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Joy Through The Pain

So today I have been in much more pain than I was yesterday ... I guess I thought I was going to have miracle abdominal surgery and be pain free but that isn't the case ...

I did get to take a shower this morning which was very nice and very needed ... and I got to see my doctor this morning ... which it was so good to see him ... I just love him so much ... he of course mentioned, "He wasn't 11 pounds" which was my guess ... and I said yes but I was only an ounce off and closer than his guess ... he is being very cool ... he said he was going to come and visit me again tomorrow before we decide when I am going home ... kind of hoping Lincoln gets to go at the same time as me ...

Then the doctor who delivered Lincoln came by to see me ... she said my incision looks great and that I can probably go home tomorrow but they aren't putting in the order for it yet so they can see how I am tomorrow ... she mentioned how much better I looked now than when she saw me Sunday morning ... and commented on how funny and happy I was after I got my spinal ...

After seeing the doctors I headed down alone to NICU ... where I got to snuggle Lincoln for a while ... I wanted to stay and feed him but he is just so heavy sitting on my stomach that after about 40 I needed to go back upstairs ... I just didn't think I would be able to do it alone ... it is much easier when David is with me and we can pass him back and forth and help each other ...

While I was down there another mother was wheeled in to see her baby ... the woman wheeling her looked at me and said, "ohhhh hello there." with a big smile on her face ... then she started to giggle ... I said hello and she said, "You probably don't remember me ... I was in the operating room with you Sunday, I was one of the nurses." ... I said, "Oh so are you giggling because of how I acted after I got the spinal?" and she said, "Yes, we all thought you were so cute and so happy after that." ...

I headed back up to my room and ate my lunch and took some pain medication and a nap ... today the pain has just been especially hard and without a nap yesterday I was hurting ... as I was waking up I saw the cutest little kid run into my room ... I was so happy to be awoken by Schuyler yelling, "Mommy oh mommy I missed you." ... I guess they called while I was asleep and said they were heading over ... and I was so happy to see them ...

We all visited for a while and then headed down to the NICU ... my dad and I went in first ... then he tagged out and my mom came in ... today my mom got to hold Lincoln for the first time ... and she was so happy to do so ... it was a nice visit with him and then we all headed back upstairs ...

David got here soon after we got back to the room and Skye was happy to see him ... I hate it that she still hasn't met her brother or seen him ... she just doesn't really know what is going on ... after my parents and Skye headed out David went and got dinner and had it in my room with me while I was having dinner ... then we went down for a quick visit with Lincoln and are getting ready to head down now to feed him his 9:30 bottle ... I sure hope his glucose test is good before this feeding and they can reduce his intake ... it hasn't been reduced all day today which just prolongs his stay ... I really believe I am going to leave before him and I well up with tears every time I think about it ... I want us all to go home together ... but whatever happens ... happens ...

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Seeing Schuyler

Today I finally got to see Schuyler ... and boy did I miss her ... she has been to the hospital with my parents before but I was still back in Labor & Delivery and kids aren't allowed back there ... so she got to see David but not me ...

Tonight everyone got here around 4:30 and we all hung out ... Skye seemed pretty happy to see me too ... so it was nice getting a couple of hours with her ... she and my dad and I all hung out in the room while David and my mom went down to the NICU for a while ...

She still hasn't met her brother so I don't think she quite gets it yet ... she is just getting presents and staying at Grandmommy and Granddaddy's house ... although she kept begging to come home last night ... made me a bit sad that we weren't all heading home ...

After my parents and Skye left David and I went down to the NICU and I got to feed Lincoln for the first time ... he did pretty good too ... David and I took turns giving him his bottle and burping him ... unfortunately his sugar still isn't that great so they haven't been able to reduce the glucose in his feeding tube too much ... but we got to hang out with him and that was great ...

David and I came back up to the room for a while and talked ... he has been working so hard all by himself on getting the house set up and cleaned up for our arrival home ... I wish I could be there to help him ... I miss him and Schuyler and now Lincoln so much when I am in my hospital room alone at night ... David and I are IMing now and probably will till it is time to fall asleep ... I can't wait till we are all home together ...

Holding Lincoln

This morning after finally getting to eat some breakfast I had transport take me down to the NICU ... I was finally going to get to spend some time with my son ... up until this morning I had kissed him before going to NICU and touched his leg on the way to my room ...

David had told me that they wouldn't take him out of the incubator but I just wanted to sit down there with him and hang out ... and to my surprise she asked if I wanted to hold him ... I was so excited ... he is so sweet and soft and opened his eyes ... and cooed when I kissed him ... it was awesome ...

The nurse was a bit uptight ... none of us like her ... so the fact that I got to hold him was awesome ... I spent about 2 hours down there just cuddling and kissing him ... and he really seemed so so so happy being in my arms ... I just wish he could be in my room with me like the other moms ...

OK I gotta pack up my stuff again ... they are moving me up to maternity ... since I am no longer on the magnesium ... this should be my last move before I get to go home ...

Off To My New Room

So I had to go on magnesium ... during labor my blood pressure got really high ... as soon as they gave me the spinal it went down to normal ... but to be careful I had to have the magnesium again ...

So a little while ago (around 1 AM) they moved me out of L&D and over to the high risk side ... right across from the NICU ... and my nurses were so nice that on the way here they wheeled my bed into the NICU so I could see Lincoln for a little bit ... I was so thankful ... he is just precious and I hate that he is in there like his sister was as well ... but at least I got to see him :)

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