Returning Friends

very mellow day ... which i guess is pretty good ... went to Target ... of course ... cause you can always find stuff you need at Target ... I worked on the computer all day ... and now at 12:21 AM i am almost finished with all the laundry ... thank goodness ... but i am going to be a procrastinator and not put it away till tomorrow ...

I wish I Love Lucy didn't come on so late ... it used to come on at like 11 or something ... which was perfect cause it would get me in bed at a reasonable time but now it doesn't come on till 1 in the morning ... and that is really too late to stay up ... but i do it anyway ... gotta get my Lucy fix ...

I am dreading going to work tomorrow ... it is like when I worked at Millar all over again ... coming home crying at the end of the day ... having trouble going to sleep because I don't want it to be morning and have to go to work ... and the sad thing is i really really do love my job ... but lately i hate everything about it ... and i am growing ever more bitter ... it is not good to be bitter at 31 ...

I wish David and I could start our own business ... we both work so amazingly hard it would be worth running our own company ... i would for sure work for even less money than i am making now if it was my own company and i was working for myself ... but unfortunately that isn't something that is going to happen right now ...

I am having the most sureal experience right now ... one of my best friends and I parted ways when we were 19 years old and haven't spoken since ... through the grape vine i have been updated on what has been going on ... she was in a terrible accident several years ago ... leaving some brain damage ... i received an email the other day from Miranda, Lisa and Shal ... I couldn't believe it ... i was so happy ...

at first all the hurt feelings flew into my mind ... i was completely devistated when we went our separate ways ... i was going to say it took me years to get over ... but i would say there was still a part of me that was still hurting up until a couple of days ago ... when i thought ... my goodness it has been over 12 years ... we are totally different people today than when we were 19 ... why not be super happy to have an old friend back in my life ...

so now we are chatting in an IM while i am typing ... and designing this page ...