3 weeks from today and we are not even close to ready ... granted I can spent my maternity leave hanging out with my kids and getting this house back in order ... but I think I at least need to go through all the clothes I have and have some ready for him ...
I am feeling a bit better than I was last week ... not sure why that is but I'll take it ...
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Nervous Appointment
Today I went in for my 34 week appointment ... I was very nervous to go because this is the appointment last time that I was told to go check myself into the hospital where I spent 4 days to be sent home on bed rest and had my little one 2 weeks later at 36 weeks ...
So I went in very nervous ... so nervous that my blood pressure was up ... which is what set everything in motion last time ... the nurse said, "be prepared he may put you on bed rest" ... my heart just sank ... I am just not in a place right now to go on bed rest ...
My doctor was cool ... he said it wasn't up that much and it could easily be how nervous I was ... he told me I just had to rest as much as I can and if someone else can take care of something that I would normally do ... let them do it ...
So once again I am going to try and do that ... try really hard ...
So I went in very nervous ... so nervous that my blood pressure was up ... which is what set everything in motion last time ... the nurse said, "be prepared he may put you on bed rest" ... my heart just sank ... I am just not in a place right now to go on bed rest ...
My doctor was cool ... he said it wasn't up that much and it could easily be how nervous I was ... he told me I just had to rest as much as I can and if someone else can take care of something that I would normally do ... let them do it ...
So once again I am going to try and do that ... try really hard ...
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
34 Weeks
Wow 4 weeks left and I am not closer to being ready than I was the day I found out I got pregnant ...
On a TMI note - I started loosing my plug this week ... let me just say ick ... but I guess that means this is really gonna happen ... hahahaaaa
My right leg keeps giving out on me ... not a lot but enough for me to be careful ... it only happens when I twist or step wrong ... and I get killer charlie horses most nights ... those just kick my ass ... and the lower back pain is a bit much at times ...
But then there are moments like last night when I realize I am walking better than usual ... so it is all just a hit and miss with how I feel ...
Not much longer now ... Skye and I checked out a bunch of books this weekend about being a big sister ... she has started pretending to hold a baby and tells me she is holding a baby ... it is quite sweet ... most days I think she is really going to take to being a big sister ... sometimes I am not sure how well she is going to do once he can touch her stuff ...
On a TMI note - I started loosing my plug this week ... let me just say ick ... but I guess that means this is really gonna happen ... hahahaaaa
My right leg keeps giving out on me ... not a lot but enough for me to be careful ... it only happens when I twist or step wrong ... and I get killer charlie horses most nights ... those just kick my ass ... and the lower back pain is a bit much at times ...
But then there are moments like last night when I realize I am walking better than usual ... so it is all just a hit and miss with how I feel ...
Not much longer now ... Skye and I checked out a bunch of books this weekend about being a big sister ... she has started pretending to hold a baby and tells me she is holding a baby ... it is quite sweet ... most days I think she is really going to take to being a big sister ... sometimes I am not sure how well she is going to do once he can touch her stuff ...
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Belly Picture
I just haven't been good at all with the belly shots this pregnancy ... actually wasn't too good the last one either ... I think there is one other photo from Thanksgiving where you can see my belly ...
So since David shot such a cute one tonight I figured it is appropriate to post it here ... especially since today I am 33 weeks ... maybe I'll keep taking them till the end ... maybe ...
So since David shot such a cute one tonight I figured it is appropriate to post it here ... especially since today I am 33 weeks ... maybe I'll keep taking them till the end ... maybe ...
33 Weeks
Well we picked March 31st to have my C-section ... 5 weeks from today ... I am sure when the time comes it will seem like it went so fast ... right now it still feels kind of a long way off ...
I totally don't want to be pregnant anymore ... I think I blocked this part of the pregnancy out of my mind from last time ... the kicking is hurting me ... I can't turn over in bed without actually getting up and getting back into bed facing a new way ... the steering wheel rubs really hard on my belly but I can't move the seat back anymore if I want to touch the peddles ...
Basically I'm freakin huge and ready to not be anymore ...
In two more weeks I have another sono ... you know I have noticed the sono pictures I get this time just aren't as good as last time ... I wonder why that is ...
The big plus is I am enjoying the eating cause I want to totally cut it all out afterwards ... and at my last appointment I hadn't gained anything in 3 weeks which I thought was amazing ... so wooohoooo on that ...
I do wonder when this guy is going to be too big to keep kicking me ...
I totally don't want to be pregnant anymore ... I think I blocked this part of the pregnancy out of my mind from last time ... the kicking is hurting me ... I can't turn over in bed without actually getting up and getting back into bed facing a new way ... the steering wheel rubs really hard on my belly but I can't move the seat back anymore if I want to touch the peddles ...
Basically I'm freakin huge and ready to not be anymore ...
In two more weeks I have another sono ... you know I have noticed the sono pictures I get this time just aren't as good as last time ... I wonder why that is ...
The big plus is I am enjoying the eating cause I want to totally cut it all out afterwards ... and at my last appointment I hadn't gained anything in 3 weeks which I thought was amazing ... so wooohoooo on that ...
I do wonder when this guy is going to be too big to keep kicking me ...
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
32 Weeks
I think I have started walking like a penguin ... and I am not kidding ...
I've been getting up every 2 hours to use the bathroom during the night but I don't go that much during the day so it kinda pisses me off ... but ya know it is hard to sleep anyway so whatcha gonna do ...
There were a couple of days this past week where my feet got swollen ... but I checked my blood pressure twice ... the first day it was still 110/60 ... and on the second day it was 124/74 ... so still good ... and my feet have stopped swelling up ...
Even though we aren't even the slightest bit ready to have this baby ... I mean even Skye doesn't have a bedroom right now ... I am ready to not be pregnant anymore ... I keep looking forward to that moment when I feel good after the C-section ...
Speaking of C-section on Thursday at my doctors appointment we are supposed to be picking the date to have the baby ... that is kind of exciting ... and my wish is that I go to whatever that date is ... :)
The next two weeks is important to me ... because it is these two weeks last time that I started getting worse and worse off and was put in the hospital at 34 weeks ... so I am trying really hard to be really good ... I don't always succeed but I do try ...
I've been getting up every 2 hours to use the bathroom during the night but I don't go that much during the day so it kinda pisses me off ... but ya know it is hard to sleep anyway so whatcha gonna do ...
There were a couple of days this past week where my feet got swollen ... but I checked my blood pressure twice ... the first day it was still 110/60 ... and on the second day it was 124/74 ... so still good ... and my feet have stopped swelling up ...
Even though we aren't even the slightest bit ready to have this baby ... I mean even Skye doesn't have a bedroom right now ... I am ready to not be pregnant anymore ... I keep looking forward to that moment when I feel good after the C-section ...
Speaking of C-section on Thursday at my doctors appointment we are supposed to be picking the date to have the baby ... that is kind of exciting ... and my wish is that I go to whatever that date is ... :)
The next two weeks is important to me ... because it is these two weeks last time that I started getting worse and worse off and was put in the hospital at 34 weeks ... so I am trying really hard to be really good ... I don't always succeed but I do try ...
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
31 Weeks
I had a sono this morning ... and there is a big baby in me ... who would have guessed that ... he is measuring 5.7 pounds which is about right for 36 weeks ... the doc was joking around and said if I wasn't already planning on a c-section he would suggest it now ...
Everything looked great he said ... he gave me a face and heart photo ...
He asked yet if we had picked the day and I told him that next Thursday my doctor said we would do that ... he told me that I could maybe even go to 39 weeks since things were progressing along well ... we'll see ... cause at this point I am pretty close to ready ... the house might not be but I am ...
I don't sleep that well anymore ... and I am not 100% sure it is because Skye joined the ranks in our room since her room is destroyed with stuff from the remodel ... I think a lot of it is just being so big and uncomfortable and the pain of getting up in the middle of the night to pee so many times ... and I am just hot all the time ... ack!!!!!
So I've got the ligament pains going on in my sides when I turn over in bed wrong or stand up to fast or sometimes I just have to move and they are there ... I'm walking slower too ... and that leaned back pregnant walk ... although I am not holding my back yet and I rarely rest my hands/arms on my belly ... but I am sure all that will be coming in time ...
Skye talks to my stomach a lot now ... and more often when she is rattling off the members of her family she includes her new brother ... lets just hope once he arrives she stays this excited ... :)
Everything looked great he said ... he gave me a face and heart photo ...
He asked yet if we had picked the day and I told him that next Thursday my doctor said we would do that ... he told me that I could maybe even go to 39 weeks since things were progressing along well ... we'll see ... cause at this point I am pretty close to ready ... the house might not be but I am ...
I don't sleep that well anymore ... and I am not 100% sure it is because Skye joined the ranks in our room since her room is destroyed with stuff from the remodel ... I think a lot of it is just being so big and uncomfortable and the pain of getting up in the middle of the night to pee so many times ... and I am just hot all the time ... ack!!!!!
So I've got the ligament pains going on in my sides when I turn over in bed wrong or stand up to fast or sometimes I just have to move and they are there ... I'm walking slower too ... and that leaned back pregnant walk ... although I am not holding my back yet and I rarely rest my hands/arms on my belly ... but I am sure all that will be coming in time ...
Skye talks to my stomach a lot now ... and more often when she is rattling off the members of her family she includes her new brother ... lets just hope once he arrives she stays this excited ... :)
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Tuesday, February 3, 2009
30 Weeks
So with fingers crossed I have only 8 weeks to go ... this is the nervous time for me ... at 34 weeks with Skye is when I went into the hospital and then was on bed rest till 36 weeks when I had her ... but this time I think I've done better ... I hardly have swelled up at all ... if it does happen it is if I sit for a long time but then goes away right away ... I mean I have worn my regular shoes the whole time ... it is great ...
My shirts, I noticed today, are hardly covering my stomach ... the belly panel on my pants is very noticeable ... oh well I'm not trying to win some fashion show or anything ...
Skye is talking about Lincoln all the time now ... it is so cute ... she has no idea what she is in for ... she had trouble sharing her toys this past weekend with her cousin ... wait till someone is here all the time ... and touching her stuff ...
After our renovation is finished we will have to jump on doing the rooms ... Skye is getting a new room and she is going to get a queen size bed for a while ... the bed out of our guest room ... and Lincoln is going to use her crib (which will one day turn into a full size bed for her) ... we just need to figure out how to decorate her new room ... we are at a loss ... she isn't to the point of telling us what she wants ... everything sounds good to her ... whatever we do I am sure she will love her new room ...
My shirts, I noticed today, are hardly covering my stomach ... the belly panel on my pants is very noticeable ... oh well I'm not trying to win some fashion show or anything ...
Skye is talking about Lincoln all the time now ... it is so cute ... she has no idea what she is in for ... she had trouble sharing her toys this past weekend with her cousin ... wait till someone is here all the time ... and touching her stuff ...
After our renovation is finished we will have to jump on doing the rooms ... Skye is getting a new room and she is going to get a queen size bed for a while ... the bed out of our guest room ... and Lincoln is going to use her crib (which will one day turn into a full size bed for her) ... we just need to figure out how to decorate her new room ... we are at a loss ... she isn't to the point of telling us what she wants ... everything sounds good to her ... whatever we do I am sure she will love her new room ...
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
29 Weeks
Well I have hit the uncomfortable point ... so it takes 29 weeks for me to be kinda tired of being pregnant ...
I'm walking slower
There is a bit of a waddle going on
Rolling over during the night is now a process
My back hurts
I can't see my feet anymore
I knock into stuff with my belly (including my kid)
And last but not least ... I had to switch to my big maternity underwear cause I was SO tired of the others rolling down my stomach all the time ...
I see my regular doc next week ... and then it is every two weeks after that ... home stretch time ...
I have had a couple of days where my ankles have gotten swollen but still nothing like last time ... my shoes and jewelry still fit ...
Oh and you can physically see my shirt move when he is kicking ... sometimes it looks like he is actually in there jumping up and down ... but soon I know there won't be room left for him to jump around ... the lack of weird pressure will be nice ...
I'm walking slower
There is a bit of a waddle going on
Rolling over during the night is now a process
My back hurts
I can't see my feet anymore
I knock into stuff with my belly (including my kid)
And last but not least ... I had to switch to my big maternity underwear cause I was SO tired of the others rolling down my stomach all the time ...
I see my regular doc next week ... and then it is every two weeks after that ... home stretch time ...
I have had a couple of days where my ankles have gotten swollen but still nothing like last time ... my shoes and jewelry still fit ...
Oh and you can physically see my shirt move when he is kicking ... sometimes it looks like he is actually in there jumping up and down ... but soon I know there won't be room left for him to jump around ... the lack of weird pressure will be nice ...
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