Thanksgiving ...

We had such a great time this evening ...


Thanksgiving was hosted at Steven and Sharon's house ... and everyone was there ...

Steve, Sharon, Andrew, Jason, Jenny, Ellie, Mark, Sonni, George, Maureen, David and me ... it was so nice to have the whole family on both sides there ...


and Sharon took care of everything beautifully ... she did such a great job with no stress at all ... and after hosting it last year it sure was nice to not have to do anything at all ...


The kids were so cute ... Andrew is just a doll ... if you say "cheesy smile" on cue he does the most adorable smile ... it is fantastic ...


I really have a lot to be thankful for this year ... I married the greatest man and am really enjoying being married ... being a wife ... I have a beautiful niece and nephew this year ... my family is all close ... George W. Bush won the presidency ... and I have a good job ... all in all 2004 is wrapping up to be a pretty groovy year ...

I love being married

Well I am a married ... honeymooned woman ... what a fabulous two weeks ...

 

Our wedding couldn't have been better ... all the work and effort we put into it sure did pay off ... it was the most fabulous day ever ... and everyone noticed all the little touches I did which is great ...

 

a week later we boarded a cruise ship out of Baltimore and went to Florida and Bahamas for a week of bliss ... the two of us are so tan it is crazy ... and the vacation was so relaxing and wonderful ...

 

Ya know what ... I love being married ... it is just so great ... I know it has only been two weeks ... but it has been fun so far ... :)

9 days till I get married

I picked a good time to blog again ... cause I have shit to get off my chest ...


I can't believe I spent a portion of last night telling off/arguing with my future brother-in-law's girlfriend, woops I mean fiance ... about the whole driving the father thing ...


I am pretty passive ... I don't let things get to me ... but last night I let it rip ... she and I went at it - IM style - about them not driving him down ... telling me she didn't want her fiance to be made to feel guilty for his decision ... and that the whole driving the dad down hinged on the very fragile and hard family dynamic dad has at with each of his sons at one time or another ...


I called her bullshit ...


I told her I never said anything to make him feel guilt ... any guilt he felt was self inflicted for making such a selfish decision ... and that he had driven his dad down here for the last two years on the same weekend so don't give me some "family dynamic" about the whole trip ...


She then said "I hope I can say this without offending you but if you are so worried buy him a plane ticket" ... my response - "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ..."


I explained we spent a ridiculous amount of money for this wedding and that sure $150 wasn't that much for a ticket but that we were pretty tapped out ... and that this is what I meant when I said no one realizes there is a wedding going on that weekend and that it is ours ... we shouldn't have to be dealing with all this shit ...


eventually I told her I had nothing more to say to her and that I had to get work done ... it is just such bullshit ... I or David shouldn't have to be dealing with this ... and he is just so upset ... he sounds like a bride ... yesterday he was saying, "Fuck man everyone around us seems to have no idea that this is our wedding ... it is our one time to do something for ourselves and have fun. Everyone is trying to compete with the wedding and the 4th of July and I am fucking sick of all of it" ...


He is absolutely right ... people are asking all sorts of stuff of us ... planning their own events for that same weekend while everyone is here ... Yes I understand lots of people are in town but I know these people would be pissed if we had honed in on their wedding ... planning stuff for our kids or our birthdays or whatever ...


OK my tirade is over ... I have 9 days till I get married ... a million things to do ... so for now I am off to work ... if I get there early I can leave early which means I have more time to get stuff done ... :)

99 days till I get married

You know the scene in My Cousin Vinny when they are on the porch of the cabin ... Lisa is going through the speech about her biological clock and Vinny goes through a long list of things that are piling up stressing him out and asks, "What more could we possibly pile up on the outcome of this case?" ... that is how I am feeling ...


Today is 99 days till I get married ... the list of stuff I have to do is getting longer rather than shorter ... some of the things I can't do until orders come in ... some of the things I am still trying to figure out how to do them ... we have no honeymoon planned and it turned out some of the mileage we were going to use to pay for things we aren't getting ... so it is just so much on top of so much on top of so much ...


and to make things even worse ... it is this time last year that we had the BATS ... and I am nervous wreck at home ... every time Kramer freaks I freak ... when I hear wings flap [hopfully they are from birds] I jump up and run ... bats bats bats ... I can't deal with them again this year ...


I think the point I am trying to make is that I am just too fucking stressed out right now ... I am dieting and working out like a fucking maniac and I am getting very little support from the people around me and it is hard ... I am down 35 pounds but I don't believe I have even lost one pants size cause everything still fits just fine ...


and all the people around me are complaining about all sorts of shit but no one is having time to listen to me ... and I need that so badly ... I am sick of listening to everyone else ...


my birthday was on Sunday and it came and went without incidence ... I realize we were all dealing with a bit too much death last week but I fucking live for my birthday ... and it was just a nothing day at all ...


ok my pity party is over ... I gotta go figure out why my arm is hurting me so badly ... and it feels like it is asleep ... hummmmmmmm