Melissa's Last Week

Well this will be Melissa's last week at work ... she quit the week before Thanksgiving ... and is staying till December 3rd ... it is weird when someone quits and is still at work ... and it couldn't have been at a worse time ... this is our busiest time of year ... sucks but what can you do ...


we have a temp in and she seems pretty good ... but we are all out of sorts at having another person quit at our businest time ... Victoria last year and now Melissa this year ... it is just hard ...


I have tons of work to do this week so maybe I won't notice too much ... I am sure we will pull through ...

feel good

all we do is argue lately ... argue ... fight ... bicker ... sometimes I just want to take a right hook to his face he pisses me off so badly ... I have pent up anger just shaking inside me ... and I can't believe it is cause we quit smoking ... we never used to argue and now he seems rude and inconsiderate all the time ... he makes rude comments to me and I yell back at him ... it is no way to live ...


I can't even get a fucking patch to stick on me tonight ... I just want to go out and buy a pack of cigs ... we got along great when we were smoking ... we have given up so much "vice" kinda stuff ... drinking ... drugs ... I want my cigs back ... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck ... I wish I knew a neighbor that smoked so I could just bum one ... that is all I want right now ... that and for some reason I really want to kick the shit out of David ... I think that would feel good ...

quitting now

Conversation with Kris when discussing the possibility of her quitting smoking as well ...


I said, "I'm not gonna lie. Sure I miss it but I would miss a lung as well"


She, too, is quitting now.

fortune

Put up the quitmeter this morning ... it is calculating both David and myself ... we spent a fortune on smokes ... it will be nice to have some of that money again ... :)