A Toy Yoda

funny as hell I tell you ...

Welcome to "It's Sunday Night and I Can't Sleep"

I am your host ~ Lizzie

Tonight's topic - things to do when you can't sleep


- have a popsicle

- have sex

- watch some TV

- read some of your text book for class [can't believe this didn't work]

- catch up on the lectures for class [online college]

- catch up on all the Blogs you haven't had time to read

- print pictures for empty frames in your house

- smoke

- clean desk

- enter strange searches in Google

- stress out that you still can't sleep after doing all of the above

- realize that as you are writing this your alarm will go off in 3 hours and you still aren't yawning


Tomorrow's topic - how to function on only 2 hours of sleep

Check out the groovy pictures I took tonight ... :)

Thank you to my Cheap Blue Guitar :) I learned that my comments weren't working ... rather than people having nothing to say ...


so all sorts of hell has happened in the last week but I am in no mood to bore anyone with that ...


rather I want to chat a bit about Lizz Fizz ... the lip balms have turned out beyond amazing ... I have sent them out to some people to sample and am beginning to build a website now ... bought the domain just need to put something up there ...


to start I made Peppermint, Spearmint, Bubble Gum, Butter Cream, Green Apple and Sugar Kisses ... I have begun expanding to include Lemon, Lime, Orange, Black Cherry, Rose, Grape, Vanilla - and combinations of them all ...


I also made Peppermint conditioner that I just can't live without now ... it is SOOOO AWESOME ... and Peppermint shower gel ...


I now need to find waterproof labels ... cause the ones I used are just regular old stickers so the ink can smear ... but labels aren't as easy to find as I thought ... especially for lip balm tubes ...


I am having such a blast making all this stuff ... I would love to have it as a job ... so soon - after my test subjects have turned in their results about my products I will start to sell them ... I even have wrappers that seal the lid on ...


but so far the reviews have been great ... and I have sought out die-hard lip balm fans ...


I think this weekend I am going to make some salve and sugar scrub as well ... woohooo


if anyone has any recipes or flavor combo/suggestions please let me know :)

I've gone lip balm crazy. These are the labels I've made for my newest creations. What do ya think?

Do-over

this morning started off shitty and I am not sure if it is because last night ended shitty ... I just kept thinking about Mike ... and wondering how it happened ...


David was to meet a future employer this morning at 5:30 AM to head up to Cumberland with him ... we were up at 4 ... left at 5 ... and got lost ... he called the guy who started getting pissed at him yet couldn't tell us how to get to his shop ... so David dropped me off at the Starbucks near my work and drove up there himself ... I felt so bad because he was now going to be late ...


so now I am in front of Starbucks and trying to call a cab on my cell phone ... nothing is listed in the area ... so I tried to call my boss who is up in Cumberland as well to see if she knew the name of a cab company ... as I was going to the name Marianne I saw Mike's listed there [thought to myself that is no good anymore] ... and I just lost it right there in front of Starbucks ... bawling ...


now I have no ride ... it is 3 hours till my coworker is driving up to work and could stop to pick me up ... David is all bummed out and pissed off and worried he won't have the job now ... Mike is fucking gone ... along with Josh [the other heroin lover who disappeared] ... it is freezing out and I have no jacket ... I forgot my text book for school so I can't even sit and read ... I have no idea how I am going to get home except the bus/train combo in the rain but I didn't even bring a rain jacket cause I thought I would be driving ... I wore the total wrong shoes to walk the 2 miles home from the train ... in the fucking rain ... and all these thoughts happened before 6 AM ...


a checker at the grocery store I walked to was cool ... she knew the number for a cab and I spent 10 fucking dollars to get here ...


now I am sitting here at work and I just want to leave ... I have like 20 overtime hours built up but my boss is gone so I can't just leave ...


I want today to be over ... I need a redo ... I need to start fresh tomorrow ...


and I wish David would call to let me know how everything went once he got up there ...

Bad E-mail

I just got this email about one of my best friends - we met when I was 18 years old and have kept in touch since then ... he was visiting NY right after 9-11 and I was in the city that day as well ... we tried to hook up but being up there [the smell and all the posters] was just too much for me ... we continued to email ... and he was someone I could talk to about anything ... around Thanksgiving last year I realized it had been some time since I heard from him which bothered me ... I kept emailing him and they didn't bounce but I didn't hear back ... I knew he had gotten married and had a killer job in Seattle so I figured he was busy and would get around to writing back ... I emailed a mutual friend of ours that lives in Seattle as well but at both Thanksgiving and Christmas he mentioned nothing ... just chit chat and verified I had the right email address ... today I sent our mutual friend another email ... and tonight I got this email back ...

Hi Liz! It has been a long time!

Well, how do I put this. Mike became a heroin junkie, lost his wife, job, apartment, and car and is now (I assume) homeless somewhere in Seattle. Frankly, I couldn’t tell you if he were still alive or not. I haven’t talked to him in over two years.

Weird, eh?

yes it is weird ... it is fucking weird ... I live on the other side of the country and my first thought was to jump on a plane with the 100's of pictures I have of him and try and find him ... walk every alley and street ... grab him and tell him I love him and I am here to help him ... I just keep crying ... how can no one know where he is ... how can such an amazing person's life end this way ... a drug induced mystery ...

this is my second close friend who has disappeared in a cloud of heroin ... what the fuck ... I have read this god damn email 50 times already tonight ...

I am at a loss for words!!

I just got this email about one of my best friends - we met when I was 18 years old and have kept in touch since then ... he was visiting NY right after 9-11 and I was in the city that day as well ... we tried to hook up but being up there [the smell and all the posters] was just too much for me ... we continued to email ... and he was someone I could talk to about anything ... around Thanksgiving last year I realized it had been some time since I heard from him which bothered me ... I kept emailing him and they didn't bounce but I didn't hear back ... I knew he had gotten married and had a killer job in Seattle so I figured he was busy and would get around to writing back ... I emailed a mutual friend of ours that lives in Seattle as well but at both Thanksgiving and Christmas he mentioned nothing ... just chit chat and verified I had the right email address ... today I sent our mutual friend another email ... and tonight I got this email back ...



Hi Liz! It has been a long time!


Well, how do I put this. Mike became a heroin junkie, lost his wife, job, apartment, and car and is now (I assume) homeless somewhere in Seattle. Frankly, I couldn’t tell you if he were still alive or not. I haven’t talked to him in over two years.


Weird, eh?


yes it is weird ... it is fucking weird ... I live on the other side of the country and my first thought was to jump on a plane with the 100's of pictures I have of him and try and find him ... walk every alley and street ... grab him and tell him I love him and I am here to help him ... I just keep crying ... how can no one know where he is ... how can such an amazing person's life end this way ... a drug induced mystery ...


this is my second close friend who has disappeared in a cloud of heroin ... what the fuck ... I have read this god damn email 50 times already tonight ...


I am at a loss for words!!

I need some help ...


everyone has been to at least one wedding that they thought was "the greatest wedding I've ever been to" ... please tell me about that wedding and why it was the greatest


and on the other hand


everyone has been to a wedding where they just couldn't wait for the cake to be cut so they could sneak out ... please tell me about that wedding and what made it so horrible ...


thanks ... I really appreciate it ... :)

Kris and I were just on the phone having a conversation about the weather ... I don't do well in heat ... in fact I love the cold and except when I am stuck in the house for days on end due to massive amounts of snow ... I don't complain too much ... but heat ... fuck that I hate the heat ... and what I hate more is humidity ... my hair will permanently be in a ponytail the rest of the summer [see it is curly and if I left it to its own accord I would look like Roseanne Rosannadanna ... but at this point tonight I am wondering why I ever moved
Where I used to live [Las Vegas]	Where I now live [Maryland]
What was I thinking moving away from an area that has no humidity ... I can handle dry heat ... even working in a kitchen there with no air conditioning in my car I was alright ... sure my face was wind burned but it just made me look like I had a tan ... but check out the weather forecast [they open in a new window] ... Vegas is all sunny ... we don't even get one sunny day ... the three that don't have rain say  "partially cloudy" ... they couldn't even give us partially sunny ... rain and humidity a winning combination ...  I would like to say I am finished bitching about the weather ... but then that would probably be a lie

oh and I almost forgot the added bonus ... we watched Queer As Folk ... which I thought was the last episode ... and it was so good and the ending felt like it was a season finale cliff hanger ... only to find out there are two more episodes ... sure in two weeks I'll be bummed it is over for another year but right now I am so happy there are two more ... and I just took a sneak peak at tvguide.com to see what was in store and they both look sooooooo good ... woohoo ...

David is just the greatest ... I have wanted to make my own lip balm for like a year and a half now and I just never got to it ... I bought the beeswax, the lip balm tubs and the peppermint and spearmint oil but none of the other stuff ...


well not only did he go to the store with me today ... he totally helped me cook up 4 batches of it ... and the stuff rocks ... he is so awesome ... I totally couldn't have done it without him ... he showed me what I needed to do to measure it all correctly ... we added color ... the stuff rocks ... I even got little mirrors that I glued on the inside of the lid of the tub ... and the stuff is good ...


it turned out to be a pretty great weekend ... not only did I do 6 hours of school work ... I only missed one question on my quiz ... we totally cleaned the whole house ... did all the laundry and put it away ... did the grocery shopping ... we made some kick-ass lip balm ... I actually feel fulfilled ... maybe for the first Sunday in about 2 months I will fall asleep ... :)

1. How many times have you truly been in love?

4 times


2. What was/is so great about the person you love(d) the most?

he makes me laugh all the time


3. What qualities should a significant other have?

kindness ... and a great sense of humor


4. Have you ever broken someone's heart?

I think so but not intentionally


5. If there was one thing you could teach people about love, what would it be?

as scary as it is ... it is a wonderful thing to experience ... it makes it worth taking the risk

This is totally unacceptable weather!! I can't take any more rain or clouds let alone a flood watch until tomorrow night ... the one good day of the weekend and not only is it going to be raining it will be enough to possibly cause flooding conditions ... it would almost be OK if it weren't going to rain on Monday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday ... my god we only have 3 non-rain days coming up and those days are going to be cloudy ... no wonder they keep talking about how to fight depression during this weather ... how do people live in Seattle??

Ok I have been trying to stay in a good mood ... life has been pretty alright ... David and I have been having more fun than ever with each other ... the house is in good shape ... work is alright ... I started school again ... but if this god damn motherfucking rain doesn't stop soon I am going to lose my mind ... I think they said Monday that it was the first time we didn't have rain and that the sun came out in 33 straight days ... then yesterday it was back to rain and today it is cold and gloomy and really raining ... I just can't take it anymore ... it is sooooooo depressing ...

LAYER ONE:

— Name: Elisabeth

— Birth date: March 21

— Birthplace: Allentown

— Current Location: Maryland

— Eye Color: Hazel

— Hair Color: super dark brown

— Height: 5' 5.5"

— Righty or Lefty: write right - most other stuff left

— Zodiac Sign: Aries


LAYER TWO:

— Your heritage: Jewilicous

— The shoes you wore today: Doc Marten sandals

— Your weakness: mocha frappachinos

— Your fears: Christmas and thanksgiving [the two days Starbucks is closed]

— Goal you’d like to achieve: college degree


LAYER THREE:

— Your most overused phrase on AIM: easy turbo

— Your first waking thoughts: shit work again

— Your best physical feature: I think smile ... people walking toward me think the big boobs

— Your most missed memory: my cat Harley


LAYER FOUR:

— Pepsi or Coke: neither

— McDonald’s or Burger King: neither

— Single or group dates: single

— Adidas or Nike: Sketchers

— Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: ick neither

— Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla

— Cappuccino or coffee: all


LAYER FIVE:

— Smoke: yes

— Cuss: hell yes

— Sing: fuck no

— Take a shower everyday: usually

— Do you think you’ve been in love: several times

— Want to go to college: attending right now

— Liked high school: sure what did I know then

— Want to get married: started planning it tonight

— Believe in yourself: most definitely

— Get motion sickness: nope

— Think you’re attractive: yup

— Think you’re a health freak: no way

— Get along with your parent(s): totally

— Like thunderstorms: love 'em

— Play an instrument: I can play The Entertainer on the piano


LAYER SIX:

In the past month…

— Drank alcohol: no

— Smoked: yes

— Done a drug: no

— Made Out: yes

— Gone on a date: yes

— Gone to the mall?: unfortunately yes

— Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: thought about it but no

— Eaten sushi: nope

— Been on stage: no

— Been dumped: no

— Gone skating: no

— Made homemade cookies: yes

— Gone skinny dipping: no

— Dyed your hair: yes

— Stolen anything: no

— You sound boring: nope


LAYER SEVEN

Ever…

— Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes

— If so, was it mixed company: yes

— Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes

— Been caught doing something: yes

— Been called a tease: yes

— Gotten beaten up: yes

— Shoplifted: yes

— Changed who you were to fit in: nope


LAYER EIGHT:

— Age you hope to be married: 34

— Numbers and Names of Children: none yet

— Describe your Dream Wedding: on a cruise ship so I don't have to worry about anything

— How do you want to die: while sleeping and not cause someone is smothering me with a pillow

— Where you want to go to college: University of Maryland [only cause that is where I am now]

— What do you want to be when you grow up: an adult

— What country would you most like to visit: been everywhere


LAYER NINE:

— Number of drugs taken illegally: lost count ages ago

— Number of people I could trust with my life: a handful

— Number of CDs that I own: couple hundred

— Number of piercings: 8

— Number of tattoos: 0

— Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: who knows

— Number of scars on my body: lots

— Number of things in my past that I regret: 0


stolen from robyn, who stole it from jenna, who stole it from meegan, who stole it from nicole


[pass it on]


I must say if you read this far and then looked at where I stole it from it might be scary how many answers seem the same ... but I swear I am not trying to be a Robyn wannabe ... it just happens ... I promise I deleted all hers before filling in mine :)

it is another Sunday night and I can't sleep ... the only thing making this one different from the last 5 is I have a headache to boot ...


it is becoming a terrible trend and I am sure the more I think and fret about it the worse it gets ... but ever since the first Sunday before David went to training I haven't been able to fall asleep ... the insomnia is painful ... it makes monday hard as hell ... and I am wiped out by the time I get home from work ...


all I want is some sleep ... I don't require a lot ... but the 2.5 hours I have gotten the last several Sundays isn't cutting it for me ...


I am going to go give it a second try ... and fall asleep with my fingers crossed ...