Well I have been kind of lax

 

June 28, 1999

Well I have been kind of lax about writing in my journal ... not sure why cause I think of stuff I want to write about all the time ... I guess I am just so tired every night ... and so rushed every morning ... so lets see ... what all has happened Friday night at work we were busy as hell ... I was there an hour and a half longer than I should have been ... but I made pretty descent tips ... and I don't mind working at night too much ... it is the lunch shift I hate ... but Kris and I had talked about going out for a little while Friday night ... which I have been dying to do more of since I got here ... but I was tooooooooo tired by the time I got home to do any more than just sit ... I have met a really nice guy online that I have been talking to ... who is here in Vegas ... and what is really cool ... we are just friends ... no talk of dating ... or anything big like that ... in fact we have never talked about meeting ... right now he is someone I just enjoy talking to and that is cool ... I think my life is too chaotic for anything more ... so much so that the personal ad I have up here ... I am going to take down ... for many reasons ... my ad talks only of "hanging out" ... yet I don't get any responses like that ... I get only dating responses ... and hardly anyone attaches a picture ... which to me isn't right ... besides the fact that there is a picture on my ad ... my web address is listed which has tons of pictures ... and a link to my home page which has tons of information ... and I am sure part of the reason people respond to my ad is cause they see my picture and know I am not scary looking or anything like that ... besides I have specific rules for meeting people from online ... cause I have been doing it for like 6 years now ... first I like to talk online on more than one occasion ... second I must see a picture ... and third then talk on the phone ... then decide if I want to meet them and vice versa ... and I stick to these rules big time ... I came up with these rules because of my experiences when I first started meeting people ... and I don't think they are asking too much ... but one wouldn't believe how many people think they are silly or try and convince me how cute they are ... it has nothing to do with that ... mostly I just think it is good common sense ... makes me a little more prepared ... I don't like walking into the unknown ... and the internet can be the great unknown ... besides I let Kris see who I am meeting ... even when I didn't live here ... just in case ... and she has a copy of the picture as well ... I am sure people could screw with me and send me someone else's picture ... but that has yet to happen ... and truthfully ... if people can not comply with these few simple wishes ... why should I want to go out of my way for them ... I mean come on ... ok enough of that ... Saturday night I took Kris and Chevy to see Carrot Top at the MGM Grand as a thank you for all that they have done for me ... it was an AWESOME show ... Kris and I have been fans of his for like 9 years now ... and we were laughing so hard we were crying ... we had shitty seats which was unfortunate ... but we had an amazing time none the less ... I had really wanted to go out afterwards ... but neither of them wanted to so I was totally out voted ... I definitely need to make more friends out here ... and preferably single ones ... cause all my friends here are married ... and none of them wanna go out and do anything ... it is like pulling teeth if we do go out ... single people are always looking for a prospective ... married people have someone already ... maybe I will get a job where I make new friends ... Sunday night while Kris and Chevy were at the park with the dog ... I moved all my stuff out of the garage ... when the movers and put all my stuff in the garage they did it quite haphazardly ... and all of it took up half the garage so Chevy has been parking in the driveway ... I knew I could get the stuff in there so that it was just along the wall ... and he would be able to park in the garage again ... so when they got back ... Kris and I went to work ... and she was totally laughing at me ... recently I went through learning disability testing ... many teachers have suggested I may have a problem cause I am so bored in class ... which I don't ... but the one test I tested really high on was a spatial relations test ... and Kris is convinced it is my strongest ability ... I can look at stuff and turn it into a big puzzle ... figuring out how it will best fit ... and sure enough I looked at all my stuff ... and was able to get it to fit so that Chevy could pull his car back in the garage ... she kept saying it is too bad you can't get a job doing something with this spatial relations talent ... cause you would be the best in the field ... hahahahaa she is right ... it is too bad there isn't a job out there using this talent ... so now I don't have to get a storage space ... cause my stuff isn't taking up unnecessary room ... which also means we don't have to move my stuff from the garage to the storage space to my future home ... it will just be one move from here to where ever I decide to live ... and with it being 107 degrees everyday ... cutting out any unnecessary moving is fantastic with me ... one bummer ... when I was moving a bookcase of mine ... I knocked off most of one of my toenails ... and man it hurt sooooo badly ... and water makes the skin burn ... it is kind of hard to keep your toe out of water in the shower ... but it will eventually grow back ... just such a bitch of a thing to do ... I have really been wanting to get a piercing ... either my tongue or my nipples ... I don't' know why I have been hesitant ... the two times I did my nose I didn't think twice about it ... and I did it the hard way ... I had Kris do it for me ... which makes it take hours ... what I would really love to do is get a tattoo of the sun and moon image without the faces that is on the first page of my home page ... I want it on my lower back ... but my parents really don't like tattoos ... and when I was 14 made me promise I would never get one ... so I have to respect that ... but it was kind of an even trade ... don't get a tattoo ... and we won't say anything about anything else ... although the tongue they may say something about ... even though I am an adult ... hahahahaaa ... they still are my parents ... maybe I am just feeling bored ... who knows ... I just know I think about piercing all the time ... and would love to get something done ... I guess only time will tell ... nothing happened today worth writing about ... all I did was work all day ... and I am so exhausted now ... that even though I have tomorrow morning off to look for another job ... I may go to bed early anyway ... I should have gone to the movies after work ... I want to see Big Daddy ... before Wednesday ... cause on Wednesday ... South Park the move opens ... and I know I wanna see that ... I wish I had Wednesday night off so I could go see it ... but maybe I will just plan to go Wednesday after work ... cause I know I am going alone whenever I go ... Kris has no desire to see it at all ... well I feel better I am caught up ... maybe there will be something exciting for me to write about this week ... hahahahahaa ... but I am doubting it ... not that I am unhappy at all ... quite the opposite ... things are great ... and I am totally happy ... my life is just uneventful ... which in a way is a good thing ... life was too hectic and unhappy before I got here ... I am happy with the placid feeling for now ... {smile} ... I just really still miss having my cam site running ... but all in due time ... if I keep plugging along like I am ... and working hard ... everything will fall into place ... it always does ...